The Society - Hunter Healer Part 12

"Don't worry about me." He hissed in a breath, s.h.i.+fted his weight. The weightlessness of an elevator descending tugged at her stomach.

What if Sigma's out there? She didn't mean for him to hear the thought, but he did, and a flood of rea.s.surance tingled through her tired, battered head. G.o.d, even a normal person's open sewer of a mind was better than that blind, rotting touch, squirming like maggots inside her skull. Justin's clear, cold calm dispelled the fog of pain and made it easier to think. The walls between them had been shattered. She had the uncomfortable feeling that a mental door between them had been blown off its hinges and she might not be able to put it back on. And something else taunted her, something about what had just happened dancing just outside her mental reach.Then I'll get us out. Brew and Yosh can't stay forever. If they're gone we'll have to steal a car.

Have to stop and wash up, get the blood off. Chest hurts. Don't think about that. Think he got me with that d.a.m.n stiletto. Ouch.

Beating under his thoughts was a collage of aches and pains. The feeling of needles all over her skin was his, from the Zed withdrawal.

"Justin." She laid her head against his shoulder, wis.h.i.+ng it would stop hurting. Whatever the other man had done, she needed a few minutes to close her eyes and find the wellspring of calm inside herself. She felt filthy, as if the inside of her head had been dipped in slime. Her wrist hurt, a sharp pain under the fuzziness of approaching unconsciousness. "Glad you're h-here."

"Me too, angel." He eased a gun out of the holster, gathered himself to "blur" them. It hurt, but he discarded the pain. Rowan helped as much as she could, but she was exhausted. She doubted she could use any of her talent without pa.s.sing out. "Nowhere else I'd rather be."

The elevator slowed. "Please," Rowan whispered, not sure who or even what she was asking.

The doors opened, and Justin went still and cold beside her. But Rowan couldn't worry about it, because her tenuous grasp on consciousness failed and she pa.s.sed out.

Chapter Twenty.

It wasn't the lobby. It was a short hall with doors on either side and the double gla.s.s doors giving out onto the front parking lot. Brew and Yos.h.i.+ should be gone by now. Going to have to steal a car.

As if the thought had summoned them, he saw the black SUV glide to a stop, street lamp s.h.i.+ne sliding wetly off its paint.

I am going to court-martial both of them, he thought irritably, dragging Rowan along. Thankfully, she had pa.s.sed out. He wasn't sure if he could stand feeling the agonizing pain that beat inside her head. Or the sense of violation. Carson had d.a.m.n near raped her mind, almost smas.h.i.+ng in to take control of her, to break her the way he'd broken plenty of other psions. It was ironic in the extreme that if she hadn't been so G.o.dd.a.m.n gifted the blind man would have had a harder time with her. He wasn't so effective when it came to precogs or telekinetics, but other telepaths and empaths were critically vulnerable to the Tracker.

Hurt her. He hurt her. Rage rose, and he smothered it. He couldn't afford to get angry and lose his focus.

The back driver's side door opened smoothly. "Let's get the h.e.l.l out of here," he said, manhandling Rowan into the car. Yos.h.i.+ leaned over on the pa.s.senger side and helped as much as he could, pulling her to safety. Then Del was in beside her, sucking in a deep breath that hurt all the way down.

The stiletto. It hit deep. Hope it didn't scratch a lung. But I'd be having trouble breathing if it did.

Yos.h.i.+'s dark eyes met his as Brew pressed down on the gas pedal. Pavement began to slip under the car's broad tires. "You look awful." Yos.h.i.+ offered him a Handi Wipe. "What happened?"

"Carson." Del smoothed it over his face, wiping away blood. The scalp wound itched. "Got to Ro somehow. I put his G.o.dd.a.m.n psychopath down and hit the blind man with everything I had. Hope it was enough. G.o.ddammit, Brew, can't you go any faster?"

"If you want to be arrested, I can." Brew, used to postcombat jitters, didn't take offense. Yos.h.i.+, leaning over the front seat, watched Delgado. Then his dark, eloquent eyes s.h.i.+fted to Rowan, slumped against a pile of hurriedly-stacked gear. Her pale hair had come loose, glowing in the faint light.

It was the darkest part of early morning, the time when old men died. One old man died tonight, I hope. If he recovers from that push he'll ... No, he won't. I've killed him. I sank a knife in his throat. He can't have survived that. Please tell me I've killed the two men that nearly killed me the first time I escaped. Have I gotten better or have they gotten worse?

Hard to get worse than dead. Please let them be dead.

Yos.h.i.+ continued to study Rowan. Jealousy rose sharp and vicious, and Del took a deep breath.

"She is a very dear friend," Yos.h.i.+ said suddenly, very clearly. "But no more than a friend."

Oh, Christ. Del leaned over, finding the seat belt and strapping Rowan in. She wasn't physically hurt, but he wanted to check, to run his fingers over her to make sure.

"Not like it matters," he mumbled. His cheeks felt hot. Was he f.u.c.king blus.h.i.+ng? He hoped not. It was too dark to tell, thank G.o.d. You probably deserve her more than me anyway."It matters," Yos.h.i.+ persisted. "She's very attached to you, Del."

"Leave him alone, mate. He's had a hard night." Brew sounded amused. Almost as if he was suppressing a chuckle, his crisp British accent blurring a little under the weight of laughter.

Don't they realize we're possibly in the middle of a Sig net? Carson and what's-his-face weren't working alone, were they? Then again, Carson usually does work alone. He worked alone the first time he found me. And Ro didn't sense any Sigs. Then again, with Carson there, they might have been under dampers and he could technically keep a small team under wraps, he's talented enough ... Dammit, Del, keep your G.o.dd.a.m.n mind on business. Now's not the time to be debriefing, now's the time to clean yourself up and make sure you can fight again if you have to.

Get your team to capacity before unraveling the rest of it.

"Is there a medkit back here?" He swiped at his face again, cleaning off even more blood.

"You bet there is. Look under her elbow."

For some reason, Brew seemed to find this incredibly funny. At least he shook with mostly repressed mirth, though the car didn't waver on the road.

Del worked the medkit out from under Rowan's elbow. She was out cold. Now that he had a chance to breathe, his shoulder wrenched with pain. He probably had almost dislocated it. And the knife hadn't helped any. Neither had the shot to the face, and the little j.a.panese snot had probably cracked a rib.

Lucky it wasn't his spleen. His back hurt, too. The shot to his kidneys.

He suddenly realized he hadn't been thinking about Zed withdrawal for the last half-hour. Instead, he'd been concentrating solely on getting Rowan out of a dicey situation. He hadn't bothered to think about his own survival.

Yos.h.i.+ slid back into his seat and punched Brew lightly on the shoulder. It was a rare gesture of camaraderie. Brew said something too low to be heard over the soughing of tires on the road as he turned onto the main drag. Lights flashed red and blue in the distance. Police lights.

Brew obeyed the speed limit and took the freeway ramp. Del kept watch out the back window, his hand on Rowan's knee, rea.s.suring himself that she was still alive. He caught no breath of pursuit, but he kept checking. Finally, he let out the long breath he seemed to have been holding since realizing the stairwell was trapped.

Rowan made a small sleepy sound. Del glanced down at her, his heart finally beginning to slow down.

His lungs didn't hurt quite as much now. She wasn't very hurt, just had a nosebleed and a slight scratch on her scalp as well as a bruised wrist. He spread antiseptic over the cut and wiped the blood away, checked her again. Pulse strong, her breathing even. She was out cold. The best thing for her right now was rest. Her violated psyche needed a little oblivion to distance itself from Carson's filthy touch.

He managed to bandage himself and changed his s.h.i.+rt in the back seat, wincing and hoping his ribs weren't truly cracked.

Then again, hanging around her will heal me up in no time. He swallowed the sick, acid taste of fear. Just rest, angel. I'll take care of everything.

"How did they find us?" Brew shook his head. "What should we do? Henderson needs to know about this."

"G.o.dd.a.m.n Carson." Del coughed and considered spitting out the window. How did Carson get soG.o.dd.a.m.n close? "Think he triggered the cops on us to flush us out?"

"We were clean. You were clean when you came to the house." Yos.h.i.+ stared straight ahead out the winds.h.i.+eld. "I scanned you and every inch of gear you brought in. Maybe they caught some chatter or codestringing. d.a.m.n it."

Del was about to reply, but a horrible thought froze him. The Zed. The bag with the Zed. Maybe the last hypo had a tracker, or the bag itself. My G.o.d. I could have led Sigma straight to them.

He didn't know for sure, but it was a d.a.m.n good guess, and it felt right to his gut. "It doesn't matter," he said harshly. "We got out of there and Rowan's safe. We'll be cautious and go radio-silent for a while."

Brew accepted this with a nod. "Glad you're here, Del. I wouldn't want to take on Carson alone."

If the old man hadn't been so occupied with Rowan, I would have been dead in the water. She was vulnerable to him, but she put up a h.e.l.l of a good fight. Delgado s.h.i.+vered. Now was not the time to think about what could have happened.

"Glad I was here too," he mumbled, and settled back in the seat, watching Rowan's breathing. "Let's just hope I hurt them bad enough that they can't follow for a day or so."

Rowan stayed in a soupy, half-conscious daze for a good three days. They reached the new headquarters thirty-six hours after the attack and Del half-carried her into the main house. He had to admit, Henderson had outdone himself this time. The new base for the Society was a former Catholic school and seminary perched outside a pair of cities that glared at each other over a river and a state line.

They were close enough to the urban sprawl that the static of so many deadheads would camouflage them, yet far enough away and with considerable grounds attached to the old school to give them some privacy, plenty of escape routes and room for expansion. It was just about perfect, especially since the property was near an old defunct gravel pit. They had already started the excavations that would eventually make an underground complex too, but it would take a good five years or so before they had anything like the extensive transports and other advantages of the last Headquarters. Having the gravel pit next door would provide them with the perfect means to get construction equipment and get rid of the excavation debris. Concrete and crushed rock could be sold and a legitimate business used as a front.

He didn't see much of it for the first day and a half. After dumping Rowan on a bed in the room Henderson had shown him, he'd made sure their bags were in a pile, thrown a sleeping bag down on the floor in front of the door, and collapsed, leaving Brew and Yos.h.i.+ to make their reports without him.

Henderson wisely left him alone, maybe realizing Del was on the fine edge.

He slept deeply, waking only once to stumble to the bathroom as swords of summer sunlight poked through the gap between the navy curtains and lay along the blue-carpeted floor. When he came out, clumsy with weariness, he instinctively crawled into the bed next to Rowan, past caring about guarding the door or giving her s.p.a.ce. Fully clothed except for his boots, he pulled the sheet and blankets up, and curled around her. She was on her side, her back to him, and he immediately fell asleep again. It was dangerous to pa.s.s out so completely, but he didn't have a choice. There was a limit to even Sigma-trained endurance.

He returned to the land of the living slowly and piecemeal, surfacing with a feeling he hadn't had in a long time-safety and warmth. Rowan's head weighed down his left arm, and he was sweating in the almost-uncomfortable heat from sleeping in his clothes and under blankets.

Rowan stirred.She yawned and stretched, her head b.u.mping his chin. He moved automatically, easing his aching left arm from under her head. Then he tightened his right arm around her, pulling her back against him. He took a deep breath, waking up completely with the fuzzy feeling of having slept more than twelve hours.

She was awake. For a few moments she rested against him. Del kept his eyes tightly shut, breathing in the smell of her hair and feeling the electricity of her talent against his skin again. She was safe. Here in this room, in his arms, she was safe. The relief was indescribable. He kept breathing, waves of something he was almost afraid to call happiness swamping him every few moments. The feel of her tangled hair brus.h.i.+ng his skin was almost too sweet to be real.

Finally, she edged away from him and he reluctantly let her go. She pushed herself up, shaking her head, and slid free of the bed, then made her way on unsteady feet to the bathroom. He opened one eye just enough to watch her, and saw she was moving all right. Her long pale hair fell over her shoulders, tangled and beautiful. She shut the bathroom door, and Del stretched, feeling his joints pop and his muscles twinge in various places. He felt better than he had any right to. Even his shoulder didn't hurt any more, and his ribs seemed to be fine. He curled cautiously up to sit on the bed, grateful when Zed withdrawal didn't immediately start pounding inside his head. It still lurked in his bones, a deep half-healed ache, but his skin p.r.i.c.kled like a bad sunburn instead of carnivorous ants. He seemed to be ... well, if not cured, then at least halfway there.

Sunlight still fell through the same crack in the navy curtains, and the feeling of dampers closed around him. He sensed other minds inside the building, familiar minds going about their business. The room, carpeted in sky-blue, housed a severe missionary style bed and a dresser in matching pale unfinished wood. The closet door was half open, showing a few dangling hangers and nothing else. It was bare and almost soulless except for their suitcases, duffels, and kitbags in a messy heap. His rig lay tangled by his side of the bed, and he pulled the knife out from under his pillow, sliding it back into its sheath.

When Rowan reemerged, she went straight for the pile of luggage on the floor and started digging until she extracted a toothbrush and toothpaste. She gave him a single inquiring glance, her eyes suddenly very green, their depths shadowed.

He tasted morning in his mouth and nodded. She dug out his toothbrush, too, and tossed it to him. He reached up to catch it, and found himself smiling. Actually smiling. It hadn't taken him very long to relearn that trick after all.

She smiled back, the expression lighting her eyes. His chest tightened. The feeling that jolted through him was the same deep emotion he'd felt from her before. Was it her or something else? He still couldn't figure it out, could not name something so huge it made his throat close and a hot weight p.r.i.c.kle behind his eyes.

"Good morning." Her voice was husky. She slowly straightened, pus.h.i.+ng her hair back with one hand.

His mouth went dry.

"Morning yourself. How do you feel?" You survived Carson. There aren't a lot of people that can say that. We were d.a.m.n lucky to get out of that room alive.

"Sore. Headache. Feel like I got hit with a train." Her smile widened. "But we must be at Headquarters. I knew we'd make it."

He shrugged, deciding that he did want to get out of bed. The carpet was warm under his sock feet. He wasn't unsteady, but he did walk gingerly, testing his legs for any sign of weakness. None seemed apparent. "Give me a couple minutes, can you?""Sure." She tossed him the toothpaste and bent back down, probably rummaging for a comb. He shut the bathroom door quietly, more out of habit than out of any real need to be silent. Alive. We're both alive, and she seems almost happy to have me around. First things first, though.

It was still a luxury to visit the bathroom by himself, especially one tiled in blue and white with a claw footed bathtub. No shower, but that was all right. It was a bathroom, and he was in it by himself. And Rowan was outside the door. The little things about being a free man, he supposed. He still felt grateful.

Ten minutes later they were brus.h.i.+ng their teeth together over the gleaming porcelain sink, a strangely domestic ch.o.r.e. It was unexpectedly intimate, especially since the entire time pa.s.sed in silence and their eyes met in the mirror more than once. She rinsed her mouth out twice, maybe getting rid of a sour taste that wasn't quite physical. Then she carried a comb back to the bed and sat down, sighing. He watched her pull her legs up and sit tailor-fas.h.i.+on, the slim paleness of her ankle catching his eye for a moment.

Even her ankles were pretty.

"I feel like I have a hangover." She began to work on the tangles in her hair, pulling with a little more force than Del would have. "My head hurts."

He settled himself next to her. Watched her profile. This familiarity was so sudden and delicate he didn't want to break it.

"I'm sorry," he offered. "I didn't know he would hit you that hard. I thought he'd concentrate on taking me out."

I thought he'd figure me the bigger threat. Why didn't he? Of course, I was busy with his bodyguard.

Did she wince ever so slightly, yanking at her hair? Maybe it was a particularly bad tangle. "It's my fault,"

she said finally. "All of it."

Say what? He was actually speechless.

She took a deep breath and met his eyes squarely. "If I wasn't such ... an anomaly, Sigma wouldn't want me. My father would still be alive, Hilary would still be alive, Headquarters would still be standing and all those people ... would still be alive. And Sigma would never have caught you. I'm sorry." Her mouth turned down at the corners, a bitter but beautiful expression that hurt like a knife between his ribs.

Del's hand blurred out and tore the comb out of her fingers. "Stop it. Stop it." His voice tore, deep and husky, in his chest. The comb bounced on the carpet, and she flinched. The small, fearful movement physically hurt him.

Great. Christ. Good one, Del. Now she's just as scared of you as everyone else. But the rage boiling in his veins, the utter injustice that she would feel responsible for the f.u.c.king jackals of Sigma, demanded he do something. He wanted to get up and pace, to throw something, to put his fist through the wall, and to find someone to fight.

Startled, Rowan stared at him. Her eyes were luminous, and full of tears. "Justin," she whispered, her lips shaping the name of a dead man.

A dead man she'd resurrected. It had been Delgado for as long as he could remember, until she'd showed up.

His hands shook. He reached out carefully, control clamped tight, and touched her cheek, cupped her chin in his hand. He felt calluses sc.r.a.pe against her soft skin.Be careful. Christ be careful. She deserves someone who can be gentle with her. Give her something, Del. Come on. Use that psychological pressure you're so good at and help her, G.o.ddammit!

"Being a psion isn't a crime, Ro." He had to clear his throat before he could force the words out through the fury constricting his windpipe. "You were born with a gift. You used it to help people. And Sigma came blazing in with guns as if you were some kind of criminal, because they think of you as a commodity. A thing. It's not your fault, Rowan, it's not. G.o.ddammit, you're the only good thing that's ever happened to me in my entire G.o.dd.a.m.n life. Don't do this to yourself."

Well, not the most eloquent speech in the world. Why can't I talk to her? He wanted to tell her so much more. Wanted to tell her that she was good, far better than he would ever be. Wanted to tell her that the only thing that had kept him sane in the h.e.l.l that was Sigma was the memory of the empty room she'd made in him. s.p.a.ce to breathe in, maybe, or just a part of what he felt for her that he couldn't bring himself to forget. He wanted to tell her what it felt like to see her and ache all the way to the bottom of his chest, a sharp pain that was somehow sweet because even if she could never love a damaged ex-Sigma killer, he would still hang around her, breathing in the same air she breathed, and that was enough.

He wanted to say he loved her, but he buried the thought almost as quickly as it rose.

One of her threatening tears spilled out and left a trail of dampness on her cheek. "You might be right,"

she whispered, her skin moving against his fingers. "But I still feel responsible."

"Don't," he whispered back. "Please." Then he was leaning forward, and he knew he was going to kiss her. He couldn't have stopped it any more than he could have stopped a bullet once the trigger was squeezed.

Their mouths met. She shook with silent weeping as he kissed her slowly, taking his time, his fingers sliding into the tangled silk of her hair. He was ready to push her back onto the bed and try to get through her clothes to find bare skin, so he could get closer and closer to her. But he settled for breathing her in, tasting her, and barely letting her breathe before he kissed her again. Slowly, slowly, the barriers between them melted, his mind sliding into hers, giving comfort, taking solace. When her mouth slid away from his, he kissed her cheek, her forehead, and the corner of her tear-wet eye, tasting salt. He printed another gentle kiss on her cheek before she leaned into him, pus.h.i.+ng him over. He ended up lying across the bed with Rowan in his arms, her head on his shoulder and his arms around her. He felt her heartbeat and cherished the small, uneven sigh as she sank even further into him, the borders of their minds blurring together.

"I missed you," she whispered. "G.o.d, I missed you."

"Henderson told me he had to tie you down to keep you from running off to rescue me." The grin felt so easy and natural he almost doubted he was smiling. "I'd have killed him."

"I wanted to. I couldn't leave them when they needed me so badly, but I wanted to. I wanted to." The black weight of guilt and grief pouring out of her eased slightly as he hugged her and dipped his chin to kiss her hair. "Every day I wondered if they'd killed you, or if they were torturing you, what they were doing to you. I could tell you weren't dead, but I wondered if I was fooling myself, or if..."

G.o.dd.a.m.n. If I'd known ... there was nothing I could have done. Nothing she could have done either. "Shhh. It's all right. You did what you should have." He stroked her shoulder, her hair. "Just exactly what you should have."

"I want them to pay," she whispered. "Sigma. I want them to pay for what they've done so that I can geton with my life."

Oh, Christ. But he didn't say anything. She needed a sounding board more than anything right now. The guilt had only intensified her determination, but it was still a raw, aching wound. She'd been putting herself through h.e.l.l, and she was probably so contained and professional n.o.body else had noticed. G.o.d knew they had enough to worry about with simple survival. It wasn't like when she'd first arrived and her numb misery had seeped all through Headquarters, making life difficult for everyone. Now she was fully trained, and adept at putting on a brave face.

And he'd been far away while she learned how to fool everyone, unable to help her.

Rowan s.h.i.+vered, a small movement he felt in his own body. He was catching far more of her mood and her private thoughts than she knew. The bond between them was deeper than he'd imagined or hoped.