Kethani Part 19

I glanced at the entwined figures without making it obvious: of course, now that I looked closely, the naked female figure in the arms of the male was Zara.

Khalid saw my gaze and laughed. "She bought this about six months ago. She put it in the bedroom. I mean, Richard, how b.l.o.o.d.y cruel can you get?"

The silence stretched. I wanted to say something, but nothing seemed appropriate.

He went on, "I tried asking, again and again, what I'd done wrong, what was wrong with our relations.h.i.+p. The frustrating thing was, she refused to talk. She simply said that she was sorry, that she'd fallen out of love with me, as simple as that. She said we had nothing in common any more, we didn't communicate. And then she met... Simon, he's called." He wept, pressing the back of his hand to his mouth in a bid to stem the sobs.

Then, quickly, he apologised, and I smiled and shook my head and told him how it had been with Barbara, all those years ago. It was the early hours before I dragged myself home.

But I recall the last thing he said to me before I left. "Richard, I never realised that love could turn to so much hatred."

Life continued.

We met in the Fleece every Tuesday. Khalid was there in body, but not in spirit. He seemed to inhabit some far-off realm. Usually eager to take part in any discussion, these days he was silent, unwilling to be drawn on any topic. He would nurse his pint and stare into s.p.a.ce, emanating an almost palpable air of misery.

I called around one day to find him slumped in an armchair, staring into the empty hearth.

"It's only me," I called from the hall on finding the front door open. "I've brought this back." I indicated the hammer I'd borrowed weeks earlier.

"I won't stay," I went on, seeing him in the chair. But he protested.

"No, stay a while. Coffee?" He seemed eager for company.

"The h.e.l.l of it is," he said a little later, "that everything reminds me of Zara. This house, the village."

"Have you thought of moving? Selling this place, I mean?"

He shook his head. "To be honest I've been so low that I can't s.h.i.+ft myself to do anything. I've thought about selling up, but that'd be as good as admitting defeat. I keep thinking that the pain will stop, in time. But if anything it only gets worse."

I indicated the place beside the hearth where the sculpture had stood. "I see she's taken it away."

"She hasn't been back here," he said, bitter. "I had to take it round to Simon's place. I never really realised how easy it would be to murder someone and think nothing of it." He looked up at me. "You're shocked, I can see. I went round to his studio and told him I wouldn't be needing the sculpture, thanks. He was so d.a.m.ned reasonable about things that I wanted to hit him over the head with it. The terrible thing is, Richard, that I feel I could be violent towards Zara, too."

I nodded. "Have you seen her since...?"

"Once, by accident."

"Don't you think it'd make things easier if you could still be friends?"

"I don't know. Sometimes I think that, and at others I think I never want to see her again."

A few weeks later I was in the supermarket in Bradley when I heard a familiar voice behind me.

"Richard?" Her tone was diffident, unsure.

I turned. "Zara. Nice to see you."

She looked radiant. She had that demure, elegant poise possessed by some Anglo-Pakistani women in their forties; she was tall, slim, raven-haired and wore subtle purple eye shadow that complemented her mocha skin.

"Richard..." She waited until an old woman was out of earshot, then went on in a low voice, "I hope you don't hate me for what happened between me and-"

I bl.u.s.tered. "These things happen."

She laid a hand on my arm. "I just had to get out, Richard. The relations.h.i.+p was just too oppressive."

I nodded, at a loss to know how to respond.

"Khal comes from a very traditional Bradford family," she went on. "He was domineering. Do you know, he didn't really like my teaching?"

I made some murmured comment along the lines that I never realised.

"Life was getting oppressive. Towards the end I really hated him. And then I met Simon, and I knew that I'd made a big mistake in marrying Khal."

I nodded again, and said, "Sometimes these realisations. .h.i.t you, Zara. And you're happy now?"

She hesitated. "Simon and I want to get married, but Khal-"

"He won't grant a divorce?" I didn't know whether to be disappointed at Khalid's pettiness or amazed at Zara's bourgeois desire to marry. Once bitten, I wanted to tell her...

"How cruel can you get, Richard? I spoke to him on the phone the other day, and the hatred..."

"Have you talked with him about why you left? Have you tried telling your side of the story?"

She almost laughed at that. "You don't know him!" she said. "He wouldn't listen to a word I said. He's in the right, always. Richard, as far as he's concerned, I'm just a woman."

I said goodbye a little later, saying that we must keep in touch.

I recall driving home through the autumn twilight and wondering who was right, who wrong, and if objective truth was a valid concept.

I called on Khalid that evening, to see if he wanted to join me in a pint. He opened the front door and blinked at me. Even in the shadow of the hallway, I noticed his black eye.

"Argument with the door?" I asked.

He didn't see the humour in my observation. "With Simon Robbins," he said. "Zara was on the phone this morning, telling me that she wants a divorce. Simon wants to marry her."

I almost said that he'd gain nothing from refusing Zara's request.

"I snapped. I went round to his studio earlier and did what I should have done months ago."

I winced. "That wouldn't endear Zara to you-"

"You don't think I give a f.u.c.k about what she thinks any more, do you?" he said. He looked at his knuckles; they were bruised and bloodied, and I felt a quick stab of sympathy for the victim of his anger.

I asked him if he'd care for a drink, but he just smiled and said he wasn't feeling up to socialising.

Over the course of the next few months, Khalid rarely showed up at the Fleece for our Tuesday night sessions. I called round a few times, but he was sullen and uncommunicative.

At one point he seemed so low that I said, "Khal, look... Don't do anything stupid, okay?"

He stared at me, then laughed. "What, like kill myself? The Kethani have taken away that option, haven't they?" He tapped his implant. "Though I could always have this taken out, I suppose." Something in his bitter tone, his intense stare as I left him, alarmed me.

Winter arrived. Snow fell with a vengeance. The village was cut off for two days, lending a siege mentality to the place. We made the best of it and inhabited the main bar of the Fleece, as you do in emergencies. Lucy and the other kids made snowmen and sledged until frostbite threatened.

A week before Christmas, with snow still falling and more on the way, Khalid called around. It was a fortnight since I'd last seen him, and I took his visit as a hopeful sign. He seemed a little brighter.

He was going away for the holiday period, visiting student friends in Norfolk, and wanted to borrow the elasticated rope I used to secure luggage on my roof rack.

We chatted desultorily over coffee; not once did he mention Zara, which I took as another good sign.

Christmas Eve came around yet again, and I was due to meet everyone at the Fleece for our traditional festive get-together. This year Ben and Elisabeth had invited Jeff Morrow and myself- lone sheep at this time of the year-along with Dan Chester and Lucy, round to their place for Christmas day. I was looking forward to the occasion. I usually make lame excuses and stay at home, or put my name down on the work roster, but for some unaccountable reason this time I'd succ.u.mbed to pressure and agreed to forgo my usual seasonal humbug. Perhaps the thought of watching Lucy, opening her presents, stirred memories of my own daughter doing the same, many years ago.

She was in Canada now, married with a child. I kept meaning to visit, but apathy always won out. I've noticed that with the advance of the years we find our safe routines and resist all opportunities to deviate.

I heard the sound around eight. I had never before heard a gunshot, and I had no idea, then, that it was such. It sounded too dull and m.u.f.fled-reminiscent of the bangers we let off in the confined s.p.a.ce of the gents' loo when we were kids.

I thought nothing more of it, until five minutes later when I heard a hammering on the front door.

It sounded frantic.

I hurried into the hall and pulled open the door.

"Zara," I began.

She clutched my arm. "Richard, you've got to come! It's Khal..."

She was shaking and looked shocked: that vacant, dead expression the face a.s.sumes when the brain cannot a.s.similate the fact of tragedy.

I found my shoes, dragged on a coat, and followed her along the snow-covered pavement.

Khal's front door was open. Zara was explaining, "He asked me to come round. He said he had a present. I said I could only stay for a few minutes..." She broke down.

I hurried into the house.

The lounge was in disarray. An armchair had been overturned, a lamp stand knocked over. A magazine rack had toppled, sending its glossy contents avalanching across the carpet.

I did not immediately see Khalid-perhaps my eyes saw him, but my brain refused to accept the mage.

Only when I had taken in the state of the room did I notice the body.

He was lying before the hearth, on his back. In the centre of his chest-gaudy crimson on his white s.h.i.+rt-was a bloodstain. His eyes were open, staring gla.s.sily at the ceiling.

I was overcome with a fleeting dizziness. In my line of work I deal with bodies everyday, but I had never before witnessed a victim of violence.

Then I recalled what Khalid had said, in jest, a few weeks back about having his implant removed. I knelt, reached out, and touched his implant. It vibrated quickly beneath my fingertips.

I looked up. Zara was standing by the door, fingers to her lips, sobbing.

I moved to her and took her in my arms. "It's okay," I soothed. "The team at the Onward Station will know of his death. They'll send out a ferryman and notify the police."

The room was cold. There was no fire lit in the hearth, and the door was still open. I closed it.

"When did you get here?" I asked.

"Just minutes ago. I came straight in, and when I saw... I came straight to you."

I recalled hearing the gunshot, perhaps ten minutes ago. I opened the door and looked out, but the snow on the pavement was a churned and slushy mess, bearing no obliging record of the killer's footprints.

I returned to Zara. She stared at me. "Who'd do such a thing?" she asked. "It doesn't make sense."

It didn't make any sense at all. It was hard to think who might have hated Khalid enough to kill him-but in this day and age it was almost impossible to work out why anyone might be drawn to homicide, other than in the heat of the moment. Why kill someone when they would be brought back to life to incriminate their killer? Of course, murder was still committed-crimes of pa.s.sion, incidents of hatred when the killer was barely conscious of the act...

There was a knock at the door. I opened it, expecting a ferryman or the police, or both. Instead, a tall, balding stranger stood on the front step, stamping his feet in the cold.

Zara hurried over to him. "Simon," she said.

I looked mystified. Zara explained, "Simon dropped me off and went to park at the Fleece."

Simon nodded to me and stepped inside. "What's the delay-?" he began and then saw the body. He went white, then slid down the wall and slumped into a sitting position.

Zara sat next to him, quietly crying on his shoulder.

Five minutes later Dan Chester arrived, accompanied by the local constable. While the policeman called in his superiors over at Bradley, I took Dan to one side and explained the situation.

He stared down at the body. "Christ, who'd do such a thing...?" He glanced across at Zara.

"No way!" I hissed. "She came straight round to my place when she found him. She was distraught. And anyway, why would she do something so stupid when Khalid would incriminate her when he returned?"

He shrugged. "Okay, but what if she came here without intending to kill him? They argued, struggled. The place is a mess. What if Khal threatened her?"

"And she just happened to be carrying a gun? Highly b.l.o.o.d.y unlikely!"

"What about her new bloke? What if they argued?"