The Defence of Guenevere and Other Poems Part 1

The Defence of Guenevere and Other Poems.

by William Morris.

THE DEFENCE OF GUENEVERE

But, knowing now that they would have her speak, She threw her wet hair backward from her brow, Her hand close to her mouth touching her cheek,

As though she had had there a shameful blow, And feeling it shameful to feel ought but shame All through her heart, yet felt her cheek burned so,

She must a little touch it; like one lame She walked away from Gauwaine, with her head Still lifted up; and on her cheek of flame

The tears dried quick; she stopped at last and said: O knights and lords, it seems but little skill To talk of well-known things past now and dead.

G.o.d wot I ought to say, I have done ill, And pray you all forgiveness heartily!

Because you must be right, such great lords; still

Listen, suppose your time were come to die, And you were quite alone and very weak; Yea, laid a dying while very mightily

The wind was ruffling up the narrow streak Of river through your broad lands running well: Suppose a hush should come, then some one speak:

'One of these cloths is heaven, and one is h.e.l.l, Now choose one cloth for ever; which they be, I will not tell you, you must somehow tell

Of your own strength and mightiness; here, see!'

Yea, yea, my lord, and you to ope your eyes, At foot of your familiar bed to see

A great G.o.d's angel standing, with such dyes, Not known on earth, on his great wings, and hands, Held out two ways, light from the inner skies

Showing him well, and making his commands Seem to be G.o.d's commands, moreover, too, Holding within his hands the cloths on wands;

And one of these strange choosing cloths was blue, Wavy and long, and one cut short and red; No man could tell the better of the two.

After a s.h.i.+vering half-hour you said: 'G.o.d help! heaven's colour, the blue;' and he said, 'h.e.l.l.'

Perhaps you then would roll upon your bed,

And cry to all good men that loved you well, 'Ah Christ! if only I had known, known, known;'

Launcelot went away, then I could tell,

Like wisest man how all things would be, moan, And roll and hurt myself, and long to die, And yet fear much to die for what was sown.

Nevertheless you, O Sir Gauwaine, lie, Whatever may have happened through these years, G.o.d knows I speak truth, saying that you lie.

Her voice was low at first, being full of tears, But as it cleared, it grew full loud and shrill, Growing a windy shriek in all men's ears,

A ringing in their startled brains, until She said that Gauwaine lied, then her voice sunk, And her great eyes began again to fill,

Though still she stood right up, and never shrunk, But spoke on bravely, glorious lady fair!

Whatever tears her full lips may have drunk,

She stood, and seemed to think, and wrung her hair, Spoke out at last with no more trace of shame, With pa.s.sionate twisting of her body there:

It chanced upon a day that Launcelot came To dwell at Arthur's court: at Christmas-time This happened; when the heralds sung his name,

Son of King Ban of Benwick, seemed to chime Along with all the bells that rang that day, O'er the white roofs, with little change of rhyme.

Christmas and whitened winter pa.s.sed away, And over me the April suns.h.i.+ne came, Made very awful with black hail-clouds, yea

And in the Summer I grew white with flame, And bowed my head down: Autumn, and the sick Sure knowledge things would never be the same,

However often Spring might be most thick Of blossoms and buds, smote on me, and I grew Careless of most things, let the clock tick, tick,

To my unhappy pulse, that beat right through My eager body; while I laughed out loud, And let my lips curl up at false or true,

Seemed cold and shallow without any cloud.

Behold my judges, then the cloths were brought; While I was dizzied thus, old thoughts would crowd,

Belonging to the time ere I was bought By Arthur's great name and his little love; Must I give up for ever then, I thought,

That which I deemed would ever round me move Glorifying all things; for a little word, Scarce ever meant at all, must I now prove

Stone-cold for ever? Pray you, does the Lord Will that all folks should be quite happy and good?

I love G.o.d now a little, if this cord

Were broken, once for all what striving could Make me love anything in earth or heaven?

So day by day it grew, as if one should

Slip slowly down some path worn smooth and even, Down to a cool sea on a summer day; Yet still in slipping there was some small leaven

Of stretched hands catching small stones by the way, Until one surely reached the sea at last, And felt strange new joy as the worn head lay

Back, with the hair like sea-weed; yea all past Sweat of the forehead, dryness of the lips, Washed utterly out by the dear waves o'ercast,

In the lone sea, far off from any s.h.i.+ps!

Do I not know now of a day in Spring?

No minute of that wild day ever slips

From out my memory; I hear thrushes sing, And wheresoever I may be, straightway Thoughts of it all come up with most fresh sting:

I was half mad with beauty on that day, And went without my ladies all alone, In a quiet garden walled round every way;

I was right joyful of that wall of stone, That shut the flowers and trees up with the sky, And trebled all the beauty: to the bone,

Yea right through to my heart, grown very shy With weary thoughts, it pierced, and made me glad; Exceedingly glad, and I knew verily,

A little thing just then had made me mad; I dared not think, as I was wont to do, Sometimes, upon my beauty; If I had

Held out my long hand up against the blue, And, looking on the tenderly darken'd fingers, Thought that by rights one ought to see quite through,