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Lady Frances studied her face for a moment; then she gave a direct answer to the question put to her.
"Walter himself told me," she said.
After she had spoken there was silence in the room. On her part it was the silence of the experimenter, who has taken a step in a new direction and is waiting for results; on Clodagh's, it was the silence of incredulity, of doubt, of dread. That Gore should have spoken of that last night in Venice to any third person was a circ.u.mstance that, at very least, needed explanation. She sat breathlessly waiting that explanation.
During the moment of fruitful silence Lady Frances Hope remained very still, fingering her cigarette, drawing in fitful puffs of smoke, avoiding with elaborate carelessness any observation of her companion's manner.
Then, as if some psychological crisis for which she was waiting had been achieved, she altered her position and her expression; and, turning, laid her hand upon Clodagh's.
"Dear Mrs. Milbanke," she said, "I am glad all this has happened; I am glad we have met. You are at a moment in your life when you need a friend--a friend who understands----"
Her fingers tightened upon Clodagh's in a warm, sympathetic pressure.
"You are young; you are free; you have the whole world at your feet.
Don't spoil your life by taking it too seriously!
"When I was your age, or only a little older than you, I was left a widow--as you have been left; but I was unlike you in one particular: I had a very wise and far-seeing mother to help me with her advice. Do you know what her advice was?"
Clodagh sat silent.
"It was comprised in one sentence. 'Avoid scandal, but fly from sentiment!' Do you see all the wisdom in that advice to a woman who has just become her own mistress?"
Still Clodagh was silent, filled by a sense of uncertainty, of loneliness, of fear. She waited for Lady Frances's explanation with the numb sense of helplessness that is born of ignorance.
"Of course, I may be wrong," the strong, reliant voice went on; "but I feel you are in need of just such counsel. You are emotional; you are an idealist; you are coming out into life expecting it to be a fairy tale--and it is not a fairy tale. It is a realistic story--sometimes a long one, sometimes a short one, but always realistic. Take my advice!
Make the best of it as it is! Don't break your heart because there are no dragons, or castles, or princes."
She paused at last; and at last Clodagh spoke.
"You are very kind--very good. But I don't see what it all has to do with me."
With a frank, almost an affectionate gesture, Lady Frances took both her hands, and, looking into her face, spoke the words for which she had so carefully prepared the way.
"If what I am going to say hurts you, you must forgive me. I feel such centuries older than you, that I can risk a great deal. Don't spoil your life, don't throw away your pleasure, because of one moral lecture! It isn't worth while. I know what I am saying. People like Walter Gore are reprehensible. They take themselves so seriously, that sometimes other people make the mistake of taking them seriously too; and then things go wrong."
Clodagh's face became a shade paler.
"I--I am stupid," she said. "I don't seem to understand."
"My dear! It is so hard to say it bluntly."
"Please say it bluntly."
For an instant the older woman hesitated before the coldness of Clodagh's tone; but the next, she took the opening offered her.
"You are deliberately turning away from the best in life because some one, in a moment of enthusiasm, preached you a sermon. You make the mistake of thinking that Walter Gore did something unusual when he warned you against cards and roulette--against Lord Deerehurst and Val Serracauld and me--whereas, Walter was born to preach!"
Clodagh's lips parted. Lady Frances had justified herself. Gore _had_ spoken of that last interview. But why? And how?
"Lady Frances," she said very quietly, "why did Sir Walter Gore tell you all these things?"
Lady Frances freed the hands she had continued to hold.
"Oh, we are old friends. He tells me many things. I fought more than one battle for you, while you were in Venice--and afterwards."
"For me? After I left Venice?"
"Oh, many battles. Walter is so extreme in his judgments of men and things. I lose patience with him sometimes."
"And what was Sir Walter Gore's judgment of me--after I left Venice?"
Lady Frances gave a little deprecating laugh.
"Would that be quite fair?"
"Yes, I think so, if I wish to know."
The older woman took a fresh cigarette from the case beside her.
"And you won't be offended?"
"I won't be offended." Clodagh's voice sounded a little dry.
"Well, then--oh, really, it's very stupid! Perhaps I'd better not."
Clodagh rose quietly from the divan and walked to the mantelpiece.
"Please tell me," she said.
At her tone, her hostess ceased to dally. She struck a match and raised the cigarette to her lips.
"Well," she said, with another little apologetic laugh, "I think Walter has always imagined you a very pretty, very fascinating--little fool!"
There was another silence--very short but very tense. Lady Frances laid down her cigarette unlighted, and blew out the match.
"Mrs. Milbanke, you don't mind?"
Clodagh laughed--suddenly and almost loudly.
"Mind? Mind? Why _should_ I mind?"
Had her denial been a shade less intense, its steadiness might have deceived her companion; as it was, the faintest flickering smile touched her lips, as she also rose and came slowly forward.
"My dear child!" she murmured reproachfully--"my dear child, you have misunderstood. I never implied that Walter interested you personally; I merely used him as an ill.u.s.tration--as a means of conveying the folly of taking serious people seriously. But you are tired. I have been cruelly unreasonable. I shall send you straight to bed. You are f.a.gged after that long journey."
She put out her hand and laid it on Clodagh's arm; but Clodagh was not in a mood to be caressed.
"It's all right!" she said abruptly. "I suppose we both misunderstood.
I _am_ a little tired. I think I _will_ say good-night!"