The Spider Truces Part 7

"Reardon," his dad replied.

"Reardon the farmer?"

"No, Reardon the ballet dancer who drives to the theatre on a tractor."

Ellis laughed so much he squirmed and Denny chased him home, calling him a fool.

Ellis went straight to his room and because he felt so happy he knew it would be safe to go to his s...o...b..x, to see his mum. Inside the box were war-torn ping-pong b.a.l.l.s, Plasticraft paperweights, used Instamatic flashbulbs and Top Trump cards held together by elastic bands. From beneath these objects he took a matchbox. He slid it open and took from it a solitary slide, which he held up to the window. He held one eyelid closed and moved his open eye up close to the photograph. This slight head movement took him into an Ektachrome world, where he stands as a four year old in the back garden in Orpington. He is wearing wellington boots that reach his shorts and a mac and a thick mustard-coloured sweater. The garden is wintry and a little overgrown. The shadows of the trees are long. The gra.s.s is tingling with dew. Standing at the garden gate is Ellis's mother. She is holding her hand out to Ellis and saying something to him. She has a smile on her face. She looks happy and her expression is the embodiment of what Ellis perceives, to this day, to be beauty.

The next thing she will do is place her hand in Ellis's hand and lead him out of the garden. Whenever he returns to this scene she is waiting for him, offering to take him by the hand.

He knew from Chrissie that she had called him "Ellie". Sometimes, when he dreamed about her, it was of her voice calling "Ellie-boy ... Ellie-boy ..." But it was only her voice. He could never see her for all the sunlight glaring into his eyes. Chrissie remembered her vividly but not her death. She knew that her mum was going on holiday and then that she was very ill and that they couldn't visit her. Not even their dad could go. Then she died. Once, she asked if their mum had died of cancer and her dad nodded and said yes. Another time, when Ellis was alone with Mafi, the old lady said she had "died of adventure".

5.

No matter how he worded the conversation, Denny O'Rourke felt as if he was asking his children for permission to stay out late.

"Guess where I'm calling from?"

"Where?" Ellis asked.

"Longspring Farm."

"You're so lucky! What are you doing there?"

"I'm going to stay and have supper with Mr Reardon and some of his friends, if Mafi doesn't mind holding the fort. Do you want to put her on?"

"Are you going to milk a cow or anything?"

"I hope not."

"I won a goldfish," Ellis said, in what was to him a seamless line of conversation. "I'm calling it Yootha. Can I keep it? And before you say no can I just say that do you realise I was born in 1967 and now it's 1979 and this is the first time I've ever won anything, so think about that before you say no."

The answer was yes. His dad reminded him that Chrissie had had one in Orpington.

"We've still got the fish tank, Ellis."

"Where?"

"I think I might have put it in that little cupboard in my bedroom. We'll dig it out tomorrow."

But Ellis couldn't wait until then. He pulled his dad's bed away and yanked open the small black door. He saw the fish tank immediately. It was beyond reach and shrouded in cobwebs. He recoiled and went to the bedroom window. Felix the Cat was still running through the willow tree, getting nowhere.

If I am brave enough to get that fish tank, then my mum is in heaven, Ellis told himself.

If I'm not, she's in h.e.l.l.

He crouched down to the same height as the miniature door and readied himself to step, crab-like, into the tiny cupboard. What he had to do was clear in his head. He had converted the challenge, which scared him, into a picture, which did not. He would pull the tank out into the bedroom in one swift movement. Then he'd ask Mafi to dust the cobwebs off whilst he stripped and washed.

He made his move and got a hand on the fish tank before losing his balance. Instinctively, he came up off his haunches to prevent himself from falling backwards, raised his arms to hold on to the low cupboard ceiling and discovered there was no ceiling. Curious, he extended his arm fully but still felt nothing. He looked up. High above him was the faintest hint of light and in it he thought he could make out two walls converging towards each other and, on top of them, the skeletal frame of a roof. Looking down again, he saw a switch in the gloom, the sort houses had when electricity was a new invention. He flicked it and was instantly blinded by a light bulb a few inches from his face. He looked down, and as his eyes recovered his mind made a connection between the bare bulb that had blinded him and the bare bulb that hung in the attic above his bedroom. He realised that the cupboard he was crouched in now was the bottom of the dark, bottomless well he had peered down into from the attic, the well that he had once decided went deep into the earth, possibly to Australia. Now the well was lit and he stood and looked into it, and instead of seeing the cave of magic he had once dreamt of finding through this small black door, he saw a maze of timbers draped in cobwebs which seemed to groan beneath the weight of house spiders. He detected movement by the doorframe and, despite the warnings in his head not to look, his eyes fell upon a community of Scytodes. He had encountered them before, on page 74 of the book. Each spider was swamped by cl.u.s.ters of small white growths. Ellis began to shake. His breathing became rapid and sucked the triangular cobwebs towards his face. He shut his eyes and brushed the webs away, activating silken tripwires which, his mind decided, was the scuttling towards him of a million spiders. He let out a succession of long, piercing screams until a wall of noise spewed from his mouth.

Mafi found Ellis's legs floodlit by the bare bulb and framed by the cupboard door. Unable to talk him out, she crawled inside and dragged him out. She pushed him on to Denny's bed and wrapped the sheets around his shaking body until he was curled up on his side. She held him there and he screamed until exhausted. Barely strong enough to breathe, he wiped the tears from his face and smiled bravely.

"I'm fine," he whispered.

"You're not yourself," Mafi said, stroking his hair.

This was one of those adult sayings which Ellis didn't understand.

"I am, actually ..." he corrected her, politely, then pa.s.sed out.

He woke in his own bed. Denny was asleep in a chair close by. The world was perfectly quiet, the night over but the sun not yet up. Ellis's eyes came to rest, inevitably, on the attic door above him. A house spider squeezed its thick, black legs through the gap and took up position, upside down, on the ceiling overhead. The longer Ellis looked at it the less he could be sure it was there. His back tingled with sweat, his head swam in the anaesthetic of semi-consciousness and he fell back to sleep.

He woke again when his dad drew back the curtains and daylight broke into the room. The attic door and the ceiling were clear, for now at least. Ellis arched his head back on the pillow and looked at the wall separating his bedroom from his dad's. In his mind's eye, he saw through the wall and into the spider well.

"Don't worry, dear boy. I've cleaned up in there."

"If you've killed them, all the others will take revenge," Ellis said reproachfully.

Denny O'Rourke placed a finger on his son's lips.

"There's been no killing," he whispered. "Just a little dust up. They were warned; they had time to move out first. It was all quite amicable."

Ellis looked at his dad doubtfully. He'd never suspect him of lying. But he thought he was being naive.

The truce that had held firm for over a year was over. All around him, Ellis knew, there was an exodus taking place from the spider well. A colony of Tegenaria had taken the hatch attic. Ellis would now live in fear of rain, because it was rainfall that sent him into the hatch attic to move buckets to catch the drips. The dining room fireplace, the boiler cupboard and the pantry, all previously protected areas, were now spider zones. Worst of all, the spider hub had relocated from the well to the attic above Ellis's bedroom.

Ellis now had to raise the subject of their selling the cottage and moving on. He suspected his dad would take a few days to come round to the idea.

Things were a mess. A brief ceasefire was ruined when three spiders appeared in the corridor between Ellis's bedroom and Chrissie's. Ellis complained bitterly but the elders insisted that those particular spiders were members of a small, unaccredited, anti-truce movement.

"How is that fair?" Ellis moaned. "You can use that excuse to get away with anything. There's only one of me! If I do something wrong, I can't blame someone else!"

The spiders took offence.

One thing we are not, Master O'Rourke, is liars.

Early in the New Year, Ellis inadvertently stepped on one of four spiders that had formed a scouting party to investigate the plausibility of moving into the landing cupboard, where toilet paper and cleaning materials were stored. Ellis argued that he hadn't seen the spider in time to avoid it.

"Seeing as you lot seem to know what I'm thinking before I do, you'll know that I'm telling the truth!"

He offered them the complete run of Mafi's garage in return for leaving the cottage. They reminded him that they had been in Mafi's garage since he burnt down the shed. If spiders could laugh, they'd have laughed at him now.

He knew that if he were to ask his dad to sweep through the cottage and clean out the spiders, not bothering to preserve them in the process, his dad would do it for him. But even as a twelve year old, Ellis sensed that a conquest of this nature would be a defeat; that to drive the spiders out would be to put out of reach the possibility of there ever being peace in his head. And sometimes, when he imagined life without the spiders, after a successful war, he got a sense of incurable emptiness.

In the spring the cobwebs became as sinister to Ellis as the spiders themselves. They were everywhere, at all times. In the gra.s.sland, in the meadows, in the woodlands surrounding the village, in the moss banks of Treasure Island, in the boggy fields around the Rumpumps. They were beside the streams and ponds and lakes. In all these places, which Ellis considered his playgrounds, they were there. He had seen them glistening in the dew and he had seen them caught in the low evening sunlight. He had seen them fluttering in the breeze. He'd seen them even if they weren't there, because he'd read about them in the book.

Chrissie was trying to be a more serious human being. She had taken to reading the papers and watching the news.

"Is it so you hope James will think you're interesting and not dump you?" Ellis asked.

James dug his elbow into Ellis's ribs. Ellis had planted himself in between Chrissie and James on the sofa, uninvited.

"No, death-breath, it's because I'm thinking of doing a journalism course."

She glanced at Denny to see if he had heard her. He was scribbling in his notebook. Chrissie had been waiting all evening for a good moment to talk to her dad. Now, she felt her lips tremble before she spoke.

"Dad?"

"Yeah?"

"Dad, please don't throw an eppie, but I was thinking I might not go away to college next month. I might do a journalism course in London instead, and stay living at home another year. You know, commute with you."

Denny O'Rourke took a sip of his tea and hid his elation in the drinking of it. Without looking up from his note-making, he said in a firm yet whispered voice, "Very sensible, my dear girl ... good idea."

Chrissie and James glanced at each other blissfully. She snuggled up against Ellis and draped an arm round him. She was often lazy and affectionate with her brother after she and James had been making love.

At the point when the newsreader said it, no one was watching the TV. Chrissie and James were looking at each other and the prospect of another year's lovemaking. Denny appeared to be reading his list but was in fact thinking joyfully of another year with his family remaining no further undone. And Ellis was using his vantage point, and the pretence of sleep, to cast an eye over the curves of his sister's maturing body. Beneath this inactivity, almost but not quite unheard, unfolded the story of two Brazilian children killed in their sleep by a Phoneutria fera, one of South America's deadliest wandering spiders. The spider had crawled into their bed during the day. In the footage, a mother was screaming and tearing at her hair.

"The South American wandering spider occasionally," the newsreader explained, with the pained expression he adopted for any human interest story, "turns up on our own doorstep in Europe, having hitched a ride in a consignment of bananas and surviving as long as it remains in well heated buildings."

An exceptional calm enveloped the room. The calm that is aware of an approaching storm.

"Here we go ..." Chrissie muttered.

Ellis marched out.

"That's a b.l.o.o.d.y stupid thing to say on national television," Denny O'Rourke muttered bitterly.

They found Ellis in the boiler cupboard, grappling with the thermostat.

"The heating's off," his dad a.s.sured him.

Chrissie shut the fridge door.

"Leave that open!" Ellis shouted. "We've to get the temperature down in this house." He climbed up on to the kitchen table and scoured the floor for any activity.

"I'm never getting into bed again. I want a hammock, hanging from the ceiling."

"The hammock would still be attached to the floor, Ellis, via the walls," Chrissie explained. "You can't levitate in mid-air." She saw no point in giving him false hope.

"I a.s.sure you there aren't any of those spiders here, Ellis," his dad said.

"You don't know that. It was on the news. They could be here! In the bananas! It does happen! And they eat you alive, you can see them doing it as they eat you."

Denny took Ellis in his arms and held him tight. He knew that now was not the time for science or common sense.

"Ellis, I promise you, I will not let anything bad happen to you. Do you think you are going to throw up?"

"Can't tell yet."

They wandered into the orchard, holding hands, and walked in silent, meandering shapes beneath the apple trees whilst Ellis's s.h.i.+vering waned. The light came on in Chrissie's bedroom. Ellis watched her draw the curtains and he wondered what it felt like to be a boy in Chrissie's room, when Chrissie wasn't your sister.

I never get spider s.h.i.+vers when I think about girls, Ellis thought to himself. Maybe that's the thing, maybe if I was allowed to have some s.e.x I'd not be afraid of spiders any more.

He looked at his dad.

No, he'll never buy that.

Ellis didn't mention the Brazilian spiders again but for some weeks he wouldn't allow himself to be alone in the house. One June evening, he found his dad kneeling at the dresser in his bedroom. Denny was holding a pair of silk stockings. He laid them across his wrists and studied them. He held them to his cheek. And then the floorboards creaked beneath Ellis's feet and Denny turned with a flash of anger, which disappeared when he saw his son.

"Are they Mum's?" Ellis asked.

"Yes." Denny placed the stockings back inside the bottom drawer. "I wanted to show you them for a reason," he said, thinking on his feet. "Something amazing and very beautiful ..."

He walked out of the room to the bookcase on the landing.

"But you didn't show them to me," Ellis said, confused.

Ellis stared into the drawer. Next to the stockings was Denny's blue canvas-bound diary from his time in the merchant navy. As a three or four year old, Ellis had pestered his dad to read stories from the diary. At some point after his mother died, it occurred now to Ellis, the diary had disappeared. There was a bundle of airmail letters wedged between the pages of the diary. The letters had been written by his mum, to his dad. Ellis had caught sight of them from time to time when he was younger and had often fantasised of being allowed to search through them for mention of his own name.

Denny returned, holding the spider book. "Have you heard of denier?" he asked, pus.h.i.+ng the drawer shut with his foot.

"What?" Ellis muttered, watching the stockings, the diary and his mother's letters disappear from view.

"The denier of a silk stocking is how they measure how fine it is," Denny said, locking the drawer and putting the key in his pocket. "Listen to this ..."

He began to read from the spider book: "'The denier of a thread is the weight in grams of a nine-kilometre length. Human hair averages about fifty denier. Silkworm silk is about one denier, meaning that a nine-kilometre length weighs just one gram. But the dragline silk of the garden spider is 0.07 denier. A strand of silk long enough to encircle the earth about twenty-five thousand miles would weigh twelve ounces. Yet spider silk is the strongest of all natural fibres.'"

Ellis offered no reaction.

"I think that's pretty incredible, Ellis, don't you?"

"S'pose so ..."

And although he did think it was amazing that a strand of silk that long could weigh so little, he didn't want to encourage the spider book any more. It didn't really help. He didn't need convincing that they were interesting creatures. He knew he shouldn't kill them and it was rare he ever did so knowingly. But knowing more and more about them was not helping. He was still repulsed by them, occasionally to the point of being physically ill. He wanted to fill his mind with other things. That, it seemed to Ellis, was the direction he should take.

"What happens at the top of them?" Ellis asked.

"At the top of what?"

"At the top of the legs. Where do the stockings stop?"