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"I know." Jeanne put her hand on his. "I understand. But you must be strong. I've made up a bed for you because I thought you might want to stay. I'll wake you in good time in the morning. Come on now."

Stephen followed her reluctantly to the door. He knew he would go back the next day.

The a.s.sault on the Messines Ridge was planned hard and in detail. Veterans of the previous July were mean with the human life at their disposal.

"I've good news for you," said Gray when Stephen reported back to him.

"There's time before your new appointment for you to organize a large raid on the enemy trenches. It's part of the new, cautious regime of knowing our enemy. Reconnaissance." He tried unsuccessfully to still the twitchings of a smile.



"I see," said Stephen. "And will it make much difference to our grand strategy if we discover we are facing the forty-first regiment rather than the forty-second?"

"I very much doubt it," said Gray. "But my orders are to contribute to the intelligence gathered along the line. I think your company is coming out of reserve this week. It's good timing for a frontline soldier like you."

"Thank you, sir."

Gray laughed. "All right, Wraysford. Relax. What I actually want you to do is lead an attack on the ca.n.a.l to the left. We need to get a foothold there. It's just a local attack. You go up at dawn with the rest of the battalion. We have support from our Black Country friends later in the day. Is that a bit more to your liking?"

"It seems a more useful way of dying than while examining the cap badges of the men opposite."

"Good man, Wraysford. Keep going. I knew you would."

"And how do _you _keep going, sir?" said Stephen.

Gray laughed. "It's my Scottish blood. We've barely started yet." The men went up the line once more, through the long communication trench and into the mired slit of land beneath the sandbags. Apart from raids and patrols, they had not attacked for nine months, and there was nervousness and argument among the men who were detailed to place the scaling ladders against the trench wall. All morning was the sound of hammering and sawing as the wood was cut and positioned at intervals against the parapet. Stephen had the impression that for all their forebodings of the big offensive in Belgium that was reportedly so dear to General Haig, they had somehow thought they would not themselves be involved in another trudge into the hurricane of guns.

Jack Firebrace watched the preparations when he came back from his s.h.i.+ft underground, and they brought back memories he had until then successfully closed down. He remembered how he had prayed for the men who would go over on that summer morning and how he had trusted in their safekeeping. This time he had no prayers to offer.

He went into the large dugout at the head of the deep mine where his company was temporarily sleeping. He made tea and drank it with Evans, then took out his sketchbook. Since Shaw's death there were no more pictures of him. Jack had taken to drawing Stephen instead. From the moment he had pitched into his arms, back from the dead, Jack had been intrigued by him. Now he had made drawings of his large, dark head from many angles and in many poses--with his big eyes open in incredulity or narrowed in determination; of the smile with which he chafed his own officer, Captain Weir; of the blank, remote expression, as if his memory had failed, with which he had dismissed Jack when he had gone to report for sleeping on duty. He could not remember John's face well enough to draw it. The wait for the attack was short, but no less difficult for that. Stephen talked to the platoon commanders who would go first up the wide-s.p.a.ced ladders into the uncertain world beyond.

"You mustn't waver," he said. "What is waiting for you can't be changed, but if you hesitate you will needlessly endanger the lives of others." He saw Ellis licking his lips. There was sweat on his pale forehead. The bombardment was starting up and it was beginning to shake the earth from the roof of the dugout.

Stephen spoke with the calm of experience, but it did not help him. The fact that he had done this before was no guarantee that he could do it again. When the moment came he would have to confront the depths of himself once more, and he feared that he had changed.

The bombardment was only for a day. It was trained, so the artillery had a.s.sured them, with scientific precision based on accurate aerial reconnaissance. There would be no uncut wire, no unharmed concrete redoubts spraying lazy waves of death over the turned fields.

Weir came to his dugout at midnight. His eyes were wild and his hair disarrayed. Stephen felt dismayed at the sight. He did not want to catch the other man's fear. He did not want him to breathe over him.

"This noise," said Weir. "I can't bear it any more."

"You've been saying that for two years," said Stephen sharply. "The truth is you're one of the most resilient men in the BEF."

Weir pulled out cigarettes and cast his eyes around hopefully. Stephen reluctantly pushed a bottle toward him.

"When are you going over?" said Weir.

"Usual time. It'll be all right."

"Stephen, I'm worried for you. I have this foreboding."

"I don't want to hear about your foreboding."

"You've been a marvellous friend to me, Stephen. I'll never forget when we lay in the sh.e.l.lhole and you talked to me and--"

"Of course you'll forget it. Now just be quiet."

Weir was trembling. "You don't understand. I want to thank you. I just have this premonition. You remember last time we did the cards and you--"

"I fix the cards. I cheat. They don't mean a thing." Stephen could not bear the conversation.

Weir looked startled and downcast. He drank deeply. "I know I shouldn't be saying this, I know it's selfish of me, but--"

"Just shut your mouth, Weir." Stephen was shouting, his voice caught with the beginning of sobs. He put his face close to Weir's. "Just try to help me. If you are grateful or something then try to help me. Christ Jesus, do you think I want to do this? Do you think my life was made for _this?'_ Weir recoiled under Stephen's indignant saliva.

He began to protest, but Stephen was now rolling with anger. "All those boys of eighteen and nineteen who walk out in the morning and I have to go with them and watch. Just please for once try to talk about something else." In his oblique and drunken way Weir was as pa.s.sionate as Stephen. "This is something that has to be said, and I don't care if it's tactful. There are things more important than that. I want to thank you and to say goodbye, in case--" Stephen took him by the lapels and lifted him to the door of the dugout. "f.u.c.k off, Weir, f.u.c.k off out of my way and leave me alone." He pushed him and sent him sliding face down into the mud. Weir clambered up slowly, glanced back reproachfully at Stephen as he picked the slime and filth from his front, then made his solitary way along the duckboards.

Alone, as he had wanted to be, Stephen began the journey down into himself that would end at dawn. He looked carefully at his body and remembered the things his hands had touched; he looked at the prints of his fingertips and laid the back of his hand against the soft membrane of his lips.

He lay down on the planks of the bed and felt the touch of the woollen blanket against his face. It was a feeling he remembered from childhood. He closed his eyes tight and thought of his earliest memories of his mother, of her hands, the sound and scent of her. He wrapped himself in the cloak of his remembered world, hoping he would be safe in it where no sh.e.l.ls or bullets could reach him. He swallowed, and felt the familiar feeling of his tongue and throat. It was the same flesh he had had as an innocent boy. Surely they would not let anything happen to it now. His renewed love of the world made the prospect of leaving it unbearable. An hour before dawn Riley came to him with water he had boiled for shaving. Stephen was pleased to see the smart little man with his obsequious manner. He had also been able to brew a large pot of tea. Stephen shaved carefully and put on the belt that Riley had s.h.i.+ned for him.

When he went out into the trench he found that the rations had come up on time and some of the men had cooked bacon for breakfast. He had to move carefully in the dark, watching his feet on the duckboards. He found CSM Price checking the kit. Price's methodical manner helped him; it was as though it was just an ordinary day. Then he spoke to Petrossian, the corporal in his old platoon. His familiar, swarthy face looked up at Stephen as though in hope of delivery. Stephen looked away. He came to a group of men who had not been over the top before, Barlow, c.o.ker, G.o.ddard, and some others huddled by a ladder. He stopped to talk to them and even in the darkness he could see the strange look on their faces. It was as though the skin had been drawn tight across them so that they glowed. They were incapable of responding to his words; each had gone down alone into himself, where time had stopped and there was no help.

The artillery began to lay down the barrage in no-man's-land. They could see the earth spitting and leaping over the height of the sandbagged parapet. Stephen checked his watch. Four minutes to go. He knelt on the firestep and prayed, a wordless yearning.

It had happened so fast. The long bombardment before the July attack had been almost intolerable, but it had at least given the men time to get ready. On this occasion it seemed that only a few hours earlier he had been having dinner with Jeanne and now he was preparing to die. It made little difference that this was, by comparison, a small attack: there were no degrees of death.

He rose from his knees and went back into the next firebay, where he could see Ellis looking down at his watch. He went up to him and put his arm around his shoulders. Ellis's stricken face encouraged him; from somewhere he found a smile of rea.s.surance to go with the squeeze he gave his shoulders. At the head of the communication trench stood Price, with a clipboard. He held out his hand to Stephen, who shook it. Price would not be going over, though he would count the cost.

Stephen looked up to the sky, where the first light was cracking the clouds. He let out a long sigh that shook him to his boots. "Oh G.o.d, oh G.o.d," he breathed, shuddering down his spine. Where now was the loving unity of the world? With one minute to go the realization struck him as it struck all the men: that there was no way back. He threw a glance of longing down the clogged communication trench, then turned to face the Front. A whistle blew, and clumsily the men began to clamber up the ladders, weighed down by their heavy packs, into the metal air. Stephen watched their foolish, crablike movements and felt his heart seize up with pitying love for them. He pushed his way through to follow.

The men ran as fast as they could over the broken ground; there was no repet.i.tion of the slow march ordered for the previous year. Their own machine guns were putting a barrage over their heads where it met the defensive fire of the enemy. Stephen was aware of the density of sound as he lowered his head, trying to take what protection he could from his tin helmet. He had to swerve over fallen bodies and leap small craters in the mud. He could see that the advancing line in front had reached the enemy trench. His own company, which was in support, began to regroup in sh.e.l.lholes about fifty yards short.

Stephen slid down a ten-foot drop into the slime, where he saw G.o.ddard and Allen, the latter holding a field dressing over his bicep. c.o.ker was looking over the rim of the sh.e.l.lhole, supported on another man's back, trying to see through field gla.s.ses what signals were coming from the troops in front.

He jumped down into the mud. "Can't see a thing, sir," he screamed at Stephen through the noise. "No signals, nothing. They seem to be through the wire. There's Mills bombs going off in the trench."

Stephen felt a throb of hope. It was possible that for the first time in his experience the artillery had actually cut the wire and his men would not be playthings for the enemy machine guns.

Petrossian stumbled into the sh.e.l.lhole. He was black with the slime of mud and whatever decomposing filth he had encountered in previous shelters, but he was not bleeding.

"Signal from B Company, sir," he shouted. "They're in."

"All right. Let's go."

Stephen clambered up the edge of the sh.e.l.lhole and waved a flag. The ground began to move and disgorge men for a length of a hundred yards or more. The noise in front of them redoubled as German fire began from their support trench. Though the men in B Company tried to cover them, their rifle fire could not compete with the machine guns. The last fifty yards became a hopping, dodging exercise as men weaved through fire and leapt over fallen bodies.

Stephen followed two others through a hole in the German wire and jumped down into a crowded firebay. No one knew what was going on. There were groups of German prisoners along the duckboards wearing nervous smiles, looking relieved to be taken, but anxious that something might go wrong for them at this late stage. They plied the men of B Company with souvenirs and cigarettes. Their trench was a source of wonder to the British men, with its huge, deep dugouts and crafted parapets. They stared in rapt curiosity at the long-imagined privacy that they had finally violated.

Stephen managed to get the prisoners into an undamaged dugout, where he left Petrossian in charge with three other men to guard them. He knew Petrossian would be relieved not to have to advance further and would take pleasure in killing them if necessary. He went along the trench and found Ellis, damp with sweat and blank-eyed, as though the battle was taking place in some other world. There was still fighting in the trench to their left where it adjoined the ca.n.a.l, though after half an hour they saw more German prisoners being brought up, and the sounds of fire died down.

Ellis looked at Stephen expectantly. "What now?"

"We'll get support at midday from that wood on the right, from what Gray calls our Black Country friends. We have to secure the ca.n.a.l end, then press on to the second trench."

Ellis smiled uncertainly. Stephen grimaced. "We've started sh.e.l.ling their second line now," he shouted as he heard the whine above him. "Keep your helmet on and your fingers crossed."

There was frantic movement in the trench as men piled up sandbags so they could fire over the rear of the trench toward the German support line. Many were hit in the head and fell back as they tried to find s.p.a.ce to fire. Lewis gunners were looking for a secure post from which they could concentrate their aim, but for the time being it was hard to know whether they could move on before the counterattack came back at them.

Gradually the artillery began to find its targets. There were shouted reports of sh.e.l.l blasts on the trench lip, with men and earth thrown upward together. From behind the lines the German artillery began a heavy reply. There was no communication with battalion headquarters, and in the noise and increasing carnage of the battle the only way Stephen could think of to impose order was to follow the original plan. He climbed up onto the improvised firestep. From what he could see the enemy was preparing for a further retreat to its reserve trench. If only there was some way of communicating with the artillery they could catch them as they went.

Through a series of yelled and half-heard orders, a second attack began. It was less coordinated than the first, without the distinct waves, but the men who had survived were dizzy with exhilaration as they wove onward to the second line. With no room for rifles, they went into the trench with bayonets and fists. Some were crushed by their own artillery, who were late to be informed of the second advance, and some leapt straight into death below. Stephen crashed through the wire and landed on the body of a German corporal whose legs had been removed by a sh.e.l.l. He was alive and trying to haul himself to safety. They tried to gather in knots and push both ways along the trench so that their rear was always guarded, but new arrivals meant they could not throw grenades over the traverses for fear that they would be killing their own men. There was no alternative but for men to go blind round each corner. The fate of the first two or three was a good indicator to those who followed. Stephen watched the men go on madly, stepping over the bodies of their friends, clearing one firebay at a time, jostling one another to be first to the traverse. They had dead brothers and friends on their minds; they were galvanized beyond fear. They were killing with pleasure. They were not normal. By late morning they had secured the support trench. Stephen sent a detachment down to the ca.n.a.l to dig in against counterattack. All they had to do now was hold the line until reinforcements arrived at noon to protect their other flank.

Stephen could not bear the sight of Germans and tried to get the prisoners back as quickly as possible. Despite the continuing sh.e.l.lfire there were enough volunteers to escort them. To have taken two lines in a morning was thought by most men to be the limit of their likely good fortune. After five hours of exertion they were desperate for rest. Stephen enviously watched their tired departing backs.

The intensity of fire diminished for a moment, then built up again, mostly on the right flank, which was coming under attack from unseen machine-gun emplacements and from rifle grenades. Stephen had not had time to taste the moment of significant advance before their position was besieged. The dogtoothed construction of the trench made it impossible to know what was happening more than a few yards away, but to him the sound of the counterattack was ominous. He became aware of a concertina movement coming down the trench from the right as the furthest firebays were either being evacuated or merely silenced. At noon he climbed a ladder on what had been the parapet and looked up to the wood for reinforcements. There was no one there. He jumped down into the trench and found a periscope. He looked back over no-man's-land and could see nothing except a distant line of prisoners being taken back. He closed his eyes and sighed quietly in the storm of fire. He might have known. He could have guessed.

A platoon commander called Sibley shouted in his ear. He wanted to know when the reinforcements would arrive.

"There are none. They're not coming," bellowed Stephen.

"Why?" mouthed Sibley.

Stephen said nothing.

An hour later the Germans were back in the trench at the far end and there was hand-to-hand fighting. Shortly afterward, B Company were ordered by their commander to retreat to the enemy frontline trench that they had taken in the morning. As they went up over the parapet they came under fire from German machine guns that had reestablished themselves in the support trench. The noise was making it impossible to think. Stephen was aware of Ellis screaming at him. "We're going down, we're going down!" his lips said silently. Stephen shook his head.

Ellis put his lips to Stephen's ear. "B Company's gone."

"I know. I know." Stephen did not explain. His company's job was to occupy; B Company had been detailed to a.s.sault and were ent.i.tled to take their own view of when to move. He could not have made Ellis hear, but he wanted to stick to the orders given him by Colonel Gray.

A sergeant with blood-spattered face pushed past them, and was followed by another surge of men who were being squeezed back down the trench from their unprotected right flank. The counterattack was now also coming head-on in an advance from the reserve trench. Two Lewis guns were not able to keep them back. It only needed an attack from the ca.n.a.l end and they would be completely encircled. Stephen rapidly calculated the possibility of a retreat. There were now so many Germans in the trench that they would be able to resume their positions on the parapet and shoot his men in the back as they ran.

Ellis was weeping. "What do we do?" he wailed. "I want to save my men. What do we do?"

In his mind, Stephen saw only one outcome: his company's bodies stacked like sandbags one on another. It was not what he had chosen, but it was all that was left to them.

"What do we do?" Ellis moaned against the noise.

"We hold the line, we hold the f.u.c.king line." Stephen's tongue and teeth were visible in the silently screaming cave of his mouth.

In the desperation of trying to save their own lives, the men fought over each yard of trench. Stephen joined them, firing rapidly at the advancing lines of grey. Just before three o'clock he was aware of a Yorks.h.i.+re voice in his ear and an unfamiliar face. He looked with puzzlement into the man's eyes.

It was a lieutenant from the Duke of Wellington's regiment. He shouted to Stephen that his men had regained control of the far end of the trench. Within another hour they had cleared their way back to the ca.n.a.l. Further reinforcements came up with trench mortars and more machine guns. The German counterattack was temporarily over, and its stragglers withdrew to their reserve position.

Stephen climbed down on to the duckboards and went along to a dugout, where he found a major of the Duke of Wellington's.

"You look all in," the major said cheerfully. "Your orders are to withdraw. We were sent up to cover you. Something went wrong before. Another triumph of planning."

Stephen looked at the man's face. He looked so young, he thought, yet he had performed some kind of miracle.

"And what are you going to do?" he asked.

"Cover your retreat, then get the h.e.l.l out of it."

Stephen took the man's hand, then went outside.

They got the dead and wounded out first and what was left of the company was back in its own trench by nightfall. Ellis had been killed by machine-gun fire. The small groups of survivors dragged themselves over the mud they had crossed in the morning. They did not ask about the fate of their friends; they were intent only on reaching somewhere they could lie down.

Stephen's new job seemed to consist of going over maps and trying to ascertain which battalion was where. He was billeted in a pleasant house in the village, though was occasionally required to spend the night in a dugout in the reserve line. Even this was a great improvement on what he had known.

There was some urgency about the work, since the attack on the Messines Ridge was imminent. Stephen took sardonic pleasure in confirming that Weir's tunnelling company was due for a rest shortly beforehand. Their work would be done and someone else could blow the mines.

The brigade major, a man called Stanforth, reminded him in manner of Colonel Barclay. He had a tendency to shout for no good reason, and he spoke in abbreviated sentences that were supposed to communicate urgency. If anything unforeseen happened he at once showed how much he was in command by issuing forceful and complicated orders, even though the hitch would usually sort itself out unaided.

The day he arrived Stephen had the unpleasant duty of writing to Ellis's mother, who had already been officially informed of her son's death. He chewed the pen in his office for an hour or more before he could begin. It was a summer day, with blackbirds and thrushes at play in the garden of the house.

He made many false starts, in which he tried to describe something of the attack or of the times he had spent with Ellis in the dugout or in Amiens. In the end he wrote only formal words of condolence.

Dear Mrs. Ellis, I am writing to offer you my deepest sympathy on the loss of your son. As you will have been told, he was lost during an offensive action on the morning of June 2nd. He was killed by enemy machine-gun fire while organizing the defence of a German trench bravely captured by the men under his command. He is buried with Lieutenant Parker and Lieutenant Davies. The grave has been properly marked and the position notified to the Graves Registration Committee.

During the last conversation I had with him he told me he had no fear of death and felt fully equipped for any task he might be called upon to perform. In every circ.u.mstance his consideration for the welfare and comfort of his men came first.

His men loved him, and I am expressing not only my own sympathy but theirs too. In dying for what the Empire now seeks to uphold, he was among many who paid a great price. We commit the souls of our brothers who have fallen to the mercy and safekeeping of G.o.d.

When he read the letter back to himself, Stephen underlined the word "every". "In _every _circ.u.mstance... " It was true. In a few months Ellis had won the respect of his men because he was not afraid, or, if he was, he did not show it. He had become a good soldier, for all that it had helped him.

Stephen was tired of writing such letters. He noticed how dry and pa.s.sionless his own style had become. He imagined what effect the letter would have on the distraught widow who opened it. Her only son gone... He did not wish to contemplate it.

For the last week before the attack, Jack's company was switched to the deep mines below the Ridge, where they laid tons of ammonal in specially prepared chambers. Two days before the attack itself the work was completed, and Jack emerged exhausted into the sunlight. Evans, Fielding, and Jones came up after him. They stood in the section of the trench at the tunnel head and congratulated one another on their efforts. They were instructed to report to Captain Weir before being officially dismissed, and they made their way along the duckboards toward his dugout.

"There's a rumour of home leave for you, Jack," said Fielding.

"I don't believe it. They'll make us dig to Australia first."

"There's certainly no more digging we can do here," said Evans. "It's a warren under there. I'd be happy just to get back down the line into a nice soft bed with a gla.s.s or two of that wine inside me."

"Yes," said Fielding, "and maybe one of those French girls to follow." Jack was beginning to think that the worst of the war might be over for him. He allowed himself to picture the hallway of his house in London with Margaret waiting for him.

Weir came along the boards to meet them. He looked happier than usual. He was wearing boots and a tunic and a soft cap. As he came closer to them, Jack noticed that some of the sandbags on the parapet had not been properly replaced from the day when the infantry had gone over them. He tried to warn Weir that he was not properly covered. Weir climbed on to the firestep to let a ration party go past and a sniper's bullet entered his head above the eye, causing trails of his brain to loop out on to the sandbags of the parados behind him.

His body seemed for a moment unaware of what had happened, as though it would carry on walking. Then it fell like a puppet, its limbs shooting out, and the face smas.h.i.+ng unprotected into mud.

Word reached Stephen the next night from an intelligence officer called Mountford. He was in his dugout in the reserve line, where he was acting as liaison between headquarters and the men who would be in the second wave in the morning. Mountford delivered the news briefly. "I believe he was a friend of yours," he said. He could see from Stephen's face that there was little to be gained from staying.

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