The Bay At Midnight Part 3

I put my arm around my mother's waist, feeling very adult. "She'll be okay, Mom," I said.

My mother didn't respond. Her eyes were gla.s.sy, as though she might cry, and I felt confused by her tears. I thought she needed to be alone, so I said I would sweep the hall closet myself, and I took Lucy's hand and dragged her out of the kitchen with me.

At nine o'clock that evening, I climbed the creaky steps into the attic, Lucy following behind me. I clung to the railing myself. The stairs seemed more wobbly every year and if I'd had a smidgen of fear in my makeup, I probably would have dreaded climbing them, too. In recent years, Lucy and I had slept in the twin beds in the quadrant of the room closest to the stairs. This year, though, I wanted more privacy. I wanted to be able to leave the reading lamp on as long as I liked and to simply daydream in my own little curtained s.p.a.ce without Lucy's incessant chatter. So, earlier in the day, we'd made up our beds in separate corners of the room, while Isabel made the double bed in the far corner behind the chimney for herself. Lucy had seemed fine with the arrangement then, but now that she climbed under her sheet in the hot attic, she was not so pleased.

"Leave the curtain open so I can see you," she pleaded. She was lying on her side, facing my bed, the white sheet up to her shoulders.

"I'm going to have the light on so I can read," I said, busying myself fluffing my pillows and turning down the covers. "It'll keep you awake." I wanted her to fall asleep quickly so I could go downstairs and play canasta with my mother and grandmother. During the school year, my evenings were filled with homework and television-The Andy Griffith Show or or Wagon Train Wagon Train or or Ed Sullivan. Ed Sullivan. But in the summer, evenings were the time for card games and jigsaw puzzles. But in the summer, evenings were the time for card games and jigsaw puzzles.

"Please," she wailed. she wailed.

"You'll be able to see my shadow," I said, glad that I had made the bed closest to the curtain rather than the one against the wall. "Watch." I walked over to the small table between the twin beds in my corner and lit the lamp. Then I pulled the curtain closed. It was tight against my bed, and once I'd climbed in, still dressed in my shorts and sleeveless top, I knew how I would look to Lucy. I'd been watching the silhouettes of my sister, my cousins, my aunts and uncles through those curtains for years. "See?" I said. "You can see me perfectly, right?"

"Okay," Lucy said, her voice small.

I heard her settle down in the bed and pictured her lying there on her side, eyes wide-open, watching my shadow as I dove back into Nancy Drew.

I read one chapter and the beginning of another. Then I pulled back the edge of the curtain closest to the head of my bed. Lucy's eyes were closed, her thumb stuck in her mouth as if she were a three-year-old. Her ratty old teddy bear was tucked beneath her arm. Quietly I slipped from my bed. Pulling the spread from the other bed, I bunched it up under my covers, propping the book up near the pillow, then walked into the central part of the attic to see how the shadows would look from Lucy's perspective in case she woke up. Quite convincing.

It was impossible to descend the stairs without causing them to creak, but I did the best I could.

My mother smiled at me when I walked onto the porch. She had reached some sort of internal peace about Izzy being at a party, and her smile was a relief to me.

"She's asleep?" She was sitting across the big table from my grandmother, smoking a cigarette and playing double solitaire on the vinyl, floral-patterned tablecloth. They both wore cotton housedresses, my mother's a pale yellow stripe and my grandmother's, baby-blue.

I nodded, plunking myself down into one of the rockers. Like the table, all the chairs on the long porch were painted red, the paint always a little sticky from the humidity and so thick you could dent it with a fingernail. There was also a bed at one end of the porch for anyone who wanted to sleep with the sounds of water lapping against the bulkhead and crickets singing in the wooded lot next door.

"We'll end this game and then you can join us for canasta," Grandma said, lifting her cup of instant coffee to her lips. When she s.h.i.+fted her legs beneath the table, I could see that her stockings were rolled down to just below her knees. Her English was perfect, but her Italian accent was still thick some sixty years after her arrival in the United States. I loved the music in her voice. I was ten before I realized that not everyone had a Grandma who spoke that way, turning her "th's" into "t's" and adding the hint of a vowel to every word that ended in a consonant.

I rocked for a while, the concrete floor smooth and cool beneath my feet. I could see the light of a boat moving slowly along the ca.n.a.l toward the bay, its engine a soft and steady hum, a backdrop for the slapping of cards against the table. Tomorrow, Grandpop would get our own boat in the water, and I couldn't wait. I'd piloted that boat myself for the past two summers, although always with an adult or Isabel on board. This summer, Daddy promised me I could go out in it alone if I wore a life preserver and stayed in our end of the ca.n.a.l, between my house and the place where the ca.n.a.l opened into the bay. It was not much territory, but I was excited at having that freedom nevertheless.

Someone was in the Chapmans' backyard. It was too dark to see who it was, but the person was fis.h.i.+ng. I saw the burning tips of a couple of mosquito-repellant coils, and the faint moonlight glinted against the fisherman's white s.h.i.+rt. I guessed it was Ethan, trying to catch something he could cut up. I watched the s.h.i.+rt move as he swung the pole behind him, then batted the air with it, the sound of the line sailing out into the ca.n.a.l unmistakable. I felt my own fingers itching to hold a fis.h.i.+ng pole.

"Are you ready to beat us at canasta?" my grandmother asked me.

I walked over to the table and sat down as she began to deal. My mother stubbed out her cigarette in the clamsh.e.l.l ashtray and was pulling another one from her package of Kents when the most hideous scream suddenly cut through the air. She was out of her seat before I even realized the sounds were coming from the attic. The screams continued, Lucy barely stopping for breath between each one. I followed my mother up the stairs.

"Baby!" My mother flicked on the overhead light and raced to Lucy's bed. Lucy was huddled against the iron headboard, her teddy clutched in her arms and her poodle hair matted on one side of her head. Our mother sat next to her. "What's the matter?"

"There!" Lucy pointed toward the ceiling near the center of the attic.

I walked over to where she was pointing and looked up. "Where?" I said.

"There," Lucy said again, this time a little sheepishness creeping into her voice. I looked up to see an old rag wedged against the ceiling beneath the elaborate network of wires used for the curtains. That rag had been there for as long as I could remember, probably to stop a leak before the new roof was put on the house.

"It's a rag," I said. Lucy was such a baby.

"It looked like a head," Lucy said. "I thought it was a head and then I looked over and saw you weren't in bed and I was up here alone!" She sounded indignant. I glanced at the curtain surrounding my little cubicle. The bunched-up bedspread seemed to have collapsed. It was obvious I was no longer there.

My mother stood and turned out the light and the three of us looked at the rag.

"See?" Lucy said.

"It looks like a rag," I said.

Mom sat down next to her again. "All you had to do was turn on your light and you would have seen it was just a rag," she said. "It's not fair to Julie to have to stay up here with you, Lucy. You're eight years old now.You have to learn there's nothing to be afraid of up here.You know we're all right downstairs if you need anything. Now lie down." She reached for the sheet and drew it over her youngest daughter.

"Can we leave the light on?"

"You'll never fall asleep that way."

"Yes, I will," she said, her gaze darting to the rag again.

"All right." My mother got to her feet with a sigh, smoothing the skirt of her housedress and offering me a conspiratorial look of exasperation that made me feel very mature and brave. She hit the wall switch for the single bare bulb that hung from the ceiling. "Good night, dear."

"Night, Luce," I said, following my mother down the stairs.

I awakened at five-thirty the following morning to the crowing of a rooster. I lay in bed, smiling to myself. Early-morning pink suns.h.i.+ne flowed through the window in my little curtained "room," and the sense of summer freedom washed over me again.

I moved to the other bed in my small cubicle, crawling down to the footboard so I could look out the window. I knew where the rooster lived. I'd forgotten all about him and his earlymorning wake-up call. Across the ca.n.a.l, kitty-corner from our bungalow, was a small wooden shack, gone nearly black with age, its roof sagging and its yard home to shoulder-high gra.s.ses and cattails. It was the only house, if it could even be called that, on that side of the ca.n.a.l and I couldn't remember ever seeing a soul around it, but someone had to live there to feed the rooster. A dock was cut into the land near the house. I could zip over there in the runabout, dock the boat and climb up into the tall weeds surrounding the house without being seen. I mentally added "exploration of the shack" to my agenda for the day.

I got out of bed, knowing no one else would yet be up. The curtains were pulled around Isabel's double bed. I didn't know what time she'd gotten home the night before and I wondered what sort of punishment my parents had agreed on for her. I hoped it was harsh. I hated that she could lie and get away with it.

I put on one of my bathing suits and pulled my capris over it, then walked across the linoleum-covered floor. We'd been at the sh.o.r.e less than twenty-four hours and already I could feel the gritty sand beneath my bare feet. I tiptoed as I pa.s.sed Lucy's bed. Her curtains had not been pulled shut, and I didn't want to wake her. I was nearly to the stairs when I heard Isabel's voice.

"Julie?"

I turned to see her pull back part of the curtain around her bed. Her long, dark hair was a tangled mess, but she looked beautiful in the pink sunlight.

I tiptoed over to her bed. She took my arm and pulled me behind the curtain.

"I need you to do me a favor," she said. Her shoulders were bare above the sheet and I felt shock when I realized that she had slept naked. I didn't know anyone who actually did that.

I sat down on her bed. This close, I could see that her eyes were red. "What did Mom and Dad say?" I said. "You shouldn't have gone to Daddy after-"

"Shh!" she said. "That's none of your business." She fumbled among the covers on her bed and picked up a small plastic giraffe, about the size of her fist. "Give this to Ned Chapman, okay?" she asked, although I knew it was more of a demand than a request.

I looked down at the red-and-purple giraffe nestled in my hands. "Why?" I asked. I knew she couldn't tell me it was none of my business if she wanted my cooperation.

"It's his," she said. "I forgot to give it to him last night."

"What would an eighteen-year-old boy want this for?" I asked. The giraffe looked like something even a toddler would get bored playing with after a minute or two.

"Don't ask so many questions," Isabel said. "Just do it. Please. I'm not allowed to leave the house all day."

"That's all?" I thought Mom was right-she should be grounded for a week.

"That's enough," Isabel said. She flopped back onto her pillow. "I'm going back to sleep."

"You're welcome," I said, annoyed at her ingrat.i.tude.

No one was up when I got downstairs. I went outside where the warm, damp morning air filled my lungs. I stuck the giraffe under one of the Adirondack chairs to keep it safe until I saw Ned. I grabbed my bucket and the crab net from where it leaned against the tree and began making the crabbing rounds, standing at the edge of our dock, peering into the water, looking for crabs that rested against the bulkhead below the water's surface. I found three in our dock, then I walked outside the fence, balancing myself on the top of the wooden planks of the bulkhead as I checked the ca.n.a.l for crabs. The current was pulling strongly toward the river and I watched a paper cup sweep past me in the water, followed a moment later by a crab. I put my net into the water in the crab's path and drew him up and into the bucket. It was almost too easy. A giant tangle of seaweed floated past me, and then a little ball, which I scooped out with my net and examined. It was nothing special, just a dented Ping-Pong ball, but I would put it under my bed to kick off my Bay Head Sh.o.r.es clue collection.

I glanced across the ca.n.a.l, looking toward the rooster shack, and my gaze was drawn to the tall reeds directly across the ca.n.a.l from my house. Fishermen were arriving. They walked along a path cut through the reeds and began setting up their gear and their folding chairs behind the fence. Every one of them was colored, and they weren't all men, either. It was hard to tell the women from the men at that distance, but I could tell for certain that a couple of them were children.

"Crabbing, huh?"

The voice came from behind me, surprising me so much that I had to grab the fence to keep my balance. I turned to see Ned Chapman walking toward me, grinning widely. Something happened to me in that moment. I don't know if it was the way his blue eyes shone in the sunlight, or the triangle of tanned chest clearly visible beneath the collar of his open s.h.i.+rt, or the way he held his cigarette between his thumb and index finger, but I thought I might keel over and fall into the ca.n.a.l. I'd gotten my period for the first time in the early spring, and ever since then, I felt my stomach turn inside-out at the sight of a cute boy. And Ned was definitely cute. cute. His hair was thick, the color of suns.h.i.+ne. He looked a little like Troy Donahue. His hair was thick, the color of suns.h.i.+ne. He looked a little like Troy Donahue.

"Hi, Ned," I managed to say, and only when I said his name out loud did I realize that he had the same name as Nancy Drew's steady boyfriend. "Hi, Ned," I repeated, this time to myself, just to feel his name on my tongue again.

He'd reached the opposite side of the fence from where I was standing and leaned over, his elbows resting on the metal bar at the top of the chain link. "You're an early bird," he said.

"You, too."

"How many did you get?" He leaned farther over the fence to try to look in the bucket.

"Five, so far."

"You like them?"

"To eat, you mean?"

He took a drag on his cigarette and let the smoke out in a long stream. "What else?" he asked.

"Actually, no." I giggled and was annoyed with myself for sounding like a kid. "Grandma loves them, though. And I love catching them, so it works out okay."

"So." He rubbed his hand across his chin as though checking if he needed a shave. It was a s.e.xy gesture. "Did Izzy get in trouble last night?"

I nodded. "She can't go out all day. She asked me to give you something, though."

I balanced carefully as I walked back along the bulkhead, trying to impress him by not holding on to the fence. In my yard, I put down the bucket and the net, then grabbed the giraffe from beneath the chair and carried it over to him. "She asked me to give you this," I said.

He smiled, taking the giraffe from my hand. I felt embarra.s.sed for Isabel that she wanted to give him something so dumb. I didn't believe her when she'd said it was actually his.

"That's nice of you to do that for her," he said, looking right at me, and I stood as tall as I could, wondering how my small, barely there b.r.e.a.s.t.s looked in the childish one-piece bathing suit I was wearing. I needed to get a two-piece this summer, if Mom would let me.

"She said it belonged to you," I said.

"Yeah, it does, actually," he said. "Thanks for bringing it over. Tell her everything's copacetic."

Why, oh why, hadn't I remembered to bring my dictionary? I heard sounds coming from his screened porch and didn't want to be in the Chapmans' yard when goofy Ethan came outside, so I said goodbye to Ned and went back to our dock to see if any new crabs had appeared along the bulkhead. I heard sounds coming from his screened porch and didn't want to be in the Chapmans' yard when goofy Ethan came outside, so I said goodbye to Ned and went back to our dock to see if any new crabs had appeared along the bulkhead.

Right after lunch, Grandpop, Daddy and I towed the boat down to the marina. We ga.s.sed it up, Grandpop hopping onto the pier like a young man happy to be alive. I knew how he felt. Just the smell of the gasoline mixing with the salty scent of the water filled me up with joy. I thought to myself, I take after him. I take after him. Grandpop loved everything about the sh.o.r.e-the water, fis.h.i.+ng, boating, the smells, the night sky-everything, just as I did. We looked nothing alike: he was nearly bald, with a sad sort of face that always reminded me of a ba.s.set hound, but in many other ways, we were the same. Grandpop loved everything about the sh.o.r.e-the water, fis.h.i.+ng, boating, the smells, the night sky-everything, just as I did. We looked nothing alike: he was nearly bald, with a sad sort of face that always reminded me of a ba.s.set hound, but in many other ways, we were the same.

He and I went for a spin on the bay before taking the boat through the ca.n.a.l and into our dock. Grandpop let me pilot it myself part of the time, even allowing me to maneuver it into our dock, and he told me I did a terrific job. Our boat had no steering wheel, just a tiller handle attached to the motor, and I felt good that I was getting the hang of it so quickly. I nearly fell when I tried to get from the boat to the bulkhead, though, but Grandpop said I would have it mastered in a few days. I tied the boat to the hooks at the sides of the dock, loving the wet, rough feel of the rope beneath my fingers. I felt sorry for Izzy. Here it was, her first full day at the sh.o.r.e, and she wasn't even allowed out of the house.

I sat with her and Lucy on the porch for a while, reading. Lucy and I were in the rockers, and Isabel was stretched out on the bed at the end of the porch, as close to the Chapmans' house as she could get. I noticed that she wasn't turning the pages of her book. She gazed in the direction of the Chapmans' yard, probably waiting for a glimpse of Ned. He and Mr. Chapman were working on their boat, and I doubted she could see their dock from her place on the bed, but when Ned walked through their yard to get something from their house, I could nearly hear Izzy's heartbeat quicken. I understood how she felt. He was having the same effect on me.

Before dinner, I took the boat out by myself. Mom was nervous about it, but Daddy talked her into letting me as long as I wore the hideous orange life preserver. It was a Monday and the weekend congestion on the ca.n.a.l had vanished overnight. I took the boat right to the mouth of the bay. The water stretched in front of me wide and inviting and I longed to go out into it, just a little way, but I didn't dare. Instead I turned around in a broad arc and headed for the dock between the colored fishermen and the rooster house.

Once inside the unfamiliar dock, I cut the motor. There was a short ladder on my left and I tied my boat to a rung, took off the life preserver, then climbed up. The colored fishermen made me nervous. I didn't look directly at them, but I could feel their eyes following me as I walked between the cattails and the fence, heading away from them in the direction of the shack. I finally found a narrow path cut through the tall gra.s.s, and I followed it right to the front porch of the ramshackle little cottage.

"Who are you?"

I jumped at the sound of a man's voice, disembodied because I couldn't see through the screens of his porch.

"I was just coming to see where the rooster lives," I said.

The screen door creaked open a few inches and a man stood in the doorway. He had a thick beard and a dirty old hat on his head. The early evening sunlight fell onto his face and he squinted, his eyes reduced to little beads of translucent blue, making him look a bit demonic. The Mystery of theWarlock's Shack The Mystery of theWarlock's Shack, I thought to myself. I liked the t.i.tle. Maybe I would try to write my own book.

"Where do you live?" he asked.

I turned and pointed to my bungalow, which was barely visible through the reeds. It looked very far away.

"You come over by boat?" he asked.

"Yes."

"By yourself?"

"Yes," I said, turning to go. "And I'd better get back."

"What were you planning to do to my rooster?" he said, as I moved away.

"Oh!" I said. "Nothing. I wouldn't hurt it. I just wanted to see where it lived."

He held the door open wider. "Right here," he said.

I looked past him onto the porch and saw the rooster and a couple of hens walking around on the floor as if they were mechanical toys. I took a step backward, wondering if the man's sneakers were caked with the droppings of his feathered pets.

"Thanks for showing me," I said.

"There are some people around here who'd like to wring my rooster's neck," he said, and I thought he sounded suspicious.

"Not me," I said. "Thanks again for letting me see him." I turned then and walked as quickly as I could through the tall gra.s.s. It probably only took me thirty seconds to reach the dock, but by that time I'd made up two or three different stories about the man. He kept children locked in closets inside the rickety old house. He'd murdered his wife and her bones were buried beneath the porch. When I was about to climb down the ladder, I spotted something s.h.i.+ny in the flattened gra.s.s near the head of the dock. I walked over and stared down at a pair of sungla.s.ses, then picked them up. Maybe they belonged to the wife the old man had killed. Who knew? They would go beneath my bed to wait just in case.

That evening, Grandpop and I walked to the end of the dirt road. For as long as I could remember, he'd kept a path cleared through the tall gra.s.ses that rose a couple of feet above my head. We followed the path, and I loved the feeling of being closed in by the gra.s.s walls. Dragonflies flew along with us as we walked, but we were covered in insect repellant so the mosquitoes left us alone. We emerged from the path in a swampy area of still water that was connected to the ca.n.a.l by a narrow opening in the bulkhead. As he always did, Grandpop had set his bait trap in the shallow water here, tying it to a stake in the soft, sandy earth among the gra.s.ses. I pulled in the trap. It was full of green-gray killies, flapping on the wire mesh. Grandpop opened the trap and spilled the bait into his bucket. While he was doing that, I spied something in the water a few feet from where we stood. A baby shoe! I rolled up my capris as high as I could, waded into the water to my knees, and reached out to grab the little white leather shoe, a real prize in the world of clues.

"What do you do with all that stuff you collect?" Grandpop asked me as he closed the trap again.

"I keep them under my bed," I said. "They might be clues to something that happened. Like, what if a baby got kidnapped or something? I could take this shoe to the police and tell them where I found it and maybe they could solve the mystery."

"I think you need a better place than under your bed," Grandpop said. "Your mother could clean up there and toss out all that old stuff you found."

I loved my grandfather so much right then. He always took me seriously.

"Where else could I put it?" I studied the tiny shoe in my hands.