Searching For Celia Part 18

"Are you all right?" The cast sways gently between Celia's fingertips.

"I think so." I rise to my knees and then sit back on my heels in the dirt, cradling my arm. The bones below my shoulder have turned to jelly; even my lips quiver. "Put it on," I pant, looking up at her. "You're so thin-it should slide right on."

With a nod she pushes up her sleeve and thrusts her left arm into the cast. It fits easily, stopping just below her elbow.

I struggle to my feet and Celia hands me the red duffel bag, which I heave over my shoulder, centering the weight against my ribs.

"Okay, let's go." I struggle to breathe through the pain as my arm goes numb at my side.

"Wait." Celia turns to the plaque affixed to the inner wall beside the entrance to the tomb. It reads, Radclyffe Hall 1943, and then beneath: And, if G.o.d choose, I shall but love thee better after death. Una.

Una was Una Troubridge, Mabel Batten's cousin who became Radclyffe Hall's lover after Mabel died. Una had planned to be buried in the vault alongside Mabel and Radclyffe, but she died unexpectedly in Rome and was buried in Rome's English Cemetery, her written instructions for burial not discovered until afterward. Her coffin in Rome was inscribed simply with the words, Una Vincenzo Troubridge, the friend of Radclyffe Hall.

"Come on, Celia, now," I urge her. "Before Callaway gets here."

"Wait. Just a moment longer." Celia, her face suddenly soft and strangely dreamy, caresses each carved letter on the plaque with her finger as if it were a loved one's cheek, then tenderly straightens the bouquet of pink flowers in the planter at her feet, just in front of the tomb's dark latticed door.

"Very well." She stands and surveys her handiwork with satisfaction, pressing the plaster cast against her lip. "Now we can go."

We stride side by side along the circular dirt path, past the ring of stately vaults and corniced catacombs to a broad stone stairway, then mount the vivid green, moss-softened steps and emerge from the circle at ground level. I look around anxiously, surveying the dense, almost primordial, vegetation, rich with a lush, dark decadence, almost anti-English in its lack of order and restraint. There's no sign of Callaway or the police anywhere. Nothing but row after row of crosses, headstones, and ancient, sunken graves tipped sullenly toward the center of the earth.

"Back to the front gate." I touch Celia's sleeve and whisper in her ear, "Not too fast, not too slow. Steady steps."

She nods grimly as we trek down yet another winding, muddy pathway, overrun with knotted gra.s.ses and muscular, sinuous weeds. The graves and mausoleums seem older and more elaborate in this part of the cemetery; we weave between towering Celtic crosses with encircled arms and chiseled statues of angels, saints, and garland-draped urns. Death is everywhere here-memorialized and normalized by Victorian Londoners for whom death was never distant, and no one was ever safe from that grim shadow pa.s.sing always overhead.

"When we get through the front gate, we separate," I tell Celia. "Go to Archway station. Get on the Tube, but get off after the first stop or two-somewhere unexpected, somewhere neither of us would be likely to go. Grab a cab to Heathrow, but don't check in until the gate's about to close. Lie low, be careful, you'll be fine."

Scattered thoughts careen through my head, bouncing and ricocheting like carnival b.u.mper cars. "When you land at O'Hare, take a cab to my condo. Call my mom and explain what's going on, in case I can't reach her before you arrive. Tell her I love her and I'll be home soon."

Celia tucks her chin to her chest as her scuffed leather boots squish through the mud. The path here is so narrow that drooping vines tickle our faces as we push forward. "You don't have to do this," she offers softly. "I'm willing to go to the police, Callaway notwithstanding."

"I know. But I want to do this. I need to do this. If I'd believed you all along, we wouldn't be in this situation." My mind races and my arm aches; the very air seems to burnish my bruised and tender skin. "Hug my cats when you get to my condo. Hamlet and Yorick. They have similar black-and-white markings, but Hamlet is fatter. They like to be picked up, turned over, and have their tummies rubbed."

Celia swivels to face me, her hazel eyes wide and surprised. "Are you serious?"

"Yep."

"Dayle, you really must get out more often."

I allow myself a brief, tight smile, then motion to continue.

We're halfway back to the front gate when I sense that something isn't right. It's not that we're being watched or followed. It feels more like something is encroaching, closing in. A circle narrowing, constricting-a breath held too long and anxious for release. I feel movement all around us in the whispering oak and chestnut trees and in the shadows cast by ma.s.sive granite vaults and bashful stone-faced angels gazing down from giant crosses. I think I see something-a glint of metal, a brief flash of silvery light. I'm sure it's nothing.

My steps quicken and Celia struggles to keep pace. "My condo has two bedrooms," I continue. "Feel free to sleep in the master bedroom. The other room...belongs to Rory."

The heavy vegetation thins, the sky lightens, and in the mist up ahead, a man-average height, Caucasian, late twenties-advances toward us on the path. Highgate normally receives a steady stream of visitors, but this man doesn't look like a sightseer, dressed in jeans, sneakers, and a hooded gray sweats.h.i.+rt with the hood pulled forward, obscuring his face. As he glances up, his hands slip quickly into the front pocket of his sweats.h.i.+rt. Please just let him be a Candee Cronin fan, I think absurdly.

Celia too seems to sense that something is wrong. The man draws steadily closer. His eyes, two beads s.h.i.+ning blackly beneath the peak of his hood, emerge from the shadow to focus on us briefly before glancing down.

Keep moving; keep walking. Don't do anything suspicious. Each minute off the clock brings Celia closer to freedom. It's not much longer now.

The man is almost upon us. We could break away and make a run for it. But there's no way out of the cemetery other than through the front gate, and we don't want our exit to cause a commotion. If we can just get past this guy, we'll be fine.

"Be careful," I whisper to Celia. "I'm not sure about this one."

Celia nods gravely, drawing her arms to her sides.

In a matter of moments the man is upon us. As I make eye contact, his eyelids flicker and he looks away. His sweats.h.i.+rt brushes my shoulder, jostling the duffel bag as he barrels past me with long, forceful strides. I am just about to breathe a sigh of relief when he turns suddenly, grabs my shoulder, and spins me around. I stumble out of his grasp, dropping the duffel bag to the ground.

Celia screams. I turn in time to see the knife, withdrawn with a glimmer from the pouch of his sweats.h.i.+rt. The man swings at my arm, slas.h.i.+ng the denim sleeve. "Run!" I yell at Celia. "Go! Get out of here, now!"

I duck and pivot as the man makes another rapid slash at my side, this time missing me by inches. I close my eyes as he swings again. Celia angles between us and pushes me behind her, s.h.i.+elding me with her body.

"Leave it out!" she screams as the man again raises the knife. Celia rears back and smashes his face with the plaster cast on her arm, ramming her hand into his nose, nearly knocking him off his feet as he, stunned, stumbles backward. Blood pours from his nose, streaking his lips and dribbling from his chin. Celia knocks the knife from his hand and it falls to the ground, where it lands with a dull thud, glinting against the damp soil.

Celia lunges toward the knife but the man is faster as he bends and grasps it, plunging it into his pocket. Then he turns and runs away, back down the winding path, a dark form darting quickly out of view.

"He's gone," I whisper, doubled over and struggling to breathe. "But I think I'm okay." I touch the slashed sleeve of my jacket where the denim has split, leaving only a riot of white thread remaining. "He didn't get any skin. How about you?"

"Still in one piece," she pants, tenderly testing her ribs.

"Why didn't you run?" I ask. "You could have gotten away."

"And leave you to fend for yourself? Not b.l.o.o.d.y likely." She shakes her head, still panting. "That knife was meant for me. For Celia, not for Dayle, the one with the cast on her arm." She waves the plaster-cast arm in weak surrender, then opens her jacket, revealing two tiny petals of blood blossoming in the sweats.h.i.+rt's bottom hem.

"Celia-look."

She glances down and grimaces, her mouth a determined downward slash. "What do you know? Looks like the b.a.s.t.a.r.d got me after all."

"Let me see." I reach for the sweats.h.i.+rt but she withdraws quickly, as if my fingers were flame. "It's okay," I say gently. "I'll just take a peek." I step closer and carefully lift the sweats.h.i.+rt, which is glued to the T-s.h.i.+rt beneath with a dark sticky circle of blood.

Celia's face pales.

"Don't worry," I rea.s.sure her. "Just hold still." She stands, stiff and rigid, while I search for the wound, sweeping her skin until I find a two-inch gash on the right side of her abdomen, just above her hip.

The slit, though small, weeps steady beads of blood that gather in her waistband. I slide my finger into the wound, trying to gauge its depth and staunch the flow, but the blood rises quickly, covering my finger. Celia's knees weaken as air rushes from her lungs. "Dayle...?"

I clutch her shoulder, trying to hold her upright. "Just hold on, okay? Be strong." Information from the third grade, gathered in pursuit of the Brownies first-aid badge, races through my mind. Keep her covered, keep her calm, keep her warm. Raise her head and legs. How? And with what?

She starts to tremble, her pale shocked face stricken and desperate.

I've got to do something. Now.

"Come on," I say, my voice shaking. "Let's go sit down." I hike the duffel bag over my shoulder and with my arm around Celia's waist we stumble like drunks, off the narrow path and into the sacred s.p.a.ce where the gra.s.s is thickly matted and the graves so close and cloistered their ghosts can gossip easily, leaning in to whisper, mouth to ear.

I nod toward a patch of clover nestled between two jagged headstones and edged by an ancient oak tree. Celia, anguished, leaves my side and sinks slowly to the base of the tree, which is cus.h.i.+oned by ferns and small yellow flowers. "Okay?" I ask, looking down at her.

"Never better," she whispers bitterly, struggling to steady her shaking legs.

"Press your hand firmly to the wound," I advise her. "As hard as you can manage, all right?"

She nods grimly, hunching forward and bearing down against the pain.

I reach into the duffel bag and pull out my cell phone, but get only a no-service message. d.a.m.n. Maybe I could get a signal somewhere else in the cemetery, but I can't leave Celia-not like this.

So I forgo the phone and duffel bag and instead drop to my knees beside her, feeling her sweaty forehead and clammy cheeks. Threads of blood unspool between her fingers, blackening the gra.s.s and staining the dark earth beneath her hip. This is happening too quickly-why is she losing so much blood?

"Right," I say confidently, fighting off my denim jacket and placing it on the damp ground beside me. Then I gently loosen Celia's clenched white knuckles, peeling back the s.h.i.+rt to check the wound.

"Bad?" she whispers through clenched teeth.

"No," I lie, re-covering the wound. "But you'll probably need a few st.i.tches."

"Brilliant," she sputters. "Another scar."

"Don't worry-it'll be tiny." I lean back on my heels and look to the sky, to the dense but delicate web of tree braches darting and weaving overhead, and down to the neglected nearby graves of Lillian and Edward Chesterfield and their infant daughter, Clarrisa, born and died in April 1892, but help is not forthcoming. It occurs to me I should scream, I should call for help, I should do something. Celia needs me now.

"Come on, scoot over." Still on my knees I move behind Celia, wedging myself between her and the tree.

Her limbs stiffen. "What the h.e.l.l?" she demands as a flare of anger briefly flames her cheeks.

"It's okay." I gently hook her waist with my good arm and center her between my legs. "Let's keep you warm till help arrives."

"Right. 'Cause they're certain to be here any moment."

"Come on-just let me help." I draw her backbone to my chest as I circle her quivering ribs. With my broken hand I drag the denim jacket closer and drape it across our bodies. "Better?" I ask, willing the heat of my body to pa.s.s into her.

"Yeah." Her breathing is rough, ragged. "Just spiffy."

I move my hand down to her wound, feeling the warm creep of blood filling the fabric and spreading between my fingers. This is so much worse than I imagined.

Celia winces and I smell fear rise from her neck, from the damp back of her collar. Then her jaw softens and her eyelids flutter, even as she struggles to stay annoyed. It wouldn't be like Celia to make this easy for me.

"Just relax," I say gently, stroking her arm and breathing through the blunt softness of her newly blackened hair, which is cool to the touch and still smells slightly of dye. I gaze down at her face, her ghost of a black eye, the shadow of a damaged cheek, and I let myself feel the familiar shape she carves into my arms, the warm settled weight of her torso, the notches of her spine nestled against my breastbone. I have missed her so much, I realize, have missed holding her like this.

"I'll take care of you, Celia," I promise, brus.h.i.+ng aside her short, black, roughly cut bangs and hoping she'll forgive me for sounding sentimental. "You ferried so many people to safety. Let me carry you now."

"Well aren't I the lucky one." Celia's raspy voice curls with sarcasm; she swallows hard to stem the tears. We share a silent understanding that life is leaving her quickly, leeching out of her pores, or escaping stealthily, like steam rising from a kettle.

I steel my voice with false bravado. "Celia, listen. Just hang on. I'll get you out of this somehow, I swear." She nods quickly, closing her eyes, but as I s.h.i.+ft my hip against the cold, hard ground, I can feel Celia's heart surface from somewhere deep inside her, a faint, frantic tapping, like a prisoner desperate to escape his cell.

The fog begins to lift, rising above the graves and throwing them into high relief as the chill morning air fills suddenly with birdsong-goldfinch, sparrow, starling, lark. Highgate, this garish Victorian death-obsessed theme park, holds so much more life than I first realized-not just songbirds but foxes, rabbits, badgers, doves. I want to share this realization with Celia, but she is long past caring now.

Suddenly agitated, Celia s.h.i.+vers and lifts her chin, her breathing light and rapid as her eyes fly open and her lips flush with blue. "Daddy?" she calls out, desperate as a little girl. "Daddy! Where are you?"

"It's okay, Celia. Just hang on." I gaze into her empty black eyes, all pupil, staring up at me in stunted sorrow. We share the same thought: This cannot be happening. This cannot be happening to her. She is too proud, too arrogant to die so quietly, in the corner of a desolate cemetery on a foggy morning in March. "It's okay," I coo, softly rocking her back and forth. "I've got you in my arms."

Her face contorts in pain and her bluish lips pucker. "Dayle, I want my dad."

"I know. And he'll be here soon, I promise. Just stay calm." She sighs as I pull her closer, tightening my grip around her ribs.

I came to London just over twenty-four hours ago with only one thing on my mind: seeing Celia. Not the conference, not the keynote speech, just Celia. I had hoped to rekindle that fallow friends.h.i.+p and return home enriched with more tales of my bold, brilliant, fearless friend. I never dreamed that my journey here held a second, secret purpose: to do for Celia what I had failed to do for my son-to hold her in her final moments and see her safely to the other side, to deliver her gently into the arms of a great someone. Steady. Rest now. We are so, so close to home.

As I press my lips against Celia's temple, a stone angel rises behind me and veils us in the shadow of his feathery wings. The sky separates; shards of light pierce the canopy of branches and leaves, casting dazzling patterns on the cemetery floor, where Celia and I huddle as if s.h.i.+pwrecked, marooned and helpless in a deep s.h.i.+fting sea of emerald green.

Suddenly three figures emerge from the foggy haze at the bottom of the path and sprint toward us, limbs hurtling like windmills as the ghostly shapes a.s.sume human form. "They're coming." Hope tightens my throat. "Help is almost here."

Celia moans.

As the figures draw closer, I see that it is Callaway, in heavy boots and her dirty trench coat, flanked by a uniformed police officer on either side.

Celia stirs to life as a tremor moves through her. "Dayle?" Her tongue is thick and she struggles to speak.

"Yes?"

"Don't tell them I was frightened."

Frightened? That's what she's worried about? "I won't." My voice is defiant. "Now just hold on."

"I can't." Her arms slide limply to her sides.

Callaway and the two men stumble to a stop just in front of us. All three are winded, gulping buckets of cold, damp air. "What the h.e.l.l happened?" Callaway bends at the waist, hands on her hips as the two cops reach for Celia.

I turn Celia's ashen face away from them as her body spasms and then softens, relaxing in my arms. My cheeks burn as I look up. "You're too late," I say triumphantly. "Celia's safe, and you can never hurt her now."

Epilogue.

Six months later.

Chicago, Illinois.

My suspicions about Detective Constable Andrea Callaway turned out to be correct: She was taking payoffs from Gregorovich in exchange for police protection. Gregorovich hated Celia's work and all she stood for, so he paid Callaway to have Celia eliminated.

Callaway had used the photographs to manipulate me that night in Celia's flat. There had never been any witness protection program with the promise of a new name and ident.i.ty; Callaway's endgame was always to initiate Celia's death. And my own. Callaway, using the information I had provided, hired the man in the hooded sweats.h.i.+rt to attack us at Highgate Cemetery that morning in March.

Callaway had a.s.sembled enough false evidence to make the case against Celia appear quite compelling, but once I told the police what I knew, Callaway's story unraveled rather dramatically. After being taken into custody, she provided details of our a.s.sailant's ident.i.ty in exchange for what she hoped would be a lighter sentence. Both she and the man pleaded guilty and will spend many years in prison.

Following Callaway's arrest, the police determined that Celia had committed no crime. Therefore, I faced no charges for trying to help her leave England. After a series of interviews with the police and some a.s.sistance from the American Emba.s.sy, I was free to return home to Chicago.

Since I have been back, I have canceled my trip to j.a.pan and had the contract for a.s.signment: Tokyo voided. Candee Cronin has taken an extended sabbatical so she might find herself as an author once again. Her fans are said to be quite disappointed. What few people know, however, is that Dayle Salvesen is working on a new book-a small literary novel about a shy teenage girl and her well-endowed friend trying to mount their own musical stage production of Gulliver's Travels.