I’ll Still Love You Even If You’re a Man Vol 3 Chapter 28

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Before Mai Ding can wait for An Ziyan's return, Bai Xiaosi came. Bai Xiaosi shouted out Mai Ding's name loudly downstairs in his dormitory. Mai Ding looked down and saw Bai Xiaosi's smiling face.
 
They sat down in a café near the campus. "Mai Mai, I am here say goodbye. I have to go back to America to continue my studies." Bai Xiaosi just appeared suddenly, and before you know it, she's gone like the wind.
 
"Didn't you come back here to study?"
 
"I don't want others to control me. They complain so much, and that's why I hate them."
 
With that, Mai Ding concluded that she was quite similar to An Ziyan. But as soon as he thought of An Ziyan, Mai Ding began to feel troubled, stirring his coffee with his spoon.
 
"Um, Xiaosi, do you know what happened to An Ziyan?"
 
Bai Xiaosi stared blankly for a while and stop smiling. "I guess that guy didn't tell you."
 
"You really know about it?"
 
"His grandfather got ill and is staying in the hospital. Now he is accompanying his grandpa in hospital. His parents are always busy, so actually, An Ziyan was brought up by his grandpa."
 
"Why didn't he tell me about such accident? It's ironic to learn this from you."
 
Although Mai Ding worried about An Ziyan's grandfather very much, he is An Ziyan's lover, who learns about his boyfriend from others.
 
"According to my experience with him, he doesn't want you to worry about him, so he didn't tell you."
 
"But I am now more concerned this way."
 
"How can both of you have the same thought to one thing? An Ziyan is An Ziyan. You
are you. Therefore, when it comes to a same thing, he doesn't want you to worry about him, so he didn't tell you everything, while you don't want to be treated like a stranger. Both of you act out of your own perspective and think of the other's perspective as well. So, you can't blame him, right?"
 
Bai Xiaosi's words helped Mai Ding calm down. What she said was reasonable. An Ziyan's grandpa is ill now, so it's not the right time to be upset. Mai Ding was not an unreasonable one. He himself promised to stay beside An Ziyan, so he will stay behaved.
 
At least, now that he knows about what had happened to An Ziyan, he feels much more at ease than not knowing anything. Bai Xiaosi checked the time and stood up. "It's time for me to leave." After taking two steps, she turned around and smiled to Mai Ding.
 
"Mai Mai, I give An Ziyan to you, so you need to try your best to love him, give it your all. Even if the whole world would be against you, I, Bai Xiaosi, will always support you." Having said all this, she waved her hand to MaiDing and left. Mai Ding stared at the direction Bai Xiaosi headed, feeling touched.
 
When Mai Ding returned to the dormitory, Li Ming grabs Mai Ding by the neck with his arm. "Hey bro, I made an appointment with some pretty girls today, and we are going to have dinner tonight. Come with me to fill the vacancy."
 
Mai Ding threw Li Ming's arm away. "I'm not going."
 
"Come on! We are bros. I know that you have lost your interest for girls, so you won't steal
their attention."
 
"You are so iniquitous."
 
"Every man for himself and the devil takes the hindmost. Come on. We haven't gone out drinking for so long. You wait for An Ziyan like a sad wife every day. Why not find something to kill time?"
 
After being insisted by Li Ming for a long time, Mai Ding finally agreed. It was a ridiculous party where the guys and girls were hugging with one another. Some girls came to toast with Mai Ding when he was alone. Mai Ding got drunk quickly. He looked out at the sky.
 
It was late at night. He thought of the night when An Ziyan carried him home on his back that day. But what should he do now? He misses An Ziyan so much. He thought about how he wanted to listen to An Ziyan's voice, look at his bad smile and smell the fragrance from his
clothes so badly.
 
Mai Ding found it painful when An Ziyan was not beside him. Mai Ding realized that, so he prayed that An Ziyan would come back soon and hug him. Mai Ding had all these thoughts while lying down on the table.
 
Li Ming has drunk a lot as well and stood up, preparing to pull Mai Ding away. Suddenly, a girl in red stopped Li Ming and approached him intimately. "It's so late now, the dormitory's gates are already closed. Should we book a hotel room?" Her voice was so sweet that Li Ming couldn't help but accept.
 
He looked at Mai Ding, "But it's not right to leave Mai Ding alone since he's so drunk right now. I can't just leave him."
 
"I won't let you leave him. We can book two rooms. Since we'll go to school tomorrow, he's okay even if he stays anywhere. Don't lie to me, you want to have fun with me, right? I won't agree with you unless you come with me tonight."
 
Considering her words, Li Ming thought that she was reasonable. The dormitory's gate has been closed anyway. And An Ziyan was not there. It's was a good idea to book a separate room for Mai Ding.
 
Li Ming helped the drunken Mai Ding by his arm. Mai Ding fell on Li Ming, making Li Ming feel more exhausted. "This guy! How on earth did he drink this much?"
 
Li Ming and Mai Ding were taken to a motel by the girl, who booked two rooms. Li Ming dropped Mai Ding on a bed and was about to wake him up from alcohol, but the girl pulled Li Ming's s.h.i.+rt, "Lets go. How long do you want me to wait for you?" With this, she dragged Li Ming out of the room.
 
After they leave, Zhu Li entered the room, looking at drunken Mai Ding.
 
"Mai Ding." Zhu Li sat on the side of the bed. Mai Ding opened his eyes blankly. It took a long time for him to realize that the girl sitting on bedside is Zhu Li. But his head was aching and he felt drowsy.
 
Zhu Li began to take off her clothes, revealing her slim body.
 
Why do girls like taking off clothes in front of him for An Ziyan? As a man, he should be excited, but he couldn't do that for anyone except An Ziyan. I'm never drinking alcohol ever again. This was Mai Ding's last thought before he fell asleep.
 
Zhu Li took off Mai Ding's clothes and she got into the quilt. She took out Mai Ding's phone
and took pictures. Afterwards, she chose photos that didn't expose her ident.i.ty. After finding An Ziyan's number in Mai Ding's phone, Zhu Li sent him the pictures.
 
On the other hand, An Ziyan has been tired sitting outside the ward for several days. At midnight, his phone rung. He then took it out and saw the photo of Mai Ding lying on the bed with a girl. His eyes turned red and he gritted his teeth. Ultimately, he angrily threw his phone on the wall. The sound of the shattering phone broke the ice of the silent hospital.
 
An Ziyan never knew that he could have such emotions. Anger, pain and sorrow. Those were the emotions caused by betrayal.
 
Upon seeing the photo of his lover on his phone, one can never stay composed enough to
distinguish whether it was real or not. He felt tired, both psychically and mentally.
 
The next morning, while Mai Ding's head was still aching, he sat up and looked around. Zhu Li was no longer around. His clothes were complete on his body. It took a moment for Mai Ding to think about the dream he had last night. When he took out his phone, his face suddenly became pale.
 
The wallpaper of his phone was the picture of him sleeping and Zhu Li without clothes.
 
He became nervous and wanted to stand up from the bed to call An Ziyan. Suddenly, an unknown number called him.
 
"Mai Ding, this is Zhu Li. I forget to tell you that it's all too late now. I have sent the
photos to An Ziyan last night."
 
Saying that, she hung up. Mai Ding then became utterly upset. Holding on to his last hope, he thought An Ziyan would trust him like before. However, he had been dialing him the whole morning, but failed to connect with him.
 
An Su bought another phone for An Ziyan and he changed the SIM card. "Why did you become so angry? Isn't grandpa feeling better?" in his mind. f.u.c.k! An Ziyan wanted to curse, but he was too tired to say anything.
 
When the phone was prepared, a call got in.
 
"An Ziyan, um, please listen to my explanation"
 
"What do you want to say?"
 
The indifferent att.i.tude upsetted Mai Ding. He grasped the phone tightly. "You don't trust
me?"
 
"You can f.u.c.king sleep with anyone if you like. It's none of my business." An Ziyan then hung up.
 
Mai Ding stood there blankly. An Ziyan has never scolded him like that. Mai Ding then squatted on the ground. What made him sad was the fact that An Ziyan didn't trust him. What on earth was with their love, why was it so easily broken? He missed An Ziyan every day, but what he got in return was sadness.
 
Who should be blamed? Is it wrong for An Ziyan to disbelieve Mai Ding? But even An Ziyan couldn't calm down and forgive Mai Ding when he learned that his lover was sleeping with someone else while he needed to worry about his grandpa. Or was Mai Ding being too careless? Mai Ding didn't do anything wrong after all.
 
If you want to, then blame it on love. It makes humans lose their rationality, yet they still can feel the pain from love.
 
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To be continued..