The Wise Man's Fear Part 81

The old man closed his eyes for a moment, then nodded to himself. "I can hear it in your voice. This is no pa.s.sing fancy." He leaned close and pressed his ear to Jax's chest. He closed his eyes for another long moment and was very still. "Oh," he said softly. "How sad. Your heart is broken and you've never even had a chance to use it."

Jax moved around, a little uncomfortable. "If you don't mind my asking," Jax said, "What's your name?"

"I don't mind you asking," the old man said. "So long as you don't mind me not telling. If you had my name, I'd be under your power, wouldn't I?"

"Would you?" Jax asked.

"Of course." The old man frowned. "That is the way of things. Though you don't seem to be much for listening, it's best to be careful. If you managed to catch hold of even just a piece of my name, you'd have all manner of power over me."

Jax wondered if this man might be able to help him. While he didn't seem to be terribly ordinary, Jax knew he was on no ordinary errand. If he'd been trying to catch a cow, he would ask a farmer's help. But to catch the moon, perhaps he needed the help of an odd old man. "You said you used to chase the wind," Jax said. "Did you ever catch it?"

"In some ways yes," the old man said. "And in other ways, no. There are many ways of looking at that question, you see."

"Could you help me catch the moon?"

"I might be able to give you some advice," the old man said reluctantly. "But first you should think this over, boy. When you love something, you have to make sure it loves you back, or you'll bring about no end of trouble chasing it."

Hespe didn't look at Dedan as she said this. She looked everywhere in the world but at him. Because of this, she didn't see the stricken, helpless look on his face.

"How can I find out if she loves me?" Jax asked.

"You could try listening," the old man said, almost shyly. "It works wonders, you know. I could teach you how."

"How long would that take?"

"A couple years," the old man said. "Give or take. It depends on if you have a knack for it. It's tricky, proper listening. But once you have it, you'll know the moon down to the bottoms of her feet."

Jax shook his head. "Too long. If I can catch her, I can talk with her. I can make-"

"Well that's part of your problem right there," the old man said. "You don't really want to catch her. Not really. Will you trail her through the sky? Of course not. You want to meet meet her. That means you need the moon to come to you." her. That means you need the moon to come to you."

"How can I do that?" he said.

The old man smiled. "Well that's the question, isn't it? What do you have that the moon might want? What do you have to offer the moon?"

"Only what I have in these packs."

"That's not quite what I meant," the old man muttered. "But we might as well take a look at what you've brought, too."

The old hermit looked through the first pack and found many practical things. The contents of the second pack were more expensive and rare, but no more useful.

Then the old man saw the third pack. "And what do you have in there?"

"I've never been able to get it open," Jax said. "The knot is too much for me."

The hermit closed his eyes for a moment, listening. Then he opened his eyes and frowned at Jax. "The knot says you tore at it. p.r.i.c.ked it with a knife. Bit it with your teeth."

Jax was surprised. "I did," he admitted. "I told you, I tried everything to get it open."

"Hardly everything," the hermit said scornfully. He lifted the pack until the knotted cord was in front of his face. "I'm terribly sorry," he said. "But would you open up?" He paused. "Yes. I apologize. He won't do it again."

The knot unraveled and the hermit opened the pack. Looking inside, his eyes widened and he let out a low whistle.

But when the old man spread the pack open on the ground, Jax's shoulders slumped. He had been hoping for money, or gems, some treasure he could give the moon as a gift. But all the pack held was a bent piece of wood, a stone flute, and a small iron box.

Of these, only the flute caught Jax's attention. It was made of a pale green stone. "I had a flute when I was younger," Jax said. "But it broke and I could never make it right again."

"They're all quite impressive," the hermit said.

"The flute is nice enough," Jax said with a shrug. "But what use is a piece of wood and a box too small for anything practical?"

The hermit shook his head. "Can't you hear them? Most things whisper. These things shout." He pointed at the piece of crooked wood. "That is a folding house unless I miss my guess. Quite a nice one too."

"What's a folding house?"

"You know how you can fold a piece of paper on itself, and each time it gets smaller?" the old man gestured at the piece of crooked wood. "A folding house is like that. Except it's a house, of course."

Jax took hold of the piece of crooked wood and tried to straighten it. Suddenly he was holding two pieces of wood that resembled the beginning of a doorframe.

"Don't unfold it here!" the old man shouted. "I don't want a house outside my cave, blocking my sunlight!"

Jax tried to push the two pieces of wood, back together. "Why can't I fold it back up?"

"Because you don't know how, I expect," the old man said plainly. "I suggest you wait until you know where you want it before you unfold it the rest of the way."

Jax set the wood down carefully, then picked up the flute. "Is this special too?" He put it to his lips and blew a simple trill like a Will's Widow.

Hespe smiled teasingly, lifted a familiar wooden whistle to her lips, and blew: Ta-ta DEE Ta-ta DEE. Ta-ta DEE. Ta-ta DEE.

Now everyone knows the Will's Widow is also called a nightjar. So it isn't out when the sun is s.h.i.+ning. Despite this, a dozen nightjars flew down and landed all around Jax, looking at him curiously and blinking in the bright sunlight.

"It seems to be more than the usual flute," the old man said.

"And the box?" Jax reached out and picked it up. It was dark, and cold, and small enough that he could close his hand around it.

The old man s.h.i.+vered and looked away from the box. "It's empty."

"How can you tell without seeing inside?"

"By listening," he said. "I'm amazed you can't hear it yourself. It's the emptiest thing I've ever heard. It echoes. It's meant for keeping things inside."

"All boxes are meant for keeping things inside."

"And all flutes are meant to play beguiling music," the old man pointed out. "But this flute is moreso. The same is true with this box."

Jax looked at the box for a moment, then set it down carefully and began to tie up the third pack with the three treasures inside it. "I think I'll be moving on," Jax said.

"Are you sure you won't consider staying for a month or two?" the old man said. "You could learn to listen just a bit more closely. Useful thing, listening."

"You've given me some things to think about," Jax said. "And I think you're right, I shouldn't be chasing the moon. I should make the moon come to me."

"That's not what I actually said," the old man murmured. But he did so in a resigned way. Skilled listener that he was, he knew he wasn't being heard.

Jax set off the next morning, following the moon higher into the mountains. Eventually he found a large, flat piece of ground nestled high among the tallest peaks.

Jax brought out the crooked piece of wood and, piece by piece, began to unfold the house. With the whole night in front of him, he was hoping to have it finished well before the moon began to rise.

But the house was much larger than he had guessed, more a mansion than a simple cottage. What's more, unfolding it was more complicated than he had expected. By the time the moon reached the top of the sky, he was still far from being finished.

Perhaps Jax hurried because of this. Perhaps he was reckless. Or perhaps it was just that Jax was unlucky as ever.

In the end the result was the same: the mansion was magnificent, huge and sprawling. But it didn't fit together properly. There were stairways that led sideways instead of up. Some rooms had too few walls, or too many. Many rooms had no ceiling, and high above they showed a strange sky full of unfamiliar stars.

Everything about the place was slightly skewed. In one room you could look out the window at the springtime flowers, while across the hall the windows were filmed with winter's frost. It could be time for breakfast in the ballroom, while twilight filled a nearby bedroom.

Because nothing in the house was true, none of the doors or windows fit tight. They could be closed, even locked, but never made fast. And as big as it was, the mansion had a great many doors and windows, so there were a great many ways both in and out.

Jax paid no mind to any of this. Instead, he raced to the top of the highest tower and put the flute to his lips.

He poured out a sweet song into the clear night sky. No simple bird trill, this was a song that came from his broken heart. It was strong and sad. It fluttered like a bird with a broken wing.

Hearing it, the moon came down to the tower. Pale and round and beautiful, she stood before Jax in all her glory, and for the first time in his life he felt a single breath of joy.

They spoke then, on the top of the tower. Jax telling her of his life, his wager, and his long, lonely journey. The moon listened, and laughed, and smiled.

But eventually she looked longingly toward the sky.

Jax knew what this foretold. "Stay with me," he pleaded. "I can only be happy if you're mine."

"I must go," she said. "The sky is my home."

"I have made a home for you," Jax said, gesturing to the vast mansion below them. "There is sky enough for you here. An empty sky that is all for you."

"I must go," she said. "I have been away too long."

He raised his hand as if to grab her, then stopped himself. "Time is what we make it here," he said. "Your bedroom can be winter or spring, all according to your desire."

"I must go," she said, looking upward. "But I will return. I am always and unchanging. And if you play your flute for me, I will visit you again."

"I have given you three things," he said. "A song, a home, and my heart. If you must go, will you not give me three things in return?"

She laughed, holding her hands out to her sides. She was naked as the moon. "What do I have that I can leave with you? But if it is mine to give, ask and I will give it."

Jax found his mouth was dry. "First I would ask for a touch of your hand."

"One hand clasps another, and I grant you your request." She reached out to him, her hand smooth and strong. At first it seemed cool, then marvelously warm. Gooseflesh ran all up and down Jax's arms.

"Second, I would beg a kiss," he said.

"One mouth tastes another, and I grant you your request." She leaned in close to him. Her breath was sweet, her lips firm as fruit. The kiss pulled the breath out of Jax, and for the first time in his life, his mouth curved into the beginning of a smile.

"And what is the third thing?" the moon asked. Her eyes were dark and wise, her smile was full and knowing.

"Your name," Jax breathed. "That I might call you by it."

"One body ..." the moon began, stepping forward eagerly. Then she paused. "Only my name?" she asked, sliding her hand around his waist.

Jax nodded.

She leaned close and spoke warmly against his ear, "Ludis "Ludis."

And Jax brought out the black iron box, closing the lid and catching her name inside.

"Now I have your name," he said firmly. "So I have mastery over you. And I say you must stay with me forever, so I can be happy."

And so it was. The box was no longer cold in his hand. It was warm, and inside he could feel her name, fluttering like a moth against a windowpane.

Perhaps Jax had been too slow in closing the box. Perhaps he fumbled with the clasp. Or perhaps he was simply unlucky in all things. But in the end he only managed to catch a piece of the moon's name, not the thing entire.

So Jax could keep her for a while, but she always slips away from him. Out from his broken mansion, back to our world. But still, he has a piece of her name, and so she always must return.

Hespe looked around at us, smiling. "And that is why the moon is always changing. And that is where Jax keeps her when she is not in our sky. He caught her and he keeps her still. But whether or not he is happy is only for him to know."

There was a long moment of silence.

"That," Dedan said, "is one h.e.l.l of a story."

Hespe looked down, and though the firelight made it difficult to tell, I would have bet a penny she was blus.h.i.+ng. Hard Hespe, who I wouldn't have guessed had a drop of blus.h.i.+ng in her. "It took me a long time to remember all of it," she said, "My mother used to tell it to me when I was a little girl. Every night, always the same. Said she learned it from her mother."

"Well you'll need to make sure you tell your daughters, too," Dedan said. "A story like that is too good to let fall by the roadside."

Hespe smiled.

Unfortunately, that peaceful evening was like the lull that comes in the center of a storm. The next day Hespe made a comment that sent Dedan off in a huff, and for two hours they could barely look at each other without hissing like angry cats.

Dedan tried to convince everyone we should give up our search and instead sign up as caravan guards, hoping the bandits would attack us. Marten said that made as much sense as trying to find a bear trap by putting your foot in it. Marten was right, but that didn't keep Dedan and the tracker from snapping at each other over the next couple days.

Two days later, Hespe gave a surprisingly girlish shriek of alarm while bathing. We ran to her a.s.sistance, expecting bandits, and instead found Tempi naked, knee-deep in the stream. Hespe stood half-dressed and dripping wet on the sh.o.r.e. Marten thought it was hilarious. Hespe did not. And the only thing that kept Dedan from flying into a rage and attacking Tempi was the fact that he couldn't figure out how to attack a naked man without looking in his direction or actually touching him.

The day after that, the weather grew foggy and damp, souring everyone's mood and slowing our search even further.

Then it began to rain.