Losing It Part 43

Chapter Twenty-Four

At around four in the morning, I woke in a pool of sweat, my body stuck to the sheets and my face glued to the bed.

I guess the fever was definitely broken.

I placed my hands on the bed to push myself up, but my equilibrium must have been off. My bed felt uneven. I reached back, fumbling for the lamp and flicked the light on. Then because I thought maybe I was seeing things, I flipped it off and on again. I pinched myself. I pinched really hard. But nothing changed.

Garrick was definitely asleep in my bed.

s.h.i.+t.

s.h.i.+t.

How much of my fever-induced dream was real? I felt safe a.s.suming that my time as a bee was fiction, as well as a few mythological animals that I swear I'd seen. Then I'd lived on the sun with aliens.

But Garrick was in my bed. He'd definitely been in my dreams, but it couldn't all be real. Sometimes he flew, much of the time he was naked. And there were a dozen more moments, some fuzzy, some very clear. Where was the line? What had really happened? h.e.l.l, was this even real? Maybe I was just dreaming that my fever broke. I was freaking out, and before I had the sense of mind to formulate a plan, I was already shaking him awake.

He was bleary-eyed and beautiful as he came to. I was struck for a moment by the fact that he was sleeping on my pillow.

He was in my bed. With me.

Sleeping.

We were sleeping together!

"You're awake." G.o.d, since when did groggy and gorgeous go so well together? Wide-eyed, I nodded, not having thought of what I'd say when I actually had him awake.

"How do you feel?"

That I could answer.

"Like s.h.i.+t. Everything hurts. My throat the worst."

He reached out and set a hand on my thigh. Like that was normal. Like we just set our hands on each other's thighs all the time.

"That's normal, I think," He said. The thigh thing? No, no... my throat. He continued, "Do you need anything?"

I shook my head. What the h.e.l.l had happened while I was so out of it?

He sat up, and the sheet fell around his waist, revealing all of his upper body to my eyes. The sheet drooped around his hips, drawing my eyes to the muscles that disappeared down into his shorts. G.o.d. His hand went to my hair, my hair that fell lank, and oily against my face, a stark contrast to how good he looked right now. He didn't seem to care.

Again, what the h.e.l.l was happening?

"I'm glad you're okay," he said.

I nodded. Nodding was all I knew how to do, all I understood. Nodding, at least, still made sense.

"You should go back to sleep. You still need to rest. Unless you're hungry?"

I shook my head.

"Then sleep."

He nudged me slightly, and I lowered my body slowly, certain that the minute my head hit the pillow this alternate universe would cease to exist.

It didn't.

He pushed back the covers, and then slipped out of the bed.

"You're leaving?" I asked.

He stopped, and in quick succession I saw him realize where we were and how little he was wearing. He hesitated, unsure. It was such a strange emotion, one I'd rarely seen him wear. "Do you want me to?" I wanted to pause the moment, study it, break down the second where this bold boy had been filled with doubt. Of course I didn't want him to leave! I never wanted him to leave!

I shook my head. Glad that fatigue kept me calm, somewhat.

He smiled so wide I forgot that the doubt ever existed. "Then I'm not leaving. I'm just going to get some water. Go to sleep."

He left, and I turned on my side, reeling. I could hear the faucet turn on and off. I tried to imagine what he was doing. The floor wasn't creaking, so he wasn't walking back. Was he just standing at the sink drinking? Or was there no creaking because my delusion had ended and he wasn't coming back? Had the floor creaked on his way to the sink? I couldn't remember. I started to panic. Maybe I needed to get up, go after him. Make sure he was real.

Then my bed dipped, and I felt heat behind me, and an arm wrapped around my waist. I stiffened first, and then relaxed so suddenly that I practically fell into him. He was so warm, I felt like I was feverish all over again.

He pushed my hair up and onto the pillow, so that my neck was uncovered. Then I felt something, the tip of his nose perhaps, grazing softly against my skin and the puff of his breath.

"Garrick?"

His arm tightened, his body curved around mine, even our thighs pressed together.

"Tomorrow, Bliss. Sleep now."

Sleep? The idea seemed impossible, but as his breath steadied and I grew used to his touch, I realized I was still tired. I wanted to a.n.a.lyze what had happened, what I remembered and what I didn't, but sleep did seem more important.

Garrick was right. It could wait until tomorrow. He would be here. He said he wasn't leaving. But just in case, I placed one of my hands over his that rested against my stomach. I had thought he was already asleep, but he was awake enough to respond, lacing our fingers together.

When I felt certain, both that he was real and that he wasn't leaving... when my doubt was gone, I slept.

I woke several hours later. Light was pouring in through my high windows, and my skin was slick with sweat. For a moment, I thought I had a fever again. I sat up, and Garrick's arm fell from my waist. He groaned.

His brows were furrowed with beads of sweat dotting his face. I pressed my hand against his forehead, and sure enough, he was burning up. He looked awful, but I imagined that I looked even worse. My skin and clothes were damp with sweat, both his and mine. It felt like grime and sickness was slathered over the top of my skin.

Carefully, I s.h.i.+fted out of Garrick's reach and planted my feet on the cool hardwood floor. Standing hurt all the way to my bones, like they'd been broken and set in the wrong way, and now I had to re-break them to set it right. Each step felt like a nail gun had been taken to my heels, my knees, my hips. It took a hand on the wall just to keep myself upright. And my journey to the bathroom comprised of thirty slow, shuffling steps instead of the usual ten. When I got there, I was short of breath and ready for another nap.

In my pain-addled mind, it seemed very important to be clean first. I turned on the shower, leaving it on the cool side of the spectrum instead of automatically pus.h.i.+ng it to hot like usual. I shucked off my clothes, lamenting each time I got off one piece only to discover another layer beneath. When I got to my bra, I nearly gave up completely.

Finally, I was free, but I no longer had the energy to stand for the shower I wanted. Like a child just learning to walk, I crawled into the tub, laying back and letting the water pelt my skin. My stomach, especially, felt so sensitive that each drop stung on impact, like someone was dropping tiny little missiles from above. But even so, it was cool and lovely and I melted into the sensation.