A Savage Place Part 12

She walked to the gla.s.s doors and stared out at her blue pool. Her fingers were drumming again on her thigh.

"You know, I've lived in this house three years and I'll bet I've been in the d.a.m.n pool twice."

"When this is over," I said, "we'll have a victory swim."

"When it's over," she said. Her back was still to me. "Christ, I wish it were over a long time ago."

I was quiet.

"When I first came up with this story and started on it, I was so excited. Celebrity, advancement, money." She shook her head and stared out at the pool. "Now I wish it were done. Now I have to finish it, and all it does is scare me."

"There's no business like show business," I said.

She turned from the window.

"Maybe," she said, "I'd better learn to use that gun."

I went out to her car and got it out of the glove compartment and brought it back into her living room. She looked at it without affection. I pressed the release b.u.t.ton and dropped the clip out. Then I ran the receiver back and popped a sh.e.l.l out of the chamber.

"Had a round chambered," I said.

"If you're going to teach me anything," Candy said, "you'll have to speak a language I understand."

"Sure. I just mean he had a bullet up in the chamber, ready to fire. Usually you would leave it in the magazine till you were ready to shoot. Safer that way."

"Are you saying, when they trailed us into the Farmers Market, they were ready to shoot us?"

"Maybe, or maybe they were careless and stupid."

"Is it loaded now?"

"No. Try it out."

She snapped the empty gun several times, aiming at the far wall. "The trigger's not hard to pull," she said.

"Not the way you mean," I said.

"You mean, it's hard to shoot someone?"

"Can be."

"Is this all I do, point it and shoot?"

"If it's loaded and c.o.c.ked, yes."

"Show me how to load it."

I showed her how to slide the magazine into the handle.

"It's heavier with the bullets," she said.

"A little," I said.

"If I pull the trigger now, will it go off?"

"No. You've got to jack a round up into the chamber. Look." I showed her how. "Now if you pull the trigger it will shoot." I took it from her and took out the clip and ejected the chambered bullet and pulled the trigger. The hammer fell with an empty click. Then I handed her the pistol.

"Okay, you do it."

She put the magazine in, ran the action back, and looked at me. "Now I can shoot."

"Yes."

"Do I have to push the thing back every time I shoot?"

"No. Only the first time. Then it does it by itself. After the first time you just keep squeezing the trigger. When it's empty, the breech will lock open."

"What if I need more than, what is it, six shots?"

"Yes. If you do, you can reload the magazine. But if you've fired six rounds and need more, you probably won't have time to reload. I advise flight."

She practiced loading and c.o.c.king a couple of times. Then she pointed the empty gun and practiced a couple of clicks. "Am I doing it right?" she said.

"Yeah. Try to shoot from close. Don't waste time on shooting from very far. The gun's not made for it, and neither are you. Shoot for the middle of the body. It allows the most margin of error. You might want to shoot with both hands, like this." I showed her. "Or if it's sort of a far shot, you might do it like this." I showed her the target-shooting stance and told her how to let out the air, and not breathe, and squeeze the trigger. "All of that is unlikely," I said. "What you'll want to hit with the gun, if you need to, will probably be very close up and hard to miss. What you need to do most of all is remember you've got it, and be willing to use it. Keep in mind that they want to kill you."

"You've shot people?"

"Yes."

"Is it awful?"

"No. It's fas.h.i.+onable to say so, but no. It's not awful. Often it's fairly easy. Not messy like stabbing or clubbing or strangling, that sort of thing. It's relatively impersonal. Click. Bang. Dead."

"Don't you mind?"

"Yes, I mind. I don't do it if I don't have to. But I've never shot anyone when it wouldn't have been a lot worse not to."

"Do you remember the first time?"

"The time, not the person. It was in Korea. He was just a shape on a night patrol."

"And it didn't bother you?"

"Not as much as it would have if he'd shot me."

"It's always in context for you, isn't it?"

"What. Right and wrong?"

"Yes."

"Yes."

"Isn't that ethical relativism?"

"I think so," I said. "Can you shoot if you have to?"

"Yes," Candy said. "I believe I can."

Chapter15.

WE WENT DOWN to the hall of justice the next afternoon and spent an hour and a half explaining to Samuelson that our investigation of the moving picture business had nothing to do with Mickey Rafferty's death. I don't think Samuelson believed it, but there was nothing much that he could do about it, and he knew it and he knew we knew it so he ushered us out after an hour and a half with a fair amount of grace. Candy drove us up over what was left of Bunker Hill and down to Fifth Street and then to Figueroa and then onto Wils.h.i.+re.

"I know it's dumb," I said, "but I kind of like downtown L.A."

"You do?"

"Yeah. It feels more like a city is supposed to."

"I never come down here except for a story, but I don't really like cities."

"You're in the right place," I said.

We drove west on Wils.h.i.+re past the big old Amba.s.sador Hotel with its brown stucco cottages. Bobby Kennedy had been shot there, on the way out of the ballroom, after a speech.

"I know Felton's home address," Candy said. "The first time I saw him, I went to his home."

"Want to cruise on up there and see if he's home?"

"Yes," Candy said. "If he isn't, we'll wait."

I looked at my watch. Four thirty. "Maybe we should stop someplace and get a few sandwiches to go. In case it's a long wait."

She nodded. In Beverly Hills we stopped at something that appeared to be a French delicatessen. I went in and bought cheese and bread and country pate and an apple and a pear and a bottle of red wine. They put all this in a paper bag that had a strawbasket design printed on the side, and I took it out, slipped it into the trunk, and got back into the pa.s.senger's side beside Candy.

"We're armed and provisioned, baby. Let's roll."

We turned up Beverly Drive, heading north toward the hills. Candy was quiet as she drove. Across Santa Nlonica I looked at the houses. They were close together and quite near the street, but looking down the driveways and peering around shrubs as we went past, I could see the depth of the lot. Ample room for pools and tennis courts and hot tubs and patios and croquet lawns.

"What do you call the place where croquet is played?" I said to Candy.

"Excuse me?"

"Is it a croquet field or a croquet court or what?"

"I don't know."

"My G.o.d, next thing you'll tell me you don't play polo."

She shook her head. I looked at the houses some more. They were often Spanish with a touch of Tudor. They frequently had both wood and stone siding, and the small lawns in front were consistently well tended. Palm trees were metronomically regular in their s.p.a.cing and ident.i.ty along the narrow border between the sidewalk and the street. And nothing moved. It looked like an empty set. No dogs sitting in the front yards with their tongues out looking at pedestrians. No cats. No children. No bicycles. No basketball rims on garages. No baseb.a.l.l.s, tree huts. No squirrels.

"Place looks like Disneyland after hours," I said to Candy. "Deserted."

"Oh, yes. It always is."

"What are they doing in there," I said, "watching a videotape of people living?"

Candy smiled but not like she enjoyed it. "I guess so," she said. "I never thought much about it."

We crossed Sunset. The Hills began.

"That mansion still here on Sunset where the guy painted explicit genitals on the nude statues out front?"

Candy nodded. "A realist," I said.

"Spenser," Candy said, "I just don't feel like making amusing conversation right now, okay? My friend is dead. I may be dead soon. I'm scared and sad and I don't see how you can talk about nonsense as if nothing had happened."

"I could keen," I said.

She frowned. "Keen?"

"You know, as in 'keening and wailing and gnas.h.i.+ng of teeth.' "

"You know you're probably being cheery, but please don't joke now. Let's just be quiet."

"How about I just gnash a little bit. Very softly. You'll barely hear me."

She smiled slightly.

I said, very softly, "Gnash."

She smiled more and her shoulders shook slightly.

"Gnash."

She laughed. "Okay. Okay. You are, in fact, as loony as I thought you were. We're setting ourselves up like two worms on a hook, and you're riding around saying 'Gnash.' "

We swung off Beverly Drive and into Coldwater Canyon. The road was steeper now, and when we swung onto Linda Crest, we began going up steeply in a series of reverse curves. Candy s.h.i.+fted up and down as the MG hugged the turns.

"This is what it was born for," I said.

"This car? Yes. It's always fun to drive it up here. I always feel like Mario Andretti or somebody."