Starter For Ten Part 32

'Lucy, I just wanted to say that I'm really, really sorry about the fight the other day . . .'

'Oh, that's okay. I was going to call you in the week to see if . . .'

ALICE! Alice appears over Lucy's shoulder.

'Hiya, Alice!' I say.

'h.e.l.lo, Brian,' she says, and gives an imperceptible smile, because after all, we have a secret.

The rest of the meeting pa.s.ses uneventfully enough. There's no news about who our compet.i.tion's going to be, because they like to keep it secret until the day of recording, but Patrick tells us not to be thrown if it's...o...b..idge or the Open University; 'They're very overrated,' he says. Then there's a lot of practical stuff about hiring the minibus from the hockey team, and putting up posters in the Student Union for anyone who wants to come along and support us. One of Patrick's big-boned, right-wing pals from the Economics department has offered to drive the minibus of supporters up to Manchester, providing we can get enough people to show an interest. 'So if there's anyone you want to come along, get them to sign the form in the Student Union.'

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has some medic pals, but the only person I can think of to invite is Rebecca. I'm not entirely sure that she wouldn't boo, or cheer the other side, but I decide to at least give her the option.

'Now . . .' says Patrick, consulting his type-written notes '. . . the final item on the agenda. We need to decide on some kind of team mascot!'

I don't really own anything that could qualify as a mascot, and Patrick owns nothing even remotely soft or amusing, so in the end it's a toss-up between Alice's favourite old teddy, Eddie, or the skull of Lucy's anatomical skeleton, which very wittily Alice suggests we wrap in a college scarf and call Yorick.

We go for Eddie.

After we finish, I have to run off down the street to catch up with Alice, who's got to get straight to rehearsals.

'So what are you doing tomor . . . ?'

'Rehearsing . . .'

'But during the day?'

'Well, I've got to get an essay in, so . . .'

'Fancy the pictures?'

'The pictures?' She stops in the street, looks both ways to check no one's looking, and says, 'Okay. The pictures.' We make an arrangement, and I skip home to really get cracking on that poem.

And the following afternoon, she bunks off her essay to be with me exclusively and we go to the pictures together. The cinema's not ideal, of course, because the opportunities to talk or to just look at her, are limited. Also, she wants to go and see Back to the Future at the Odeon, which she insists will be 'a laugh, a bit of fun', but I have something a bit more intellectually demanding in mind. So instead we go and watch the Tuesday afternoon double-bill of ground-breaking early silent film at the Arts Cinema; Dali 295.

and Bunuel's startling surrealist 1928 masterpiece Un Chien Andalou and Eisenstein's masterly Soviet polemic Battles.h.i.+p Potemkin (1925).

We buy a whole load of confectionery from the newsagents beforehand, because, as I point out, the mark-up on confectionery in the cinema is absolutely outrageous, and then settle down in centre aisle seats, two of only six people in the whole auditorium. The lights go down, and the atmosphere of suppressed s.e.xual desire, like a mild electric current running through us, is almost tangible, as is the smell of damp cigarettes and curdled Kia-ora, and the cold, and the vague feeling of infestation. It's Un Chien Andalou first. During the startling sequence involving the slitting of the eyeball and the decomposing donkey on top of the piano, Alice leans forward in her seat with her hands over her eyes, and I rather cornily put my arm round the back of her chair, as if s.h.i.+elding her from Dali and Bunuel's grotesque insight into the workings of the subconscious mind.

Then the lights come up and there's a brief intermission during which we eat a big bag of chocolate-covered peanuts, drink cans of Lilt, and debate surrealism and its relations.h.i.+p to the unconscious mind. Alice isn't a fan. 'It just leaves me cold. It's very ugly and alienating. It just doesn't move me or involve me emotionally, that's all . . .'

'It's not meant to engage or involve you emotionally, not in a conventionally sympathetic way. Surrealism is meant to be strange, unnerving. I find it very emotional, it's just that the emotions that we feel are often ones of anxiety and disgust . . .' and of course the ironic thing is that, unlike the surrealists, all I want is for Alice to be engaged and involved in a conventionally sympathetic way, and not to feel emotions of anxiety and disgust.

Then the lights go down, and things perk up again as Battles.h.i.+p Potemkin comes on. I keep sneaking looks at her during the famous Odessa Steps sequence until she smiles back 296.

at me, and I lean across and kiss her. And thank G.o.d, she kisses me back, for quite a while actually, and it's great. There's a slight citrus/dairy clash of flavours, because she's moved on to wine gums while I'm still on chocolate peanuts, and I can't really let rip because there's a peanut kernel wedged back in my wisdom teeth, and I don't want the kissing to get too fiery or wide-ranging in case she dislodges it. In the end I needn't have worried, because Alice soon breaks away and whispers, 'I think I'd better watch the film. I want to know what happens to the sailors!' and we go back to Battles.h.i.+p Potemkin.

It's dark when we leave the cinema, and I'm feeling a little nauseous from all the sweets and kissing, but she takes my arm as we walk back through the town centre, and we talk about Eisenstein with revolutionary zeal. 'He really is the father of modern film narrative technique,' I say and, when I finally run out of that kind of dreary c.r.a.p, 'Coffee and a flapjack? Or the pub? Or back to mine? Or yours?'

'Better not. I've got lines to learn.' 'I could test you?' I suggest, though something tells me I'm testing her quite enough as it is.

'Actually, I'm better off on my own,' she says, and I realise with dismay that we're heading back towards her halls of residence, and that this is the end of our falling-in-love montage for today.

Then on the ring road, just past the National Express coach station, I see something and have an idea.

'Come with me a second . . .'

'What for?'

'I've had an idea. It's going to be fun, I promise.' I ever so subtly tighten my grip on her arm so that she can't run away, and we head into the grey diesel haze of the coach station, and the Photo-Me Booth.

'What are we doing?'

'I just thought we'd get our pictures done,' I say, searching in my pockets for change.

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'Of the two of us?

'Uh-huh.'

'What on earth for?' she says, pulling away slightly. I tighten my grip.

'Just a souvenir,' I say, but that word isn't right. 'Souvenir', noun, from the French verb souvenir, to remember. 'You know - for fun!'

'No way,' she says firmly, and I wonder how I'm going to get her in there, without the aid of a chloroformed handkerchief.

'Oh, go on . . .'

'No!'

'Why not?'

'Because I look terriblel' she says, when of course what she really means is 'Because you look terrible . . .'

'Rubbish, you look fine - come on, it'll be fun,' I say, again tugging her across the station forecourt by her hand; it will be fun, it will be fun, it will be fun ... I pull back the diesel-and-nicotine infused orange nylon curtain and we squeeze into the booth, and there's some light-hearted fidgeting about as we adjust the height of the stool and work out how we're going to sit. Eventually Alice perches on my knee, then has to get off again so that I can remove a bunch of keys and get the change out of my pocket, then nestles once more on my lap, both legs swung over mine this time, and wraps her arms around my neck. She's playing along now, and it seems as if this might even be fun after all, so I lean forward and put the 50p in the slot.

The first camera flash happens just as I'm pus.h.i.+ng the great loose flap of hair out of my eyes.

For the second flash I take off my spectacles, suck in my cheeks and pout, pulling a sort of tongue-in-cheek male-model face, because it will be fun.

For the third photo I try relaxed, light-hearted laughter, head tipped back, mouth open.

And for number four, I kiss Alice on the cheek.

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to come out of the machine. We stand around in the coach station in silence, inhaling diesel fumes and listening to the tannoy. The 5.45 coach for Durham is about to leave.

'Ever been to Durham?' I ask.

'No,' she says. 'You?'

'No,' I say. 'I'd like to, though. Lovely cathedral apparently.' The coach rumbles past us, belching exhaust. I contemplate throwing myself under it. Then finally, with a whirr and a click, the machine spits out the strip of photographs, which are sticky with developing fluid and smell of ammonia.

Some primitive tribes believe that having your photograph taken steals a little bit of your soul, and looking at this strip of photos it's hard not to think that maybe they've got a point. In the first, my hand and my hair are obscuring most of my face, and the only thing you can see clearly is the acne round the corners of my mouth, and the great fat mottled tongue lolling out obscenely, as if I've just been punched. Number two, the 'comedy male-model shot', is possibly the most grotesquely mirthless thing you've ever seen in your life, an effect that's reinforced by one, just one, of Alice's eyes rolling back into her head. Number three, ent.i.tled 'laughter!', is horribly bright and over-illuminated, so that you can see up my nose, past matted nostril hair into the black centre of my skull, and down into the pink-ribbed roof of my mouth, past the stubby silver-grey fillings on my molars all the way down to my epiglottis. Finally, in number four, I'm kissing Alice with a chapped, puckered haddock mouth while she winces, eyes squeezed tightly shut.

One for the wallet then.

'Oh dear,' I say.

'Lovely,' says Alice, flatly.

'Which two do you want?'

'Oh, I'm all right, I think. You keep them, as a souvenir.' And there's that word again, souvenir, noun, from the French 299.

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DAVID NICHOLLS.

Ai verb souvenir, to remember. 'Sorry, Bri, I've got to run.' And '

she does. She runs.

Sat at home that evening, putting the finis.h.i.+ng touches to the poem, and looking at the strip of photographs Blu-Tacked to the wall by my desk - me kissing Alice, her wincing it strikes me that our fun-day-out has only been a partial success. I should forget about it of course, but I'm worried that I won't be able to sleep unless I speak to her again, so I pull on my coat and head off to the student bar, in the hope that I'll accidentally b.u.mp into her after rehearsals.

She's not there, of course. When I arrive the only other person I know is Rebecca Epstein, surrounded by her little coterie of f.u.c.kingangryactuallys. She seems pretty pleased to see me, and gets her comrades to redistribute some of the s.p.a.ce on the bench so that I can squeeze in next to her, but the table's covered in empties; she's been alternating lager and whisky all night, and seems pretty drunk.

'Have you seen Eisenstein's Battles.h.i.+p Potemkin^ I say, keeping an eye out for Alice.

'Can't say I have. Why, should I?'

'Absolutely. It's amazing. They're showing it at the Arts Cinema all this week.'

'Okay then, let's go, shall we? I'll bunk off lectures tomorrow afternoon . . .'

'Well, actually I went to see it this afternoon.'

'On your own?'

'No. With Alice actually,' I say, as casually as I can. But Rebecca can spot that kind of thing a mile off, and pounces, 'Well, you two are awfully friendly at the moment, aren't you? 'S there something I should know?'

'We've just been spending a bit of time together, that's all.'

'Is that right?' says Rebecca, sceptically. She starts to roll another cigarette, even though she still has one glued to her lip, and it's like watching someone load a revolver. 'Is ... that. . .'

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(licks the Rizla) '. . . right? Well, Jackson, you certainly know how to show a gal a good time, don't you? A masterpiece of Soviet propaganda in the afternoon, then maybe on to Luigi's for prawn c.o.c.ktail, half a barbecue chicken and two pints of Lambrus...o...b..anco. It really is the high-life. I only hope, after a magical day out like that, she at least let you have a wee feel of her t.i.ts . . .'

The clever thing to do, of course, would be not to rise to the bait.

'Actually, we're sort of going out with each other,' I say.

Rebecca raises her eyebrows and smiles to herself. She lights her new cigarette before speaking again.

'Are you now?' she says, quietly, and picking tobacco off her lip. 'So how come I haven't seen you together round at our halls of residence?'

'We're being discreet. Taking it slow,' I say, unconvincingly.

'Right, right. So was that you who phoned up in the week to talk to her?'

'No!'

'Are you sure?'

'Yes!'

'Because it sounded awfully like you . . .'

'. . . well . . .'

'. . . putting on a funny voice . . .'

'. . . well it wasn't . . .'

'So have you s.h.a.gged her yet?' she snarls, rollie dangling from her curled lip.

'What?'

'Have you had s.e.xual intercourse? You know - congress, coitus, the beast-with-two-backs. Come on, you must have at least heard about it. After all, you're going on University Challenge - what are you going to do if it comes up as a question? "Jackson, from Southend-on-Sea, reading Eng. Lit, what actually is s.e.xual intercourse?" "Ummmmmmm . . . Can I confer with the rest of the team, Bamber? Alice, what's s.e.xual inter ...?"'

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"I know what it ts, Rebecca . . .'

'So, have you done it then, or are you saving yourself for your wedding day? Or maybe she's worried about your s.e.xual history; after all, you can't be too careful these days. Except as I recall you don't actually have a s.e.xual history . . .'

And before I even know what I'm saying, I say, 'Yeah, well, it's not like yours is anything to write home about, Rebecca.'

She takes the cigarette out of her mouth, rests her hand against the edge of the table, and is silent for a moment.

'Good point, Jackson. Good point.' She downs the last inch of j her pint, winces. Touche, Jackson!' And then we sit in silence.