The Inheritance And Other Stories Part 19

"I can't do this," she said aloud. Sanity seemed to flow back through her veins. "He didn't really hurt me, cat. He just pushed me aside. He left Gillam and me, but he didn't try to kill us . . ."

No. He thought he didn't have to. You had no leash on him, no proof the boy was his. Perhaps he hoped you would die in childbirth and free him from the burden of both of you. Perhaps he thought you'd both starve or catch your death of cold in this cottage. I wish I could say that he hadn't tried to kill me. He nearly succeeded.

"But . . ."

I have to admit I don't understand your strategy. You're going to wait until he really hurts you or Gillam before you fight back? Doesn't seem to put the odds in your favor. The cat's thoughts were so calm in her mind. So dry of mirth and brittle with sarcasm. He sat beside her, calm as a king, his tail curled neatly around his front feet.

Pell was getting closer. He was limping; his clothes were muddy, wet, and torn; and his face was set in a rictus of fury.

Not a strategy I think he plans to use. I think he's going to kill me and give you a severe beating first. Before he even talks to us.

She huffed out her breath and held the hatchet up in her shaking hand. There was no strength in her arms. Her ears were ringing and she wondered if she would collapse from terror. "Go away, Pell!" She tried to shout the words. Her heart was beating so fast that she had no strength to put into them. "You don't live here anymore. I won't let you come in. I won't let you touch me or be around Gillam. Go away!"

In response to her words, the man broke into a lurching downhill run. "b.i.t.c.h!" he shouted. "You and your Wit cat. You tried to kill me last night! You both deserve death. You trapped me! You ruined my life!" The cat vanished suddenly, streaking off behind her. She couldn't blame him. She wished she could run away. But she was the only thing that stood between Pell and Gillam.

She brandished the hatchet. "I mean it!" she shouted, but her voice squeaked and then broke on the words. Did she? Did she mean it? Wasn't this a huge mistake, one that would get her killed?

"You stole everything from me! My inheritance, the future I was meant to have, my grandfather's regard for me. Everything! It was all your fault, Rosemary. You made me do this! You remember that! You made me do this!" Pell's gaze met hers as he drew his knife from his sheath.

She gasped in disbelief. The cat was right. Flee!

At the last possible minute, she turned and ran. Where, where? Her frantic mind demanded of her, but she didn't know. There was no place she could go to escape him. But she ran, over the fence and through her own garden, spurning her seedlings under her flying feet, then over the fence she had built, tearing her skirts and half knocking it down, and then through the tall dead weeds behind the cow's byre.

"You stupid s.l.u.t!" Pell shouted, only steps behind her. "I won't let you ruin my life!"

And stupidly she spun and swung the hatchet, knowing he was still out of reach, knowing that she couldn't win. In horror, she felt it slip from her sweaty grip, saw her only weapon fly away from her.

It struck him on the brow. Pell advanced two more staggering steps and then fell like a chopped tree. His outstretched hand struck her ankle and she shrieked, jumping backward as the knife tumbled from his grip. She spun, ran toward the house, and then, hooting and panting with fear, forced herself to turn back and dash for the dropped hatchet. She s.n.a.t.c.hed it up and rounded on him, expecting him to come up from the earth and after her. But he didn't move.

She paced around him anxiously, fearing it was a trick, fearing she had killed him, dreading that she had not. He sprawled unmoving in the crushed vegetation. Was he pretending, hoping to lure her closer? She lifted the hatchet threateningly and stood perfectly still. Was she breathing too loud? She closed her lips and breathed through her nose, feeling as if she were smothering herself. His face was turned away from her. How long would he lie there, hoping she'd come close enough that he could rise up and drag her down? She gritted her teeth, willing her body to be content with less air. She was still shaking all over. Was he breathing? She stared at him, saw the slow rise and fall of his back. He was alive. Stunned or faking.

She tightened her grip on the hatchet. This was her best chance to finish him off. One good hard smas.h.i.+ng blow to the back of his head and he'd be all done. She lifted her weapon and willed herself to bring it down. Could not. Her fingers were made of gra.s.s, of yarn.

"Mama!" It was a long drawn cry of pure terror. Gillam! Cowardice prevailed. She turned and ran, hatchet in hand, leaving Pell facedown in the tall gra.s.s.

Gillam was standing in front of the cottage, and by the time she reached him, he was screaming uncontrollably. He held his arms out from his body, and his hands were shaking wildly. She flew to him and gathered him into her arms. His body was stiff, and he continued to scream as if not even her reappearance could comfort him. "Mama, mama, you were gone. Gone!"

The cat appeared suddenly, winding himself comfortingly around her ankles, and she sank down, the last of her strength spent. "We have to get out of here," she whispered to them both. "Hush. Hush. We have to go now, right now. You, too, cat. Come on."

"Where? Where we go, Mama?" Gillam barely choked out the words.

"We're going to go visit. We're going visiting, we're going to see . . . On a visit. You'll see, you'll see." Where could she go? Was there anywhere she could flee that Pell wouldn't find her? She carried Gillam despite her throbbing knee. Odd. While she had been fleeing from Pell, she hadn't even felt it. Now it kept time with the beating of her heart, sending surges of pain up her thigh. It would have to be borne, just like everything else.

She'd left her packed bag by the cow's byre. She s.n.a.t.c.hed it up and kept walking. She would not go see if he was sitting up yet or if he still sprawled there. Gillam did not need to see his father that way. Where to go, where to go? Which of her friends deserved the trouble that would go with her? Flee to Hilia, hope her husband would be home to keep Pell from killing her? Go to Serran's? No, the old woman would be frightened to death if Pell came shouting and breaking things.

In the end she followed the cliff-edge road and limped all the way into town, Gillam on her hip and Marmalade trailing after her and the hatchet clutched in her hand against her child's back. The promised rain began as she hiked, a gentle spring rain of small droplets. At the outskirts of town, the cat sat down. She glanced back at him. Rain glistened in drops on his whiskers. "Aren't you coming with us?"

Dogs. Big dogs require bigger dogs. You won't see me.

"I may not come back this way."

I'll follow. Or I won't.

"Very well." It was yet another thing she could not change. Eda bless and watch over him, she prayed silently. She paused to put the hatchet in her bag and then walked down the last hill and into the village. It seemed a quiet day. In the little harbor, only the small boats had set out to fish. The larger ones were waiting for a better tide. The little market was just starting to stir. She could smell the first bake of the day's bread on the rising wind. She glanced back the way she had come, but the cat was not to be seen. She had to believe he could take care of himself.

Before she reached the market street, the rain began in earnest with the rising wind tugging at her skirts. Her boy s.h.i.+vered in her arms and huddled into her. "Hungry, Mama," Gillam told her, and the fourth time he said it, he dissolved into helpless weeping. Her heart sank. She was hungry, too, but if she spent her coin on food now, what would they live on tomorrow? The rain was penetrating her clothing already.

She went to the tavern, the only one in the village, the one by the fishmonger's where she had first met Pell and been courted by him. Those days seemed like a song she had once heard, something about a foolish girl infatuated with a heartless man. It had been months since she had pa.s.sed those doors, years since she had sat by the fire with a mug of Tamman's ale and sang choruses with a minstrel. For a moment, she recalled it all clearly. The fire was hot on her face and legs, and her back had been warm where she leaned on Pell. He didn't sing but had seemed proud that she did. All those times when she had defied her mother to be there with Pell, creeping from her bed quietly and sneaking off; how often had she lied for the sake of being with him?

It hurt to remember that deception.

Her mother had been so right about everything. She wished she could tell her that now.

She could barely bring herself to push open the tavern door and carry her child inside. It was darker than she remembered, but it smelled the same, of fish chowder and wood smoke and spilled beer and pipe smoke and hearth bread. There were few customers at that hour and she took Gillam to a table near the fire and set him down. The innkeeper himself came over and stared down at her in a peculiar way. Tamman's generous nature was reflected in his personal size. He looked from the door to her to the boy and then back again. His mouth moved as if he were chewing words, deciding to spit them out or swallow them. She spoke first.

"I've got a couple of copper shards. Can I have a bowl of chowder for the boy, and as much bread as that will buy?"

Tamman didn't budge from where he stood or change his gaze. He only opened his mouth and bellowed, "Sasho, chowder and bread for two!" Then he abruptly dropped down on the bench across the table from her. "Pell coming in?" he asked somberly.

A shudder pa.s.sed through her. She hoped he hadn't seen it. "I . . . I don't know." She tried to sound calm.

Tamman nodded sagely. "Well, nothing against him or you, but I don't want trouble here. He was here last night, you know. That cross-the-bay woman, that Meddalee Morrany? She was here last night, waiting for Pell. She got pretty angry, sitting and waiting, but he finally got here, looking like something the cat dragged in. It wasn't coincidence, Rosemary. She was waiting for him." The innkeeper who had known her since she was a child looked into her tearless eyes, trying to see what his words meant to her. There was no malice in his look, only measurement. She blinked, trying to contain her thoughts. Tamman nodded to himself. "Yes. Those two had planned to meet here. And they sat in the corner there, by the back door, away from the fire and the crowd, and they talked for a long time." Tamman shook his head. "That woman's crazy. Her face was still bruised blue from the last beating that d.a.m.n Pell gave her. Why she would come seeking that cruel b.a.s.t.a.r.d . . . Sorry. Forgot the boy was here. Sorry." He leaned his forearms on the table and it creaked.

"Never mind," she said quietly. Gillam was watching the fire and not paying attention to them. Sasho appeared with the food then, two br.i.m.m.i.n.g bowls that were dribbling white chowder down the sides and a napkin with three brown-crusted rolls on it. Gillam s.n.a.t.c.hed at the bread before the serving lad could even set the food down. Her boy stuffed the corner of the roll in his mouth. "Gillam!" she cried, mortified, but the innkeeper put a large hand on her arm.

"Let the boy eat. A child that hungry shames us all. Go on, boy. There's a big bowl of chowder there for you, made this morning with fresh cream, fresh cod, and old onions. Go on."

"Let me break the bread for you while you try your soup," she suggested to her son quietly. Gillam did not wait to be urged again. Despite her anxiety, Rosemary's stomach growled loudly at the sight and smell of the hot food.

Tamman heard it. "Go on. You, too. What I got to say isn't pleasant, so you may as well hear it on a full stomach as not."

She nodded slowly as she took another of the rolls and tore off a bite of bread. It was fragrant and warm. She chewed it slowly, waiting in dread for whatever disaster was to befall her.

"Just as I was about to close for the night, who should come storming in but Meddalee's father. Morrany was furious with Pell for marking his daughter's face, and even angrier that she'd caught the cross bay ferry to come running after him. Made him even hotter to see those two all cozy with their heads together. Morrany spoke loud and plainer than any father should, saying if Pell wants to visit his daughter's bed, then he should marry her. And then he demanded to know where this grand fortune is that his grandfather was to bequeath to him, for he'd heard gossip the old man was dead for most of the winter, and if Pell was his chosen heir, well, where was his wealth, then?

"And you know Cham, who loves to sit and drink here more hours than he works in a day. Well, he was the one fool enough to stand and say that the old man had little enough, and most of what he had, he'd already left to Pell's b.a.s.t.a.r.d son after Pell abandoned the boy and his mother.

"Well, turns out Pell and Meddalee had never seen fit to tell Meddalee's father that bit of news. When her father started shouting at them both, saying he wouldn't be grandfather to fortuneless b.a.s.t.a.r.ds, she started weeping and squawking that it wouldn't be like that, that Pell had come back to Cogsbay to fix things for them. And Rosemary?"

He cleared his throat and then said into her waiting silence, "That b.a.s.t.a.r.d as much as said, before everyone here, that he didn't believe that one was really his." The innkeeper tipped his head toward Gillam as if to be certain she understood his roundabout reference to her son. "When anyone who saw Pell grow up knows that the boy is an image of him when he was a lad." Then he looked down at his big hands on the edge of the table for a few moments. Perhaps he expected Rosemary to be shocked at the news. Or shamed. She was neither. His words confused her. She had been so sure that Gillam was why Pell had returned, that her boy was what he wanted.

She took a spoonful of the cooling chowder. Not even the taste of the warm rich chowder could chase the bitterness from her mouth. She met Tamman's gaze. "Pell's lies are none of my doing," she said quietly.

"More like what has been done to you," the innkeeper conceded. He looked at the fire, allowing her a few moments of quiet in which to eat.

"Thank you for telling me all this," she said at last. She had not asked him why, but he heard her question.

Tamman s.h.i.+fted on the bench. "Could be trouble is coming for you. That Meddalee is one determined woman. I've known her since she was a girl. Her parents used to send her here, clear across the bay, for her to stay with her cousins for the harvest. Rumor was that even then, they couldn't handle her. She's always been willful. She doesn't seem to care what Pell is, only that she thinks he ought to be hers, even if he slaps her, even if he's already got a son. Eda alone knows what Meddalee might do if she came out to your home. Be wary."

"If she wants Pell, she's welcome to him."

The innkeeper shook his blunt head. "Rosemary, you aren't hearing me. Her father was furious with her. Said that he wouldn't let Pell come back, that Pell was a penniless cad who would use her and leave her with a b.a.s.t.a.r.d just as he did to you. Morrany is a wealthy man, across the bay. Owns two s.h.i.+ps and three warehouses. He wants his daughter to marry well, someone with property for his grandchildren to inherit, alongside his own wealth. Pell can't offer that. His father's debts are such that when he goes, there won't be two pence for his widow to rub together. His grandfather didn't have much; Soader gave the cottage to your lad, and his little house here in town went to clear his debts after he was gone. Eda bless the man, he was a good soul and shared what he had while he was alive. Everyone in the village knew that he slipped Pell's mother money whenever she asked; without him helping her, Pell's father would have beggared them long ago. And when Soader was gone, well, there wasn't anything left.

"So, think, girl. Your boy owns the only bit of land that might be an inheritance for Pell. Meddalee's a determined woman. What would she have to do to make that cottage and land Pell's?"

She furrowed her brow at him. The words came slowly. "Kill me? Kill . . ." She roved her glance over Gillam, unable to speak the words aloud.

Tamman nodded. "Now you understand." He looked away from her. "They sat together, away from the fire but close to the back door. I made more than one trip out to the garbage heap last night, dumping dregs and garbage. I overheard things, Rosemary." He looked at her directly. "Pell was talking, saying that he could fix it, that before summer was over, he'd have a place of his own and be free to marry her."

Gillam had finished his food and was looking with unabashed interest at hers. She slid the half-full bowl across the table to him. Suddenly her hunger was gone; fear filled her belly. What had Pell been shouting as he came down the hill? That she had stolen his inheritance? She tried to think as Pell would. He'd come back home to them and tried to make them believe it was good. Tried to get her to trust him. If it had worked, what would he have done next? Get rid of her first. A tumble down the cliff, or perhaps he would say the cow had trampled her. And then, well, a month or so later, tragedy would strike him again. His boy would die "of a cough" in his sleep. Or fall from the cliffs. Or wander off into the fens, never to be seen again. And the cottage would pa.s.s to him.

She looked at her boy spooning up mouthfuls of thick, rich chowder. A slow, cold anger rose in her. She'd been a fool. So blind. Gillam was the most precious thing in her life and she thought Pell had come back to take him from her.

He'd come back to destroy him. She thought suddenly of his knife. A gift. A very sharp knife. She suddenly knew who had given it to him.

"Will you be safe, Rosemary?"

The innkeeper's words called her gaze back to him. "I will," she said. Pell would not. Time to finish what she had left undone. She set her two coins on the edge of the table, but Tamman shook his head.

"Not this time, my dear. It's been too long since you patronized my place. And your coming here today saved me a hike around the cliffs to your cottage. Now. Where is Pell? Did he come home last night?"

She shook her head slowly and chose her words. "He never came into the cottage. I don't know where he is now." It was almost a truth. He had never reached the cottage door. And right now, he might have recovered and be on his way here. Or still lying behind the cow byre.

But the innkeeper only nodded as if that confirmed his guess. "Last night, Meddalee Morrany's father dragged her out of here. She was kicking and spitting and shrieking and trying her claws on his face. Pell stood and shouted that she was a woman grown, that her father had no right to force her to go home, but Morrany had the captain and the mate of one of his s.h.i.+ps with him, and Pell daren't start a fight with any one of them, let alone three. He said, woman or no, she was acting like a spoiled child and so he would treat her. So, after a noisy shouting match outside, her father took her down to his s.h.i.+p. Said he was taking her back across the bay in the morning and that Pell would stay away if he knew what was good for him. But Pell's never known what was good for him. So I suspected that he'd follow and try to steal her back." Tamman nodded to himself and stood slowly. "Pell was pretty drunk when he left here. I didn't think he'd make it as far as your cottage even if he headed that way."

"He didn't," she said quietly. "Maybe he's sleeping it off somewhere. Maybe he went to his father's house."

"Or maybe he's looking for a way to get across the bay. Meddalee's father's boat is still tied up to the docks, waiting for the tide to be right. He might even be down there trying to weasel his way back into her father's favor."

"Maybe." But she knew Pell better than Tamman did. Perhaps at first, run off by Meddalee's father, he'd simply come home to her cottage as a place where he could go. But that wasn't what he'd intended this morning. He'd come back to the cottage, thinking to get rid of his inconvenient son. He'd come to kill Gillam. The cat had been right. And knowing that changed everything.

Everything.

The cat was right. She'd been a fool. Resolution as cold as iron stiffened her spine. She smiled at Tamman, a small cat's smile. "Well. We've errands to do, Gillam and I. Thank you for the chowder, Tamman, and for the warning. And you are right. It has been far too long since we've dropped in. Sometimes I forget that I do have friends."

And enemies. Sometimes she forgot that she might have enemies.

She looked at Gillam. "Is that better? Shall we go now?"

He nodded emphatically.

"The market stalls will be opening soon. Shall we go have a look?"

The boy's eyes flew wide. A trip to market was a rare thing for both of them. They lived mostly by barter and seldom used coin. He nodded avidly, and she bid Tamman farewell. Outside, the wind was bl.u.s.tering, but the rain had ceased. The clouds were being pushed aside from a bright blue sky.

The market in the little town was a tiny one, not more than a dozen shops and stalls and half of them seasonal. She was able to buy a short coil of st.u.r.dy line, a long slender boning knife, and then, because there was so little left of her money and life, she now knew, was an uncertain thing, a little packet of honey drops for the boy. He'd never had candy before and could scarcely bear to put even one of the bright-colored drops into his mouth. When she finally persuaded him to try a pale green one and saw his face light with surprise at the taste of honey and mint, she folded the packet up tight and put it into the bag. "Later, you can have more," she promised him, her mind full of possible plans.

They walked the cliff-top path home again. A quarter of the way back to the cottage, the cat suddenly appeared and trotted along at her heels alongside the boy. "Well, where have you been, Marmalade?" she asked him.

Rousing the bigger dogs. They sleep later than I thought.

"Don't the old wives tell us to let sleeping dogs lie?" she asked him and was rewarded only by a puzzled glance from Gillam. She said nothing to the cat of what she would do and felt no further brush of a feline mind against hers. That was just as well. What she would do, she would do, and it would be her own deed.

They reached the juncture in the path where a tiny trail wound down the gra.s.sy hillside to her cottage. She stood for a short time, looking down on it. Beyond it were the fens, a tapestry of gra.s.ses and ferns in a hundred different greens. No smoke rose from her cabin chimney. The cow had taken advantage of the open gate to lead her new calves out. The chickens scratched in the dooryard. All seemed calm.

Of Pell, there was no sign. He could be in hiding. He could be sleeping in the cabin. He might still be lying in the tall meadow gra.s.s behind the byre. She sighed. "I should have been certain of him when I had the chance," she said to no one. The cat lifted a paw and swiped it across his face, almost as if hiding a smile.

Gillam started down the path ahead of her. She called him back. She reached into the bag and gave him another honey drop, a yellow one. "You and Marmalade stay right here," she told him. "Sit down and see how long the candy lasts if you only suck on it." The novelty of the candy was enough to win her instant obedience. She put the little cloth bag in his hands. "When it's all gone, try a red one. When it's all gone, have a pink one. Suck on each one slowly. And wait for me to come back and ask you which one you liked best." Gillam's eyes were big as saucers at his good fortune. He found a rock jutting up in the gra.s.s by the trail and perched on it, sucking thoughtfully. The cat sat down beside him and curled his tail around his feet.

Luck.

"Thank you." She set her pack down beside them. She took only the rope and the skinning knife and the hatchet. She walked silently down the hill. It was impossible to disguise her approach to the cabin. It was a bare, broad hillside. She carried the bared knife gleaming in her hand.

She looked for him first in the cabin, but it was still and cold as a dead thing. She searched it well, even climbing up to peer into the loft and then looking under the bed. There was nowhere else in the cabin where a grown man could hide. She went out and about her small farmstead. The chickens scattered as she walked through the scratching, pecking flock but otherwise showed no alarm. The cow was grazing peacefully, her two red calves sleeping together. Pell was not hiding in her stall.

She glanced up the hillside. Gillam still perched on his rock. She could not see Marmalade. She waved at her son, and he waved back at her. Then, knife in one hand and hatchet in the other, she went behind the cowshed.

If Eda had blessed her, the man would be dead where he had fallen. But Eda was a G.o.ddess of light and life and fertility. One did not pray to her for a convenient death. Pell was not sprawled there. He was gone, and so was his knife.

And she suddenly saw her error. She lifted her skirts and ran, suddenly sure of her mistake. And as she rounded the byre, she saw Pell striding up to her boy.

"Well, what's that you have there, Gillam? Candy? Why don't you show me?"

His words just reached her ears. Pell was standing over the boy. "Gillam!" she shouted, a useless warning. What would she tell him to do? Run? He could not outrun a determined man. As Gillam turned, startled at her cry, Pell scooped him up. Scooped him up and began to run with him, up the path to the cliffs.

She screamed, a useless waste of her breath, and ran. Her heart was pounding so that it filled her ears, and then suddenly she realized that thundering sound was not her heart at all. Hoofbeats. Someone was riding a horse along the cliff trail. She lifted her panicked gaze and saw three mounted men galloping heedlessly on the cliff-side path.

"Stop him!" she shouted at them, helplessly, hopelessly. "Stop him! He means to kill the boy! Help me, please. Please!"

Did they even hear her breathless cries? She kept running and became aware of a tawny little shape that was leaping after Pell, catching at his legs and then falling back and racing after him again. Gillam had found his voice and was roaring with terror even as he clutched his bag of sweets. And Pell was getting ever closer to the cliff tops.

The three men all but rode him down. She cried out in horror as Pell flung her son at them and tried to run even as the men abandoned the stamping horses to chase after him. Gillam struck the ground hard and rolled away from them, and then lay, sprawled and still in the early spring sunlight.

"Gillam," she shrieked and ran to him. The horses, spooked by her cries, wheeled and ran back the way they had come. She cared nothing for them or for the struggling men by the cliff's edge. She reached her boy and scooped him up.

"Gillam, Gillam, are you all right?" she cried. She sank to the earth and gathered his little body into her arms. He seemed so small.

He took a shuddering breath and then sobbed out, "I wost my candy! I dwopped my candy!"

In her joy, she laughed aloud, and then, because of the hurt in his eyes that she laughed at his tragedy, she felt in the gra.s.s and came up with the little cloth sack. "No, you didn't lose them. See, here they are and just fine. Just fine."

He's gone now.

Marmalade had found them. He clambered into her lap with Gillam, and he hugged the cat tightly.

"Gone?" she asked in wonder. "Gone where?"

Gillam spoke the cat's thought aloud. "The bigger dogs chased him over the cliff's edge." He glanced back toward the returning men and observed sourly, "They took too long to get here. They were nearly too late."