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"Perhaps I shall be."
"Well, if you are--if I am--all the more reason why I want you to know that I understand what you were driving at. It was this way, wasn't it?
You'd got to fight, just as I've got to fight. You couldn't keep out of it any more than I can keep out of this War."
"You couldn't stay out just for me any more than I can stay out for just you."
"And in a sort of way I'm in it for you. And in a sort of way you were in it--in that d.a.m.nable suffrage business--for me."
"How clever of you," she said, "to see it!"
"I didn't see it then," he said simply, "because there wasn't a war on.
We've both had to pay for my stupidity."
"And mine. And my cowardice. I ought to have trusted you to see, or risked it. We should have had three--no, two--years."
"Well, anyhow, we've got this evening."
"We haven't. I've got to drive Belgians from nine till past midnight."
"We've got Friday. Suppose they'll give me leave to get married in. I say--how about to-morrow evening?"
"I can't. Yes, I can. At least, I shall. There's a girl I know who'll drive for me. They'll have to give me leave to get married in, too."
She thought: "I can't go to Flanders now, unless he's sent out. If he is, nothing shall stop me but his coming back again."
It seemed to her only fair and fitting that they should s.n.a.t.c.h at their happiness and secure it, before their hour came.
She tried to turn her mind from the fact that at Mons the British line was being pressed back and back. It would recover. Of course it would recover. We always began like that. We went back to go forwards faster, when we got into our stride.
The next evening, Thursday, the girl she knew drove for Dorothea.
When Frances was dressing for dinner her daughter came to her with two frocks over her arm.
"Mummy ducky," she said, "I think my head's going. I can't tell whether to wear the white thing or the blue thing. And I feel as if it mattered more than anything. More than anything on earth."
Frances considered it--Dorothea in her uniform, and the white frock and the blue frock.
"It doesn't matter a little bit," she said. "If he could propose to you in that get-up--"
"Can't you see that I want to make up for _that_ and for all the things he's missed, the things I haven't given him. If only I was as beautiful as you, Mummy, it wouldn't matter."
"My dear--my dear--"
Dorothy had never been a pathetic child--not half so pathetic as Nicky with his recklessness and his earache--but this grown-up Dorothy in khaki breeches, with her talk about white frocks and blue frocks, made Frances want to cry.
Frank was late. And just before dinner he telephoned to Dorothy that he couldn't be with her before nine and that he would only have one hour to give her.
Frances and Anthony looked at each other. But Dorothy looked at Veronica.
"What's the matter, Ronny? You look simply awful."
"Do I? My head's splitting. I think I'll go and lie down."
"You'd better."
"Go straight to bed," said Frances. "and let Nanna bring you some hot soup."
But Veronica did not want Nanna and hot soup. She only wanted to take herself and her awful look away out of Dorothy's sight.
"Well," said Anthony, "if she's going to worry herself sick about Nicky now--"
Frances knew that she was not worrying about Nicky.
It was nine o'clock.
At any minute now Frank might be there. Dorothy thought: "Supposing he hasn't got leave?" But she knew that was not likely. If he hadn't got leave he would have said so when he telephoned.
The hour that was coming had the colour of yesterday. He would hold her in his arms again till she trembled, and then he would be afraid, and she would be afraid, and he would let her go.
The bell rang, the garden gate swung open; his feet were loud and quick on the flagged path of the terrace. He came into the room to them, holding himself rather stiffly and very upright. His eyes shone with excitement. He laughed the laugh she loved, that narrowed his eyes and jerked his mouth slightly crooked.
They all spoke at once. "You've got leave?" "_He's_ got it all right."
"What kept you?" "You _have_ got leave?"
His eyes still shone; his mouth still jerked, laughing.
"Well, no," he said. "That's what I haven't got. In fact, I'm lucky to be here at all."
Nanna came in with the coffee. He took his cup from her and sat down on the sofa beside Frances, stirring his coffee with his spoon, and smiling as if at something pleasant that he knew, something that he would tell them presently when Nanna left the room.
The door closed softly behind her. He seemed to be listening intently for the click of the latch.
"Funny chaps," he said meditatively. "They keep putting you off till you come and tell them you want to get married to-morrow. Then they say they're sorry, but your marching orders are fixed for that day.
"Twelve hours isn't much notice to give a fellow."
He had not looked at Dorothy. He had not spoken to her. He was speaking to Anthony and John and Frances who were asking questions about trains and boats and his kit and his people. He looked as if he were not conscious of Dorothy's eyes fixed on him as he sat, slowly stirring his coffee without drinking it. The vibration of her nerves made his answers sound m.u.f.fled and far-off.
She knew that her hour was dwindling slowly, wasting, pa.s.sing from her minute by minute as they talked. She had an intolerable longing to be alone with him, to be taken in his arms; to feel what she had felt yesterday. It was as if her soul stood still there, in yesterday, and refused to move on into to-day.
Yet she was glad of their talking. It put off the end. When they stopped talking and got up and left her alone with him, that would be the end.
Suddenly he looked straight at her. His hands trembled. The cup he had not drunk from rattled in its saucer. It seemed to Dorothea that for a moment the whole room was hushed to listen to that small sound. She saw her mother take the cup from him and set it on the table.