Dream Star 296 I Do Miss Kiryu

When Ameno-senpai finished explaining the main reason for his visit, Lila was surprised.

"Eh, you want me and Yori to do this show together?" Lila said puzzled.

Ameno nodded, "It's a good chance to boost your image as an idol unit," Ameno trailed off, "What's wrong? You don't appear to be too thrilled."

"No, I am. But I was thinking; you came all the way out here for this?"

Ameno sighed, "It appears as though you understand me quite well even now. Mind if I borrow your ears for a little longer, lady?"

For the next few minutes Ameno-senpai explains how things are in Universal Star Town in her absence, and including things that happened abroad, "So you see Little Lila, it has gotten to that stage where you can no longer avoid confrontation."

"But, is this man that dangerous?"

Ameno nodded, "Let's just say that even your brother finds him problematic," Lila didn't need him to confirm which brother he meant. It's clear as day who he is talking about here.

But if it's like that, then she ought to be careful.

A flash of silver appeared in her head; surely, she isn't the only one in danger?

"How is Kiryu?"

Ameno smiled, "It took you long enough to ask."

Lila looked down, "Ameno-senpai, you know," she drawled, "I thought my feelings for Kiryu were undefeatable. But I realized the only reason why I thought that way was because Haruka wasn't around. If Haruka and I never parted ways, perhaps nothing would have happened between Kiryu and myself."

"And yet you're worried about him?"

"Yes," Lila nodded. She's worried. Of course, she is. He must be in a lot of pain. No, ever since that day, things must be difficult for him. She saw it; after all, Kiryu cried that day. He broke down when he pushed her inside the train to Haruka's side.

"Tell me something Lilchan, even though you love Karas.h.i.+ma a lot, isn't there still something that remains for Kiryu?"

"Honestly, my thoughts have been too caught up with Haruka since my journey started. I've neglected a lot of things, not just Kiryu's issue. While many people may criticize me, I genuinely don't think it's wrong to continue this way. After all, the main reason I entered the Dream Stars tournament and went to Light Town was Haruka."

Amino nodded, "That's true; n.o.body can blame you. So tell me why you are condemning yourself?

"..."

"Little Lila, I think you should meet with Kiryu as soon as possible. The more you deny this, the more painful it will get for you."

"I miss him," Lila admitted.

Ameno-senpai's lips curve to a smile, "Yeah."

"But," Lila looked down at her feet, and she shook her head, "I can't say those words properly. If I do, then my resolve will crumble. I don't want to make Haruka uneasy anymore Ameno-senpai. I want to show him that he is the only person who has my heart,"

The feelings she has for the man named Karas.h.i.+ma Haruka is no longer as simple as they were before. From the very beginning, there was nothing simple about the feelings they shared for each other. But perhaps it's because she spent so long desperately trying to hide things, no - if it's that subject.

"If I told Kiryu my feelings sooner, would something have changed?"

If she said it, instead of hold back for so long would things have changed? At least with Haruka, it was only a matter or a few months before she told him. However, she left Kiryu waiting for so long. Lila didn't wait for Ameno's response and continued, "Would it have changed? At that time, I was overwhelmed. That day Kiryu said he had something important to tell me. The days before then, he spent a lot of time with Rosalichan," she laughed, "Honestly, I confessed due to the pressure. Before he tells me that he wants to ditch me for Rosalichan, I'll confess first."

"But it wasn't like that?"

Lila smiled, "Yes," she trailed off, "Even if I didn't confess he would have. The two of us spent the whole time in each other's arms after that, and it felt like we were the only ones in the world," it felt like the two of them could get lost in a sea of stars.

"This time last year, Kiryu asked you out. The reason why you went to practice was so you could get your mind off things?"

Awkward laughter pa.s.sed her lips, "You know me far too well."

"There is something in this world that can't be seen by others. It's something that can bring out people's inner selfishness and greediness, but at the same time, it can be used to bring people together. You know that something is definitely something amazing - but for each and every individual it will probably be different, and that's exactly why I'm relieved to hear that they're all thinking about it so carefully. After all its different for every single individual," Lila said.

Ameno-senpai said nothing, but Lila knew he was carefully listening to her. It's different depending on the person, huh?

Lila continued, "But let's see how to put it? It can be the same depending on what that something is. You know that letter I wrote to you Kiryu apologizing. To be honest, I was reluctant to write it. Because I always just used to disappear before saying nothing to him, right?"

"Yeah, you were a troublesome person to deal with."

Lila smiles at him, "I couldn't say anything. Or rather there were so many things I wanted to tell him but I just didn't know how to put it in words. I didn't know how to tell him. It's strange, up till now I've always been able to read people. 'After a certain amount of time, eventually people manifest all sorts of signs - and when that happens, I can completely read the person.' It can be a handy skill but at the same time it's backfired so many times, it is a double-edged sword,"

"Like all those times you cried, right?"

Lila nodded at those words.

She could not deny it since it was the truth. She was a huge crybaby. Even though she gave off such a strong appearance. In everybody else, eyes Teras.h.i.+ma Lila is strong and reliable, but deep down - Lila knew how badly she was breaking apart.

Even when she gained her t.i.tle as number one idol - Lila knew that she was slowly breaking inside. She knew it so well, because in the past often cried in Kiryu's arms. Reliable? Only on the outside, on the inside - without somebody to support her she would have broken a long time ago.

"Yeah, I'm a coward. It's something I've always known and understood. But even with that fact in mind so so many people have stayed beside me, and so so many have supported me. I am blessed to have met so many nice people," Lila said. She is grateful that she met him that she got to know him. Her Kiryu, the person who stood by her side and helped her for the longest time," Just now I said I could read people very well, right? That's how it's always been, especially with people I have known for a very long time. That's how things are. But with Kiryu, there's always been an exception. I guess I could include you in that,"

"I do wonder whether I should feel flattered or not."

"It is a compliment, but it's stronger for Kiryu."

"I get it,"

Lila paused before she spoke up again. The breeze from the window loosened her hair, "Somehow it's strange. No matter what happens - no matter what happens in each lifetime. Kiryu and I share a deep connection. No matter what happens," Lila murmured. Recently when Haruka spoke about past lives, Lila recalled something her mother said before, "No matter what, I'll always be connected to Kiryu. Whether we are lovers or not,"