Killer Of Men Part 21

Men are fools. Combat is not for honour. I hadn't learned that lesson yet, but I almost knew it, and I was annoyed with him, that he'd wasted my time and energy.

I was the first to finish, and I watched the others fight. Cleisthenes had his broken hand inside his aspis, and he was hammering his opponent, an older Athenian who was angered and afraid of Cleisthenes' bullying, hammering attacks that were well beyond the spirit of the contest. Cleisthenes was swinging as hard as he could, chopping his opponent's s.h.i.+eld with his heavy sword, a curved kopis kopis or or falcata falcata, depending where you're from, a weapon like an axe with a sword blade attached.

Another Athenian effortlessly dispatched his man after a long shuffle in a circle. I saw him do it. He faked a cut to the man's head and tagged his thigh under the rim of his s.h.i.+eld perfect coordination, perfect control. He was one of their n.o.blemen. He was fast and elegant and had better armour than anyone else, including bronze on his thighs and upper arms.

It was good that I saw him, because he was my next opponent. The light was starting to go, and we fought between two bonfires. He smiled at me he had an Attic helmet with spring-loaded cheek-pieces, and as soon as I saw it, I knew my father had made it. I held up my hand to him.

'My father made that, sir,' I said, pointing at the helmet.

He took it off. 'You're a son of Technes, the smith of Plataea who fell in Euboea?' he asked.

'I am, sir.' I bowed.

He returned my bow, although he was a child of the G.o.ds, the son of the greatest family in Athens. 'I am Aristides,' he said, 'of the Antiochae.'

I nodded. 'I am Arimnestos of the Corvaxae,' I said, 'of green Plataea where Leitos has his shrine.'

He grinned. He liked that I could play the game. Then he put his helmet back on and I pulled mine down, and we faced off.

The Chians cheered us, because we were both foreigners. Aristides was probably the best-known man in the fleet, while I had just won the athletics, and that made it a good-natured match with lots of cheering. I could hear Melaina's clear soprano and her brother's ba.s.s.

And then they all went away, and I was alone on the sand with a deadly opponent. He moved the way a woman dances, and I admired him even as I tracked his motion.

As far as I was concerned, he was beautiful, but he put too much energy into it. That is, he looked wonderful and he was good, very good, a true killer. But he also played to the crowd.

He had not, on the other hand, run several stades and wrestled.

Early on, he came at me with his kill shot. All swordsmen have one a simple combination they have mastered, that can get the fight over in a hurry. Listen if you live past a man's kill shot, it's a whole different fight. But most men go down, in sport or play or on a blood-spattered deck. Calchas taught me that, and every sword-fighter in Ephesus said the same.

I didn't buy the feint to my head and my s.h.i.+eld caught his blow to my thigh, then I cut back at his arm and my blade ticked ticked against his arm guard. against his arm guard.

He nodded at me as we drew apart acknowledgement that I'd hit him. Then we circled for a long, long time, until the crowd was silent. I wasn't going after him. He was better than me. And he wasn't in a hurry. And, frankly, I knew he was the best man I'd ever faced better than Cyrus or Pharnakes, even.

Twice, we went in. The first time, he came forward gracefully and fooled me, his swaying approach a trick as he darted to the right and his blade shot out in a cut to my right hip, of all unlikely targets.

I parried the blow on my blade and hammered my aspis into his. I cleared my weapon and tried to reach under his s.h.i.+eld, but he didn't allow it, and we were kneeling in the sand, s.h.i.+eld to s.h.i.+eld, pus.h.i.+ng. The crowd roared but the judges separated us.

The second time, I saw him stumble. It was dark now; the fires gave unsteady light and the helmets didn't help. But before my attack was even fully developed, he had his feet under him. He cut low and then high, and our blades rang together, and we both both punched with our s.h.i.+elds, leaning our shoulders into the push, and our blades licked out and we both rolled left and broke apart. The ocean cold of his blade had pa.s.sed across my sword arm and my blade had punched with our s.h.i.+elds, leaning our shoulders into the push, and our blades licked out and we both rolled left and broke apart. The ocean cold of his blade had pa.s.sed across my sword arm and my blade had ticked ticked against his thigh armour. against his thigh armour.

I raised my blade for a halt. 'He touched me,' I said. I can be an honourable man.

But his blade had been flat on, and Athena was by me, and when the judges looked, there was no blood.

Stephanos gave me a drink of wine while the judges looked at my opponent. Archi pointed at him.

'Back of his knees, brother,' he said. He'd never called me brother before, and it was the warmest praise of the day.

'Cleisthenes hurt his last man,' Stephanos said. 'He'll face the winner here but his grandfather is mad as fury. The man he cut is bad.'

Cleisthenes came and started to catcall. He was a rude f.u.c.k, and while other men cheered, he jeered. My blood started to rise.

I decided to go for the Athenian's knee. Archi was dead right when you're in the fight you don't always see. He was a tall man and the back of his knee was the best unarmoured target on him.

He went for his kill shot again. I think he felt that he hadn't got it off perfectly the first time. But as soon as he started, I knew the combination. I knelt, ignoring the head feint, and snapped my wrist in a long cut against the back of his left knee while his sword cracked cracked on to my s.h.i.+eld and bounced up on to my helmet I'd knelt too low. The blow was hard not as well pulled as his first, and I fell sideways with a b.u.mp on my scalp where my helmet turned the blow but not all of it. on to my s.h.i.+eld and bounced up on to my helmet I'd knelt too low. The blow was hard not as well pulled as his first, and I fell sideways with a b.u.mp on my scalp where my helmet turned the blow but not all of it.

He gave me a hand up and apologized.

I pointed my heavy blade at the black line of blood running down the back of his greaves.

'By Athena!' he said. 'Well cut, Plataean.'

Men cheered, but Cleisthenes jeered again, calling us pansies. And then he insisted on fighting, right there.

'I want this,' he said. 'Unless you're afraid.' And closer up, 'I'm going to hurt you.'

His grandfather tried to stop it. But the other judges said there was enough light, and I was an a.r.s.e, and simply insisted I'd fight.

'You're a f.u.c.king slave,' he said, and he grinned. 'I own you already. Slaves always fear men like me real men. Do you feel the fear, boy?'

The thing I hated was that of course I did did feel the fear. I did fear men like him big, brutal men who wanted to inflict pain. And my fear made me hate him, and the daimon came. feel the fear. I did fear men like him big, brutal men who wanted to inflict pain. And my fear made me hate him, and the daimon came.

Suddenly I was as cool as if I had bathed in the sea.

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When we came together, I already knew how I would fight, and what I would do. The daimon was in me, and I give no quarter then. And truly, I have done shameful things, but this was hardly one of them. He was an evil b.a.s.t.a.r.d, and he earned his way to Tartarus all the way.

But I regret some of it.

As soon as his grandfather gave the word, he came at me, his sword high, and smashed it into my s.h.i.+eld.

He cut at the top, his tactic simple. He would cut the bronze band that held the rim in five or ten strokes, and then start chopping the s.h.i.+eld until he broke my arm or cut my s.h.i.+eld arm. It was a brutal technique, and he was a brutal man.

I ducked and dodged. I wanted him contemptuous and hurried.

He was easy easy.

He laughed and spat and chased me, landing a blow or two on the s.h.i.+eld face. He finally stopped.

'f.u.c.king coward, stand and fight!' he yelled.

I laughed. 'Come and catch me, a.r.s.e c.u.n.t.'

Some men heard me. Others didn't. He heard me, and he should have paused to consider that if I had the breath to insult him, I wasn't afraid. But he was a fool.

But his grandfather had heard him him and threw down his staff. 'Stop!' he roared. and threw down his staff. 'Stop!' he roared.

He picked up his staff and prodded his grandson in the stomach. 'Boys talk like that,' he said. 'Men respect their opponents. One more jibe and I will throw you from the lists.'

Cleisthenes didn't even pretend to obey. He did not fear the G.o.ds, and they knew him for what he was.

Before Lord Pelagius gave the word, he came at me again, and he almost caught me, because, in fact, he cheated. His sword hammered my s.h.i.+eld and we were s.h.i.+eld to s.h.i.+eld. The sword went back and he cut at my head. His blow clipped the rim of my s.h.i.+eld and then my helmet, and it hurt hurt.

'I'm going to kill you,' he crowed.

I could tell you that the pain of his blow made me do what I did, but I promised not to lie much when I told these tales. I knew from the moment we crossed swords. I always meant to kill him. Honey, I'm a killer. A little more wine. Your friend is blus.h.i.+ng.

I danced away and he came after me, sure that he had me. And I let him come. He came in to hammer my s.h.i.+eld, and I cut his sword hand off his arm as easy as making your friend blush.

See, he'd over-extended a little more with each cut, trying to get the biggest part of his blade into my s.h.i.+eld rim. I just led him by the nose until I had his arm where I wanted it. And I could have simply given him a cut to remember.

He fell to his knees. He couldn't get the s.h.i.+eld off his s.h.i.+eld arm and he couldn't get a hand on his wrist to staunch the blood, and it was pumping out, almost like a neck wound.

If he'd had a friend in that circle, perhaps that man would have stepped up and stopped the blood. Or maybe not. What's a man worth with no right hand, like a criminal?

His grandfather stepped forward and then paused.

That was the awful part. His own grandfather let him bleed out. And the other men in the circle a conspiracy of two hundred.

He was gone quickly, but his eyes went to mine near the end, and suddenly he wasn't a bad man, a rapist, a tax-taker, a bully. He was a deer under my spear, and he didn't understand the darkness that was coming, or why it had to come to him. And in his eyes I saw the reflection of that G.o.d who comes to every man and every woman, and I also saw myself the killer.

I didn't look away. I held his eye until he fell forward and everything was gone.

But as his soul left his body, I think something of me went with it.

I killed him because I didn't like him.

And when my eyes met Aristides', I could see that other men knew it as well as I did.

I won't go on and on about this, friends, but before I killed Cleisthenes, I was one man. Briefly, I was a victor, a man men admired. That might have been my life, however brief.

But the fates, the G.o.ds and my own daimon said otherwise. And when Cleisthenes fell face forward into the sand black with his own blood, I was another man. Some men admired me.

But aside from a few, the rest feared me.

12.

I was wearing my new armour the next morning as we began to load the s.h.i.+ps. Armour is a silly thing to wear for work, but by the G.o.ds it was good to look like a n.o.bleman, and I was young and arrogant. My shoulder still hurt from the pounding of my s.h.i.+eld against it in the fight and the race.

I noted that men were careful how they spoke to me.

Stephanos was closer, if anything. He wasn't afraid of me, and he was overjoyed that Cleisthenes was dead. In fact, I earned his friends.h.i.+p with that blow. And when I was maudlin that first night, Melaina told me stories of Cleisthenes and the local girls until I felt like a public benefactor.

I felt like less of a benefactor as the s.h.i.+ps were loaded. There I stood, sparkling in a scale corslet worth a farm, a good helmet and a fine aspis. Other men were loading the s.h.i.+ps we had no discipline, and so every s.h.i.+p loaded at its own speed and we were so late leaving the beach that we saw Lord Pelagius and the women of his household with the body, building a pyre. And the older woman, whose tears seemed pulled from her as you'd pull the guts from a dead boar, she must have been his mother.

Only then did I find fully what it is to be a killer of men. When you kill, you take a man's life. You take take it. He can never have it back. When the darkness comes to his eyes and he clutches his guts, he is it. He can never have it back. When the darkness comes to his eyes and he clutches his guts, he is done done. And you don't rob just him but his parents and his family, his sisters and brothers, his wife and children, his lovers, his debtors, his master and his slave all robbed.

Cleisthenes was a bad man, I have no doubt, but all his people were on that beach, and it was like a scene in a play in Athens not that they came at me like furies, just that they were all there: his horses and hounds, his women, his slaves, his son. All there in one place, for me to see.

I killed him because I didn't like him. Let's not lie. So I stood there, coming to terms with the consequences. Most killers are dull men. I truly think they never see the funeral pyre. They never think. I walked down the beach, and every one of them saw me, and they looked at me as if I was some kind of beast.

I think too much. So I drink. Here you. Blush for me and make me happy. There ahh! My world is brighter for your presence, lady.

I never promised you a happy story.

We landed in Ephesus and all the lords of the fleet met with the lords of the city, but I stayed on our s.h.i.+p. I was afraid of being taken. Afraid of being a slave again. Afraid of what I'd done with Briseis. Afraid that she had already forgotten me.

And I dreamed of Cleisthenes and his funeral pyre. I still do. He's the only one. I've killed enough men to make a phalanx, and he's the only one who haunts me.

Archi was distant when he went ash.o.r.e, but he came straight back to the s.h.i.+p with word that Diomedes' father had sent his son to a farm in the country to recover, and nothing nothing had been said. had been said.

Typical. The things you most fear never come to pa.s.s. Diomedes and his father might seek revenge, but they had not gone to law.

I left the s.h.i.+p and entered the house as a free man, wearing armour. I felt odd everything was odd. Food tasted wrong, and I longed to go and eat in the kitchen, but I didn't, just as I wanted one of the slaves to tell me how bold I looked in my magnificent s.h.i.+rt of scale armour, but none of them even met my eye.

Not even Penelope, who threw her arms around Archi when we returned and didn't even look at me.

Briseis looked at me, an enigmatic half-smile at the corner of her mouth. I found that I couldn't really breathe. I felt as if I'd been gone ten years, and I found that I'd forgotten what she looked like. She stood in the courtyard to welcome us because her mother never left her room any more and Briseis was, in effect, the lady of the house.

'Well,' she said. That was all.

I didn't see her again for days. I took baths and thought guiltily of our love-making if that's what it was. And I found that I thought of Melaina which seemed like treason, except that she was more my speed, if you take my meaning. I wondered why I hadn't even tried to kiss her.

Archi went to the conferences, and met with men like Aristides and Aristagoras, plotting a campaign against the Medes for the freedom of Ionia.

I found myself a lonely man in a city that had been my playground. I couldn't exactly go and sit by the Fountain of Pollio, could I?

I met my Thracian girl in the back alley, almost by accident, and tried to get her to go for a walk with me, but she ran. That hurt.

So after two days of failing to be the returning hero, I went up the hill to the Temple of Artemis. And there I found boys sitting in front of Herac.l.i.tus. I wasn't a boy, but I sat at his feet.

He nodded to me. He was laying out the rules of triangles. There were three new boys. I had been gone just two months, and even that world had changed. But I listened, and my mind went down the paths of numbers and figures in the sand, instead of death and war and s.e.x, and I took a little healing, as I always have from the wise.

When he was done with the other boys, he came and sat next to me.

'What you did to Diomedes was cruel,' he said.

'The logos speaks through strife,' I said, quoting him.

'Don't give me that s.h.i.+t,' he said. His gaze met mine and ground mine down like stone against iron. 'You hurt that boy.'