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How people would talk and marvel when they saw Joanna G.o.dden's life-long admirer turn from her to her little sister! They would be forced to acknowledge Ellen as a superior and enchanting person. Of course there was the disadvantage that she did not particularly want Arthur Alce, but her schemings did not take her as far as matrimony.
She was shrewd enough to see that the best way to capture Alce was to make herself as unlike her sister as possible. With him she was like a little soft cat, languid and sleek, or else delicately playful. She appealed to his protecting strength, and in time made him realize that she was unhappy in her home life and suffered under her sister's tyranny. She had hoped that this might help detach him from Joanna, but his affection was of that pa.s.sive, tenacious kind which tacitly accepts all the faults of the beloved. He was always ready to sympathize with Ellen, and once or twice expostulated with Joanna--but his loyalty showed no signs of wavering.
As time went on, Ellen began to like him more in himself. She grew accustomed to his red hair and freckles, and when he was in his everyday kit of gaiters and breeches and broadcloth, she did not find him unattractive. Moreover she could not fail to appreciate his fundamental qualities of generosity and gentleness--he was like a big, faithful, gentle dog, a red-haired collie, following and serving.
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The weeks went by, and Ellen still persevered. But she was disappointed in results. She had thought that Alce's subjection would not take very long, she had not expected the matter to drag. It was the fault of his cra.s.s stupidity--he was unable to see what she was after, he looked upon her just as a little girl, Joanna's little sister, and was good to her for Joanna's sake.
This was humiliating, and Ellen fretted and chafed at her inability to make him see. She was no siren, and was without either the parts or the experience for a definite attack on his senses. She worked as an amateur and a schoolgirl, with only a certain fundamental shrewdness to guide her; she was doubtless becoming closer friends with Alce--he liked to sit and talk to her after tea, and often gave her lifts in his trap--but he used their intimacy chiefly to confide in her his love and admiration for her sister, which was not what Ellen wanted.
The first person to see what was happening was Joanna herself. She had been glad for some time of Ellen's increased friendliness with Alce, but had pat it down to nothing more than the comrades.h.i.+p of that happy day at Lord John Sanger's show. Then something in Ellen's looks as she spoke to Arthur, in her manner as she spoke of him, made her suspicious--and one Sunday evening, walking home from church, she became sure. The service had been at Pedlinge, in the queer barn-like church whose walls inside were painted crimson; and directly it was over Ellen had taken charge of Alce, who was coming back to supper with them. Alce usually went to his parish church at Old Romney, but had accepted Ellen's invitation to accompany the G.o.ddens that day, and now Ellen seemed anxious that he should not walk with her and Joanna, but had taken him on ahead, leaving Joanna to walk with the Southlands.
The elder sister watched them--Alce a little oafish in his Sunday blacks, Ellen wearing her new spring hat with the daisies. As she spoke to him she lifted her face on her graceful neck like a swan, and her voice was eager and rather secret. Joanna lost the thread of Mrs.
Southland's reminiscences of her last dairy-girl, and she watched Ellen, watched her hands, watched the shrug of her shoulders under her gown--the girl's whole body seemed to be moving, not restlessly or jerkily, but with a queer soft ripple.
Then Joanna suddenly said to herself--"She loves him. Ellen wants Arthur Alce." Her first emotion was of anger, a resolve to stop this impudence; but the next minute she pitied instead--Ellen, with her fragile beauty, her little die-away airs, would never be able to get Arthur Alce from Joanna, to whom he belonged. He was hers, both by choice and habit, and Ellen would never get him. Then from pity, she pa.s.sed into tenderness--she was sorry Ellen could not get Arthur, could not have him when she wanted him, while Joanna, who could have him, did not want him.
It would be a good thing for her, too. Alce was steady and well-established--he was not like those mucky young Vines and Southlands. Ellen would be safe to marry him. It was a pity she hadn't a chance.
Joanna looked almost sentimentally at the couple ahead--then she suddenly made up her mind. "If I spoke to Arthur Alce, I believe I could make him do it." She could make Arthur do most things, and she did not see why he should stop at this. Of course she did not want Ellen to marry him or anybody, but now she had once come to think of it she could see plainly, in spite of herself, that marriage would be a good thing for her sister. She was being forced up against the fact that her schemes for Ellen had failed--school-life had spoiled her, home-life was making both her and home miserable. The best thing she could do would be to marry, but she must marry a good man and true--Alce was both good and true, and moreover his marriage would set Joanna free from his hang-dog devotion, of which she was beginning to grow heartily tired. She appreciated his friends.h.i.+p and his usefulness, but they could both survive, and she would at the same time be free of his sentimental lapses, the constant danger of a declaration. Yes, Ellen should have him--she would make a present of him to Ellen.
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"Arthur, I want a word with you."
They were alone in the parlour, Ellen having been dispatched resentfully on an errand to Great Ansdore.
"About them wethers?"
"No--it's a different thing. Arthur, have you noticed that Ellen's sweet on you?"
Joanna's approach to a subject was ever direct, but this time she seemed to have taken the breath out of Arthur's body.
"Ellen ... sweet on me?" he gasped.
"Yes, you blind-eyed owl. I've seen it for a dunnamany weeks."
"But--Ellen? That liddle girl ud never care an onion for a dull, dry chap lik me."
"Reckon she would. You ain't such a bad chap, Arthur, though I could never bring myself to take you."
"Well, I must say I haven't noticed anything, or maybe I'd have spoken to you about it. I'm unaccountable sorry, Jo, and I'll do all I can to help you stop it."
"I'm not sure I want to stop it. I was thinking only to-day as it wouldn't be a bad plan if you married Ellen."
"But, Jo, I don't want to marry anybody but you."
"Reckon that's middling stupid of you, for I'll never marry you, Arthur Alce--_never_!"
"Then I don't want n.o.body."
"Oh, yes, you do. You'll be a fool if you don't marry and get a wife to look after you and your house, which has wanted new window-blinds this eighteen month. You can't have me, so you may as well have Ellen--she's next best to me, I reckon, and she's middling sweet on you."
"Ellen's a dear liddle thing, as I've always said against them that said otherwise--but I've never thought of marrying her, and reckon she don't want to marry me, she'd sooner marry a stout young Southland or young Vine."
"She ain't going to marry any young Vine. When she marries I'll see she marries a steady, faithful, solid chap, and you're the best I know."
"It's kind of you to say it, but reckon it wouldn't be a good thing for me to marry one sister when I love the other."
"But you'll never get the other, not till the moon's cheese, so there's no sense in vrothering about that. And I want Ellen to marry you, Arthur, since she's after you. I never meant her to marry yet awhiles, but reckon I can't make her happy at home--I've tried and I can't--so you may as well try."
"It ud be difficult to make Ellen happy--she's a queer liddle dentical thing."
"I know, but marriage is a wonderful soberer-down. She'll be happy once she gets a man and a house of her own."
"I'm not so sure. Anyways I'm not the man for her. She should ought to marry a gentleman."
"Well, there ain't none for her to marry, nor likely to be none. She'll go sour if she has to stand ... and she wants you, Arthur. I wouldn't be asking you this if I hadn't seen she wanted you, and seen too as the best thing as could happen to her would be for her to marry you."
"I'm sure she'll never take me."
"You can but ask her."
"She'll say 'No.'"
"Reckon she won't--but if she does, there'll be no harm in asking her."
"You queer me, Jo--it seems a foolish thing to marry Ellen when I want to marry you."
"But I tell you, you can never marry me. You're a stupid man, Arthur, who won't see things as they are. You go hankering after whom you can't get, and all the time you might get someone who's hankering after you.
It's a lamentable waste, I say, and I'll never be pleased if you don't ask Ellen. It ain't often I ask you to do anything to please me, and this is no hard thing. Ellen's a fine match--a pretty girl, and clever, and well-taught--she'll play the piano to your friends. And I'll see as she has a bit of money with her. You'll do well for yourself by taking her, and I tell you, Arthur, I'm sick and tired of your dangling after me."
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Joanna had many more conversations with Arthur Alce, and in the end bore down his objections. She used her tongue to such good purpose that by next Sunday he had come to see that Ellen wanted him, and that for him to marry her would be the best thing for everyone--Joanna, Ellen and himself. After all, it wasn't as if he had the slightest chance of Joanna--she had made that abundantly clear, and his devotion did not feed on hope so much as on a stale content in being famous throughout three marshes as her rejected suitor. Perhaps it was not amiss that her sudden call should stir him into a more active and vital service.
In the simplicity of his heart, he saw nothing outrageous in her demands. She was troubled and anxious about Ellen, and had a right to expect him to help her solve this problem in the best way that had occurred to her. As for Ellen herself, now his attention had been called to the matter, he could see that she admired him and sought him out. Why she should do so was as much a mystery as ever--he could not think why so soft and dainty and beautiful a creature should want to marry a homely chap like himself. But he did not doubt the facts, and when, at the beginning of the second week, he proposed to her, he was much less surprised at her acceptance than she was herself.
Ellen had never meant to accept him--all she had wanted had been the mere proclaimable fact of his surrender; but during the last weeks the focus of her plans had s.h.i.+fted--they had come to mean more than the gratification of her vanity. The denial of what she sought, the dragging of her schemes, the growing sense of hopelessness, had made her see just exactly how much she wanted. She would really like to marry Alce--the slight physical antipathy with which she had started had now disappeared, and she felt that she would not object to him as a lover.
He was, moreover, an excellent match--better than any young Vines or Southlands or Furneses; as his wife she would be important and well-to-do, her triumph would be sealed, open and celebrated.... She would moreover be free. That was the strong hidden growth that had heaved up her flat little plans of a mere victory in tattle--if she married she would be her own mistress, free for ever of Joanna's tyranny. She could do what she liked with Alce--she would be able to go where she liked, know whom she liked, wear what she liked; whereas with Joanna all these things were ruthlessly decreed. Of course she was fond of Jo, but she was tired of living with her--you couldn't call your soul your own--she would never be happy till she had made herself independent of Jo, and only marriage would do that. She was tired of sulking and submitting--she could make a better life for herself over at Donkey Street than she could at Ansdore. Of course if she waited she might get somebody better, but she might have to wait a long time, and she did not care for waiting. She was not old or patient or calculating enough to be a really successful schemer; her plans carried her this time only as far as a triumph over Joanna and an escape from Ansdore.