Dark Heart Part 6

Lenares stepped away from Dryman. One, said a quiet voice in her mind. One what? she wondered for a moment; then realised she had begun counting her steps. Oh.

At first glance the city seemed similar in style to the parts of Talamaq she had seen. Pale stone buildings, wide streets, open s.p.a.ces. But the streets of Talamaq were much tidier than those of this city. Why would the citizens allow so much rubbish to pile up?

Rubble, not rubbish, she realised. I see what Duon sees. And, as she saw it, her numbers began to a.s.semble themselves into some sort of pattern. The numbers lay in trails over the city like a nest of snakes. Something-a number of somethings-had swept through this city, knocking down buildings, mostly wooden structures- who would build a house out of wood?-scattering them either side of their pa.s.sage.

She followed the pattern backwards through s.p.a.ce and time. Five snakes, their trails crossing each other as they worked their way across the city. Follow them backwards. Buildings rea.s.sembled themselves. People came back to life. The snakes shrank, slow, and withdrew from the ground, up, up into what?

Her numbers spun around each other, grew dark, smelled of water. Thunder rolled, lightning flashed. And, in the midst of the chaos unleashed on this city, a hole, an absence of numbers.

The hole in the world. The same hole Lenares and the others came through.

This is what the hole does, she thought as she looked upon the devastated city. It eats threads and nodes. People die. The purpose of their deeds is lost. The world unravels.

We are all going to be destroyed.

But what is the hole doing here? Then another thought: Are there stories other than ours? Threads we know nothing about?

And a final thought. Tell Dryman nothing.

Duon licked his lips. Dryman the mercenary soldier made him nervous. The circ.u.mstances that had led to the man taking command were unclear, as were the reasons why they had continued northward after the Valley of the d.a.m.ned. If he was honest, his fear of Dryman had a.s.sumed a significance out of proportion to the actual danger the man presented. It seemed unlikely the soldier could out-duel Duon with a sword. Dryman had looked competent-a little flashy, actually-during the fighting at the Valley of the d.a.m.ned, but Duon could hold his own on the practice ground.

There was something about Dryman, though, that defied a.n.a.lysis. Everyone felt it. The strange cosmographer girl could not figure him out, and the Omeran seemed to be in his thrall. Weak minds, both. But even Dryman had not been able to find a way through the glamour that had fallen upon them in Nomansland. Nor, for all his arrogance, had he kept them from being taken up by what the cosmographer called a 'hole' and deposited here.

Perhaps he hadn't wanted to.

Lenares knew something about where they were and what had happened here, Duon believed. But her caution around Dryman kept her mouth closed. She had said, though, that they were in the northlands. That made no more sense than any other idea, but nor did it make less sense, so it would do as a working a.s.sumption.

They stood in the middle of a wide but empty street. Whatever catastrophe had wrecked the city had also driven the inhabitants either indoors or out of the city entirely; he'd seen one or two people down towards the harbour, and even now he could see indistinct movement in the gloom. Something about the city tugged at his memory: he had been here during his exploration, as late as last year perhaps, he was sure of it. Wide streets, a small but serviceable harbour, an imposing palace looming above the water. Hadn't there been a monument of some kind near the palace? He craned his neck. Though where they stood gave them a good view over the city, he could see no monument. Perhaps he was wrong.

A boy came scurrying down the road, eyes streaming with tears.

'Pardon me,' Duon said, an arm outstretched, stopping the lad in his tracks. 'Can you tell me what town this is?'

The boy jabbered something and tried to pull away from Duon's grasp. A northerner tongue, no doubt of it.

'Slow, please,' said the captain, struggling to recall the generic northern tongue he'd learned. 'Do you understand me?'

'How can I (something) understand you when you don't talk (something)?' The boy screwed up his face, evaded Duon's grasp and sprinted up the street towards a gate in the city wall.

A crowd stood by the gate, and as Duon began to walk towards them, one bent down to listen to the boy, who pointed at him. There was shouting, then movement behind the crowd, and a burly, red-haired man forced his way through, clearly attracted by the hubbub.

'A good evening to you all,' Duon thought he said, was sure he said, as he approached. 'Can you tell me the name of this city?'

The boy held on to the skirts of what was probably his sister; surely she was too young to be his mother. She had tears in her eyes and dirt streaked her face. Near her stood another woman, much plainer, wearing a dirty, shapeless robe similar to that of a Talamaq palace servant. Two men flanked her. The younger, a handsome man with piercing eyes, had a hand on the plain girl's shoulder. The older was the burly red-haired man who had made his way through the crowd. The man stood now with his arms folded, as though waiting for an explanation, though he looked disinclined to believe any explanation he was given.

'Boy says you are a stranger,' the burly man said as Duon drew up to the crowd by the gate. Suggate-he remembered the name. He'd remember the name of the city soon. 'Can't speak the language, odd dark skin, he said. His mother is afraid you are Neherian, though you certainly don't look like a Neherian to me. What are you then? What are your companions? And where did you come from?'

'Do you regularly take instruction from boys?' Duon said. He hoped he'd got the word for 'instruction' right; it would rather spoil the effect if he hadn't. As he spoke he couldn't help reflecting on the strangeness of this. He and the remnants of the expedition had travelled north magically across the world, had survived the ravages of Nomansland, only to exchange words with some local buffoon.

The man's face went red, and the boy laughed: clearly Duon had not chosen the right word. He'd been expecting to have months to practise his Bhrudwan common tongue as they made their way north towards Jasweyah, but they seemed to have bypa.s.sed the mountain kingdom altogether.

'Your pardon, sir. I am indeed a stranger here, and not practised in your tongue. Could you please tell me the name of this town?'

'You're wandering around in the ruins of the fairest city on the Fisher Coast, and you don't know where you are? Are you entirely a fool?'

'The fairest city on the Fisher Coast? Then this is Aneheri?'

'Aneheri?'

The man's face, already red, turned crimson, and his hand went to his side as though reaching for a blade. The younger man said something in low tones.

'Aye,' the red man responded, nodding. 'Can't blame a fool for his ignorance, but there are questions raised here, to be answered at a less urgent time. This is Raceme, friend, not the gutter-born, Alkuon-cursed Neherian nest named by you. Now, man, gather your companions and leave the city. Night is falling and the decision has been made to vacate Raceme; it is too dangerous to remain here says Captain Cohamma, apparently, and we want to prevent looting. We were on our way out but were called back by the boy's mother here, suspicious of strangers. Seems we were needed, after all. Now get your friends and follow us.'

Duon opened his mouth to respond, questions forming as he prepared to speak, but the red man beat him to it.

'Are you deaf, or were my words too difficult for you? Go, fetch your friends and come with us out of the city. Do it now, or be prepared to defend yourself.'

Putting aside his surprise, it was all Duon could do not to laugh. Defend himself? Surely this man was no swordsman; he'd seldom seen anyone with such an obvious lack of grace. The fool didn't even have a sword on his hip. The younger man had a blade, though, and the look, but he wasn't the one doing the threatening.

Something else had occurred to him during the exchange: no one else in his party understood the northern language. Dryman would have to depend on him. Duon could tell the soldier whatever he wanted. Finally, a situation where his experience would count. Where he might be able to remake some meaning from the wreckage of this expedition.

'Seen any Neherians?'

'There was one a while ago, or so one of the women claimed. No sign of him now.'

'What's to stop them sneaking back into the city now the storm's over? Taking by stealth what they couldn't take by force?'

'The woman makes a good point, master. Why have we abandoned the city?'

Voices washed over Duon as he lay near one of the many fires set on the hill. Weary from days of flight and the shock of finding himself suddenly somewhere else, he'd followed like a dutiful animal when Dryman decided they would join the exodus from the city. Even Lenares hadn't questioned the decision. Now he awaited events. Darkness had set in, a rich cloak of comfort unlike the cold starlight of the south, and under that cloak the survivors of Raceme lit fires, fed themselves with whatever they could find, and took stock. Listening to the many fragments of conversation gave Duon the chance to learn much of what had taken place here, and he was somewhat discomfited to find similarities with events to the south. Invasions, ambushes, storms, destruction and flight.

Despite his interest, however, he listened with only one ear. Another voice commanded his attention. Duon recognised it as emerging from the same place his previous delusional voice had come from: a small, cold place in the back of his head. But this sounded nothing like the previous voice, which had been an evil, taunting thing. Instead, this voice sounded gentle, sorrowful somehow, even though it seemed not to be forming words.

Dih heh huh huh?

A question, it sounded like, though he did not understand it. What could be happening to him? Some mental reversion to babyhood? But would a baby be able to a.n.a.lyse its own thinking?

On and on the voice went, speaking seldom and slowly, and Duon sensed that, despite its incomprehensibility, it directed a conversation. As he listened, a group of two men and a woman came to the southerners' fire and gave them a basket with freshly cooked meat inside. The southerners fell upon it ravenously. But still the one-sided conversation of meaningless sounds carried on in Duon's head.

Meh poh miw tew fah fah.

Pause.

Maah. Peh faw amomah.

Long pause.

Had the woman-he was almost certain it was a woman's voice-had she ceased? You, woman, are you still there? he thought at the voice.

An immediate response, but not directed at him. Shh. Shum wum wish nin. Wish nin meeh shpeek.

Pause.

Then, in Duon's mind, as clear as his own voice: I hear your thoughts, stranger. I will hunt for you, and then we will talk. You may have the answers I need.

Duon put a hand to his mouth, as though he could prevent his thoughts escaping. She won't hear me if I don't direct my thoughts at her, he told himself. She made no reply that night, nor did she speak further, so perhaps he was right.

Morning brought a cold wind. Lenares wrapped her tattered clothes about her skinny limbs, but still felt she had never been so cold. 'Just a sea breeze,' Captain Duon had said to her, as though such impossibly bitter temperatures were commonplace. Perhaps they are, this far north, she thought, horrified, though her numbers told her that this was no colder than a Talamaq winter's night. For the first time she wanted the adventure to end. She didn't care whether she solved the mystery of the hole in the world; it could eat everyone up for all she cared. Just let her be home, warm and safe with the other cosmographers.

But the other cosmographers are not at home, she admitted. They were dead. Mahudia in the belly of a lion; Rouza and Palain, ashes on the hot desert wind. She was the only one left. There was no real home to go to.

With that thought, the part of her mind still hoping to reclaim her centredness, the Talamaq base for all her numbers, finally relinquished its unconscious effort. Lenares felt it as a sudden dizziness, and for a moment the entire world went blank.

A mere moment, but it seemed to last forever. Not just blind, but stripped of all sensation, Lenares spun in the centre of the hole in the world. This is what it is like to be dead, she thought. Here I am with Mahudia and Rouza and Palain and all the others, and I can't see them or feel them or hear them or touch them or hug them or be angry at them or hear them tell me how special I am, and oh, oh, please, I don't want to be dead, I like life too much. I could be touching Mahudia right now and I would never know. I could be crying or screaming and I can't tell.

This, she realised, is the hole in the world.

Dare she, could she, centre herself here? Did she have the capacity to build a web of numbers here in the ant.i.thesis of everything? Or leave a numerical construction perhaps, linked to her, something that would go wherever the hole went? Something she would recognise later? No, she decided, she would not centre herself here, not yet. Not when there was something-someone-else to centre on. But she could, yes she could, attach something here, for even absence had its own shape, and any shape could be mathematically defined. Defined, then pinned down.

After what seemed to her an hour or more of careful thought, she decided to employ the special number Qarismi of Kutrubul had discovered. She began to work on an equation.

Someone had made a mistake, letting her in here.

As she spun her web of numbers, Lenares fancied she handed a thread to an invisible hand, the gentle hand of a woman who had been the only mother she had ever known.

Then Lenares' eyes opened, her hearing returned, and she tasted blood in her mouth, no doubt from her tongue. The people around her had not changed. Captain Duon still fussed over the amount of food they had been given, Dryman looked on with an unreadable expression, and Torve was still away somewhere practising his Defiance. She had no idea how much time had pa.s.sed. People from the city below the hill moved about purposefully, many of them gathering together, probably getting ready to return to the ruins of their homes. She could hear their babble, mixed with the sound of birds about their morning songs. But everything had changed in the brief moment of infinity.

She took a moment to think about it, to remember, before the memory faded. Her link to Talamaq was gone. She could feel no drawing to the city she had grown up in; instead, a growing disquiet about what she had experienced-endured-during those years. It was as though a glamour cast upon her had finally revealed itself. Why had she always felt comfortable in Talamaq? Especially when her life had been filled with torment and ridicule? Something to be considered later. She would not forget to address the question.

The nearest she could come with words to what had changed within her was that she no longer saw with Talamaq eyes; no longer felt with Talamaq skin. Since she had left the great southern city she'd felt out of place, separated from her real life; but now she felt completely at home exactly where she was.

I am centred...on myself.

But what happens when you move? she asked herself. How can you tie your numbers to a moving centre?

The answer was immediate.

I already have a system of relative numbers. I have tied a trap in the hole in the world. Or perhaps one of the holes in the world. If I tie myself to a few more places, some of them unmoving, I can triangulate myself if necessary, and use my relative numbers most of the time.

No absolute certainty?

No. No, and I don't have certainty in any part of my life. So why not use numbers rooted in probability? Does Torve love me? Probably. Does he always tell me the truth? Probably not. Who is Dryman? Certainly not whom logic says-and Torve hints-he must be.

One question she could not answer. Am I still special, or have I become like everyone else?

Torve had not completed his Defiance for days. The hectic, unreal pa.s.sage through Nomansland had curtailed his ritual of physical discipline. Now he understood how Lenares must feel: confused, disoriented, deprived of her centre. He wished to talk to her about it, to hear her voice, her peculiar way of a.s.sessing things that so often made sense. He just wanted to hear her voice.

He dared not speak to Lenares, however; dared not say to her what he wanted to say, not while he was anywhere near. She didn't know the danger. One careless word, a single unguarded gesture betraying their feelings for each other, could see Torve punished. Killed. It seemed so cruel. Just when life became worth living, it might well be taken away.

Torve threw himself into his Defiance, but it no longer held any restorative magic for him, not after last night.

He had managed to avoid Dryman since their arrival in the north, but not long after the others had settled to sleep, he had been pulled roughly awake by a hand on his shoulder. Even before the man spoke, Torve knew what he wanted, what was going to happen. He had retched, barely keeping the contents of his stomach down.

'Your presence is required,' Dryman said in the bantering tone he'd always used. 'Come on, did you honestly think we'd put this behind us? We have much yet to learn before I finally dip my hand in the fountain of youth. Your insights are always valuable, and you are the only one I can trust.'

'Please,' Torve said, the words slurring from lips slack with dread. 'Haven't we learned enough? Can we not leave these people alone?'

'Now, Torve, you know better,' the man chided. 'You can't resist me. Must I make it a command? Would you break the love between us? Must I reduce you to what you are-an animal?'

'Yes.' It was a whisper. 'Command me, my lord.'

'Very well.'

Torve felt the familiar weight settle on the man, the weight of presence that he had always ascribed to thousands of years of unbroken command, handed down from emperor to emperor. But was it? And was he imagining it, or had it become much stronger of late? Lenares would know. She would work it out, if only he could talk freely to her.

'Torve, I command your obedience in this. You will accompany me tonight as we continue our research here in the northlands.'

'Yes, my lord, I will.' I have no choice. But someday, she will find you out. May the day come soon.

So they had hunted, he and Dryman. They had gone into the city, where rubble still fell from broken buildings, cras.h.i.+ng into the street, and searched for subjects under an intermittent, cloud-occluded halfmoon. Dryman had shown almost no regard for his own safety, just an avidity in his search. Torve did as little searching as he could, but it was he who found the woman, her legs snared by a beam protruding from the roof of her house.

Her face was pale with pain and blood loss, but it lit up when Torve brushed away the debris obscuring her. She babbled what was obviously thanks in her northern language, but her talk evaporated when Torve made no move to free her.

She eased an arm out from under her body and held it out to him, a clear gesture in any language. Torve turned away from her, unable to bear it.

'What have you found?' Dryman asked jovially. 'Oh, clever Omeran, she's perfect. Come on then, let's get to work. We'll use whatever comes to hand. I charge you with remembering every expression on her face.' Immediately the man started scrabbling in the debris for something sharp: a nail, gla.s.s, a wooden splinter.

Torve doubted how much he would be able to see in the darkness, but he would try to obey.

A few minutes later, after the woman realised what was happening to her and began screaming, Dryman cursed. 'This would be much more scientific if she spoke our language. I've underestimated how much of this depends on what our subjects tell us.'

Torve mouthed 'Sorry' to the woman whenever Dryman was otherwise occupied, and when the Emperor of Elamaq went off in search of something sharper, he tried to explain the unexplainable, but of course she could not understand what he was saying. Torve hoped she could see that this was not his will, but he doubted she understood anything beyond her pain.

Eventually she seemed to find numbness, an acceptance that she was going to die, and Torve supposed he was grateful. He wished he could change places with her, so that tonight might see his death.

'Bah,' Dryman muttered. 'She will be of no further use to us. We have learned all we can. End her, Torve, while I consider how best to spend the rest of the evening.'

How could he resist the command? As he took her bloodied head between his hands, he cursed his ancestors and the three thousand years of breeding ensuring an Omeran's absolute obedience to his or her master. He braced himself, then twisted his hands sharply. The woman's neck broke, a merciful sound in a night drenched with suffering.

And more to come.

Torve could hear other cries from amid the ruins, some strong, others failing. He laid the woman tenderly on the ground and watered her face with his tears.

Evidently his master decided he had risked enough in the city. On the way back to the hill, however, they found a young lad frog-hunting by moonlight. He afforded Dryman much more gratification than had the woman, but much less information. Not only did the lad only speak the northern tongue, Dryman made Torve force a stick between his teeth to limit the sound he made. But at this point his master was not seeking information. Torve had often observed this in their experiments beneath the Talamaq Palace. Children pleased him, because they didn't know when to lose hope.

With patience and skill developed over decades of research, Dryman brought the boy to the door of death, made him look through, and read his body for signs of what he saw there. The Emperor had always been good at this. Through the door, and back. Through, and back. Watching all the time for any hint, any c.h.i.n.k in the power of death, any way to cheat the darkness awaiting them all.

'There!' Dryman said. 'Watch the muscles relax. Is that knowledge of the coming freedom from pain, I wonder, or joy at what he's seen awaiting him? Can the keeper of the door be bought or bribed? Does Death's Herald see all, or can his eye be blinded? I have to know!'