Mashi and Other Stories Part 3

'Look here, Jotin, I shall get angry with you. You want to console me with money!'

'Oh, Mas.h.i.+, how I wish I could give you something better than money!'

'That you have done, Jotin!--more than enough. Haven't I had you to fill my lonely house? I must have won that great good-fortune in many previous births! You have given me so much that now, if my destiny's due is exhausted, I shall not complain. Yes, yes! Give away everything in Mani's name,--your house, your money, your carriage, and your land--such burdens are too heavy for me!'

'Of course I know you have lost your taste for the enjoyments of life, but Mani is so young that----'

'No! you mustn't say that. If you want to leave her your property, it is all right, but as for enjoyment----'

'What harm if she does enjoy herself, Mas.h.i.+?'

'No, no, it will be impossible. Her throat will become parched, and it will be dust and ashes to her.'

Jotin remained silent. He could not decide whether it was true or not, and whether it was a matter of regret or otherwise, that the world would become distasteful to Mani for want of him. The stars seemed to whisper in his heart:

'Indeed it is true. We have been watching for thousands of years, and know that all these great preparations for enjoyment are but vanity.'

Jotin sighed and said: 'We cannot leave behind us what is really worth giving.'

'It's no trifle you are giving, dearest. I only pray she may have the power to know the value of what is given her.'

'Give me a little more of that pomegranate juice, Mas.h.i.+, I'm thirsty.

Did Mani come to me yesterday, I wonder?'

'Yes, she came, but you were asleep. She sat by your head, fanning you for a long time, and then went away to get your clothes washed.'

'How wonderful! I believe I was dreaming that very moment that Mani was trying to enter my room. The door was slightly open, and she was pus.h.i.+ng against it, but it wouldn't open. But, Mas.h.i.+, you're going too far,--you ought to let her see that I am dying; otherwise my death will be a terrible shock to her.'

'Baba, let me put this shawl over your feet; they are getting cold.'

'No, Mas.h.i.+, I can't bear anything over me like that.'

'Do you know, Jotin, Mani made this shawl for you? When she ought to have been asleep, she was busy at it. It was finished only yesterday.'

Jotin took the shawl, and touched it tenderly with his hands. It seemed to him that the softness of the wool was Mani's own. Her loving thoughts had been woven night after night with its threads. It was not made merely of wool, but also of her touch. Therefore, when Mas.h.i.+ drew that shawl over his feet, it seemed as if, night after night, Mani had been caressing his tired limbs.

'But, Mas.h.i.+, I thought Mani didn't know how to knit,--at any rate she never liked it.'

'It doesn't take long to learn a thing. Of course I had to teach her.

Then there are a good many mistakes in it.'

'Let there be mistakes; we're not going to send it to the Paris Exhibition. It will keep my feet warm in spite of its mistakes.'

Jotin's mind began to picture Mani at her task, blundering and struggling, and yet patiently going on night after night. How sweetly pathetic it was! And again he went over the shawl with his caressing fingers.

'Mas.h.i.+, is the doctor downstairs?'

'Yes, he will stay here to-night.'

'But tell him it is useless for him to give me a sleeping draught. It doesn't bring me real rest and only adds to my pain. Let me remain properly awake. Do you know, Mas.h.i.+, that my wedding took place on the night of the full moon in the month of _Baisakh_? To-morrow will be that day, and the stars of that very night will be s.h.i.+ning in the sky. Mani perhaps has forgotten. I want to remind her of it to-day; just call her to me for a minute or two.... Why do you keep silent?

I suppose the doctor has told you I am so weak that any excitement will----but I tell you truly, Mas.h.i.+, to-night, if I can have only a few minutes' talk with her, there will be no need for any sleeping draughts. Mas.h.i.+, don't cry like that! I am quite well. To-day my heart is full as it has never been in my life before. That's why I want to see Mani. No, no, Mas.h.i.+, I can't bear to see you crying! You have been so quiet all these last days. Why are you so troubled to-night?'

'Oh, Jotin, I thought that I had exhausted all my tears, but I find there are plenty left. I can't bear it any longer.'

'Call Mani. I'll remind her of our wedding night, so that to-morrow she may----'

'I'm going, dear. s...o...b..u will wait at the door. If you want anything, call him.'

Mas.h.i.+ went to Mani's bedroom and sat down on the floor crying,--'Oh come, come once, you heartless wretch! Keep his last request who has given you his all! Don't kill him who is already dying!'

Jotin hearing the sound of footsteps started up, saying, 'Mani!'

'I am s...o...b..u. Did you call me?'

'Ask your mistress to come?'

'Ask whom?'

'Your mistress.'

'She has not yet returned.'

'Returned? From where?'

'From Sitarampur.'

'When did she go?'

'Three days ago.'

For a moment Jotin felt numb all over, and his head began to swim. He slipped down from the pillows, on which he was reclining, and kicked off the woollen shawl that was over his feet.

When Mas.h.i.+ came back after a long time, Jotin did not mention Mani's name, and Mas.h.i.+ thought he had forgotten all about her.

Suddenly Jotin cried out: 'Mas.h.i.+, did I tell you about the dream I had the other night?'

'Which dream?'

'That in which Mani was pus.h.i.+ng the door, and the door wouldn't open more than an inch. She stood outside unable to enter. Now I know that Mani has to stand outside my door till the last.'