Protector - Squire Part 1

Tamora Pierce Protector of the Small.

Squire.

ACKNOWLEDGMENTS.

My most heartfelt thanks for this goes to my wonderful editrix, Mallory Loehr, who gave me another hundred pages in which to tell the story - my brain might have melted down without them, because I could think of nothing to cut. Thus, indirect thanks are due to British author J. K. Rowling (nope, don't know her personally), whose wild success with the Harry Potter books has convinced American publishers that perhaps their authors could manage to sell longer books too.

My grat.i.tude goes to Alicia Craig-Lich, manager of the National Audubon Society Important Bird Area in Indiana and Senior Manager of Nature Education, Wild Birds Unlimited, Inc. for her quick a.s.sistance with information on sparrow biology. She and the other folks at Wild Birds Unlimited online (www.wbu.com) are a tremendous resource for those who want to know more about birds.

Thanks also to my continual support team: my parents, forever answering crazed garden information questions without once suggesting that I need my head examined; my agent, Craig Tenney, who has a delicate touch for what works and what doesn't; Raquel Starace, for horse breeds, riding, and monster creation advice; Richard McCaffery Robinson, for his many instructive thoughts on the nature of royal progresses; and my very own Spouse-Creature, Tim Liebe, who had his hands full with me this time, and offered many sage thoughts on the nature of romance, ordeals, and training relations.h.i.+ps.

To Iris Mori and her family, arigato goziemas.h.i.+ta for j.a.panese names and weapons feedback - errors here are strictly mine.

Finally, I express a debt to Crown, Freckle, Peg, and the house sparrows of Riverside Park in New York City, who have taught me that big hearts and large courage can be found in the smallest of creatures; to Pidge the dove, who taught me that whoever said doves are birds of peace had never been anywhere near one; and to Shortstop the crow, who taught me in a short time the pains and joys of caring for a wild bird.

To Ms. Gloria Barbizan and Ms. Dorothy Olding - strong businesswomen long before women's liberation

one.

KNIGHT-MASTER.

Despite the overflow of humanity present for the congress at the royal palace, the hall where Keladry of Mindelan walked was deserted. There were no servants to be seen. No echo of the footsteps, laughter, or talk that filled the sprawling residence sounded here, only Kel's steps and the click of her dog's claws on the stone floor.

They made an interesting pair. The fourteen-year-old girl was big for her age, five feet nine inches tall, and dressed informally in breeches and s.h.i.+rt. Both were a dark green that emphasized the same color in her green-hazel eyes. Her dark boots were comfortable, not fas.h.i.+onable. On her belt hung a pouch and a black-hilted dagger in a plain black sheath. Her brown hair was cut to earlobe length. It framed a tanned face dusted with freckles across a delicate nose. Her mouth was full and decided.

The dog, known as Jump, was barrel-chested, with slightly bowed forelegs. His small, triangular eyes were set deep in a head shaped like a heavy chisel. He was mostly white, but black splotches covered the end of his nose, his lone whole ear, and his rump; his tail plainly had been broken twice. He looked like a battered foot soldier to Kel's young squire, and he had proved his combat skills often.

At the end of the hall stood a pair of wooden doors carved with a sun, the symbol of Mithros, G.o.d of law and war. They were ancient, the surfaces around the sun curved deep after centuries of polis.h.i.+ng. Their handles were crude iron, as coa.r.s.e as the fittings on a barn door.

Kel stopped. Of the pages who had just pa.s.sed the great examinations to become squires, she was the only one who had not come here before. Pages never came to this hall. Legend held that pages who visited the Chapel of the Ordeal never became squires: they were disgraced or killed. But once they were squires, the temptation to see the place where they would be tested on their fitness for knighthood was irresistible.

Kel reached for the handle and opened one door just enough to admit her and Jump. There were benches placed on either side of the room from the door to the altar. Kel slid onto one, glad to give her wobbly knees a rest. Jump sat in the aisle beside her.

After her heart calmed, Kel inspected her surroundings. This chapel, focus of so many longings, was plain. The floor was gray stone flags; the benches were polished wood without ornament. Windows set high in the walls on either side were as stark as the room itself.

Ahead was the altar. Here, at least, was decoration: gold candlesticks and an altar cloth that looked like gold chain mail. The sun disk on the wall behind it was also gold. Against the gray stone, the dark benches, and the wrought-iron cressets on the walls, the gold looked tawdry.

The iron door to the right of the sun disk drew Kel's eyes. There was the Chamber of the Ordeal. Generations of squires had entered it to experience something. None told what they saw; they were forbidden to speak of it. Whatever it was, it usually let squires return to the chapel to be knighted.

Some who entered the Chamber failed. A year-mate of Kel's brother Anders had died three weeks after his Ordeal without ever speaking. Two years after that a squire from Fief Yanholm left the Chamber, refused his s.h.i.+eld, and fled, never to be seen again. At Midwinter in 453, months before the Immortals War broke out, a squire went mad there. Five months later he escaped his family and drowned himself.

"The Chamber is like a cutter of gemstones," Anders had told Kel once. "It looks for your flaws and hammers them, till you crack open. And that's all I - or anyone - will say about it."

The iron door seemed almost separate from the wall, more real than its surroundings. Kel got to her feet, hesitated, then went to it. Standing before the door, she felt a cold draft.

Kel wet suddenly dry lips with her tongue. Jump whined. "I know what I'm doing," she told her dog without conviction, and set her palm on the door.

She sat at a desk, stacks of parchment on either side. Her hands sharpened a goose quill - with a penknife. Splotches of ink stained her fingers. Even her sleeves were spotted with ink.

"There you are, squire."

Kel looked up. Before her stood Sir Gareth the Younger, King Jonathan's friend and adviser. Like Kel's, his hands and sleeves were ink-stained. "I need you to find these." He pa.s.sed a slate to Kel, who took it, her throat tight with misery. "Before you finish up today, please. They should be in section eighty-eight." He pointed to the far end of the room. She saw shelves, all stretching from floor to ceiling, all stuffed with books, scrolls, and doc.u.ments.

She looked at her tunic. She wore the badge of Fief Naxen, Sir Gareth's home, with the white ring around it that indicated she served the heir to the fief. Her knight-master was a desk knight, not a warrior.

Work is work, she thought, trying not to cry. She still had her duty to Sir Gareth, even if it meant grubbing through papers. She thrust herself away from her desk -

- and tottered on the chapel's flagstones. Her hands were numb with cold, her palms bright red where they had touched the Chamber door.

Kel scowled at the iron door. "I'll do my duty," she told the thing, s.h.i.+vering.

Jump whined again. He peered up at her, his tail a wag in consolation.

"I'm all right," Kel rea.s.sured him, but she checked her hands for inkspots. The Chamber had made her live the thing she feared most just now, when no field knight had asked for her service.

What if the Chamber knew? What if she was to spend the next four years copying out dry pa.s.sages from drier records? Would she quit? Would paperwork do what other pages' hostility had not - drive her back to Mindelan?

Squires were supposed to serve and obey, no matter what. Still, the gap between combat with monsters and research in ancient files was unimaginable. Surely someone would realize Keladry of Mindelan was good for more than scribe work!

This was too close to feeling sorry for herself, a useless activity. "Come on," Kel told Jump. "Enough brooding. Let's get some exercise."

Jump pranced as Kel left the Chapel. She was never sure if he understood her exactly - it grew harder each year to tell how much any palace animal did or did not know - but he could tell they were on their way outside.

Kel stopped at her quarters to leave a note for her maid, Lalasa: "Should a knight come to ask me to be his squire, I'm down at the practice courts." Gloom overtook her again. As the first known female page in over a century, she had struggled through four years to prove herself as good as any boy. If the last six weeks were any indication, she could have spared herself the trouble. It seemed no knight cared to take The Girl as his squire. Even her friend Neal, five years older than their other year-mates, known for his sharp tongue and poor att.i.tude, had talked with three potential masters.

Kel and Jump left her room to stop by Neal's. Her lanky friend lay on his bed, reading. Jump bounced up beside him.

"I'm off to the practice courts," she said. "You want to come?"

Neal lowered his book, raising arched brows over green eyes. "I'm about to commence four years obeying the call of a bruiser on a horse," he pointed out in his dry voice. A friend had commented once that Neal had a gift for making someone want to punch him just for saying h.e.l.lo. "I refuse to put down what might be the last book I see for months."

Kel eyed her friend. His long brown hair, swept back from a widow's peak, stood at angles, combed that way by restless fingers. Her fingers itched to settle it. "I thought you wanted to be a squire," she said, locking her hands behind her back. Neal didn't know she had a crush on him. She meant to keep it that way.

Neal sighed. "I want to fulfill Queenscove's duty to the Crown," he reminded her. "A knight from our house - "

"Has served the Crown for ages, is a pillar of the kingdom, I know, I know," Kel finished before he could start.

"Well, that's about being a knight. Squire is an intermediate step. It's a pain in the rump, but it's a pa.s.sing pain. I don't have to like it," Neal said. "I'd as soon read. Besides, Father said to wait. Another knight's supposed to show up today. I hate it when Father gets mysterious."

"Well, I'm going to go hit something," Kel said. "I can't sit around."

Neal sat up. "No one still?" he asked, kindness in his voice and eyes. For all he was five years older, he was her best friend, and a good one.

Kel shook her head. "I thought if I survived the big examinations, I'd be fine. I thought somebody would take me, even if I am The Girl."

She didn't mention her bitterest disappointment. For years she had dreamed that Alanna the Lioness, the realm's sole lady knight, would take her as squire. Kel knew it was unlikely. No one would believe she had earned her rank fairly if the controversial King's Champion, who was also a mage, took Kel under her wing. In her heart, though, Kel had hoped. Now the congress that had brought so many other knights to the palace was ending, with no sign of Lady Alanna.

"There are still knights in the field," Neal said gently. "You may be picked later this summer, or even this fall."

For a moment she almost told him about her vision in the chapel. Instead she made herself smile. Complaining to Neal wouldn't help. "I know," she replied, "and until then, I mean to practice. Last chance to collect bruises from me."

Neal shuddered. "Thanks," he said. "I've gotten all the bruises off you this year that I want."

"Coward." She whistled for Jump, who leaped off the bed to follow her.

The practice courts were deserted. Lord Wyldon, the training master, had taken the pages to their summer camp earlier that week, ahead of the traffic that would clog the roads as the congress broke up. The combat teachers had gone with him; Kel saw only servants near the fenced yards where pages and squires practiced. She'd thought that older squires might come out to keep their skills sharp, but none were visible.

She saddled her big gelding, Peachblossom, murmuring to him as she worked. He was a strawberry roan, his cinnamon coat flecked with bits of white, his face, stockings, mane, and tail all solid red-brown. Except for the palace horse mages, he would tolerate only Kel. Abused when he was younger, Peachblossom was no mans friend, but he suited Kel nicely.

Practice lance in hand, she guided Peachblossom to the tilting yard. There she studied the targets: the standard quintain dummy with its wooden s.h.i.+eld, and a second dummy with a tiny black spot painted at the s.h.i.+eld's center. They were too solid to fit her mood. Though it was a windy June day, she set up the ring target, a circle of willow twigs hung from a cord attached to a long arm of wood. It was always the hardest to hit due to its lightness. Today it whipped on its cord like a circular kite.

Kel rode Peachblossom to the starting point and composed herself. It was no good riding at the ring target with an unsettled heart. Six years of life in the Yamani Islands had taught her to manage her emotions. She breathed slowly and evenly, emptying her mind. Her green-hazel eyes took on their normal, dreamy cast. Her shoulders settled; her tight muscles loosened.

Kel gathered her reins and resettled her lance. Part of the bargain she and her horse had made to work together was that Peachblossom would answer to verbal commands and Kel would never use the spur. "Trot," she told him now.

The big horse made for the target at an easy pace. The ring flirted in the air. Kel lowered her fourteen-foot lance until it crossed a few inches above her gelding's shoulders. The lead-weighted wood lay steady in her grip. Her eyes tracked the ring as she rose in the stirrups. On trotted Peachblossom, hooves smacking hard-packed dirt. Kel adjusted her lance point and jammed it straight through the ring. The cord that held it to the wooden arm snapped. Peachblossom slowed and turned.

With a hard flick - the movement took strength, and she had practiced until she'd gotten it perfect - Kel sent the ring flying off her lance. Jump watched it, his powerful legs tense. He sprang, catching the ring in his jaws.

A big man who leaned on the fence applauded. The sun was in Kel's eyes: she shaded them to see who it was, and smiled. Her audience was Raoul of Goldenlake and Malorie's Peak, knight and Knight Commander of the King's Own guard. She liked him: for one thing, he treated her just as he did boy pages. It was nice that he'd witnessed one of her successes. The first time she'd seen him, she had been about to fall off a rearing Peachblossom. That her mount was out of control was bad; to have it witnessed by a hero like Lord Raoul, and ten more of the King's Own, was far worse.

"I'd heard how well you two work together," Lord Raoul said as Kel and Peachblossom approached. He was a head taller than Kel, with curly black hair cropped short, black eyes, and a broad, ruddy face. "I'm not sure I could have nailed that target." Jump trotted over to offer the ring to the big knight. Raoul took it, tested its weight, and whistled. "Willow? I don't think I could nail it - the ring I use is oak."

Kel ducked her head. "We practice a great deal, that's all, my lord. Jump wants you to throw it for him."

With a flick of the wrist the knight tossed the ring, letting it sail down the road. Jump raced under it until he could leap and catch the prize. Holding his tail and single ear proudly erect, he ran back to Raoul and Kel.

"Practice is the difference between winning and being worm food," Raoul told Kel. "Do you have a moment? I need to discuss something with you."

"I'm at my lord's service." Kel stood at ease, Peachblossom's reins in her hand.

"I owe you an apology," the knight confessed. "I'd meant to see you right after the big exams, but we were called east - ogres sneaked over the border from Tusaine. We just got back. If you haven't accepted an offer from some other knight, would you like to be my squire?"

Kel blinked at him, unable to believe her ears. Over the last four years, when she hadn't dreamed of serving Lady Alanna, she had slipped in a daydream or two of being Lord Raoul's squire. It wasn't that far-fetched - the man had shown he had a kindness for her in the past - but when he didn't visit after the big examinations, her daydreams had turned to dust. It had never occurred to her that he might have been called away. Palace gossip, usually accurate about who was in residence and who was not, had crumpled under the flood of guests for the congress.

Finally she blurted out, "But you never take a squire!"

Jump barked: Lord Raoul still held the willow ring. He flipped it into the air, straight up. Jump gave him a look, as if to say, Very funny, and waited until the ring was six feet from the ground before he leaped to catch it.

"Oh, all right." Raoul sent the circle skimming across the training yard. Jump raced after it gleefully. To Kel Raoul said, "I had a squire once, about twenty years ago. Why don't we sit" - he pointed to a nearby bench - "and I'll explain."

Kel followed him over and sat when he did. He took the ring from a victorious Jump and sent it flying again.

"See, I haven't needed a squire since I joined the King's Own." The big man leaned back, stretching brawny legs out in front of him. He was dressed not in a courtier's s.h.i.+rt, tunic, hose, and soft leather shoes, but in a country n.o.ble's brown jerkin and breeches, a crimson s.h.i.+rt, and calf-high riding boots. He s.h.i.+fted so he could watch Kel's face as they talked. "We have servants with the Own, and a standard-bearer, so my having a squire wasn't an issue. But you know the Yamani princess and her ladies arrive next year."

Kel nodded. She felt very odd, as if she occupied another girl's body. Was he asking her out of pity? That would be almost as bad as service to a desk knight - though she'd still take the offer.

"Once they get here, Chaos will swallow us" the man went on. "Their majesties plan to take the court on a Grand Progress - do you know what that is?"

"Yes, sir," Kel replied. "Master Oakbridge, our etiquette teacher, talked about it all last year. It's to show Princess s.h.i.+nkokami to the realm, so people can see the heir's future wife."

Raoul nodded. "Which means a grand parade throughout the realm. Two mortal years of b.a.l.l.s, tournaments, banquets, and other nonsense. Oh, some useful things will get done - they mean to survey the roads and hold a census, paper-shuffling, mostly. I have no problem with that, since I don't have to do it. But fuss and feathers make my blood run cold."

Kel's lips quivered in the tiniest of smiles. The Knight Commander was infamous for dodging as many ceremonies as he could.

"Servants and our standard-bearer won't be enough when I have to deal with every jumped-up, self-important toady in the country." He thumped his knee with a fist the size of a small ham. "And I know nothing about the Yamanis. You lived six years at their court and speak the language."

Enlightenment struck Kel like fireworks. He wasn't taking her as a favor, or because he liked her, though that was nice. She would be useful to him as no one else could!

"I liked how you handled yourself when we hunted those spidrens, four years ago," Lord Raoul explained. "You knew when to speak up and when to be quiet. Wyldon and Myles of Olau say you don't lose your temper. After your fight with bandits three years ago, I know you can keep your head in a fix. You'll see plenty of combat with us. I'll warn you, it's more work than most squires get. Plenty of knights come here for the winter months, but the King's Own goes where it's needed, whatever the season. And we'll be in the thick of all the progress antics. If you want out - if someone else you'd prefer has asked..."

Kel smiled at him. "I'm not afraid of work, my lord," she replied. "I would be honored to be your squire."

"Good!" he said, grabbing her hand and giving it two firm shakes, beaming at her. "Come down to our stables. You can bring the charmer." He nodded at Peachblossom. "He's going to move there anyway, and I'd like you to have a look at a mare I think would suit you."

As Kel scrambled to her feet, Raoul slung an arm around her shoulders and led her out of the yard. Kel made sure to hold out the hand that held Peachblossom's rein, keeping the gelding on her far side, well out of reach of her new knight-master.

"See, with the Own, everyone has at least one spare horse," Raoul said. They walked down one of the roads that crisscrossed the acres behind the palace. They were in an area of stables: those for couriers, heralds, and officers in the army, those for visitors, and those that served the King's Own. "We live in the saddle. One horse isn't up to all that. Your Peachblossom is heavy - you'll need a horse with good wind and endurance to ride. You can keep Peachblossom for combat." He looked across Kel at the big gelding. "I asked Onua - horsemistress to the Queen's Riders - to help me find a mount who could get on with your charming horsie."

The "charming horsie" snorted, as if he understood. Kel gave his reins a tug, a silent order to behave.

"Here we are," Raoul said, taking his arm from Kel's shoulders. The insignia over the door on this stable was familiar: a silver blade and crown on a blue field, the emblem of the King's Own. Kel, Peachblossom, and Jump followed Raoul inside. The stable was big. There were three hundred men in the King's Own: younger sons of n.o.bles, wealthy merchants' sons, and Bazhir from the Southern Desert. Each was required to supply two horses when he joined, though the company replaced those killed on duty. Kel eyed the ones in the stalls as she walked past. These were some of the kingdom's finest mounts.

Once the Own had been a cozy a.s.signment for wealthy young men who liked to look good and meet ladies with dowries. Under Lord Raoul it became the Crown's weapon, enforcing the law and helping local n.o.bles deal with problems too large to handle alone. Since the arrival of the strange creatures called immortals seven years before, enforcing the law and handling problems required every warrior the Throne could supply. Not all giants, ogres, centaurs, winged horses, and unicorns were peaceful; other, stranger creatures saw humans only as meals. Even those who did coexist with humans had to find homes, make treaties, and swear to obey the realm's laws.

"Here we go," Raoul said, halting. The glossy brown mare in front of them was a solid animal, smaller than Peachblossom. She had broad shoulders and deep hindquarters, feathery white socks, and a white star on her forehead. Kel hitched Peachblossom out of harm's way, then approached the mare and offered a hand. The mare lowered her nose and blew softly on Kel's palm.

"Take a look at her," Raoul said. "Tell me what you think."