The Waking Engine Part 1

THE WAKING ENGINE.

David Edison.

For Marilyn Sue and Bunny, the lovely necromancers who raised me.

ACKNOWLEDGEMENTS.

There are more people to thank than there are pages for thanking. Every friend, every teacher, every obstacle, every encouragement: thank you.

In general, thanks to the patience and understanding of my family and friends, who let me be a gregarious hermit without (much) complaint.

In particular, I would not have written this book without the support of my agents, Loretta Barrett and Jennifer Didik, who signed a madman with three chapters and told him to come back when he'd written a book. Or without Paul Stevens, my editor at Tor, who bought, midwifed and championed the ma.n.u.script. Or without Christopher Michaud, who read so many versions of this book that he became a part of it. You are all partners.

Susan Grode and Nancy Cus.h.i.+ng-Jones, thank you for connecting the dots that led to this wonderful career.

I reserve an enduring grat.i.tude for the teachers in my life, and there are many: Bernard and Marilyn Edison, my first and best teachers; Carol Frericks, my second mother; Stacie Lents, dearest friend and first critic; Evelyn p.r.o.nko, who was right to tell me to pull myself together in fifth grade; Madelyn Gray, Carolyn "Lyn" Thomas, Charles Derleth (I didn't forget) and Joanna Collins, alongside every other teacher at the John Burroughs School, the best high school in the galaxy; Lowry Marshall, who taught me to write on my feet; Ellen Kushner and Delia Sherman, wise friends and fairy G.o.dmothers; and my beautiful Lena, who needs no words to teach.

PROLOGUE.

The room was empty except for the smell of disuse and a small woman with a heart-shaped face and a cloud of flaming red hair. She wore a thin dress that had once been a color, and no shoes. Her bright brown eyes blinked at the knives of light that cut through the slatted windows. Alouette is as good a name for her as any of the others she's used, and Alouette began to smile when she looked at the crumbled molding around the ceiling. Thick fluid had begun to seep from beneath the plaster and flow in dark curtains down the walls; she stifled a laugh. "Oh," she said. "The walls are weeping. It must be Tuesday."

Alouette paced the room, tracing its boundary with her toes in the dust that lay heavy on the floor; she tested the wall with a finger but was unsurprised when it came away dry.

"The tears like to run down, don't they? But don't stay to play. Would ruin the effect, I suppose." Alouette sighed and ran bloodless fingers through her bloodred curls. "You are so pretentious," she said to the gurgling walls.

She s.h.i.+vered, but not from cold, and looked down at the circle she had traced on the floor, its smooth curve marred only a little by her footprinted meanderings-she walked on the b.a.l.l.s of her feet and her step was light and, besides, the circle was a thing she'd intended to make, which made it more real somehow. Where Alouette was concerned, intent was everything.

Except for Tuesdays.

"Oh, oh," she said, pulling a demita.s.se from behind her back. A thimbleful of bright green tea steamed within. "I do not want to do this. I do not mean for this to happen, but it will, and so I must cause it. I have to make a thing, because the thing will be made. Oh, oh, everything runs wrong on days like this." She tossed the tiny cup out the window, spilt tea catching the light like brilliant-cut citrine.

Alouette rubbed her bare arms, feeling their softness and noticing without pride or dismay the whiteness of her skin; like the dress, it too had probably held color, once upon a time. A poppy-red ribbon tied around one ankle caught her eye, and she lifted her foot off the dusty floorboards, admiring the curl of satin. It was the only brightness in the room.

Yes, she liked this shape, and the feel and look of it. She liked the skin and the light bones; loved the hair, but then she almost always wore red up there. Alouette nodded, letting a little vanity into the room- she was only delaying the inevitable, but a strict discipline had never really been her style. She nodded: yes, she liked this shape for many reasons, but mostly because it felt the truest. If she'd ever been a true woman, she might have looked like this.

Squaring her shoulders to bring herself to attention, Alouette let them slump again as she studied the circle of clean nothing drawn in the dust of dirty nothing. She wished she knew why it was that great things, beautiful or terrible or both, so often stepped out of nothing to shake the worlds and raze the heavens only to creep back into nothing at the end of their day.

"I'm so sorry," she said to the circle as she embellished it with more empty s.p.a.ces, twirling blank lines into the dust with her toes like a broken ballerina. "I am so sorry, stranger, to cause this thing to be done to you. You deserve a better Tuesday."

And as she moved, the worlds moved; or rather, something moved through the worlds. The strings were invisible and the call inaudible but somewhere, somehow, a thing moved in an impossible way. Not a thing, Alouette reminded herself, deliberating on that descriptor; it's a human being that moves. As Alouette spun almost drunkenly, someone moved from here to there. Someone ignorant and innocent and, now, someone lost.

The lost were Alouette's specialty. They were province, her provenance, and on awful days like this-her creation. Her byproduct.

She held the lost things of the worlds closest to her heart: lost men and women, lost kingdoms, worlds, and civilizations-lost ribbons and empty rooms. She held back the tide of loss and losing that described the arc of the metaverse in all its tragic iterations, on tiny scales and on scopes for which only G.o.ds and powers could grieve. In the foreign sharpness of her mind, the being who called herself Alouette saw that this forgotten room cried ropes of snot and salt for her occasional betrayals. The walls wept for the circle she danced into the dusty emptiness. The walls bawled because she never, would never cause a thing to become lost. Loss was her defining hate, her pa.s.sion, sacrifice, her ruin.

She never intended loss.

Except on Tuesday.

1.

My braying heart continues in spite of itself: I am. I am. I am. I do not know why I am here, but it is clearly not to Die. I see them, the Dying people, spiritually aged, faces bleached of all color by worlds of weekdays; I see them stumbling through the cathedral forest beneath the Dome. My G.o.d, I think they are like birds. Piloted by instinct.

I'll spend hours birdwatching there, watching them Die-their bodies evaporate like smoke and the last look on their faces is peace, the first true peace they have known in dozens or hundreds or thousands of lives. Peace comes like a broken clock.

I hate them for that, the idiot birds who get to Die. If it were within my power to deny the Dying their Deaths, I would. Why should they find peace while I find none?

-Sylvia Plath, Empty Skies & Dying Arts Cooper opened his eyes to see a spirit shaped like a woman, who cradled his head in her hands, her hair a halo of pink light that fell over his face. Angel eyes the color of wet straw looked down on him, and she smelled of parchment and old leather. As his eyes adjusted to the light, he saw that her freckled skin was tan, nearly brown, and for a long moment Cooper waited for her to speak. This is heaven, she would say. You will find peace here, and oblivion. We will heal your hurts, friend. Welcome home, she would say. You have been away too long. Cooper would smile, and submit, and she would guide him somewhere radiant.

He did not expect the slap to his cheek. Nor the second that followed, stinging.

He did not expect the angel to drop his head onto the hard ground and declaim, "I can do nothing with this t.u.r.d."

"My friend was not wrong, Sesstri," a man said, cursing. "That is what makes him my friend and not my dinner."

The woman pulled away and light came pouring over Cooper's eyes, almost as blinding as before. Struggling, he could see that it wasn't the light of heaven needling through his pupils-the sky above was jaundiced and cloud-dappled, and he lay in the rain on an odd little hillock that bristled with yellow gra.s.s. Above him, the two strangers just stood there, glaring down at his body.

And suddenly his body was all Cooper could feel: lit up with pain, scalded. How had he thought himself dead, let alone at peace? His bones ached and his bowels shuddered, and an abrupt crack of lightning overhead seemed to pierce his skull and live there, screeching agony between his temples. He tried to sit up but couldn't. He couldn't even roll onto his side, and when Cooper opened his mouth no words came out-he jawed like a fish in air, and flopped as helplessly. Flocks of birds pinwheeled across the sky. Bells rang and rang.

What happened? Cooper scrambled inside his head to rea.s.semble some kind of continuity of experience. The last thing he could recall was drifting through a borderless sleep into a half-dream of lightless depths. He recalled sensing bodies in motion, ma.s.ses larger than planets drifting through the murk below his dream-self. He could not see them, but somehow-he knew them. And maybe then he had pa.s.sed beyond shadows. Maybe then he'd seen a city. . . .

"Bells for the abiding dead, what a waste of my time!" The man standing above Cooper cursed again and raised his boot. Cooper had time to blink once before the crunch of boot-heel slammed him back into darkness.

When he next opened his eyes, Cooper could tell by the quality of the light that he'd been moved indoors. He heard voices, the same man and woman from earlier, still arguing. He'd been dropped onto something hard but covered in padding, and when the wood creaked beneath his weight and a pillow found his cheek, he realized it was a sofa. Something about creaking wood and narrow cus.h.i.+ons felt instantly recognizable; for half a second, Cooper worried that he'd broken the furniture, an old, familiar thought. He closed his eyes before anyone could see he'd come around, playing detective with his senses as rapidly as his addled mind could muster. He smelled kitchen smells- soap and old food- and something pleasant, like flowers or potpourri. Peeking out from between his lashes, Cooper saw a blurry image of his saviors-captors?-the man and woman who'd taken him home.

"I've finished examining him, Asher. You can come back in." The woman, who sounded annoyed, smoothed strawberry-blond hair so pale it fell past her shoulders like a bolt of pink silk. "I cannot help you with this. Anything your friend said you'd find on that hill is between you and the sheep guts, or whatever absurd claptrap he employs to disabuse you of your coin. I'm not going to rifle through every corpse that wakes up south of Displacement and Rind for you, anyway, so you'll have to do the dirty work yourself."

"Fine, forfeit your fee, Sesstri," said Asher, and Cooper noticed that the tall man, broad-shouldered but gaunt, had skin and hair the pale gray of old bones or nearly pregnant clouds. "I'd pay you for examining his body, but since I carried him back to your house, I think we're even."

Cooper squeezed his eyes shut again and felt them approach, felt them hover over him.

"He's as heavy as he looks," said the gray man.

Sesstri made an unhappy noise. Cooper didn't need eyes to feel her scrutiny.

He kept still when she jabbed his chest with her finger.

When she spoke, Cooper could tell that Sesstri had turned away. "He is just a person. He's just like everyone else." She hesitated. "A little green to wake up here, but nothing unheard of-I only died twice before I came here myself. Whoever he may have been, he is not the 'something special' you are looking for. He will heal no wounds, diagnose no conditions, and answer no questions." She left the room, seeming more interested in the singing teakettle than the men defiling her home. "Muck up the place all you like," she called out, "I haven't seen the landlady since the day she handed me the keys."

Asher knelt close and brushed Cooper's face with his hand. "You can open your eyes now, friend. We don't need her." He whispered, tobacco on his breath, and Cooper peeked through his eyelids. The face so close to his own was a silver mask that smiled: "Welcome to the City Unspoken, where the dead come to Die. In my city, everything old is made new again, and anything new is devoured like sweet eel candy."

Cooper looked at Asher's ghostlike hair as he pulled away and turned to stir something at the sink beneath the window. Over his shoulder, the window showed a square of lemony sky and an unfamiliar, pale green sun. When Cooper sat up, head throbbing, Asher turned to him holding a tray piled with b.u.t.tered toast and two steaming mugs. His gray skin was smooth and his eyes flickered like strange candles, red and blue and green together. He was handsome and repulsive at the same time, like a great beauty embalmed. Something wriggled inside Cooper's head, an instinct trying to name itself. It didn't come.

Nothing came, Cooper realized- no panic, no outrage, no bewilderment or dispossession at waking to find himself . . . well . . . wherever he'd found himself. Nothing came but fog in his mind and an emptyheaded sense of confusion.

Asher smirked when he saw Cooper awake, but said nothing, content to lean on his hip and observe the new arrival. The moment stretched. Then it snapped. "What . . ." Cooper blurted, then faltered, unable to pick one question from the dozens that crowded his tongue. "Why is the sun green?"

The last thing Cooper remembered was lying down fully clothed on his own bed after another long day of work and text messages. But these weren't his friends, this wasn't his apartment, and he certainly hadn't been sending texts to any ash-skinned thugs. All he knew for certain- this was no dream. It hurt too much, and the logic didn't follow itself moment-to-moment as in a dream.

"Welcome to the waking," Asher said with a smile. "Drink this." His long-fingered hands were huge.

"Sesstri's taking notes." He handed Cooper a mug steaming with the scent of jasmine and spice. "I left the room while she strip-searched you, though, if that spares your ego any."

Cooper looked down at the mug shaking in his hands and fought the urge to throw it in the stranger's face. His gut, as always, told him to say "f.u.c.k you," and, as always, he said nothing. He grimaced, though the tea and b.u.t.tered bread smelled like heaven.

"Drink it," Asher commanded.

Jasmine and pepper filled his mouth, hot and real. And it did bring Cooper back, clearing some of the fog from his head. He began looking at his surroundings in earnest while rolling sips of tea across his dry tongue. They sat alone in a room, the wallpaper calligraphed with unfamiliar symbols. On a wooden table against one wall spun an odd looking Victrola, its mouthpiece carved from a huge spiral horn, and a low table piled with books. In fact, every available surface seemed piled with books. Asher handed him a plate and this time Cooper accepted it eagerly.

"This is a living room," Cooper said before filling his mouth with toast. It was bliss.

"Ah, yes. It is. I'm Asher." The gray stranger introduced himself, nodding.

Cooper reciprocated through a mouthful of b.u.t.tery ecstasy. "Maybe you could . . . tell me . . . where I am?" he added.

Asher watched Cooper scarf down the toast and drain the spicy tea, then held out a hand. "Can you stand? Come upstairs with me, and I will show you."

Of course I can stand, Cooper thought before trying- and falling back onto the couch. He frowned and grabbed another slice of toast as Asher lugged him to his feet, but a few steps later his legs weren't so wobbly after all.

He followed Asher up a narrow stairway that turned at odd angles and led higher than Cooper felt it ought to. At one pinched landing stood an end table where an armful of foxglove shoots wilted from a china vase. "She can't be bothered with flowers . . . ," Asher half muttered, shaking his head.

At the top of the stairs, the gray man opened a splintered door with a kind of reverence. Sweeping one smoky hand, he ushered Cooper through the portal.

As he stepped out onto the wooden widow's walk nailed to the roof, a chill pa.s.sed through Cooper's body. A city lay spread out before him. More than a city- a comment on a city, on all cities, a sprawling orgy of architectural imagination and urban decay. Buildings and blocks stretched to the horizon, and Cooper's head reeled to take it in, from the spired heights that pierced the distance to the crusts of abandoned blocks, smoldering and dark where they lay. He turned and turned, but the city was all he could see, opening itself to him. There were wards that seemed to bustle with life, but there were also dead zones-whole precincts left to rot within the girding chaos. What he saw seemed to be the very idea of a city, barnacled and thick with itself.

Veils of fog hung at various alt.i.tudes within the air, draped over the city in colors of rock crystal-smoky quartz, amethyst, and citrine. The wind was strangely warm, and Cooper smelled a dozen different flavors of incense on its s.h.i.+fting gusts. A song of competing bells tolled point and counterpoint across the metropolis, sending flocks of birds wheeling into the air at intervals.

And competing skies. The pale yellow sky that Cooper had seen through the window downstairs seemed to have slid off to one side of the heavens, following its tiny green star. In the east, heavy clouds played peekaboo with a bluer firmament, and a yellow sun seemed to emerge, fading into and out of existence as he watched.

The skies, he marveled, watching them change.

Asher led Cooper, dumbfounded, to a weathered spygla.s.s mounted upon a pipe at the edge of the walkway. Cooper hesitated-did he want to see? Did he want to accept the reality of this fever-dream? But he put his face to the gla.s.s and opened his eye to the city, despite suspecting that once he saw the details of this nightmare, once he knew its shape and aspect, it would be irreversibly real. The city would be real and he would be well and truly lost within it, unhinged, a ghost among ghost-men.

Through the telescope he saw snapshots of the whole: monuments and mausoleums pitted and scarred with age lay tilted, stone and gilt akimbo as the growth of the city slowly devoured them. Mansions hid behind walls that sheltered riotous gardens and skeletal gazebos. To the west, a sculpture of a weeping woman worked entirely in silver sat buried up to her ma.s.sive head in newer stonework-a garland of exhaust pipes about her neck belched bruise-purple smoke into the air from below. Not far from that, an alabaster angel blew his shofar before a ramshackle square that brimmed with black oil, summoning a host that would clearly never come. And chains, everywhere chains-thick as houses, exposed by ca.n.a.ls, or pulled up from belowground and winched like steeples over bridges and buildings, draped across districts, erupting from the tiled floors of public squares.

Panning, Cooper saw wide boulevards lined with sycamores, elms, and less familiar trees, avenues that glittered darkly or pulsed with traffic. The larger thoroughfares led from a shadowy axis that reminded him of an orb spider's web. At the center of the web, near the horizon, a vast plaza yawned. The plaza itself must have been huge to be so visible from this distance, but what lay beyond was bigger still: was it a structure, or a mountain, or something still more bizarre?

Above the central s.p.a.ce loomed a dome that would dwarf a hundred arenas, a hemisphere worked in copper and gla.s.s that looked like lacework but whose struts must have been the thickness of a city block. It commanded the horizon like a fallen moon, and was strung with banners and limned from within by a green-gold glow. The great dome sat at the heart of a cl.u.s.ter of smaller spheres, bubbles of stone and metal that adhered to the central structure, bristling with arced bridges and needle- thin towers.

"Who lives there?" Cooper asked, pointing to the dome that dwarfed everything.

"In the Dome?" Asher wrinkled his nose. "Fflaen the Fair- at least, he used to. The Prince."

"Oh," Cooper said.

"He rules here." Asher bobbed his head and said no more, gaze lost in his city.

"Where is here?" Cooper asked at length, trying to keep the welling terror from his voice. The gray man didn't answer his question. Instead, his eyes drifted to the distance. Fires flickered out there, in the towers of the city. Towers that burned but never fell.

That was a sight that made Cooper's gut twist. Could he hear crying? He looked to his acquaintance. "Where is here?" he asked again.

Asher's eyelashes were the color of smoke, and the silence stretched until it became an answer of its own.

Cooper made it back down to the living room in a blur, where Sesstri explained matters more thoroughly. "Listen to me very carefully. This may sound complicated, but it's not: the life you lived, in the world you called home, was just the first step. A short step. Less than a step. It's the walk from your house to the barn, and what you think of as death is nothing more than the leap up into the saddle of your trusty pony. When you die there, you wake up, well, not here usually-but someplace else. In your flesh, in your clothes, older or younger than you remember being, but you, always you."

Cooper nodded because it was all he could do.

"There are a thousand thousand worlds, each more unlike your home than the last. Where you end up, or how you get there, n.o.body really knows. You just do. And you go on. Dying and living, sleeping and waking, resting and walking. That's how living works. It's a surprise for most of us, at first. We think our first years of life are all we'll ever see." She paused, her thoughts turning inward. "We are wrong."

Cooper said nothing. He was dead and he was going to live forever?

Sesstri considered him and drew a long breath, raked her fingernails through her morning-colored hair. "Life is a very, very, very long journey. Sometimes you go by boat, sometimes by horse. Sometimes you walk for what seems like forever, until you find a place to rest."

"So . . ." Cooper drawled, deliberately obtuse because humor seemed the only way he could go on breathing. "I have a pony?"

Asher chuckled. Sesstri didn't.

"There is no pony!" she snapped. "The pony was a mere device. In the country of my origin, we smother our idiots and mongoloids at birth. You are fortunate to have been born into a more forgiving culture." Asher's chuckle grew into laughter.

Sesstri rested her palms on her knees and made an obvious show of being patient. "Let me say this as plainly as possible. There are a nearly uncountable number of universes-universes; mind you, when we speak of 'the worlds' we speak of whole realities-most of which are populated to a greater or lesser extent with people. Universes with planets that are round, or flat, or toroid-and others with s.p.a.ce that conforms to no geometry or cosmology you or I would recognize from home. On most of these worlds, people are born, and live, and die. When we die, we don't cease to exist or turn into s.h.i.+mmering motes of ectoplasm or purple angels or anything else you may have been brought up to believe. We just . . . go on living. Someplace else."

"People call it the 'dance of lives,' " Asher interjected, miming a jig.

Sesstri c.o.c.ked her head for a moment as if tucking away a fact, then widened her eyes to ask if Cooper followed her so far. He nodded, hungry for Sesstri to continue even though he had already swallowed a bellyful of follow-up questions. Toroid? Which was it, worlds or universes-or was that distinction itself subject to variation? She was a much better instructor than Asher, and Cooper's only option was to learn.

"There's little logic behind where we go, although a great many thinkers have spent a great deal of time failing to prove otherwise. I might have succeeded. We live and die, then wake somewhere new. We live on, die again, then wake once more. In a sense you're right-it is a kind of prison sentence, and life will exhaust you at every opportunity. It's a slow and painful way to travel, but that's life: painful and slow. And very, very long." When she finished, she looked at Cooper with a mixture of doubt and expectancy, waiting for the inevitable reaction of shock and confusion, but it did not come.

"Welcome to the Guiselaine!" Asher sang out, his arms spread wide. "The best worst district in the whole nameless sprawl." He and Cooper stood atop a brick bridge that straddled a foaming brown ca.n.a.l. Foot traffic, rickshaws, and carts of every design pushed past them toward the warren of crooked alleys and side streets that comprised the Guiselaine, and Asher grabbed Cooper's wrist, pulling them into the crush. Cooper resisted, but Asher dragged him along anyway; the man was strong. The crowd eddied around a small fountain square at the far side of the bridge before swarming into a tangle of shadowy lanes where the walls tilted overhead, hiding the sky behind half-tunnels of stone and wood and daub.

The two men waded through a river of dirty faces, citizens of a dozen flavors-the rich mixed with the poor mingled with the alien, all distracted by conversation or the challenge of a swarming market at noon. Asher steered through the crowd expertly, his gray face and white- crowned head breaking above the rabble like the prow of a ghost s.h.i.+p, fey and proud-a s.h.i.+p of bones, a s.h.i.+p of doves.

"The City Unspoken has many quarters, but for my money, the Guiselaine is the one to see," Asher confided to Cooper as they ducked onto one of the broader thoroughfares. "A most deplorable gem of a borough." He waved a gray h.e.l.lo to friendly faces Cooper was too distracted to make out. "All tangled streets and hidden treasures. Harmless fun during the day, quite another story after dark. Which is, of course, when I like it most." Asher spread his hands in a mock- spooky gesture, and Cooper grinned in spite of himself. He took Asher's hand and gripped it tightly as they darted through the busy world. Whatever had happened to him had dispossessed him wholly, and Cooper found his head full of odd whispers. The crowd didn't seem to help.