The Fighting Chance Part 63

"I mean--that."

"I decline to be snubbed. I'm shameless, and I wish to be informed.

Please tell me."

"I'd rather not tell you."

"Very well.

Good-bye.

But don't ring off just yet, Stephen.

Do you think that, sometime, you would care to see--any people--I mean when you begin to go out again?"

"Who, for example?"

"Why, anybody?"

"No; I don't think I should care to."

"I wish you would care to. It is not well to let go every tie, drop everybody so completely. No man can do that to advantage. It would be so much better for you to go about a bit--see and be seen, you know; just to meet a few people informally; go to see some pretty girl you know well enough to--to--"

"To what? Make love to?"

"That would he very good for you," she said.

"But not for the pretty girl. Besides, I'm rather too busy to go about, even if I were inclined to."

"Are you really busy, Stephen?"

"Yes--waiting. That is the very hardest sort of occupation. And I'm obliged to be on hand every minute."

"But you said that you were going out of town."

"Did I? Well, I did not say it, exactly, but I am going to leave town."

"For very long?" she asked.

"Perhaps. I can't tell yet."

"Stephen, before you go--if you are going for a very, very long while--perhaps you will--you might care to say good-bye?"

"Do you think it best?"

"No," she said innocently; "but if you care--"

"Do you care to have me?"

"Yes, I do."

There was a silence; and when his voice sounded again it had altered:

"I do not think you would care to see me, Sylvia. I--they say I am--I have--changed--since my--since a slight illness. I am not over it yet, not cured--not very well yet; and a little tired, you see--a little shaken. I am leaving New York to--to try once more to be cured. I expect to be well--one way or another--"

"Stephen, where are you going? Answer me!"

"I can't answer you."

"Is your illness serious?"

"A--it is--it requires some--some care."

Her fingers tightening around the receiver whitened to the delicate nails under the pressure. Mute, struggling with the mounting impulse, voice and lip unsteady, she still spoke with restraint:

"You say you require care? And what care have you? Who is there with you? Answer me!"

"Why--everybody; the servants. I have care enough."

"Oh, the servants! Have you a physician to advise you?"

"Certainly--the best in the world. Sylvia, dea--, Sylvia, I didn't mean to give you an impression--"

"Stephen, I will have you truthful with me! I know perfectly well you are ill. I--if I could only--if there was something, some way--Listen: I am--I am going to do something about it, and I don't care very much what I do!"

"What sweet nonsense!" he laughed, but his voice was no steadier than hers.

"Will you drive with me?" she asked impulsively, "some afternoon--"

"Sylvia, dear, you don't really want me to do it. Wait, listen: I--I've got to tell you that--that I'm not fit for it. I've got to be honest with you; I am not fit, not in physical condition to go out just yet.

I've really been ill--for weeks. Plank has been very nice to me. I want to get well; I mean to try very hard. But the man you knew--is--changed."

"Changed?"

"Not in that way!" he said in a slow voice.

"H-how, then?" she stammered, all a-thrill.

"Nerve gone--almost. Going to get it back again, of course. Feel a million times better already for talking with you."

"Do--does it really help?"

"It's the only panacea for me," he said too quickly to consider his words.

"The only one?" she faltered. "Do you mean to say that your trouble--illness--has anything to do with--"

"No, no! I only--"

"Has it, Stephen?"

"No!"