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"You speak incoherently."
Baum regained his self-command.
"She may have been murdered by some poacher. The worst of it all is that she sent a letter to her majesty the queen."
"A letter to the queen! Where is it? Give it to me!"
"I haven't it, the maid s.n.a.t.c.hed it from me."
The king sat down.
For a long while, not a sound was heard but the rapid ticking of the clock that stood on the writing-table.
The king arose from his seat and walked up and down the room. Then he came toward Baum, who felt as if the hour of judgment had come--as if his life hung in the balance. He tried to loosen his cravat; it seemed too tight for him. He almost felt as if a sword were pa.s.sing through him.
"Do you know what was in the letter to the queen?"
"No, Your Majesty."
"Was it sealed?"
"Yes, Your Majesty."
"And have you nothing more?"
"Yes, Your Majesty; I was almost obliged to use violence to get this from the maid; and here, Your Majesty, there is something more. Beside the shoes, there was a pool of blood, and on this little plant there are drops of her blood."
A heart-rending cry of pain escaped the king; then, taking the letter and the plant with him, he went into the adjoining room.
Baum remained standing there waiting.
In the next room, the king sat reading, with tearful eyes.
"She loved me intensely. She was great and beautiful," said he to himself, with pale and trembling lips. His mind was filled with thoughts of her beauty, her voice, her gait, and all her varied charms.
And were they all now dead?
The king looked at his hand; the hand which she had so fondly kissed.
He took up the letter again and once more read the words: "To my friend." He knew not how it came about, but when he again became conscious of himself, he was kneeling by the chair.
What was to come next?
He remembered that the lackey was waiting in the cabinet. The king felt deeply humbled at the thought of his being obliged to take such a creature into his confidence; but had not men of all kinds long known of his crime? They knew of it, but were silent. A thousand eyes were upon him, a thousand lips were speaking--and all were telling this terrible story. The king looked about him, bewildered. He could scarcely rise. And among the many thousands who had laid their hands in his, and who looked up to him, there was one--Ah! how heavily her hand and her glance now weighed upon him. And her lips; what might they say?
How was he now to approach the queen? If she only knew his deep contrition, she would fall weeping on his neck; for she was divine goodness itself. And yet, how had he acted toward her!
He was on the point of sending Irma's last words to the queen. He meant to add some words expressive of his contrition--to lay bare his thoughts and feelings. It is best, thought he to himself, not to act precipitately, and when he was again on his feet, the consciousness of strength returned. One must be able to fulfill the most difficult duties, even that of repentance, without sacrificing dignity.
The king saw himself in the large mirror. He had forgotten that he was in hunting costume, and started at the reflection of himself, as though it were a stranger.
His face was pale, his eyes inflamed. He had shed tears for his friend, and that was enough. What, with some natures, requires months or years, great minds achieve in a few moments. Their years had become as ages.
It seemed to him as if the words: "The kiss of eternity," were being wafted toward him on the air, and his mind was filled with memories of that day in the atelier of the ball, and--
"It was given to thee to live the highest life and then die; to force death to do your bidding. But I cannot do so. I do not live for myself alone!" said he, apostrophizing his friend, and feeling as if a new source of life flowed forth from the depths of his grief.
"And this is thy work," said an inner voice, while his thoughts were of the dead. "In all that's good, your spirit will ever abide with me.
Without thee--I would confess it to G.o.d, were I now to appear before him--I should never have discovered the deepest springs of my being. If I only knew of some deed which could serve as a fit memorial of thy life."
The king again remembered that the lackey was waiting for him. He felt annoyed that there was not an hour he could call his own, in which to calm his agitated feelings, and, for the first time in his life, it flashed upon him: He who commands the services of others, has duties to them, too. They lead a life of their own, extending beyond the time and act of service.
The influence of Irma's last words seemed to hover over his soul like a mist.
He returned to his cabinet. Baum was still standing where he had left him, as silent and as quiet as if he were a chair or table.
"When did you leave there?" asked the king.
Baum told him all.
"You must be fatigued," said the king.
"Yes, Your Majesty."
"Well then, take a rest. Anything else you may know, you must tell no one but myself--do you understand?"
"Certainly, Your Majesty. I thank you, humbly."
The king had drawn a large emerald ring from his finger, and, while he turned it from side to side, the bright gem sparkled in the sunlight.
Baum thought that the king was about to bestow the ring upon him as a mark of his favor, but his majesty put the ring on again, and asked: "Are you married?"
"I was, Your Majesty."
"Have you any children?"
"An only son, Your Majesty."
"Very well. Hold yourself in readiness; I shall soon have further orders for you."
Baum went out. While hurrying through the anteroom, he graciously addressed the chamberlain with: "Pray don't rise!" There was no need that any one should see what was plainly to be read in every line of his face. The king had addressed him familiarly, and had even inquired about his family. He was, at last, the confidant of royalty; the highest honors now awaited him.
He went to his quarters in the side wing of the palace.
The king was alone. Naught was near him save Irma's hat and shoes. He gazed at them for a long while. What a poem it would make--to bring to the lover the shoes and the hat of his beloved--what a song it would be to sing in the twilight. Such were his thoughts and yet his brain whirled. With trembling hands, he took up the hat and shoes, and locked up the tokens of death in his writing-desk.
The feather on the hat broke as he closed the door. A light was burning on the writing-table. The king lit a cigar. When his eye fell on the water-color portrait of the queen, he started. He went on smoking violently.
It was not till some after that, that the king rang the bell and gave directions that the lord steward should be called, but that no one else should be admitted.