Imperfect Desires 241 I Was Envious Of Her...

Dylan wasn't just taken aback, he was literally frozen like a statue in shock. Xiu herself didn't know why she hugged him without thinking. But she certainly could say that being around Dylan wasn't as annoying as it used to be.

"You both best friends have one thing in common," she said pulling away to wipe her tears with her sleeve. While Dylan raised his brow in question, she answered, "You both are really crazy in your own ways."

Dylan looked jubilant as he said, "Of course, we are. Why do you think we are best of friends till now? Both of us don't do anything half-heartedly. Besides, to keep sanity in this world, all of us should try invading the borders of insanity once in a while."

Xiu glanced at his face for a moment longer with her reddened eyes and shook her head saying, "That remark was so weird and so random..." she sighed slowly before adding, "But it still felt like you."

Dylan had something bugging him, so he tapped Xiu's shoulder with his index finger asking, "You didn't cry because of me, right? It was Dazi who made you cry with his words, right?" Xiu furrowed her brows at him but still nodded in reply. Dylan patted his chest and heaved a sigh of relief, "Thank G.o.d! I'm out of trouble. He would have really murdered me if I had made you cry."

"My baby won't go as far as murdering you," retorted Xiu, defending her boyfriend.

Dylan gave her a look that said, 'Are you really that naive? Or love turned you into a fool?' before saying, "Miss Bai Xiu, I guess you think he's an angel and there is no doubt he is. But let me tell you, that angel takes only a second turning into the dark angel. Dazi hates it when the people around him are hurt. Making you cry would be like touching his bottom-line and trust me I don't have the guts to do that." A s.h.i.+ver ran through his spine as he added, "It's scary to even think about it."

Xiu didn't pay attention to his words at all since she believed he was exaggerating and nothing else. "Don't try to taint my baby's image. He is the most amazing person."

Looking at her daydreaming with that dreamy expression on her face, Dylan sighed in sympathy as he said, "Don't look so touched by his words." Xiu gave him a skeptical look. "Little one, Dazi might have said those last words for you but the ones about dreams didn't come from you and they were not for you either. That was my G.o.ddess Xiu's miracle, she gifted my best friend's smiling face back to me."

Xiu first didn't know what to say. Wasn't she the only person who was supposed to feel touched? After all, no matter what or how Darren said it, it was all meant for her to hear. It was a reminder that once he fell in love with her beyond her imagination and once again, he ended up loving her beyond his own imagination. Perhaps, that's why he said that he'd choose her whenever and wherever because it was his heart choosing her for him over and over again.

Since Xiu had nothing to say to Dylan, she chuckled, "I can't believe you sometimes. Do you realize that even Regan doesn't bring up Chen Xiu's name as much as you do? Why? Do you want me to feel jealous of her? Just because she was Regan's first love?"

 Dylan suddenly looked powerless and discouraged as he walked up to the gla.s.s wall, looking out at the sky, "I don't want to make you jealous. My intention had just been to remind you that my G.o.ddess Xiu is the person Dazi would never forget about. First love had always been like that. You can only fall in, you can't fall out of it."

Xiu came to stand beside him and said, "First love might be strong but it has no value when it's not even around." Dylan's eyes widened at her words as she continued, "Yes, first love is unforgettable but I don't find it any special. Being someone's first love is easy, but being their last is the hardest part." Dylan furrowed his brows, contemplating her words before he felt her hand on his shoulder. "I never wanted to and will never want to compete with a dead person. Why should I bother competing with someone who didn't even fight for her own life?"

As if Xiu had hit a mark, Dylan's head turned to glare at her angrily, "You! I told you once before say whatever you want to me but don't bring my G.o.ddess Xiu in this. She isn't dead. As long as she lives in the hearts of people like me who really admired her as a person and an artist, she'll keep living. If nothing else, her legacy will keep living. And legends don't die."

At first, Xiu was shocked by his outburst but later, she really felt touched by his words. He really was impossible. Defending a person whom he didn't even meet? What kind of an idiot do you have to be to act like him? "No, dear Didi... Legends don't die but they do become myths or fade away in history somewhere."

Dylan wanted to deny, he wanted to retort but his heart knew she wasn't lying. She was telling the truth that he didn't like to hear. He clenched his fists tightly helplessly. Xiu gave him a small smile as she said, "I had been curious for a while now, why do you love Chen Xiu this much? Was she your first love as well like your best friend?"

Dylan gave her a sideways glance and shook his head, "Dazi loved her pa.s.sionately. I loved her as an admirer." He took a pause before adding, "I was envious of her. She had what I never did."

Xiu was left dumbfounded by his words. She as Chen Xiu had something that could make a young master like Dylan be envious of her? How? Why? She had nothing, to begin with. In fact, she only even had pity for herself. Then how could someone else be envious of her? Did that even make any sense?