Love Medicine Part 26

As he walked away he threw it over his shoulder, and it hit me smack between the eyes.

Now as you know, as I have told you, I am sometimes blessed with the talent to touch the sick and heal their individual problems without even knowing what they are. I have some powers which, now that I think of it, was likely come down from Old Man Pillager.

And then there is the newfound fact of insight I inherited from Lulu, as well as the familiar teachings of Grandma Kashpaw on visioning what comes to pa.s.s within a lump of tinfoil.

It was all these connecting threads of power, you see, that gave me the flash of vision when I was knocked in the skull by Ira's favorite brand.

No concrete s.h.i.+t barn prison's built that can hold a Chippewa, I thought.

And I realized instantly that was a direct, locally known quote of my father, Gerry Nanapush, famous politicking hero, dangerous armed criminal, judo expert, escape artist, charismatic member of the American Indian Movement, and smoker of many pipes of kinnikinnick in the most radical groups.

That was a Dad.

According to my vision, he would make a break for freedom soon.

So that is how I got to the Twin Cities. After I got off the Greyhound I just started following the Indians whenever I saw one, and eventually ended up where I belonged. Now I was sitting across from King.

Let's get one thing straight: I never had much use for King. He did me dirt. Yet we know there were reasons to visit him. For one thing, I just had to see him knowing what I knew. Maybe things would change now that we were formally brothers. The other thing was that King had done time with Gerry Nanapush. I didn't think King knew Gerry was my father, but I knew there was some connection, a strong connection." maybe strong enough to lead me onward in my quest. I had to get down to the bottom of my heritage.

now-&AMM King once threatened to slice me up with a bread knife. I didn't bold that against him, since it was done during one of his frequent leaves of sense, but what I did hold against him was the manner he always took toward me.

"You little orphant," he'd say when we were young. "Who said you get a pork chop for dinner? That's for the real children." Or he'd steal my chunk of Spam. It didn't matter what we were having, he'd steal mine for the sheer spite, "I'll thank you, hand over your Koolaid too," he'd say. "Only the real children get that."

And so forth, on and on. He did his best to make me feel like a beggar at the table of life. I was supposed to cat the real children's crumbs.

He lorded over me until I got about his size and really let fly once.

I'm not a regular strong guy, but push me too far and I might just go haywire. Punching and rolling, biting and kicking, I tore into him. He still beat me that time, but at least King learned I was no fun to tangle with. I wonder now why I never made sense of what happened after that. June ran out of the house and broke us up. And then, even though I was the one on the bottom, she beat my britches with uncommon vigor. I hadn't done King lasting harm. But I guess I had done her some.

King must have been ten years old when I punched his face.

Since that time we'd come on the verge of blows, but he never hara.s.sed me the way he used to do at the table, and I in turn stayed out of his path as much as possible.

Now you know, when it comes to life, I stayed innocent for many years. I stayed simple. But I could not afford to be this anymore. I was on the run. I looked over at him sitting across the table. He was still King who had hounded me with dim conceptions. But he had changed. His bones had sunk back in his flesh.

The booze was telling on him. Wear and tear of being mean had worn his temper so it balanced on a sliver. His eyes had a strange mocking glint.

how.-, "Have some pop, Sad Sack," he said, shoving "Just ing me a can.

kidding. Haw. Today I'm on the wagon, ain't that right?"

"I guess you better be," said Lynette. Her lip was puffed up.

She had a surly look about her. Maybe they were fighting or maybe it was the deranging effects of this apartment. I had never seen a place remotely so depressing; even the inside of the Rudolph at least had windows. This place was like a long dark closet. The narrow rooms was laid in a row. The air was smoky and thick. The walls was a most disturbing shade of mustard green. One side you could hear people trampling up and down the hall, while the other led out into a dim-lighted area. This was not outdoors, but a well with spooky gray light from the dirty skylight on the roof I should mention, however, there was a couple attempts at doing something to reclaim this twilight zone.

A corn plant In a flour bucket sagged like a drunk propped up a wall.

One chubby t cactus, a fist in a gla.s.s, threatened you to touch it.

There was the skin of a real live alligator nailed on the closet door.

In the next room, over the television set, they had one of them velvet rugs that depict bulldogs playing cards.

I had gone to check the next room out.

"This here's nice," I said to Little King. The boy was glaring at TV.

He didn't so much as look at me.

"Little King," I said. "Hey there, it's me."

"The don't call himself Little King anymore," Lynette said from the kitchen. "He thinks his name's Howard."

"Howard?"

The boy looked at me and nodded.

"He won't claim his dad no more," said King, standing in the doorway.

"He's too good."

Which was true enough. You could see how smart that Howard was. The boy's black eyes had fairly swallowed me up in their short glance. He was a skinny little kid, with pea kish hair the light brown color that Lynette's was when it had been natural.

The contrast between his light coloring and those deep black eyes was what made him so startling to look at. He turned back to the set.

His face light up for a moment, captured in the drama of old cartoon Coyote getting blown to bits for the fifty-millionth time by the Road Runner.

"Man that was decent," he said in a false little squeaky voice.

They showed the coyote all blasted and frayed.

I always thought, personally, the coyote deserved to roast that chipper bird on a spit.

"I feel sorry for old Wiley Coyote," I said.

The kid looked at me like I was a sad case.

"That don't matter," he said. "They still blow him up."

Or run him over with garbage trucks. That's what they did next.

When he was flat as a pancake someone rolled him in a tube and mailed him C. 0. D. to Tijuana.

It was just early evening, a typical Sunday night for the King Kasbpaw family. I decided to put them out for dinner at the very least. I'd get paid back for the pork chops and Koolaid King had screwed me out of as a child. I could see my presence was not exactly welcome to them, however. They seemed to have something weighty on their minds. They kept sighing and looking out their windows, which led down the air shaft. No one appreciated me asking Lynette whether I could help with dinner. She hadn't actually looked like she was going to fix any. She sat back at the kitchen table, flicked her little red lighter, and blasted a ball of smoke in the air.

"I'm on strike," she said. "Tonight I'm improving my mind."

Across the table, King closed his eyes and popped a 7-Up.

"She thinks that's funny," he said, "which it is."

She had a long blue sweater on and a blouse that looked. as if it was ripped whole from a shower curtain. There were magazines behind her in a cardboard box. She grabbed up a fistful of pages JAN.

how.-, and went in to sit by the television. Me and King tipped back the 7-Ups.

Pretty soon the boy came in and opened the refrigerator. He took out a carton of milk and put it on the cupboard. Then he got himself a bowl and spoon. He poured the bowl full of milk. Then he reached under the sink and took out a box of cereal.

"He does it all backwards," observed King. "First he should put the cereal in his bowl, then the milk."

Howard didn't say nothing. He carried the bowl and the box of cereal very carefully in to the television. It was like he was going to make a religious offering. He and his mother would be huddled to the box, sitting there like cold spooks. I almost laughed. I was so tired from the bus that my mind was running wild. I asked, "Do you ever think about that summer you came to stay with Grandma Kashpaw? When you were little?"

"Not too much."

I wondered what the h.e.l.l he did think about. And then I thought there was no harm in asking.

"Well what do you think about?" I asked.

You could have knocked me over with a straw at the way he started to answer that question. It was a big fat surprise, I'll tell you, to know that King Kashpaw could do much more than growl, whine, throw his weight around. I guess being on the wagon brought him out or something.

"Minnows," he said. "It's like I'm always stuck with the G.o.dd.a.m.n minnows. Every time I work my way up-say I'm next in line for the promotion-they shaft me. It's always something they got against me. I move on. Entry level. Stuck down at the bottom with the minnows."

He grit his teeth, picked the warm can up in his hand, then crushed it softly so it gurgled.

"I'm gonna rise," he said. "One day I'm gonna rise. They can't keep down the Indians. Right on brother, huh?"

"Yeah," I said.

I couldn't help it; the laugh behind my face was like a sneeze.

He'd called me brother.

"What's so funny?"

"Don't know."

"My G.o.d," he said. "You'd think the Indians that got up there would look out for their own! Once they start earning twenty-five, thirty grand they move off in a suburb and forget about their cousins. They look down on you. Hey. You ever heard of the food chain?"

"I'm hungry," I said.

"You been smoking dope? Dopehead. Listen. The big fish eats the little fish and the little fish eats the littler fish. The one with the biggest mouth eats any darrin old fish he wants."

I got up. They had another box of cereal under the counter.

Lucky Charms. I poured some milk in my bowl and then dumped the cereal in, like Howard.

"Yeah," said King, "go ahead and eat anything you want. Like I was telling you, I was in the Marines. You can't run from them b.a.s.t.a.r.ds, man. They'll get you every time. I was in Nam."

That was a fat lie, but I sat there and listened. The cereal was sweet, good, like candy, and the milk was filling. I lapped it up. I had a desperate hungry craving. I kept pouring it in and feeding my face fast as I could. He hardly noticed. He was off into his own mind.

"BINH," he popped his lips. "BINH, BINH."

That was the sound of incoming fire exploding next to his head.

"Apple, Apple?"

"What Banana?"

"Over here, Apple!"

That was what he and his buddy, who King said was a Kentucky Boy, used to call each other, in code.

"How come you didn't just use names?" I asked between gulps.

"What difference?"

"The enemy. " He glared at me. He was getting into the fantasy.

"They're a small people. " He put his hand out at Howard's height.

"Hard to see. " I sat back. My whole middle was comfortably soaked in milk.

"That's all right," he said, waving my imaginary pleading off.

"Some other time. I don't really like to talk about it."

"All right," I said. "I understand. Let's play cards."

Anything to get his mind off all that fun he had missed in Vietnam.

Anything not to think what might happen if the army caught up with me.

What they did with the Lipsha Morrissey type I didn't want to ask. I *just knew I didn't want to be a member of some fruit bowl in the jungle, not to mention of how they crazed your mind in training camp.

Not for me.

There was a pack of cards on the windowsill, that window looking down into the sad gray patch of s.p.a.ce. I thought perhaps they should have closed it off. That shaft went through all the way to the ground floor.

You could hear ghostly doors slamming, voices in the entryway.

It was supposed to be elegant once, but now the soft and threafful dusk of it gave me the creeps.

Poker?"

"Yeah," I said.

"Five-card stud.

"Deuces wild."