Dangerous Offspring Part 6

'In that case I'll have a double whisky,' I said.

'Fine.' Cyan shook a five-pound coin from her purse.

'Ask him to fetch them.' I nodded and smiled at Rawney, and pushed the coin towards him.

'Rawney, go and bring some whisky, another wallop for me and get yourself a jug of beer. They don't take orders at your table here,' she added to me. 'It isn't that Awian.'

Rawney lumbered off to the bar. I called after him, 'And a couple of baskets of chips!'

'I wonder where you put it all, you're so thin.'

'I fly,' I said shortly. 'Cyan, why did you run away? Lightning's worried sick. And don't you know it's illegal to carry bows in the city?' I took it off the chair arm and slipped it under the couch. 'What are you doing here? You have to come home.'

She looked me over. 'There's no such thing as "have to". I am not going back to Micawater or Awndyn. Not ever. No way. You can't make me.'

'Yes, I can, actually. What are you doing with that hulk?'

'Rawney? He's gorgeous.'

'He's dim. Lightning wants you to come to the front. We're about to advance at Frost's lake.'

'That old eel-eater. I don't want to go to the d.a.m.n dam. I want to stay here.'

'You're not lodging with that Morenzian meathead, are you?'

'That's none of your business! Hmm...I don't think I'll tell you, because you'll just flutter off back to Daddy and spill the beans. I know what I'm doing.'

'Do you really?'

'I was fed up with dull old Awndyn.' She sighed. 'I had to get away. Away from obligation! I want to stay here and live it up for a few months. I have a freedom here I never had with Swallow, with Daddy; they're all living in a dream world. They have no idea how the real world works. This is the real world' Her gesture took in the bar and what little of East Bank was visible through the window 'This is where the real people are.' She lit a cigarette and narrowed her eyes against the smoke. 'I know I'm lucky and I can do anything, but I just haven't made my mind up yet.'

'Please come back.'

'Don't be c.r.a.p, goat-breath. You do what you want, you always told me that. Why shouldn't I?'

I was frustrated that I had to spell this out: 'Hacilith is dangerous.'

'Yeah!'

'You can't be Rawney's girlfriend. You might pretend but you'll never really understand him.'

She smiled sweetly. 'I can play him along for kicks. He wors.h.i.+ps the ground I walk on.'

I hissed, 'No. You might think that, but he reckons you're his girl. If you try to leave him, he might hurt you.'

'Whatever gave you that idea?' she said, shocked.

'Oh, Cyan. Please be careful. You might find it hard to get rid of the likes of him. He knows he can't really have you, so instead he could try to make your life misery. He could blame you for the fact that he's Insect fodder and you're glittering with rubies.'

'I don't think so.'

'Oh, yes. Worse still, if he believes you're something you're not, he could chase you unto the last of his energy and be prepared to die for what his imagination makes you into. He'd love to marry the heir to Peregrine.'

I glanced over to the bar but fortunately Rawney was taking a long time. He was chatting with a skinny, wasted-looking guy. I took a sip of Cyan's 'wallop'ginger beer that was more beer than it was gingerand went on; 'You'll never understand what Hacilith is like under the surface. It's impossible, but try to grasp that I'm telling you this from my own experience. My image isn't just an image, Cyan; I witnessed the last days of the East Bank gangs.' I pushed my coat off my shoulder so she could see the circle with six spokes that our gang leader had carved there. 'The other gang, the Bowyers, had arrowheads scarred on their forearms. We used to flay them off and stick them to the door of our warehouse.'

'Wow.'

'Yes. Well, I suppose I should never have tried to encroach on their patch. When they caught any of us, they dumped us in the ca.n.a.l lock. When we caught any of them, we nailed them to the struts of a waterwheel. Hence the Wheel.' I took her hand and traced the furrows of my scar with her finger.

'I can feel it.'

'That's right.'

She didn't know whether to believe me or not. 'Didn't the constables do anything?'

'Oh, I always tipped off the constables. But they left them revolving round and round for a few hours before they took them down...The Bowyers eventually traced where I lived. I came home one night and found my shop on fire. I ran in, trying to find my master...' I continued sadly as I put my coat back on. 'He was called Dotterel. I tried to run upstairs but the steps were burning through. I expectI hopehe died of smoke suffocation long before the flames reached the second floor...'

Cyan said, 'I'm sorry.'

'I couldn't feel grief back then, only despair. It was the next inevitable avalanche to happen to me. What sort of life was Hacilith, anyway? My girlfriend pulled me out of the shop as it rose in flames about me and, right then, we determined to leave Galt. We took the road that went left over Pityme Bridge and we realised that even the Castle was possible.'

I never tell Zascai that I used to be a drug dealer, but I let them know my unfortunate adventures. It makes me seem so much more talented for having escaped them.

Cyan said, 'Hacilith must have changed.'

'Yes, it's different now. The underworld is more inconspicuous and a d.a.m.n sight more complicated, but it hasn't gone away.'

She took a sip of her drink and rolled her eyes. 'Oh G.o.d. If that's your advice, I don't need it. I don't want Daddy's advice either, and I certainly don't want Swallow the mad diva's homespun instruction. I thought better of you. Let me make my own mistakes!'

'You don't want Lightning's advice? Fourteen hundred years of it?'

'Fourteen hundred years of boredom, more like!'

'You'll inherit Peregrine when you're twenty-one,' I said.

'That's what I'm running away from! My true place in life, huh. How can I be an Awian lady when I don't feel Awian at all? Not that being wingless matters; Awians will accept me and anyway, they don't have a choice. But I don't feel I belong anywhere. Daddy gave me this' She hooked her fingers under the chain of her ruby pendant as if she was about to rip it off and throw it away. 'He says it's an heirloom. But I don't belong in Micawater either. "Come home," you tell me, but just where home is, I can't say. Morenzia is the only country that's free.'

'Don't say that in front of Lightning.'

'Just five families in Awia own eighty per cent of the land. Morenzians don't have such a silly aristocracy. They don't have to bow and sc.r.a.pe. You don't know what it's like to be a girl stuck in Awndyn.'

I nodded. That much was true.

'Hacilith is so big! There are so many people my age! I never had friends in Awndyn. But, G.o.d, Jant, what does that mean to you? You're b.l.o.o.d.y ancient. The Castle protects you, just like Daddy.'

'You should have seen me at Slake Cross trying to hold my guts in with one hand.'

'Oh, yeah. Sorry.' She pinched her cheek and wiggled it. 'You think you see a girl but looking out of these eyes is a very experienced woman, in experience terms at least as old as you are. Well, nearly. I've travelled all over the place.'

'Did you go or were you taken?'

Her eyebrows drew together. I continued, 'You haven't been south of Awndyn before and you haven't been north of Micawater.'

'I'm here of my own accord now. So don't misunderestimate me. Take Rawney, I only met him four days ago and he says he will do anything for me. He can get anything for me, even jook. He helped me move onto the Tumblehome.'

'Is that where you're staying?'

'Oh...Yeah, it is, actually. So let me express myself. I'm not going to be cooped up in Awndyn with the mad diva.'

Rawney returned with the drinks but without any food. He didn't give Cyan her change either but she didn't notice. He put a whole bottle of cheap whisky down in front of me. 'There! Get your talons round that!'

'I don't have talons,' I said indignantly, but he continued to stare rudely while I poured a gla.s.s. I stared back, and he looked away.

People naturally resent anybody who gives them orders and Zascai are especially resentful of good-looking immortals who can fly. Rawney was trying to find something to feel superior about and, as usual for such people, he was concentrating on my Rhydanne heritage. There is not much in my appearance and bearing for Morenzians to identify with; all that is human in me, I have learnt. They characterise Rhydanne as a bunch of hopeless drunks; the fact that one might flap down from the mountains and start giving them commands is a further affront to their dignity. Also, if he is like most Zascai, he will think of me as the voice of the Emperor and be doubly afraid. Mortals often a.s.sume that because I have the Emperor's ear I am somehow closer to him than other immortals. That isn't true, and anyway why would San send me to spy on someone like Rawney?

Cyan gave an embarra.s.sed giggle. 'It's so strange to be talking to one of Daddy's workmates.'

I said, 'As the future Governor of Peregrine, you'll get used to it.'

'How many times have I got to tell you? I don't want to be governor! I hate feeling the weight of Daddy's expectations on me all the time! It's all right for you, flying around and never counting the cost. I'm not impressed with his plans for me. I have different plans. How dare he a.s.sume my tastes are the same as his? He doesn't even know me!'

'But you used to love hunting in Peregrine,' I said.

'Yes, I know. Weird, isn't it? It became overfamiliar, I suppose. It disappointed me. I don't want to see all those same faces again.' She turned to Rawney. 'Jant used to frustrate the f.u.c.k out of me with all his exciting plans I wasn't allowed to realise. I loved his tales of faraway places. Now I'm in one!'

That made me smile. 'Lightning would be furious if he knew you were sitting in a bar.'

'Huh. Him. He doesn't understand what's real in life. He's stuck with his sense of honour. I think we should feel first and act on our feelings instead. I wanted someone to know my mind, Jant. No one in Awndyn could, so it's me who has to change. I thought: if I don't change, I'll die. But now the future has opened up wide!'

I poured more whisky. Every spoilt teenager talks like this, and Cyan was in full flow. 'I've got my enthusiasm back. I used to feel dormant, as if I was waiting to start my own life. I was breathless and apprehensive, but I was ready and now things are starting to happen! My hatred of Awndyn wound me up like a spring and shot me out to Hacilith. I'm not stopping now.'

I said, 'You might find the front just as refres.h.i.+ng. Have you ever seen a live Insect? No? Well, I can show you things even more exciting than Hacilith.'

She glanced at Rawney. 'Bring him, too,' I said. 'Lightning will love him.'

She said slowly, 'Hacilith is more cleansing. I can get lost here. n.o.body knows who I am.'

'I think they do!'

'b.o.l.l.o.c.ks, Jant. b.o.l.l.o.c.ks. Listen. There are three sorts of people: the ones in Awndyn or Micawater don't have to ask who one's father is, because they know and they take it for granted. Then I travelled a bit and met the sort, like in Aver-Falconet's household, who do think it's important to ask who one's father is. They're surprised and a bit scared when I tell them, because they don't really know what to say. They think they should treat me with kid gloves. I hate them. Then there are the real people, like these Morenzians. It never occurs to them to ask; as far as they're concerned it's a meaningless question. They treat me the same as any other girl.'

'That's the problem.'

Rawney said nothing but became gradually redder and redder in the face until he burst. 'You know f.u.c.k all, immortal! You left this town! You hit the big time. Yeah, you went away and won immortality and married money. So what are you doing here? Why have you come here? Go f.u.c.k off back to the Castle. Go onget out! You don't belong here with your f.u.c.king smart comments and your weird old-fas.h.i.+oned clothes!'

I tilted my head and gave him a good look with my cheekbones. If he wanted a fight I could shove my axe up his a.r.s.e in three moves. 'I swear,' I said softly. 'If we didn't send the people of Hacilith to fight Insects, they'd be fighting each other.'

Rawney flinched, glanced at Cyan and rallied. 'Look, babe, we're talking to a madman. A real creep. He's two hundred years old and he's not going to die so he must be mad compared to us mortals. He has nothing to do with us.'

Cyan pursed her lips. 'It is off-putting that he always looks the same. It reminds me of when I was small.'

I sighed, sick of invective. 'Please, Cyan. I don't want to leave you here. I can't tell Lightning this.'

'I can't believe you're on Daddy's side!'

'I'm not. I agree that you shouldn't sweetly follow the life he's planned for you. Forget the governors.h.i.+p, if you want. That's fine by me. But I think you're a bit vulnerable and'

'I can look after myself!' She grabbed the bow from under the sofa and before I could stop her, she slid it out of its holster.

The bar suddenly went very quiet. Every face turned towards us, but Rawney stood up and called, 'Do you want to see another trick?'

To my astonishment they all began to applaud. n.o.body slipped out to call the constables. Cyan acknowledged them with a wave. She held her bow across her knee and ran her hands over it to warm it, then carefully bent its limbs back and strung it. They were tapered, surprisingly whippy for a reflex bow. She slipped a horn ring on her thumb and pulled two arrows, shorter than fyrd standard arrows, from the quiver. She pressed ginger beer bottle corks onto their sharp bodkin points, saying, 'I'll show you my trick.'

'I've seen this. It's one of Lightning's stunts.'

'No, it's my trick.' She lost none of the emphasis the second time round, so I decided to let her win. 'Go on, then.'

She did not bother to stand up. She nocked an arrow and drew it to her cheek with a pinch grip. She aimed and let fly.

A bottle on the furthest table jumped into the air, clattered down and started spinning round, flas.h.i.+ng its empty neck and base.

Cyan shot the second arrow and it recorked the spinning bottle. The force of its impact sent it off the edge of the table. It skidded across the floor bounced off a young man's foot. He held it up, the cork firmly fixed and the arrow protruding.

Cyan's impromptu audience gave her another round of applause. She stretched up her arm and raised her three middle fingers, her thumb holding her little finger down. It was the archers' salute, long ago, and now it's a very filthy gesture.

'See!' she said to me. 'All these new friends!' And louder: 'Let's show Comet a good time. All the drinks are on me!'

There was a cheer and the sound of a general rush to the bar. Much impressed, I said, 'You're very accurate. And that's a glorious bow.'

'Thanks. It's one of Daddy's own designs.'

'Don't ever use it in Hacilith again when I'm not here! Why don't you come to the front, if you're keen on shooting? You can practise on Insects every day.'

'I am not going to Daddy. There'll be two bridges over the Foin before I do! The Emperor will leave the Castle, G.o.d will return and the world will end before I talk to him!'

'He did his best. He brought you up as well as he could.' I indicated the bow as an example of Lightning's largesse.

'Huh. It was his fault my mother was killed. He could have saved her but he let her die.'

I put the bottle down. 'What? Who told you that?'

'Carmine Dei. One of my stepsisters.'

'She's lying. Lightning did all he could to save your mother. I know; I was there.' Cyan's stepsister was as big a b.i.t.c.h as their mother, Ata, had been. After she died, some of her huge family remained in contact, a large clandestine organisation, and these days Carmine has the whole suspect network well under her hand. She was the city's harbourmaster; she had failed in the last compet.i.tion for Sailor, and being Sailor manque had made her even more poisonous.

I said, 'You mustn't listen to anything Carmine says. Are you staying with her?'

'No. Not quite. Carmine told me a lot of Daddy's secrets and I know some of them must be true. After all he abandoned me with Governor Swallow Fata.r.s.e. She made me learn silly musical instruments I wasn't the slightest bit interested in. Once, when I was little, I pretended to be an Insect under her dumb piano and I accidentally scratched it. She went totally crazy. After that being an Insect was out of the question. Silly cow. And she plays Daddy better then she plays any instrument! I visit Micawater now and then, but he doesn't realise how long the gaps are between visits. What is he doing that's so d.a.m.n important I had to fend for myself?'