Auracle. Part 5

"Where's my phone?"

"... Seth. Can we just talk for a minute, please?"

"No! Give me my phone."

"Seth, please..." but Seth cuts her off.

"Look! You stole my phone; you left that stupid note on my locker. Well, here I am. Give me my phone!"

"I know it was wrong to take your phone, but I couldn't think of another way to get you to talk to me. Can't you at least give me a chance?"

"A chance for what?"

"I just..." she squirms where she sits, and the pinkness around her pales. "I want us to get to know each other better."

"I know you well enough," Seth charges up to her and holds out his hand. "Give me my phone. Now!"

She stands up slowly and, clutching the phone behind her, takes a step backward. Her eyes are calculating.

Seth makes a grab for her arm, but she scoots back three steps. She is just two steps away from the slippery edge, and the mist from the falls is coating her bare feet. Get away from the edge, you idiot! I shout at her even though she can't hear me. If Rei were here, he would be having a heart attack.

"Why don't you like me?" Taylor demands to know.

"Because I don't." Seth is eyeing the distance between them, and I cross my ethereal fingers he's not stupid enough to do what I think he's going to do.

"Are you..." A nasty little smile narrows her eyes. "Do you like any girls?"

It takes Seth a few seconds to process this question. I'm expecting a big, bad, four-letter reaction from him, but he surprises me with a short, bitter laugh. "You think because I'm not interested in a s.l.u.t like you I must be gay ... why doesn't that surprise me?"

Her expression morphs into something sinister and underneath her murky pink aura, a layer of olive green rises up from her skin like a fog. Now I expect her to provide the four-letter reaction, but she's so furious that nothing but, "Fffffffffffff," fizzles from her mouth. She winds up to hurl Seth's phone into oblivion, but time slips into slow motion.

She swings around too quickly and loses her footing on the slick stone. Her eyes and mouth pop open, arms pinwheel. As her feet slide off the ledge and gravity begins to suck her into the falls, Seth grabs the first part of Taylor he can reach. His right foot steps back hard to balance himself, and I can tell by the tightening of his mouth that he's got her weight secured. The gauzy s.h.i.+rt he's grabbed is not up to task, though, and silver b.u.t.tons snap off in quick succession. As the last b.u.t.ton pops free and her s.h.i.+rt splays wide open, she drops even farther toward the rocks and screams b.l.o.o.d.y murder. All of her weight dangles from this one wet clump of fraying cloth in Seth's fist. She swings like a pendulum, clawing frantically at Seth's slippery arm. Her acrylic nails leave deep b.l.o.o.d.y gouges down his arm to his wrist.

"Give me your other hand!"

It looks like she's trying, but her arm seems paralyzed. "I can't!" she whimpers.

Seth goes down on one knee, leaning back to give himself some leverage. He has no problem handling her weight; it's the spray from the mist and the blood that he's fighting against.

"You wanna die? Give me your hand!" he yells harshly.

Her bare feet backpedal against the side of the slippery rock, doing nothing more than loosening her grip on Seth's wrist and his grip on her s.h.i.+rt.

"Stop kicking! Give me your other hand!"

But she can't stop kicking. Some feral instinct has taken over and her feet are fighting for her life. Seth reaches out farther with his other hand, careful not to get pulled in himself, but the slippery mist mixed with his blood makes their hands slip-slide against each other, inch by inch.

I wish there was something I could do, but without my body, I've only ever managed to lift very small things. I try to grab her other hand, just in case I can lift it up high enough for Seth to grab, but she just thrashes right through me.

When their grip breaks, she screams and her eyes bulge wide as gravity sucks her down toward the rus.h.i.+ng water. There is a terrible silence when her head hits the first rock. The bright colors of her skirt tumble merrily over flailing arms and legs as her body is flung erratically over the boulders by the rus.h.i.+ng water. And then she's gone, swallowed up by the river below.

Time stops. Except for a sudden chilling breeze rustling through Seth's hair, the omnipresent roar of the falls, and the ragged rattle of Seth's breath, everything is static. The only witnesses to Taylor's accident are the birds and the trees.

And me.

I wish I could remember what the symptoms of shock were. Seth's skin has faded to the color of tapioca pudding; his pupils are huge; and his sweat suddenly smells like raw onions. All that boiled red surrounding him is gone, replaced by a shadowy gray. Is that shock?

I wish Rei was here. I'm mentally kicking myself now for talking him out of coming, because I know with all certainty that if Rei had come, none of this would have happened. Rei would have figured out a way to defuse this. He would never have allowed Taylor to stand so close to the edge. He would have picked her up and carried her to a safe place if he had to. Yes, if I hadn't talked Rei out of coming, Taylor would be alive right now and Seth would have his phone tucked safely in his pocket.

Seth stands up shakily and looks downstream. The river elbows off to the right, and the view is obscured by newly sprouted leaves. I feel the familiar tug at my stomach, telling me it's time to get back. The alarm clock must have gone off, but thankfully, the volume is low, so I buy a few extra seconds to look downstream for Taylor's body. About a quarter mile past the bend, I find her body bobbing in a calm, shallow spot by the sh.o.r.e, her skirt caught fast on the branch of a fallen birch tree. I feel that tug again, more insistent this time, but I can't stop staring. Her b.u.t.tonless s.h.i.+rt undulates to the rhythm of the current, exposing her badly sc.r.a.ped torso. Her hair drifts on the surface like undrained spaghetti, framing a deep purple gouge just above her ear that has been washed clean by the moving water, revealing splinters of crushed skull and what can only be brain matter.

Surprisingly, the rest of her face is unmarked. Her arms and legs are bent at unnatural angles, covered in deep slashes. Three of the acrylic fingernails on her right hand are bent backward, no doubt from clawing onto Seth's arm. All traces of makeup have been washed off her face, and she looks younger, more innocent than the Taylor I had known. I feel an overwhelming sadness for her. n.o.body deserves such a brutal ending.

I feel another, more insistent tug, but I just want to check on Seth before I go back.

I wonder how many of her girlfriends knew she was meeting Seth here today. Probably all of them. I zip back to the ledge and find Seth flinging Taylor's sandals into the falls, followed by a long string of swear words that end in one raw sob.

Poor Seth. I've seen him rage, but I've never seen him cry before, not when he was a little kid or even when his mother left. I'm not sure if he's crying because he's genuinely sad that Taylor Gleason is dead or because he can read the graffiti on the rocks and it says, You are screwed, boy.

One of the silver b.u.t.tons from Taylor's s.h.i.+rt catches the sunlight and winks up at me from a crack in the rock. Evidence. I summon up enough energy to flick it into the water. I hate to leave Seth like this, but I really have to get back. The tugging sensation seems to have given up on me, but my mom will be home soon; plus, I need to talk to Rei. I am the only human eyewitness. If Taylor's girlfriends talk to the police, I am the only one who can vouch for Seth's innocence. He tried to save her. He really did.

Seth is no longer crying. He's just sitting there surrounded by a despondent shade of gray. "Go home, Seth," I tell him, even though he can't hear me.

And then I head home to collect myself so I can break this bad news to Rei.

CHAPTER 8.

Every religion has its own spin on life after death. The ancient Greeks had the elysian fields. Christians have heaven. Rei says the Buddhists believe souls are reincarnated until they reach a place of enlightenment called nirvana. Some people waste a lot of time worrying whether there's something to look forward to when their bodies die besides eternal sleep.

One thing I know for certain is that each of us possesses a sentient energy that can exist outside our physical bodies. I am living proof, but why should anyone take my word for it ... even textbook physics says that energy cannot be destroyed.

And the light that's rumored to appear when someone dies? A few years ago, I saw a cylinder of light beaming down from the ceiling in a room I walked past at my great-grandmother's nursing home. Twenty minutes later, the patient was on her way out in a body bag. It's real. But where does the light go? Is there some amazing place for people who are really, really good? Do the nine circles of h.e.l.l actually exist? Is that light your ride to the greatest party ever or does it just suck up your soul like a vacuum?

Well, that I don't know.

I careen into my room and stop short.

Something's wrong.

Something's missing!

It takes me a few seconds of stunned confusion to realize that my bed is empty. The something missing is me. I'm not there! I look on the floor, no. I look under the bed, no, no, NO!

Pure, raw panic rolls over me like a tsunami.

Where the h.e.l.l am I?

This is the feeling people must get when they've jumped out of a plane and realize they've forgotten to strap on their parachute; when a scuba diver is deep in the ocean and realizes she's run out of oxygen; when you wake up and realize you've been buried alive!

I can't get back into my body if I can't find it. The cord that normally tethers me seems to be drifting loose, shriveling up as I think. This must be why the tugs I felt back at the waterfall were so insistent: my inner alarm was going off and stupid me was too busy gawking at Taylor's dead body.

Stop, Anna. Calm down and think!

I look around the room and realize the chair is no longer wedged under the doork.n.o.b. The music from my alarm clock still plays softly. Maybe my mom came home, couldn't wake me up, and called an ambulance. But I felt the tug just minutes ago-there wasn't enough time for that.

Out in the living room, still sunk deep into the recliner, my father faces the television. He looks incapable of moving himself, much less someone else. I hear the toilet flush, and the sound of stumbling around before the bathroom door opens.

And holy c.r.a.p! There I am staggering from the bathroom, animated by some unknown force. What the h.e.l.l? It's my face, but the expression is something from out of a zombie movie, eyes wild, mouth drooling. Whatever is inside me grasps onto walls and doorjambs for leverage, making its way spasmodically back to my bedroom. It fumbles its way over to the desk and its knees try to bend several times before it finally lowers itself onto the desk chair. It seems completely unaware of me as it reaches for my pink magnifying mirror, clawing at it several times before the fingers actually close around it. When it sees my face reflected in the mirror, it lets out an inhuman moan. It's my voice, but there's something different. The tone is mine, but the inflection is different, but somehow familiar ...

That b.i.t.c.h!!!

That's Taylor in there!

But how? Unless she saw me at the falls somehow. She probably died as soon as her head hit that first rock. If she separated from her body then, she could have seen me there, watching the action unfold in all my ethereal glory. But I should have seen her, too ... if I had been paying attention to something other than watching her body wash downstream.

I can figure that out later. What matters now is to get her the h.e.l.l out of my body. I float up close and look hard into her eyes. Taylor, through my own dazed eyes, looks right through me. I reach out, tentatively, to slide my hand into my flesh hand.

The reaction is immediate. Taylor yanks my flesh hand away, violently enough to lose her balance. The wobbly desk chair tips, pitching her headfirst against the edge of my desk. The crack! is audible, amplified through my own extreme senses. I am going to have one h.e.l.l of a headache as soon as I get her out of there!

All the sympathy I felt for Taylor at the falls evaporates as I rear back, ready to charge full force back into my body. Slam! It feels like I'm bouncing off a wall. Slam! A very solid brick wall. SLAM! SLAM! SLAM!

This is getting me nowhere.

She writhes on the floor, whimpering.

I slam her again for good measure, but I bounce off like a racquetball in play. It's too quiet for Taylor to notice, but I hear the front door close.

"h.e.l.loooo," Mom calls as she peeks into my room, only to find Taylor struggling on the floor like an overturned beetle. "Anna? Oh, my G.o.d, honey, what happened?"

My mom dials 911 with shaky hands. There's nothing wrong with Taylor that an Advil, a little time, and a whole lot of stretching won't cure. The last thing my mom needs after two days at a real estate convention is to come home to all this drama. My father hasn't moved except to reach for the remote and turn up the volume.

I retreat to a corner of the room to wait for the ambulance and try to think over the sound of anxious motherisms.

Why didn't Taylor go into the light? I was so busy watching her body wash downstream, I wasn't looking for a light. Did I miss it? Maybe the sun was too bright and I couldn't see it. If she changes her mind, will the light come back for her?

Or maybe she wasn't invited. What if there was no light for her? What if the light doesn't s.h.i.+ne for people who steal cell phones and throw them into waterfalls? Where do those people go when they die if there's no light?

Obviously, she goes to my house to hijack my body.

I have figured out there are a few different dimensions. There is the earthly dimension, right here where we all live. There's an astral dimension, where I consider myself a traveler whenever I leave my body. And there's probably at least one other dimension where the dead go by way of the light, but I'm not dead so I haven't been there.

When I leave my body on purpose and travel in this astral dimension, I remember what I see and do. Every now and then, I see other people floating around in this dimension, but most of them are not dead. It's pretty common for people to slip out of their bodies while they dream. They don't have a purpose; they aren't rational. They meet up with other people having other dreams and everything blends together into chaos they will later remember as a very vivid dream, or they don't remember it at all. I've had people at school tell me, "Oh my G.o.d, Anna, I had the weirdest dream last night and you were in it," and I say, "Wow, that is weird."

Except I remember, too, and it wasn't a dream.

Every once in a while, though, I b.u.mp into a dead someone who is rational, but who decided not to go into the light. The dead have auras, too, just not as strong as the living. I don't like to get into conversations with the dead. Especially if their color is off.

Taylor and my mom are at the hospital. They've run diagnostic tests, a CAT scan, and blood tests, but there are no tests to diagnose an extraneous soul possessing one's body. The doctor concludes it's a concussion, which is ous.h.i.+kuso, as Rei would say. Taylor is getting better control over my body. Her speech and movements are still slow, but more normal than they were earlier. She is sent home with my mom, some prescription painkillers, and instructions for my mom to wake her up every few hours.

My mom followed the ambulance to the hospital in her own car, so she drives Taylor home. During the ride, I hover in the backseat, listening to my mom's worried questions and Taylor's evasive murmurs. My mom must think Taylor is foggy because of the concussion, but I wonder how she'll manage later. How will she work around the obvious fact that she knows so little about me? I don't think she even knows my last name. Does she expect she can just step right into my life and go from there? I try to picture myself in some of Taylor's outfits and I almost laugh.

Back at home, Mom sits on my bed, stroking my hair and making a huge fuss. Taylor still looks dazed through my eyes. She ignores my mom's attention. She closes her eyes and wants to sleep. My mom covers her up with the blanket and it's not long before I hear light snores. Since when do I snore?

My mom looks so worried. If she even knew half of what's going on, it would freak her out completely! She turns out the light and closes the bedroom door, leaving Taylor and me in relative darkness.

I float over to the bed and watch the dark lump under the covers rise and fall. Now that she's sleeping, maybe her guard is down and I can get past whatever barrier is keeping me out. I reach out with just one finger and tap gently on her cheek. She grimaces, but doesn't wake up. I edge my way around her to the other side of the twin bed and sort of lie down, although I'm really floating about an inch off the mattress. I try to roll into her, but I'm met with a solid wall of flesh who grunts irritably.

I lean very close to her ear. "Taylor Gleason." I know she can't hear me, but I say it anyway. "GO AWAY!"

Snore.

I spend the next half hour trying to inch, slide, push, and then force my way back into my own body, but my efforts are for nothing. She is stubbornly impermeable and I am tired. Not physically tired, but I feel like a car running on fumes. There's something about being here in my house, close to my worried mom and my drunken father, that sucks my energy dry. And since I am one hundred percent energy, this is a problem.

A sudden vibration startles me, until I realize it's just my cell phone, still stuffed in the pocket of the jeans I'd traded earlier in favor of the gym shorts Taylor now sleeps in. I don't have to look at the caller ID to know it's Rei. He said he'd call me tonight, and I doubt anyone was home at his house when the ambulance came, so he probably thinks I've just forgotten to charge my phone. The guilt I feel when I think of him drains my spirits even lower.

How can I tell him what's happened this afternoon? Besides the obvious fact that he can't hear me from this dimension, how do I tell him that not only did I ignore his advice, but I'm now trapped outside my body because of my own stubbornness?

Even though I am floating here in my bedroom, I feel a terrible homesickness. What I want, what I need, is to be near Rei and all the calm that flows from him.

I drift over by his bedroom window to find it wide open on this warm night. The smooth, sweet sound of acoustic guitar music pulls me closer. Could this be his surprise song? Rei plays by ear, listening to a little piece of a song on his iPod, and then working out the notes and chords on his guitar, playing them over and over until he has it memorized. Sometimes he'll Google the lyrics and sing along, although despite his love for metal music, he realizes his voice is better suited for acoustic. Whatever song he's teaching himself tonight is beautiful and complicated.

I curl myself into a ball, hovering just inside his window, and the music soothes me like a cup of hot sweet tea on a snowy day. A light breeze blows through me, stirring the wind chimes into gentle motion. Rei is lost in his song. He sits cross-legged on the bed wearing a black T-s.h.i.+rt and gray gym shorts, his hair still wet from the shower.

Slowly, I float down off the sill and linger over the swing chair hanging from the ceiling close to Rei's bed, careful not to jar the chair into motion. From here, I can watch his fingers work the strings and chords, listen to his clear, quiet voice. The scent of his citrus soap floats all around him, along with a calm, summer sky blue aura.

I hug my knees to my chest and bury my head in my arms so I will concentrate on the music instead of the complex strands of muscles flexing gently in his arms as he plays. Sitting here with Rei, I feel like a sponge soaking up the energy I badly need. When the music stops, I don't move, I just let myself rest here and recharge. I don't know how much time pa.s.ses, but I suddenly realize that Rei isn't moving. I peek up to see if he's fallen asleep, and he's not. He's still sitting cross-legged; his guitar still rests on his lap, but his bewildered eyes look directly at me.

"Anna?"

CHAPTER 9.

My knee-jerk reaction is to bolt out of Rei's room, so that's just what I do. I hide myself in the tangle of willow branches and listen to him call my name softly, again and again. Finally, he says the one thing that breaks my resolve. "Are you okay?" he asks. "I tried to call you a couple of times and you never picked up."

I float back in through the open window and he relaxes when he sees me.