Sonohi Sekai ga Kawatta Chapter 14 Part2

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"It's ok, she won't tell anyone, right Senjo-san?"

s.h.i.+zuki asks Senjo-senpai while touching my d.i.c.k.

"O-ooh, of course. It is not my intention to disturb your love relations.h.i.+p. It is natural to seek refuge in each other and confirm your love; I think it is obvious to fight to keep your relations.h.i.+p"

Senjo-senpai said so while blus.h.i.+ng and cleared her throat while covering her mouth with her hand.

It is annoying that she kept beating around the bush. But at least now I understand that she doesn't plan to expose s.h.i.+zuki's and my relations.h.i.+p.

But still, that doesn't mean that I can go and do it in front of her.

"s.h.i.+-s.h.i.+zuki, stop. We haven't finished our talk. Besides, I will give you your punishment later, so be patient for now. Be a good girl"

I lightly pushed away s.h.i.+zuki who was closely attached to me and told her so.

s.h.i.+zuki looks at me with moist eyes while breathing hard. That figure excites me too much.

Aaah, d.a.m.n it, I want to make her pant hard.

"I u-understand ♡, s.h.i.+zuki truly can't take it anymore, but I will obey master's order ♡"

s.h.i.+zuki whispered in a sweet voice while reluctantly taking some distance from me.

I will definitively bully her later. I obviously have to bully her. I am already decided to bully her. Even if she cries and begs, I won't stop. Absolutely, it is decided.

"Fu-Fujimura-san may get angry, so after we finish our talk you may beat me as much as you like. No, I would rather like to be beaten. That way I will feel better"

Senjo-senpai who had her face completely red, like steam would come out from her head; said so with an awkward smile while dodging me with her eyes.

It is impossible to beat as much as I want. Although I like to be a bit bully, I hate violence.

"Let's forget about that for the time being, please continue with your talk"

"A-Aah, sorry. Then, I will continue"

Senjo-senpai nodded and then looked at s.h.i.+zuki while blus.h.i.+ng.

"I knew that you were in a relations.h.i.+p with Fujimura-san, I was jealous of that, I couldn't see reality, and kept looking for an excuse. I convinced myself that it was certain that you would be thrown away, so I would feel that I was superior to you, but…"

After that Senjo-senpai who was staring at s.h.i.+zuki dropped down. [1]

"In a cla.s.sroom where a lot of students were looking, Fujimura-san admitted that he was in a relations.h.i.+p with Sakura-san, after that I was lost, you were not played with. Even worse, you were so important to him that I couldn't even make excuses to myself"

Senjo-senpai said with a trembling voice; i can't confirm it because she is doing a dogeza, but I could hear her runny nose, so I guess she is crying.

"I was disappointed, I was jealous, to the person who I thought was inferior to me, to who I thought I was standing over all this time, I couldn't stop the continuous regret. And the jealousy…"

Senjo-senpai speaks while leaking sobs from time to time.

Well, I understand the feeling of shame, but Senjo-senpai even with the beauty values reversed, she who was popular, thought of s.h.i.+zuki as someone inferior to her.

Besides, even if she wants to date someone it is difficult to find a boyfriend.

"I know a lot of people, there are a lot of friends, there was a time when I due to a misunderstanding of a male who came close to me, I ended up confessing to him; he said that he needed time to think about it, I was convinced that he would accept my feelings, but from that day he didn't contact me"

O-ooh, that is bad. It would obviously cause a trauma. Even if he didn't want to start a relations.h.i.+p with Senjo-senpai he should have answered properly, even if it was a refusal.

Well, that student probably didn't think that he would be confessed to. Moreover, the other person is the ace of the women's kendo club, and she is so popular. So if you handle it poorly, you don't know what the other girls would do, he might have been scared and decided to escape.

If the beauty values hadn't been reversed, I'm sure he would have accepted right there without a second thought.

"I am not devoted to kendo because of a pure thought. I am only using kendo as a way to avoid reality. To maintain my self-esteem by continuing to win, and indulge myself in the pleasure that. I am ugly both in mind and heart. But still, I have a dream, a dream…"

Senjo-senpai who speaks with a trembling voice slowly raises her face.

A distorted smile reveals itself, tears overflow from her eyes and those tears run down her cheeks.

"I want a wonderful lover…"

It was a small and s.h.i.+vering voice, but it showed how much thought was put in that word.

"It is scary, sooner or later I will lose my kendo, what will remain to me, I will have nothing left, and both my body and mind are ugly, recently I just have nightmares about that, I wake up on the night trembling full of fear"

Senjo-senpai said so while hugging herself to stop her trembling body.

If you quit kendo, nothing will remain, that is an exaggeration. The heart and body trained in kendo will remain, and the experience of guiding students as a captain will also remain. Besides, you won't lose your popularity just because you quit kendo.

But, if Senjo-senpai herself thinks that nothing will remain, everything will really go to waste. It is too wasteful.

"I have exposed my ugly side. There is something I would like to ask of Sakura-san, I don't mind if you refuse. It is my selfish wish to talk about all of this. If you accept my ugly side, I am prepared to devote myself in mind and body to you"

Senjo-senpai bent forward and put her hands on the floor and lowered her head deeply. [2]

"Sakura-san, I ask of you how to please teach me how to be a wonderful woman like you, whatever you tell me to do… I will do it. If you tell me to drink, I will drink it, if you tell me to dance naked in town, I will do it, so please let me know"

While lowering her head so low that her forehead touches the floor, Senjo-senpai told us her wish.

This is getting troublesome, I understand Senjo-senpai's feelings, but It will be troublesome if I accept it. Even if I accept, I can't do it.

s.h.i.+zuki looks at me, and Senjo-senpai turns to look at me with her glittering eyes.

Even s.h.i.+zuki can understand Senjo-senpai's feelings. Senjo-senpai made it clear that she hated s.h.i.+zuki, and apologized for it. s.h.i.+zuki should understand how much courage is necessary.

But what can we do for Senjo-senpai.

The relations.h.i.+p between s.h.i.+zuki and me is special. When seen from other people s.h.i.+zuki is ugly, but from my eyes she is an absolutely beautiful girl. It is difficult to make use of that experience to help Senjo-senpai.

In short, even if s.h.i.+zuki teaches Senjo-senpai anything, it won't help. Won't it hurt Senjo-senpai even more?

I closed my eyes with my arms folded, and while I was worried about what I should do, my arms were pulled.

When I opened my eyes and looked to my side, s.h.i.+zuki was looking at me. I saw straight into her eyes and realized that there was hope in s.h.i.+zuki, and I nodded. I should leave it to s.h.i.+zuki.

"Even if you want to listen to my answer soon, I would be in trouble if I had to answer so soon. Please give me time to think , I will get an answer by tomorrow after school"

s.h.i.+zuki said with a bit of sadness in her voice while looking at Senjo-senpai who is doing a dogeza.

"Thank you"

Senjo-senpai who kept doing the dogeza spoke words of grat.i.tude.

Whether s.h.i.+zuki accepts or refuses, she would appreciate the serious thinking put into it.

"Master, let's go home for today"

s.h.i.+zuki stood and took me by the arm.

On the surface s.h.i.+zuki stays the same, but I know that she is impatient.

I nodded and stood up while looking at Senjo-senpai who stays doing the dogeza.

s.h.i.+zuki goes behind my back while suffering as to whether we can leave Senjo-senpai who is doing the dogeza.

"Well, we will leave first"

s.h.i.+zuki spoke so to Senjo-senpai, took my hand and we quickly left the club room.

We got off the stairs and left the club room, and finally s.h.i.+zuki's face relaxes. And when we stop, I can finally see. I can't see any margin left in that expression, and the atmosphere turns heavy in a moment.

"She may die if I refuse"

"…… Eh?"

The words that came out of s.h.i.+zuki's mouth were totally unexpected and I couldn't help but let out my surprise.

No, no, that is too much.

I tried to deny s.h.i.+zuki's idea, but I can't deny it when s.h.i.+zuki looks so seriously into my eyes.

"Maybe that person is already broken"

I wanted to say something to refute that, but I can't deny it in this kind of atmosphere.

"Thinking that there is someone who is worse than herself kept her heart from the breaking point, but that idea was destroyed. Although I am not certain that she would die, I think that it is a dangerous situation. That she is leaning on me after feeling defeated is enough evidence"

s.h.i.+zuki has a serious look and says so while tightening her grip on my hand.

Senjo-senpai is in a pretty dangerous situation.

Perhaps s.h.i.+zuki can understand because she also is suffering in her heart.

"Really…"

Although it can't be proven, I can't deny the possibility of such thing happening.

This is bad.

"To be honest, I don't care what happens to that person"

"Eh?"

Y-You don't care, you mean, eh?

"As I thought, I should have meet by myself, once that person dies, my gentle master will be deeply hurt, no matter what was done, no matter who was involved, if that person dies you won't forgive yourself, and her death will stay forever in master's heart and cause you suffering"

s.h.i.+zuki mutters with a serious expression.

"… I-I see"

Not quite worrying about Senjo-senpai, I was just feeling sympathy.

Recently I thought that the instability in s.h.i.+zuki was kicking in, but it seems that she is now centering her thoughts on me. After all she was completely broken, that thought came to me.

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