A Fine Balance Part 13

"Krishna Tailors, I think," said Narayan at random.

"The blue will be perfect." He pointed to the horizon, where smoke and a red glow filled the sky. "I heard it's the lumberyard. But don't tell Ashraf now."

Night had fallen by the time they finished painting the letters and remounting the signboard. "On that old wood the paint looks very new," said Ashraf.

"I'll rub a handful of ashes over it," said Ishvar. "Tomorrow morning, when it's dry."

"If we are not all reduced to ashes while we sleep," said Ashraf softly. The fragile sense of security woven out of his neighbours' a.s.surances was starting to fray.

In bed, every noise in the darkness was danger approaching to threaten his family, until he was able to identify it as something innocuous. He relearned the familiar sounds to which he had fallen asleep all his life. The thud of the coal-merchant's charpoy, who liked to sleep in the open, in the back yard (he slammed it down every night to shake out the bedbugs). The crash of the banya's door being locked for the night; swollen and sticking, it needed a firm hand. The clang of someone's pail Ashraf had never found out whose, and what was being done with it at this late hour.

Sometime after midnight, he awoke with a start, went downstairs to the shop and began removing the three framed Koranic quotations that hung on the wall behind the cutting table. Ishvar and Narayan stirred, roused by his fumbling in the dark, and put on the light.

"It's all right, go to sleep," he said. "I suddenly remembered these frames." The wall paint was darker where the frames had hung. Ashraf tried unsuccessfully to wipe away the difference with a damp rag.

"We have something you can put up instead," said Narayan. He dragged out their trunk from under the cutting table and found three cardboard-stiffened pictures equipped with little string loops for hanging. "Ram and Sita, Krishna, and Laxmi."

"Yes, definitely," said Ashraf. "And tomorrow we will burn these Urdu magazines and newspapers."

At eight-thirty a.m. Ashraf opened the shop as usual, releasing the padlock from the collapsible steel doors on the outside, but without folding them back. The interior wooden door was kept ajar. Like the day before, the street was deserted.

About ten o'clock, the coal-merchant's son called through the grating. "Father said to ask if you need anything from market, in case it is open. He said it's better if you don't go."

"G.o.d bless you, son," said Mumtaz, "yes, a little milk, if possible, for the children. And any kind of vegetables a few potatoes or onions, anything you can find."

The boy returned empty-handed in fifteen minutes; the market was bare. Later, the coal-merchant sent a pitcher of milk from his cow. Mumtaz relied on the dwindling flour and lentils in the house to prepare the day's meals. Well before dusk, Ashraf padlocked the grating and bolted the doors.

At dinnertime the youngest ones wanted Ashraf to feed them like yesterday. "Ah, you are getting fond of that game," he smiled.

After the meal, Ishvar and Narayan rose to return downstairs, to let the family prepare for bed. "Stay," said Ashraf, "it is still early, nah. Without customers, the devil makes the hours move slowly."

"It should get better from tomorrow," said Ishvar. "They say the soldiers are soon taking charge."

"Inshallah," said Ashraf, watching his youngest play with a rag doll he had made for her. The oldest girl was reading a school book. The other two amused themselves with sc.r.a.ps of cloth, pretending to be dressmakers. He signalled to Ishvar and Narayan to observe their exaggerated actions.

"You used to do that when you were new here," he said. "And you loved to wave the measure tape, make it snap." They laughed at the memory, then lapsed into silence again.

The quiet was broken by a hammering at the shop door. Ashraf jumped up, but Ishvar stopped him. "I'll look," he said.

From the upstairs window he saw a group of twenty or thirty men on the pavement. They noticed him and shouted, "Open the door! We want to talk to you!"

"Sure, one moment!" he called back. "Listen," he whispered, "all of you go next door, very quietly, from the upstairs pa.s.sage. Narayan and I will go down."

"Ya Allah!" cried Mumtaz softly. "We should have left when we had the chance! You were right, my husband, and I called you foolish, I am the foolish one who did not "

"Shut up and come on, quick!" said Ashraf. One of the girls started to sniffle. Mumtaz took the child in her arms and quieted her. Ashraf led them out while Ishvar and Narayan descended to the shop. The banging was furious, directed with hard objects through the grating upon the wooden doors.

"Patience!" shouted Ishvar, "I first have to undo the locks!"

The crowd fell silent when the two figures became visible through the grating. Most of them had some sort of crude weapon, a stick or a spear; others had swords. A few men were wearing saffron s.h.i.+rts, and carried tridents.

The sight of them made Ishvar tremble. For a brief moment he was tempted to tell them the truth and step out of the way. Ashamed of the thought, he unlocked the grating and pushed it open a bit. "Namaskaar, brothers."

"Who are you?" asked the man in front.

"My father owns Krishna Tailors. This is my brother."

"And where is your father?"

"Gone to our native place a relative is sick."

There was some consultation, then the leader said, "We have information that this is a Muslim shop."

"What?" said Ishvar and Narayan in unison. "This has been our father's shop for twenty years!"

From the back of the crowd came complaints. No need for so much talk! Burn it! We know it's a Muslim shop! Burn it! And those who lie to protect it burn them, too!

"Is it possible that Muslims work in this shop?" asked the leader.

"Business is not good enough to hire anyone," said Ishvar. "Barely enough work for my brother and me." Men shuffled up beside him, trying to look inside the shop. They were breathing hard, and he could smell their sweat. "Please, see all you want," he said, moving aside. "We have nothing to hide."

The men glanced around quickly, taking in the Hindu deities on the wall behind the cutting table. One of the saffron-s.h.i.+rted men stepped forward. "Listen, smart boy. If you are lying, I will myself skewer you on the three points of my trishul."

"Why should I lie?" said Ishvar. "I'm the same as you. You think I want to die to save a Muslim?"

There was more consultation outside the shop. "Step on the pavement and remove your pyjamas," said the leader. "Both of you."

"What?"

"Come on, hurry up! Or you won't need pyjamas anymore!"

In the ranks there was impatience. They banged their spears on the ground and shouted to torch the place. Ishvar and Narayan obediently dropped their pyjamas.

"It's too dark to see," called the leader. "Give me a lantern "The light was handed over from behind the group. He bent low, held it close to their naked crotches, and was satisfied. The others crowded round to look as well. There was general agreement that the foreskins were intact.

Now the hardware-store owner opened his upstairs window and shouted, "What's going on? Why are you hara.s.sing Hindu boys? Have you run out of Muslims?"

"And who are you?" they shouted back.

"Who am I? I am your father and your grandfather! That's who I am! And also the owner of this hardware store! If I give the word, the whole street will unite as one to make mincemeat of you! Don't you have somewhere else to go?"

The leader did not think it worthwhile to take up the challenge. His men started to drift away, hurling obscenities to save face. They turned to arguing among themselves about a wasted night and faulty information that had made them look like fools.

"That was beautiful acting," said the hardware-store owner, patting Ishvar and Narayan heartily on the back. "I was watching the whole thing from upstairs. You know, if there had been any danger of you getting hurt, I would have called everybody to help. But I thought it's better if there is no confrontation, if you can convince them and they leave quietly." He looked around to make sure everyone believed him.

Mumtaz fell on her knees before the two apprentices. Her dupatta slid from around her neck and draped their feet. "Please, Chachi, don't do that," said Ishvar, shuffling backwards.

"Forever and ever, my life, my children, my husband's life, my home everything, I owe to you!" She clung to them, weeping. "There is no repayment possible!"

"Please get up," begged Ishvar, holding her wrists and trying to make her stand.

"From now on, this home is your home, as long as you will honour us with your presence!"

Ishvar finally succeeded in disentangling his ankles from her hands. "Chachi, you are like our mother, we have shared your food and home for seven years."

"Inshallah, you will stay and eat with us for seventy more." Still sobbing, she replaced the dupatta around her neck, lifting a corner to wipe her eyes.

Ishvar and Narayan returned downstairs. After the children were asleep, Ashraf went downstairs too. The boys had not yet rolled out their sleeping mats. The three sat silently for a few minutes. Then Ashraf said, "You know, when the banging started, I thought we were finished."

"I was also scared," said Narayan.

Their next silence lasted longer. Ashraf cleared his throat. "I came down to say one thing only." Tears were rolling down his cheeks; he paused to wipe them. "The day I met your father the day I told Dukhi to send me his two sons for tailor-training. That day was the luckiest of my life." He embraced them, kissed their cheeks three times, and went upstairs.

Ashraf would not hear of the brothers returning to the village, and Mumtaz supported him in this. "Stay on as my paid a.s.sistants," he said, though he knew very well he could not afford it.

Roopa protested to Dukhi that it was high time she had her two sons back. "You sent them to apprentice. Now they have learned the trade, so why are they still living with strangers? Are their own mother-father dead or something?"

But no one could predict how two Chamaars-turned-tailors would fare in the village. True, these new times were full of hope, changes were in the air, and the optimism that came with independence was s.h.i.+ning bright. Ashraf even felt safe enough to turn over the Krishna Tailors sign and display the Muzaffar Tailoring side again.

Still, it was uncertain if centuries of tradition could be overturned as easily. So they agreed that Ishvar would stay on as Ashraf's a.s.sistant, and Narayan would return to test the waters. This suited all sides: Muzaffar Tailoring Company would just barely support one a.s.sistant; Dukhi would have the help of wages sent from town; and Roopa would have her younger son back.

She took down the parcel that had hung from the ceiling for seven years. The string knots had shrunk and could not be untied. She cut the string, unwrapped the protective sackcloth, then washed the vest and choli. It was time to wear them again, she told Dukhi, to celebrate the homecoming.

"It hangs a little loose," he said.

"Mine, too," said Roopa. "The fabric must have stretched."

He liked her explanation. It was easier than contemplating the lean years that had shrunk them both.

In the village, the Chamaar community was quietly proud of Narayan. Gradually, they found the courage to become his customers, though there was not much money in it for Narayan because they could rarely afford to have something new tailored. Garments thrown away by the upper castes clothed their bodies. Mostly, he altered or mended. He used an old hand-cranked sewing-machine that Ashraf had procured for him. It was restricted to a straight lock st.i.tch, but sufficed for the work he did.

Business improved when word spread to neighbouring villages of the one who had done the unthinkable: abandoned leather for cloth. They came as much to see this courageous Chamaar-tailor, this contradiction in terms, as to get their clothes looked after. Many were a little disappointed with their visit. Inside the hut was nothing extraordinary, just a young man with a tape measure around his neck and a pencil behind one ear.

Narayan maintained a record of jobs and transactions as Ashraf had taught him, noting names, dates, and amounts owing. Roopa appointed herself to manage the business, standing around importantly while he measured the client and entered the figures in his book. She kept his pencils sharp with her paring knife. She could not read his register but retained an accurate account in her head. When someone who had yet to settle the balance from a previous job came with more work, she stood behind the client and rubbed her thumb and finger together to remind her son.

One morning, about six months after Narayan's return to the village, a Bhunghi ventured towards the hut. Roopa was heating water over a fire outside, happily listening to the m.u.f.fled clank of the sewing-machine, when she saw the fellow approach cautiously. "And where do you think you're going?" she yelled, stopping him in his tracks.

"I am looking for Narayan the tailor," said the man, timidly holding up some rags.

"What?!" His audacity flabbergasted her. "Don't give me your tailor-failor nonsense! I'll bathe your filthy skin with this boiling water! My son does not sew for your kind!"

"Ma! What are you doing?" shouted Narayan, emerging from the hut as the man bolted. "Wait, wait!" he yelled after the fellow. Terrified that retribution was in pursuit, the Bhunghi ran faster.

"Come back, bhai, it's all right!"

"Another time," called the frightened man. "Tomorrow, maybe."

"Okay, I'11 wait for you," said Narayan. "Please come for sure." He returned to the hut, shaking his head and ignoring his mother who glared furiously at him.

"Dont you shake your head at me!" she said indignantly. "What-all nonsense is this, calling him back tomorrow? We are not going to deal with such low-caste people! How can you even think of measuring someone who carts the s.h.i.+t from people's houses?"

Narayan was silent. After working for a few minutes, he went outside to the fire, where she was still stirring her vigorous rage into the pot.

"I think, Ma, that you are wrong," he said, keeping his voice so soft that it was almost lost in the crackling fire. "I think I should sew for anybody who comes to me, Brahmin or Bhunghi."

"You do, do you? Wait till your father comes home, see what he says about it! Brahmin yes, Bhunghi no!"

That evening Roopa told Dukhi about their son's outrageous ideas, and he turned to Narayan. "I think your mother is right."

Narayan dropped his hand from the crank and braked the fly wheel. "Why did you send me to learn tailoring?"

"That's a stupid question. To improve your life why else?"

"Yes. Because the uppers treat us so badly. And now you are behaving just like them. If that's what you want, then I am going back to town. I cannot live like this anymore."

Roopa was stunned by the ultimatum, and horrified when Dukhi turned to her and said, "I think he is right."

"Father-of-Ishvar, make up your mind! First you say I am right, then you say he is right! From side to side you sway, like a pot without an a.r.s.e! And this is what comes from sending him to town! Forgetting our village ways! It will only lead to trouble!" Boiling and bubbling, she left the hut, calling Amba, Pyari, Padma, and Savitri to come and hear what-all crazy things were happening in her unfortunate household.

"Toba, toba!" said Savitri. "Poor Roopa, so upset she is shaking."

"Children Hai Ram," said Pyari, throwing up her hands. "How easily they forget about a mother's feelings."

"What to do," said Amba. "We feed them milk from our breast when they are babies, but we cannot feed them good sense."

"Be patient," said Padma. "Everything will be all right."

After bathing in their sympathy, Roopa was calmer. The thought of losing her son a second time made her think carefully. She forgave him his lunatic proposals and agreed to turn a blind eye to them on the basis of a compromise: she would reserve the right to control entry into her hut; some customers would have to conduct their transactions outside.

Two years later Narayan could afford to build his own hut, next to his parents'. Roopa wept that he was abandoning them. "Again and again he breaks his mother's heart," she complained. "How will I look after him and his business? Why must he separate?"

"But Ma, it's only thirty feet away," said Narayan. "You are welcome there any time to sharpen my pencils."

"Sharpen pencils, he says! As if that's all I do for him!"

Eventually, though, she got accustomed to the idea and made it a point of pride, speaking of the other hut to her friends as her son's factory. He bought a large worktable, a clothes stand, and a new foot-operated sewing-machine which could do straight and zigzag st.i.tches.

For this last purchase he went to take Ashraf Chacha's advice. The little town had grown since his departure, and Muzaffar Tailoring Company was doing well. Ishvar had rented a room near the shop. From a.s.sistant, Ashraf had elevated him to partner. The brothers agreed that their father need not work anymore, between them they would provide for their parents.

"You are such good boys," said Dukhi, when Narayan told him of the decision. "We are truly blessed by G.o.d."

Roopa fetched the vest and choli made long ago by their children, and faded by now. "Remember these?"

"I didn't know you still had them."

"The day you and Ishvar brought these for us, you were so young, both of you," she said, starting to cry. "But even then I knew, in my heart, that everything would be all right in the end." She went to announce the good tidings to her friends, who hugged her and teased her that she would soon become rich and not have anything to do with them.