The Sanctuary Sparrow Part 3

The child waved a hand airily back towards the trees that screened the Gaye. "It was lying in there, in a cloth bag, but I lost that down by the water. I don't know what it is. I never saw a thing like it. But it's no use that I can see."

"Did you find," asked Cadfael, eyeing the wreckage, "a stick, with fine hairs stretched along it, that went with this queer thing?"

The child yawned, halted, and abandoned his hold on his toy, letting it drop into the dust. "I hit Davey with that when he tripped me in the water, but it broke. I threw it away." So he would, having proved its uselessness, just as he walked away from this discarded weapon, leaving it lying, and went off scrubbing at sleepy eyes with the knuckles of a grimy fist.

Brother Cadfael picked up the sorry remnant and examined ruefully its stove-in ribs and trailing, tangled strings. No help for it, this was all that remained of the lost rebec. He took it back with him, only too well aware of the grief he was about to cause its luckless owner. Say that Liliwin came alive in the end out of his present trouble, still he must emerge penniless, and deprived now even of his chief means of livelihood. But there was more in it even than that. He knew it even before he presented the broken instrument to Liliwin's appalled hands, and watched the anguish and despair mantle like bleak twilight over his face. The boy took the ruin in his hands and fondled it, rocked it in his arms, bowed his head to its splintered frame, and burst into tears. It was not the loss of a possession so much as the death of a sweetheart.

Cadfael sat down apart, in the nearest carrel of the scriptorium, and kept decently silent until the storm pa.s.sed, and Liliwin sat drained and motionless, hugging his broken darling, his thin shoulders hunched against the world.

"There are men," said Cadfael then mildly, "who understand such arts as repairing instruments of music. I am not one of them, but Brother Anselm, our precentor, is. Why should we not ask him to look at your fiddle and see what can be done to make it sing again?"

"This?" Liliwin turned on him pa.s.sionately, holding out the pathetic wreck in both hands. "Look at it-no better than firewood. How could anyone restore it?"

"Do you know that? Do I? What's lost by asking the man who may? And if this is past saving, Brother Anselm can make one new."

Bitter disbelief stared back at him. Why should he credit that anyone would go out of his way to do a kindness to sod espised and unprofitable a creature as himself? Those within here held that they owed him shelter and food, but nothing more, and even that as a duty. And no one without had ever offered him any benefit that cost more than a crust.

"As if I could ever pay for a new one! Don't mock me!"

"You forget, we do not buy and sell, we have no use for money. But show Brother Anselm a good instrument damaged, and he'll want to heal it. Show him a good musician lost for want of an instrument, and he'll be anxious to provide him a new voice. Are you a good musician?"

Liliwin said: "Yes!" with abrupt and spirited pride. In one respect, at least, he knew his worth.

"Then show him you are, and he'll give you your due."

"You mean it?" wondered Liliwin, shaken between hope and doubt. "You will truly ask him? If he would teach me, perhaps I could learn the art." He faltered there, losing his momentary brightness with a suddenness that was all too eloquent. Whenever he took heart for the future, the bleak realisation came flooding over him afresh that he might have no future. Cadfael cast about hurriedly in his mind for some crumb of distraction to ward off the recurrent despair.

"Never suppose that you're friendless, that's black ingrat.i.tude when you have forty days of grace, a fair-minded man like Hugh Beringar enquiring into your case, and one creature at least who stands by you stoutly and won't hear a word against you." Liliwin kindled a little at that, still doubtfully, but at least it had put the gallows and the noose out of his mind for the moment. "You'll remember her-a girl named Rannilt."

Liliwin's face at once paled and brightened. It was the first smile Cadfael had yet seen from him, and even now tentative, humble, frightened to reach for anything desired, for fear it should vanish like melting snow as he clutched it.

"You've seen her? Talked to her? And she does not believe what they all say of me?"

"Not a word of it! She affirms-she knows-you never did violence nor theft in that house. If all the tongues in Shrewsbury cried out against you, she would still stand her ground and speak for you."

Liliwin sat cradling his broken rebec, as gently and shyly as if he clasped a sweetheart indeed. His faint, frightened smile shone in the dimming light within the cloister.

"She is the first girl who ever looked kindly at me. You won't have heard her sing-such a small, sweet voice, like a reed. We ate in the kitchen together. It was the best hour of my life, I never thought... And it's true? Rannilt believes in me?"

Chapter Four.

Sunday .

LILIWIN FOLDED AWAY HIS BRYCHANS and made himself presentable before Prime on the sabbath, determined to cause as little disruption as possible in the orderly regime within these walls. In his wandering life he had had little opportunity to become familiar with the offices of the day, and Latin was a closed book to him, but at least he could attend and pay his reverences, if that would make him more acceptable.

After breakfast Cadfael dressed the gash in the young man's arm again, and unwound the bandage from the graze on his head. "This is healing well," he said approvingly. "We'd best leave it uncovered, and let in the air to it now. Good clean flesh you have, boy, if something too little of it. And you've lost that limp that had you going sidewise. How is it with all those bruises?"

Liliwin owned with some surprise that most of his aches and pains were all but gone, and performed a few startling contortions to prove it. He had not lost his skills. His fingers itched for the coloured rings and b.a.l.l.s he used for his juggling, safely tucked away in their knotted cloth under his bed, but he feared they would be frowned on here. The ruin of his rebec also reposed in the corner of the porch next the cloister. He returned there after his breakfast to find Brother Anselm turning the wreck thoughtfully in his hands, and running a questing finger along the worst of the cracks.

The precentor was past fifty, a vague, slender, shortsighted person who peered beneath an untidy brown tonsure and bristling brows to match, and smiled amiably and encouragingly at the owner of this disastrous relic.

"This is yours? Brother Cadfael told me how it had suffered. This has been a fine instrument. You did not make it?"

"No. I had it from an old man who taught me. He gave it to me before he died. I don't know," said Liliwin, "how to make them."

It was the first time Brother Anselm had heard him speak since the shrill terror of the first invasion. He looked up alertly, tilting his head to listen. "You have the upper voice, very true and clear. I could use you, if you sing? But you must sing! You have not thought of taking the cowl, here among us?" He recalled with a sigh why that was hardly likely under present circ.u.mstances. "Well, this poor thing has been villainously used, but it is not beyond help. We may try. And the bow is lost, you say." Liliwin had said no such thing, he was mute with wonder. Evidently Brother Cadfael had given precise information to a retentive enthusiast. "The bow, I must say, is almost harder to perfect than the fiddle, but I have had my successes. Have you skills on other instruments?"

"I can get a tune out of most things," said Liliwin, charmed into eagerness.

"Come," said Brother Anselm, taking him firmly by the arm, "I will show you my workshop and you and I between us, after High Ma.s.s, will try what can best be done for this rebec of yours. I shall need a helper to tend my resins and gums. But this will be slow and careful work, mind, and matter for prayer, not to be hastened for any cause. Music is study for a lifetime, son-a lifetime however long."

He blew so like a warm gale that Liliwin went with him in a dream, forgetting how short a lifetime could also be.

Walter Aurifaber woke up that morning with a lingering headache, but also with a protesting stiffness in his limbs and restless animation in his mind that made him want to get up and stretch, and stamp, and move about briskly until the dullness went out of him. He growled at his patient, silent daughter, enquired after his journeyman, who had had the sense to make sure of his Sunday rest by vanis.h.i.+ng from both shop and town for the day, and sat down to eat a substantial breakfast and stare his losses in the face.

Things were coming back to him, however foggily, including one incident he would just as soon his mother should not hear about. Money was money, of course, the old woman had the right of it there, but it's not every day a man marries off his heir, and marries him, moreover, to a most respectable further amount of money. A little flourish towards a miserable menial might surely be forgiven a man, in the circ.u.mstances. But would she think so? He regretted it bitterly himself, now, reflecting on the disastrous result of his rare impulse of generosity. No, she must not hear of it!

Walter nursed his thick head and vain regrets, and took some small comfort in seeing his son and his new daughter-in-law off to church at Saint Mary's, in their best clothes and properly linked, Margery's hand primly on Daniel's arm. The money Margery had brought with her, and would eventually bring, mattered now more than anything else until the lost contents of his strong-box could be recovered. His head ached again fiercely when he thought of it. Whoever had done that to the house of Aurifaber should and must hang, if there was any justice in this world.

When Hugh Beringar came, with a sergeant in attendance, to hear for himself what the aggrieved victim had to tell, Walter was ready and voluble. But he was none too pleased when Dame Juliana, awaiting Brother Cadfael's visit, and foreseeing more strictures as to her behaviour if she wanted to live long, took it into her head to forestall the lecture by being downstairs when her mentor came and stumped her way down, cane in hand, prodding every tread before her and scolding Susanna away from attempting to check her. She was firmly settled on her bench in the corner, propped with cus.h.i.+ons, when Cadfael came, and challenged him with a bold, provocative stare. Cadfael chose not to gratify her with homilies, but delivered the ointment he had brought for her, and rea.s.sured himself of the evenness of her breathing and heart, before turning to a Walter grown unaccountably short of words.

"I'm glad to see you so far restored. The tales they told of you were twenty years too soon. But I'm sorry for your loss. I hope it may yet be recovered."

"Faith, so do I," said Walter sourly. "You tell me that rogue you have in sanctuary has no part of it on him, and while you hold him fast within there he can hardly unearth and make off with it. For it must be somewhere, and I trust the sheriff's men here to find it."

"You're very certain of your man, then?" Hugh had got him to the point where he had taken his valuables and gone to stow them away in the shop, and there he had suddenly grown less communicative. "But he had already been expelled some time earlier, as I understand it, and no one has yet testified to seeing him lurking around your house after that."

Walter cast a glance at his mother, whose ancient ears were p.r.i.c.ked and her faded but sharp eyes alert. "Ah, but he could well have stayed in hiding, all the same. What was there to prevent it in the dark of the night?"

"So he could," agreed Hugh unhelpfully, "but there's no man so far claims he did. Unless you've recalled something no one else knows? Did you see anything of him after he was thrown out?"

Walter s.h.i.+fted uneasily, looked ready to blurt out a whole indictment, and thought better of it in Juliana's hearing. Brother Cadfael took pity on him.

"It might be well," he said guilelessly, "to take a look at the place where this a.s.sault was made. Master Walter will show us his workshop, I am sure."

Walter rose to it thankfully, and ushered them away with alacrity, along the pa.s.sage and in again at the door of his shop. The street door was fast, the day being Sunday, and he closed the other door carefully behind them, and drew breath in relief.

"Not that I've anything to conceal from you, my lord, but I'd as lief my mother should not have more to worry her than she has already." Plausible cover, at any rate, for the awe of her in which he still went. "For this is where the thing happened, and you see from this door how the coffer lies in the opposite corner. And there was I, with the key in the lock and the lid laid back against the wall, wide open, and my candle here on the shelf close by. The light s.h.i.+ning straight down into the coffer-you see?-and what was within in plain view. And suddenly I hear a sound behind me, and there's this minstrel, this Liliwin, creeping in at the door."

"Threateningly?" asked Hugh, straight-faced. If he did not wink at Cadfael, his eyebrow was eloquent. "Armed with a cudgel?"

"No," admitted Walter, "rather humbly, to all appearance. But then I'd heard him and turned. He was barely into the doorway, he could have dropped his weapon outside when he saw I was ware of him."

"But you did not hear it fall? Nor see any sign of such?"

"No, that I own."

"Then what had he to say to you?"

"He begged me to do him right, for he said he had been cheated of two thirds of his promised fee. He said it was hard on a poor man to be so blamed and docked of his money, and pleaded with me to make it good as promised."

"And did you?" asked Hugh.

"I tell you honestly, my lord, I could not say he had been hardly used, considering the worth of the pitcher, but I did think him a poor, sad creature who had to live, whatever the rights or wrongs of it. And I gave him another penny-good silver, minted in this town. But not a word of this to Dame Juliana, if you'll be so good. She'll have to know, now it's all come back to me, that he dared creep in and ask, but no need for her to know I gave him anything. She would be affronted, seeing she had denied him."

"Your thought for her does you credit," said Hugh gravely. "What then? He took your bounty and slunk out?"

"He did. But I wager he has not told you anything of this begging visit. A poor return I got for the favour!" Walter was sourly vengeful still.

"You mistake, for he has. He has told us this very same tale that you now tell. And confided to the abbey's keeping, while he remains there, the two silver pence which is all he has on him. Tell me, had you closed the lid of the coffer as soon as you found yourself observed?"

"I did!" said Walter fervently. "And quickly! But he had seen. I never gave him another thought at the time but-see here, my lord, how it follows! As soon as he was gone, or I thought he was gone, I opened the coffer again, and was bending over it laying Margery's dowry away, when I was clouted hard from behind, and that's the last I knew till I opened an eye in my own bed, hours later. If it was two minutes after that fellow crept out of the door, when someone laid me flat, it was not a moment more. So who else could it be?"

"But you did not actually see who struck you?" Hugh pressed. "Not so much as a glimpse? No shadow cast, to give him a shape or size? No sense of a bulk heaving up behind you?"

"Never a chance." Walter might be vindictive, but he was honest. "See, I was stooping over the coffer when it seemed the wall fell on me, and I pitched asprawl, head-down into the box, clean out of the world. I heard nothing and saw nothing, not even a shadow, no-the last thing I recall was the candle flickering, but what is there in that? No, depend on it, that rogue had seen what I had in my store before I clapped down the lid. Was he going tamely away with his penny, with all that money there to take? Not he! Nor hide nor hair of any other did I see in here that night. You may be certain of it, the jongleur is your man."

"And it may still be so," admitted Hugh, parting from Cadfael on the bridge some twenty minutes later. "Enough to tempt any poor wretch with but two coins to rub together. Whether he had any such thought in his head before the candle shone on our friend's h.o.a.rd or no. Equally, I grant the lad may not even have realised what lay beneath his hand, or seen anything but his own need and the thin chance of getting a kinder reception from the goldsmith than from that ferocious mother of his. He may have crept away thanking G.o.d for his penny and never a thought of wrong. Or he may have picked up a stone or a stave and turned back."

At about that same time, in the street outside Saint Mary's church, which was the common ground for exchanging civilities and observing fas.h.i.+ons on a fine Sunday morning after Ma.s.s, Daniel and Margery Aurifaber in their ceremonial progression, intercepted by alternate well-wishers and commiserators-wedding and robbery being equally relished subjects of comment and speculation in Shrewsbury-came face to face with Master Ailwin Corde, the wool-merchant, and his wife, Cecily, and halted by general consent to pa.s.s the time of day as befitted friends and neighbours.

This Mistress Cecily looked more like a daughter to the merchant, or even a granddaughter, than a wife. She was twenty-three years old to his sixty, and though small and slender of stature, was so opulent in colouring, curvature and gait, and everything that could engage the eye, that she managed to loom large as a G.o.ddess and dominate whatever scene she graced with her presence. And her elderly husband took pleasure in decking her out with sumptuous fabrics and fas.h.i.+ons the gem he should rather have shrouded in secretive, plain linens. A gilt net gathered on her head its weight of auburn hair, and a great ornament of enamel and gemstones jutted before her, calling attention to a resplendent bosom.

Faced with this richness, Margery faded, and knew that she faded. Her smile became fixed and false as a mask, and her voice tended to sharpen like a singer forced off-key. She tightened her clasp on Daniel's arm, but it was like trying to hold a fish that slid through her fingers without even being aware of restraint.

Master Corde enquired solicitously after Walter's health, was relieved to hear that he was making a good recovery, was sad, nonetheless, to know that so far nothing had been found of all that had been so vilely stolen. He sent his condolences, while thanking G.o.d for life and health spared. His wife echoed all that he said, modest eyes lowered, and voice like distant wood-doves.

Daniel, his eyes wandering more often to Mistress Cecily's milk-and-roses face than to the old man's flabby and self-satisfied countenance, issued a hearty invitation to Master Corde to bring his wife and take a meal with the goldsmith as soon as might be, and cheer him by his company. The wool-merchant thanked him, and wished it no less, but must put off the pleasure for a week or more, though he sent his sympathetic greetings and promised his prayers.

"You don't know," confided Mistress Cecily, advancing a small hand to touch Margery's arm, "how fortunate you are in having a husband whose trade is rooted fast at home. This man of mine is for ever running off with his mules and his wagon and his men, either west into Wales or east into England, over business with these fleeces and cloths of his, and I'm left lonely days at a time. Now tomorrow early he's off again, if you please, as far as Oxford, and I shall lack him for three or four days."

Twice she had raised her creamy eyelids during this complaint, once ruefully at her husband, and once, with a miraculously fleeting effect which should have eluded Margery, but did not, at Daniel, eyes blindingly bright in the one flash that shot from them, but instantly veiled and serene.

"Now, now, sweet," said the wool-merchant indulgently, "you know how I shall hurry back to you."

"And how long it will take," she retorted, pouting. "Three or four nights solitary. And you'd better bring me something nice to sweeten me for it when you return."

As she knew he would. He never came back from any journey but he brought her a gift to keep her sweet. He had bought her, but there was enough of cold sense in him, below his doting, to know that he had to buy her over and over again if he wanted to keep her. The day he acknowledged it, and examined the implications, she might well go in fear for her slender throat, for he was an arrogant and possessive man.

"You say very truly, madam!" said Margery, stiff-lipped. "I do know, indeed, how fortunate I am."

Only too well! But every man's fortune, and every woman's too, can be changed given a little thought, perseverance and cunning.

Liliwin had spent his day in so unexpected and pleasant a fas.h.i.+on that for an hour and more at a time he had forgotten the threat hanging over him. As soon as High Ma.s.s was over, the precentor had hustled him briskly away to the corner of the cloister where he had already begun to pick apart, with a surgeon's delicacy and ruthlessness, the fractured shards of the rebec. Slow, devoted work that demanded every particle of the pupil's attention, if he was to a.s.sist at a resurrection. And excellent therapy against the very idea of death.

"We shall put together what is here broken," said Brother Anselm, intent and happy, "for an avowal on our pan. No matter if the product, when achieved, turns out to be flawed, yet it shall speak again. If it speaks with a stammering voice, then we shall make another, as one generation follows its progenitor and takes up the former music. There is no absolute loss. Hand me here that sheet of vellum, son, and mark in what order I lay these fragments down." Mere splinters, a few of them, but he set them carefully in the shape they should take when restored. "Do you believe you will play again upon this instrument?"

"Yes," said Liliwin, fascinated, "I do believe."

"That's well, for faith is necessary. Without faith nothing is accomplished." He mentioned this rare tool as he would have mentioned any other among those laid out to his hand. He set aside the fretted bridge. "Good workmans.h.i.+p, and old. This rebec had more than one master before it came to you. It will not take kindly to silence."

Neither did he. His brisk, gentle voice flowed like a placid stream while he worked, and its music lulled like the purling of water. And when he had picked apart and set out in order all the fragments of the rebec, and placed the vellum that held them in a safe corner, covered with a linen cloth, to await full light next day, he confronted Liliwin at once with his own small portative organ, and demanded he should try his hand with that. He had no need to demonstrate its use, Liliwin had seen one played, but never yet had the chance to test it out for himself.

He essayed the fingering nimbly enough at his first attempt, but concentrated so totally on the tune he was playing that he forgot to work the little bellows with his left hand, and the air ran out with a sigh into silence. He caught himself up with a startled laugh, and tried again, too vigorously, his playing hand slow on the keys. At the third try he had it. He played with it, entranced, picked out air after air, getting the feel of it, balancing hand against hand, growing ambitious, attempting embellishments. Five fingers can do only so much.

Brother Anselm presented to him a curious, figured array of signs upon vellum, matched by written symbols which he knew to be words. He could not read them, since he could not read in any tongue. To him this meant nothing more than a pleasing pattern, such as a woman might draw for her embroidery.

"You never learned this mystery? Yet I think you would pick it up readily. This is music, set down so that the eye, no less than the ear, may master it. See here, this line of neums here! Give me the organ."

He took it and played a long line of melody. "That-what you have heard-that is written down here. Listen again!" And again he plucked it jubilantly forth. "There, now sing me that!"

Liliwin flung up his head and paid him back the phrase.

"Now, follow me still... answer as I go."

It was an intoxication, line after line of music to copy and toss back. Within minutes Liliwin had begun to embellish, to vary, to return a higher echo that chorded with the original.

"I could make of you a singer," said Brother Anselm, sitting back in high content.

"I am a singer," said Liliwin. He had never before understood fully how proud he was of being able to say so.

"I do believe it. Your music and mine go different ways, but both of them are made up of these same small signs here, and the sounds they stand for. If you stay a little, I shall teach you how to read them," promised Anselm, pleased with his pupil. "Now, take this, practise some song of your own with it, and then sing it to me."

Liliwin reviewed his songs, and was somewhat abashed to discover how many of them must be suppressed here as lewd and offensive. But not all were so. He had a favourite, concerned with the first revelation of young love, and recalling it now, he recalled Rannilt, as poor as himself, as unconsidered, in her smoky kitchen and coa.r.s.e gown, with her cloud of black hair and pale, oval face lit by radiant eyes. He fingered out the tune, feeling his way, his left hand now deft and certain on the bellows. He played and sang it, and grew so intent upon the singing that he scarcely noticed how busily Brother Anselm was penning signs upon his parchment.

"Will you believe," said Anselm, delightedly proffering the leaf, "that what you have just sung to me is written down here? Ah, not the words, but the air. This I will explain to you hereafter, you shall learn both how to inscribe and how to decypher. That's a very pleasant tune you have there. It could be used for the ground of a Ma.s.s. Well, now, that's enough for now, I must go and prepare for Vespers. Let be until tomorrow."

Liliwin set the organetto tenderly back on its shelf, and went out, dazed, into the early evening. A limpid, pale-blue day was drifting away into a deeper blue twilight. He felt drained and gentle and fulfilled, like the day itself, silently and hopefully alive. He thought of his battered wooden juggling rings and b.a.l.l.s, tucked away under his folded brychans in the church porch. They represented another of his skills, which, if not practised, would rust and be damaged. He was so far buoyed up by his day that he went to fetch them, and carried them away hopefully into the garden, which opened out level below level to the pease-fields that ran down to the Meole brook. There was no one there at this hour, work was over for the day. He untied the cloth, took out the six wooden b.a.l.l.s and the rings after them, and began to spin them from hand to hand, testing his wrists and the quickness of his eye.

He was still stiff from bruises and fumbled at first, but after a while the old ease began to return to him, and his pleasure in accomplishment. This might be a very humble skill, but it was still an achievement, and his, and he cherished it. Encouraged, he put the b.a.l.l.s and rings away, and began to try out the suppleness of his thin, wiry body, twisting himself into grotesque knots. That cost him some pain from muscles trampled and beaten, but he persisted, determined not to give up. Finally he turned cartwheels all along the headland across the top of the pease-fields, coiled himself into a ring and rolled down the slope to the banks of the brook, and made his way up again, the slope being gentle enough, in a series of somersaults.

Arrived again at the level where the vegetable gardens and the enclosed herbarium began, he uncurled himself, flushed and pleased, to find himself gazing up at a couple of yards distance into the scandalised countenance of a sour-faced brother almost as meagre as himself. He stared, abashed, into eyes rounded and ferocious with outrage.

"Is this how you reverence this holy enclave?" demanded Brother Jerome, genuinely incensed. "Is such foolery and lightmindedness fit for our abbey? And have you, fellow, so little grat.i.tude for the shelter afforded you here? You do not deserve sanctuary, if you value it so lightly. How dared you so affront G.o.d's enclosure?"

Liliwin shrank and stammered, out of breath and abased to the ground. "I meant no offence. I am grateful, I do hold the abbey in reverence. I only wanted to see if I could still master my craft. It is my living, I must practise it! Pardon if I've done wrong!" He was easily intimidated, here where he was in debt, and in doubt how to comport himself in a strange world. All his brief gaiety, all the pleasure of the music, ebbed out of him. He got to his feet almost clumsily, who had been so lissome only moments ago, and stood trembling, shoulders bowed and eyes lowered.

Brother Jerome, who seldom had business in the gardens, being the prior's clerk and having no taste for manual labour, had heard from the great court the small sound, strange in these precincts, of wooden b.a.l.l.s clicking together in mid-air, and had come to investigate in relative innocence. But once in view of the performance, and himself screened by bushes fringing Brother Cadfael's herb-garden, he had not called a halt at once and warned the offender of his offence, but remained in hiding, storing up a c.u.mulative fund of indignation until the culprit uncoiled at his feet. It may be that a degree of guilt on his own part rendered more extreme the reproaches he loosed upon the tumbler.

"Your living," he said mercilessly, "ought to engage you rather in prayers and self-searchings than in these follies. A man who has such charges hanging over him as you have must concern himself first with his soul's welfare, for whether he has a living to make hereafter or none, he has a soul to save when his debt in this world is paid. Think on that, and go put your trumpery away, as long as you are sheltered here. It is not fitting! It is blasphemy! Have you not enough already unpaid on your account?"