Erasing Memory Part 1

Erasing memory.

by Scott Thornley.

PROLOGUE.

THE BLACK SUIT JACKET was folded neatly on the bed. Beside it were two black metal suitcases, one open, the other closed. On the closed suitcase sat a smaller black case, big enough to hold a flute, which was open. Inside was a black Styrofoam nest. It was empty. was folded neatly on the bed. Beside it were two black metal suitcases, one open, the other closed. On the closed suitcase sat a smaller black case, big enough to hold a flute, which was open. Inside was a black Styrofoam nest. It was empty.

In the bathroom, the tap was running. A tall man in a white dress s.h.i.+rt and black trousers stood at the sink, humming, then broke into song.

"War. What is it good for?"

He took the hotel shampoo container and emptied it into a stainless steel cylinder, then placed the cylinder under the flow from the faucet till foam came up over the lip. Once the cylinder was clean, he took the last of the towels, smiling at the easel card that spoke about saving the environment by using your towels more than once, and dried the outside of the cylinder. He then took the hairdryer and blew the interior dry.

His eyes were dark and gleamed with intelligence. The skin was drawn tight over his angular cheekbones. Below them, his face narrowed so much that in certain lights you could see the embossing of his teeth on the skin of his cheeks. Even clean-shaven, he was cursed with a dark beard line that only served to make his face seem more sculpted and severe.

When his cellphone rang on the bedside table, he carried the syringe out of the bathroom, placed it in its black nest and closed the case before he answered the phone.

"Yes, it's done. A policeman arrived within minutes of my call. Immaculate? Yes, like the conception. Send the wire transfer now. We are finished."

He hung up. Slipping off the back panel of the cellphone, he pulled the SIM card and laid it on the ceramic floor by the straight-backed desk chair, then slammed the metal glide of one chair leg down on the card. Picking it up, he bent it in half and went into the washroom, where he dropped it into the toilet and flushed. Returning to the bed, he placed the syringe case and the cellphone in his suitcase and snapped it shut. Humming again, he rolled his sleeves down, b.u.t.toned them and put on his suit jacket, tugging each cuff sharply so that it hung a half-inch lower on his wrists than his jacket's sleeves.

He wrote a note on the single piece of hotel stationery and propped it against the new vacuum cleaner by the bed. My wife liked the suction but she didn't like the colour. Please enjoy My wife liked the suction but she didn't like the colour. Please enjoy.

Picking up his luggage, he opened the door and left the hotel room.

"War," he sang. "What is it good for? Absolutely nothing."

ONE.

IT WAS THE SAME as it always was, chamber music driving up and jazz driving back. But this time he'd asked her, "Why do you want to be buried so far from town?" as it always was, chamber music driving up and jazz driving back. But this time he'd asked her, "Why do you want to be buried so far from town?"

Kate had smiled and closed her eyes-for such a while that he thought she'd fallen asleep-then softly, but with some strength, as if to ensure that the point made it through the haze of morphine and fatigue, she said, "It's beautiful there. It's a lovely drive. Not too far. I know you'll visit. And"-breathing deeply-"if it was in the city, I doubt you would. Anyway, it'll get you out of your head for a few hours."

She was right. He'd been up once a month for the past thirty-eight months. When he'd looked at her ashes, he couldn't see the difference between them and the ashes he retrieved from the fireplace to sprinkle on the garden-he couldn't rea.s.semble her. And yet, below the ground, beneath a headstone that bore only her initials, KGWM, he could imagine her on her side with her legs slightly tucked up-asleep.

And it did get him out of his head. A cemetery in the city could never do that-the sound of sirens, the headstones of people they'd known, the buzz of traffic nearby would distract from the solace of being near her.

HE STAYED THIS TIME, as always, past sundown, reading, watching for birds and announcing each out loud for the odd comfort it gave him-cedar waxwing, swallow, cardinal, chickadee, a rare ruby-throated hummingbird-not because he truly believed she would hear, but because he didn't entirely disbelieve it. The kitchen of Martha's Truck Stop stayed open till ten, and on the way back he stopped and ordered the same thing he always did: a hot beef sandwich with gravy, no fries, followed by apple pie and coffee.

He was just cresting the Canadian s.h.i.+eld above Lake Charles when the call came over the radio. "All units. All units. We have an anonymous call about a fatality in a beach house on Sh.o.r.e Road, Lake Charles."

MacNeice pressed the hands-free b.u.t.ton. "The caller-male or female?"

"Male. Over."

"Did he sound agitated, Sylvia?"

"No, Mac. Cool as a cuc.u.mber, not hurried or concerned. Over."

"Describe his voice-north-end, west-end, local, foreign?"

"I'd say foreign, but very educated in English. You can judge for yourself when you hear it. Over."

"Thanks, Syl. I'm about five minutes away from the cut-off to Lake Charles."

TWO.

HE COULD APPRECIATE THE rare beauty of it, the ice-blue chiffon of her gown spilling about her, the white sheers from the window billowing with the breeze off the lake, almost touching her legs, which were still and slightly-but not unnaturally-akimbo. But what stopped him, arresting all the clock wheels of his experience and wisdom, was the way her right arm rested, the hand dangling above the tone arm of the pale green Seabreeze, which soldiered on-the second Schubert Piano Trio, music that had formed something of a through-line in his life-skipping each time it hit her hand, then going back to the beginning. rare beauty of it, the ice-blue chiffon of her gown spilling about her, the white sheers from the window billowing with the breeze off the lake, almost touching her legs, which were still and slightly-but not unnaturally-akimbo. But what stopped him, arresting all the clock wheels of his experience and wisdom, was the way her right arm rested, the hand dangling above the tone arm of the pale green Seabreeze, which soldiered on-the second Schubert Piano Trio, music that had formed something of a through-line in his life-skipping each time it hit her hand, then going back to the beginning. That's persistence That's persistence, he thought as the familiar melody began again. We're both just trying to do our jobs We're both just trying to do our jobs.

He slid the sheers aside and looked out over the lake, which was romantically perfect. The music swelled and the breeze lifted the waves, spilling small sh.e.l.ls and tiny pebbles onto the sh.o.r.e with a soft hiss and sigh.

Soon enough the scene would become the macabre job site of the professionally detached. But for these moments he allowed himself to listen, to absorb the inglorious end of a clearly glorious young woman. No blood. No obvious trauma, needle marks, c.o.ke residue-she had been a healthy woman, until the moment she wasn't anymore.

Reaching down, he lifted her hand as a gentleman would to usher a lady onto the dance floor, then lowered it again as the needle pa.s.sed by. The music continued as if nothing had happened, but his own blanket of forced detachment was already descending. "We're all machines," he said wearily-he wasn't sure to whom-as he rose again to survey the room.

When the Schubert ended, the yellow plastic arm rose to return to its cradle. Once again he lifted the cold hand so the cheerful arm could pa.s.s underneath, but instead of settling into its cradle, the arm paused as if considering what to do next. The black vinyl slowed, hesitated, then kept spinning, and the needle eased down, caught a groove and began playing the music again. It had been set on repeat. MacNeice let her hand descend to where, in roughly fifteen minutes, the skipping game would begin again.

In law enforcement an established mantra was applied to every crime scene: look at the big picture. And yet every success in his life had occurred through an intense scrutiny of detail. Only recently had it occurred to him that the thrilling intensity of life close-up was what made him effective as a cop. For better or worse, that was his "big picture."

He knelt down and leaned forward, supporting himself with one hand on the wall, to study her face, looking for a sign of trauma or fear, but nothing was revealed. Her skin, slightly olive, was without blemish. Her eyes were closed as if she'd fallen asleep watching a movie-or listening to Schubert. He leaned closer and inhaled the remains of a floral perfume. With his nose less than an inch from her chin, he let his face glide slowly up hers, inhaling deeply to the hairline. There a subtle but sharp smell invaded his nostrils; he rocked back on his heels, put his hands on his thighs and exhaled before standing up. In an hour or so this young beauty would be transformed into something awful on the olfactory, overpowering her perfume and that pleasant scent of the night coming in off the lake.

No signs of strangulation or that broken-chicken look of a snapped neck. But high up under her chin was a bruise, an old, brownish mark like a three-day-old hickey-a conclusion he was sure the Young Turks would jump to when they arrived. But he knew this style of bruise; it was identical to the mark tattooed on the neck of a girl he had loved. She'd been proud of her bruise-in-training even when it was still pink.

This woman's mark had the look of permanence, of someone deeply committed to practice. She had been a violinist. He bent down to look at the soles of her shoes-no sand. She hadn't walked up from the beach. He turned back to the front door and examined the carpet, expecting to see the imprint of her high heels. Other than the impressions of his shoes, only the track patterns of a vacuum cleaner marked the carpet.

He began moving about the room. To the right of the bar was a component system that in its brushed-silver coolness made the Seabreeze look childlike and simple. There were no CDs, however, no stacks of 45s or LPs, and while the jacket from the Schubert appeared to be missing, its inner sleeve was on the sofa within reach. That the Seabreeze was on the floor and not neatly set up on one of the tables suggested that it had been brought here for the occasion.

He stared down at her. Was this piece going to be your first triumph? You could be wearing your graduation gown Was this piece going to be your first triumph? You could be wearing your graduation gown.

He took the latex gloves out of his back pocket and slipped them on with a snap. His wife had hated that he always carried these things about. Whenever she'd be searching for the car keys or milk money and felt the powdery latex on her fingers, she'd let loose a stream of furious cursing, which he always recalled when he reached for them. The memory of her exasperation briefly warmed him.

Time was running out-soon the Turks would arrive and the scene would dissolve in a wave of sick jokes. And then the baggie-footed, gloved-hand, plastic-bag-toting, Tyvek-clad forensic nitpickers would take over and she'd cease to be "human" forever. He asked himself what was missing, then thought, Even a violinist has a purse Even a violinist has a purse.

He searched the hall closet and the two bedrooms. Nothing out of place, nor any indication that anyone had been living here. But he found no vacuum cleaner either, though the cleaners could have brought their own. On the balcony, the sight of the lake rippling in the light of the half-moon, silhouetted by pine and birch-the music, the chiffon gown-made him realize what an exhaustingly sad scene this was. Standing at the railing, he looked down towards the blue gra.s.s and sand-nothing.

Turning back to her, he paused to listen, as if an answer would come from her lips. Squatting down, he reached under her shoulders and, lifting her up slightly, slid his hand beneath her. There under her ribcage was a small, glittering evening bag, not much bigger than his gla.s.ses case. He retrieved it and gently let her shoulders fall.

The magnetic clasp gave way with a little pop, but he had already felt its contents through the sequined fabric. It was full of optimism but little else. No wallet, no credit cards or identification, just a key and a lipstick-Barely Cherry. He looked at her mouth and said respectfully, "G.o.d bless the innocents, for they will be first to the slaughter."

The key, on a small roundel fob, was for one of those locks guaranteed to be burglar proof. More optimism. On its brushed silver head were the letters LT LT, engraved with serifs and a slight descending flourish. That was all she had with her.

On cue, the heavy Chevys pulled up outside-two cars. Three doors opened and slammed shut. His time alone with her was up and he still had no clue, no idea and no advantage that his age and experience could produce, beyond knowing what the music was on the turntable and recognizing the bruise on her chin.

He heard one of the Turks ask, "Whose rig is that?"

"Judging by the stuff on the seat, I'd say MacNeice," came the response.

MacNeice remembered that he hadn't put the CD wallet away, and the volume of e. e. c.u.mmings was on the front pa.s.senger seat too. He was putting the key back in her bag as the three cops came in.

"That's not your style, Mac. Too many sequins-wrong colour too."

"I know," MacNeice said. "I'm told I'm a winter, but I still prefer spring, don't you, Swetsky?" He set the purse down beside the girl.

"Smarta.s.s. Whaddya got?"

"Well, she's beautiful-and dead. There's no apparent trauma. She just looks like she fell asleep and didn't wake up."

MacNeice reached over to the outlet and pulled out the plug of the Seabreeze. The needle ground to a halt in one of the grooves.

"Who placed the call?" Swetsky asked.

"Anonymous. Male. Gave the address. Said we'd find a body and hung up."

One of the other Turks, Palmer, was already in a semi-squat with one arm down for balance. He leaned towards her face. With his free hand he pointed to the bruise under her chin and said, "I used to give hickeys like that, but I just don't have the suction anymore."

Swetsky, Palmer and Williams-the only black homicide detective in their unit-cracked up. MacNeice began removing his latex gloves. He sighed, discreetly, he thought, but Swetsky picked it up. "Come on, Palmer," he said, "show some respect for the lady." Palmer stopped sn.i.g.g.e.ring only when he tried to stand up, his knee complaining.

"Right knee blown, Palmer?" MacNeice said.

"Yeah, but I get by, thanks for asking." Palmer s.h.i.+fted his ma.s.sive bulk over his hips to find the sweet spot where the pain would subside.

"That hickey is no hickey. The girl was a violinist." MacNeice folded his gloves, shoved them into his back pocket and stepped onto the balcony.

"Where ya off to, Mac?" Swetsky asked.

"I'm going to check out the beach."

At the top of the stairs down to the beach, he heard Williams say, "What's his problem, Swets?"

"No problem. Check the bedroom." He heard them snapping on the gloves, getting to work. Latex-the ubiquitous protector of evidence.

THE STAIRCASE, AN ENAMELLED metal job intended to look clean and modern, s.h.i.+vered under his weight. The sh.o.r.e gra.s.s was soft and damp and the coa.r.s.e sand beyond dark. The water was black, the waves a lazily undulating silver. Someone was already out in a motorboat, trolling for pickerel by the sound of it. There was a slight breeze, pleasant for a mid-June night. metal job intended to look clean and modern, s.h.i.+vered under his weight. The sh.o.r.e gra.s.s was soft and damp and the coa.r.s.e sand beyond dark. The water was black, the waves a lazily undulating silver. Someone was already out in a motorboat, trolling for pickerel by the sound of it. There was a slight breeze, pleasant for a mid-June night.

"Seabreeze," he said out loud. Why would anyone own a Seabreeze in a digital age? He turned away from the water and began to follow the shaft of light from the living room window. At the foot of the stairs he stepped sideways to position himself just under the leading edge of the balcony. Sighing again, he put his hands in his pockets, closed his eyes and dropped his head.

For a few moments he drifted, swaying-not to any music in his head, just swaying. He listened to the heavy feet moving slowly across the cottage floor twelve feet above him, until the sound of squealing brakes announced the arrival of the forensics team.

The balcony above him sagged under the weight of two more men, baggies on their feet, scanning the beachfront with flashlights, the cones of light crossing and seeking like searchlights in old war movies. The men didn't speak, and just as silently they soon went back inside.

His eyes having adjusted to the dark, MacNeice turned his attention back to the beach. The smell of the gra.s.s, lake and pine carried by the breeze was like scented silk on his face. Roughly fifty feet or so to the right, over on the dark and dimpled sand, was a triangular shadow. He moved slowly towards it, putting on the latex gloves again.

He realized what it was well before he reached it-the Schubert jacket. He picked it up by the edges, blew off the grit and turned towards the yellow slice of light coming from the cottage. When he got there, he squeezed his palms together and peered inside the elliptical opening, expecting to find it empty, but there was something inside: a neat white rectangle with a deckled edge. He flipped the jacket over and tilted it so that the paper slid closer to the opening. A photograph.

A smiling brunette, maybe fifteen or sixteen years old. He took out the photo and held it up to the light. The girl in the image-the woman who now lay dead in the cottage-was sitting on a beach recliner in a one-piece; another recliner was off to the side with a towel and beach bag beside it. Two pairs of flip-flops lay between them. On the back of the photo there was handwriting in pencil, too faint to make out in the dim light. He turned it over again to look at the girl.

She had the figure for a bikini but she was wearing a one-piece, modest by the standards of a decade or so ago, when, he a.s.sumed, the photo had been taken. Her legs, firm and tanned, were closed-not forced together by modesty or shame, just gently together. He had a photograph of someone he loved in that same pose-all smiles and suns.h.i.+ne-it was somewhere in the mess of his desk drawer. That drawer was a stark contrast to the cottage above, so neat that even a corpse couldn't mess it up.

The place had been built with money but in haste, as if more attention had been given to the idea of a beach house than to building it well. It looked as if it had never been lived in. The nearest neighbours were out of sight, a hundred yards in either direction. They'd be interviewed, as would the person trolling around in the outboard, but MacNeice guessed that no one would know the people who owned this cottage.

He made his way up the stairs to the balcony and, preferring to avoid the swarm inside, walked around to the breezeway and into the garage. Through the window he could see that Williams had a.s.sumed a position at the bar where he pretended to ignore the forensics team. Swetsky, catching sight of MacNeice, came out the side door to meet him. "He's sulking."

"I can see that." MacNeice was holding the alb.u.m and the snapshot the way choirboys do their hymnals.

"Whaddya got?"

"Schubert. A piano trio. It was on when you arrived." MacNeice held the jacket up so Swetsky could read the t.i.tle, careful to tuck the snapshot behind it.

"You don't say."

"Swets, do me a favour-get that key from the purse and bring it out here for a minute."

"Sure, but why not get it yourself?"

"I need to get some things out of the car. While you're in there, push the b.u.t.ton to open the garage door, okay?" As Swetsky went inside, happy to have a mission, MacNeice propped the Schubert jacket against the wall of the cottage, wedging it so it wouldn't fall, then slipped the snapshot into his jacket pocket.

As he cleared the breezeway, MacNeice could see that the small turning circle among the pines was now lined with vehicles, including the pathologist's black Suburban. Palmer was sitting in the pa.s.senger seat of one of the Chevys, talking on his cellphone. He glanced vacantly up as MacNeice went by, then turned his head away to continue the conversation. From the look of it, he was getting into something hot and heavy. He had a reputation with women-often somebody else's. Maybe another cop's wife or, like the last time, a firefighter's. That one had ended with his Indian motorcycle-the real love of his life-going up in flames at 4 a.m. outside his apartment. When the pumper truck arrived, the first firefighter out of the truck was the woman's husband. No charges were ever laid, and Palmer was still paying off the bike.

From a weathered black Samsonite case in the trunk of his car, MacNeice removed a Sony digital camera, one of those little black jobs that clock in at ten megapixels and can capture almost as much as the Nikon SLR the crime-scene boy was currently clacking away with inside. MacNeice closed the lid and laid the photo on top of it. He took several shots, zooming in for detail, and then turned it over to take several more of the back, making sure the flash wasn't bleaching out the writing.

The garage door opened so smoothly and quietly behind him that it was only the sudden wash of light that gave it away. Swetsky appeared, latex gloves on, purse in hand. MacNeice stifled a grin.

"There were prints and partials on the clasp, lipstick, key and fob," Swetsky said. "No idea yet what killed her."

"Poison, or something worse. As for the cottage, it was cleaned before we got here."

"Why do you figure poison?"

"Something about the way she smelled-up close, I mean."

As Swetsky handed over the purse, MacNeice pa.s.sed him the snapshot. With a wry smile, Swetsky said, "I knew you had something else, dammit. I knew it." He stared at the photo for a long moment, losing the smile. "s.h.i.+t, she really was a beauty."