The Other Family Part 5

'Whose side are you on?' Dilly demanded.

'I just thought,' Amy said, 'I just suddenly thought-'

Tamsin got out of her chair and picked up the champagne bottle.

'He's got his mother,' Tamsin said.

She went round the circle, filling gla.s.ses.

'He's got his mother,' she said again firmly. 'And we've got ours.'

Chrissie smiled at her weakly.

'And now,' Tamsin said, 'I'm just going to call Robbie.'

Alone in her bedroom in Tynemouth, Margaret had the sensation of being so tired that she wondered if she was ill. It had, of course, been a long, long day, full of physical and emotional exertions of peculiarly demanding kinds, and she had had two double gins and two gla.s.ses of red wine in the course of the late afternoon and evening, but the thing that was exacerbating the fatigue, and making it agitating rather than obliterating, was trying to digest everything she had seen and done, to fit into her mind all those powerful jumbled images and impressions and believe, at the end, that she was back in the security of the familiar.

Dawson had been familiar, at least. He was not naturally affectionate or empathetic, but some instinct had urged him to sit in the hall and wait for her, and, when he heard her key in the lock past midnight, to pad down to the front door to welcome her and press himself inconveniently against her legs while she took off her coat. She had bent down, and heaved him up into her arms, and put her face into his rumbling, purring side for a few moments, and then she had put him down on the floor again, and he had gone to position himself, meaningfully, next to his empty dish.

'You'll have to wait for another day to dawn,' Margaret said to him. 'Just as I will.'

Her bedroom felt chilly and uninviting. She went through her rituals of closing and switching and turning down, and ran a bath with some of the rose oil too sweet, if the truth be told that Glenda had given her last Christmas. There was nothing much she could do about the kaleidoscope inside her head, except wait for it to stop swirling about in chaos and resolve itself into some kind of manageable order, but that was no reason to abandon the habits that had grown up round her, not because of lack of energy or enterprise, but because they suited her, and she functioned best within them.

A bath, an application of this and that to her face, a prolonged session with the immense variety of toothbrushes the fierce young hygienist at her dentist now insisted on, a vigorous hairbrush, a well-laundered white cotton nightdress with picot edging they all added up to something that, some days, Margaret looked forward to almost from the moment she woke in the morning. Tonight, they all seemed completely pointless, but they must be done. At the very least, they represented life when it was normal, the life that she had worked out, and worked on, to deliver her some value out of what was left on offer.

She sat down in her petticoat in front of her dressing-table mirror. She took out Scott's pearl earrings and unfastened Richie's pearl necklace, and laid them both in the Minton dish, where they had spent most of their nights for as long as she could remember. Then she took off the small garnet ring from her right hand it had belonged to Richie's mother, a gentle and affectionate woman who had been a great relief to Margaret after the abrasiveness of her childhood and put it in the dish beside the pearls.

She looked at her left hand. She still wore her wedding ring. When she and Richie were married, the fas.h.i.+on had been for wide, flat wedding rings, as if cut from a length of metal tubing, but neither of them had liked that. Instead, they'd gone into Newcastle and found a small, old-fas.h.i.+oned jeweller and bought a thin, gold, D-shaped band, which had been on Margaret's wedding finger for forty-five years.

Perhaps she should, now, take it off. Whatever her quick denial, Scott had been painfully accurate in supposing that a tiny hope of Richie's return had gone on glowing in her, a night light in a coal mine. She'd never had the smallest reason, the smallest sign, that a corresponding intention lingered in Richie except that he had never divorced her. He had talked about it, to start with, and there'd been lawyers' letters, and a.s.sessments of a.s.sets, but she, while never being uncooperative, had also never gone out of her way to move things along. And gradually, they had stopped moving. Richie acquired one new baby, then two, and she waited for what seemed to her the inevitable consequent request for a divorce so that he could marry these babies' mother. But it never came. A third baby arrived, and still it never came. Margaret realized, gradually and with little gleams of hope that she told herself were ridiculous but simultaneously had no wish to quell, that it probably never would.

But now was different. Today, with all its demands and complexities, had drawn a thick black line under twenty-three years of wondering and dreaming and hoping. Those three good-looking girls, that pretty, grieving, angry woman the sight of them had brought Margaret to her senses. It might have been a consolation to go on wearing her wedding ring. She might have persuaded herself that she was legally ent.i.tled still to wear her wedding ring. But the Richie she had seen go off in his coffin today had transferred himself from belonging to her to belonging to that family in London, and that had to be recognized. In Margaret's view, once something was acknowledged, it should be accepted, right away. It was over. She took hold of her wedding ring with her right hand, eased it with difficulty over the joints of her wedding finger, and dropped it, with finality, into the Minton dish.

CHAPTER FOUR.

Mark Leverton had followed his father into the family practice almost without thinking. His grandfather, Manny Leverton, had started his small solicitor's practice 'Wills and probate a speciality' in modest offices at the eastern end of West End Lane soon after the Second World War. In due course, a brother had joined him, and a nephew, and then his own son Francis, and the modest offices had spread down West End Lane to engulf a corner site on the Finchley Road, red brick with a handsome but sober white portal, and a business which now encompa.s.sed advice on civil partners.h.i.+p and inheritance-tax planning. Manny's photograph black-and-white, the subject dressed in a three-piece suit with a watch chain hung above the reception desk. There were twelve partners in the offices above, nine of them Levertons. Mark, who had idly, as a teenager, thought that he might do something creative in the media, found himself going from school to law college in a single seamless movement, propelled by his purposeful family, and was now in possession of an office of his own, sandwiched between two cousins, with a large modern desk adorned, among other things, with a photograph of a wife and two little sons, whom he was delighted to have but could not quite again recall having stirred himself much to acquire.

His father, Francis, had decided early on that Mark should specialize in that area of the law on which the firm had first concentrated: wills and probate. The boy might not be blazingly ambitious, but he was clever enough, and thorough, and his amiable manner would be invaluable in an area p.r.o.ne to intense disputatiousness among the clients. Mark would not mind detail, or shouting, or repet.i.tion. Mark would be good at reasoning and smoothing without identifying too much with any particular cause or person. Mark was the man, Francis considered, best able to deal with warring and divided families.

'Tell them,' Francis said to Mark when Mark joined Leverton's, 'tell them to a.s.sume nothing. That's the golden rule for inheritance, especially. a.s.sume nothing.'

He gave Mark a quotation from Andrew Carnegie, carefully written out in copperplate, which Mark had framed and hung on his office wall. It was headed 'The Carnegie Conjecture': 'The parent who leaves his son enormous wealth generally deadens the talents and energies of the son, and tempts him to lead a less useful and less worthy life than he otherwise would.'

Mark's father Francis believed in Andrew Carnegie.

'Establis.h.i.+ng yourself is difficult,' he told Mark. 'It ought to be difficult. It won't satisfy you if it isn't difficult. You've got to call people who don't want to talk to you. You've got to get on with it when you've got a hangover and you're bored stiff. Work delivers more than money ever will you remember that when you're talking to people sc.r.a.pping over a few thousand quid.'

Mark did remember it. He remembered too a study on happiness he'd read which concluded that Masai herdsmen and people on the Fortune 400 list were about as happy as each other. He remembered it when Richie Rossiter whom his mother thought the world of came to see him out of the blue and was very clear about making a will that superseded any will that he, or he and Mrs Rossiter, had previously made. He did not think that Richie Rossiter was in the habit of precision about any area of life that didn't concern music, but on that occasion he had been both decided and well prepared. The will had been drawn up as he had requested, he had come into the office to sign it, and the doc.u.ment had then been filed, along with twenty years of Rossiter papers, against such time 'Shan't need this for decades, Mark' as Richie should die.

And now, only a year later, he was dead. Suddenly, unexpectedly, felled by a heart attack that rumour was saying was probably genetically accountable. Richie Rossiter was dead, the Rossiter files had been opened, and Mark Leverton had, in his diary for that Wednesday, an eleven o'clock appointment with Richie Rossiter's widow.

Tamsin said that she would go with her mother to see Mr Leverton.

Chrissie looked round the table. You couldn't really call it a breakfast table since there was no social coherence to it, and everybody was eating and drinking different things, some of them like the pizza crusts on Amy's plate not conventionally appropriate to breakfast.

Chrissie said, 'I hoped you'd all come.'

'To the solicitor's?' Amy said, as if an outing to a slaughterhouse was being suggested.

'Actually,' Dilly said, 'I'm a bit busy-'

Chrissie leaned forward.

'We should do this together. We should do all these things that concern Dad together.'

Dilly's mobile was lying on the table next to a banana skin. She gave it a little spin.

'Actually-'

'She's seeing Craig,' Amy announced to the table.

'Not till tonight,' Tamsin said.

Amy leaned forward too.

'But there's so much to do before tonight,' Amy said with exaggerated breathlessness. 'Isn't there, Dill? All the waxing and stuff. All the hair straightening. All the-'

Dilly picked up the banana skin and threw it at her sister.

'Shut up!'

Amy ducked.

'We don't say shut up in this house-'

The banana skin hit the wall and slid down to lodge limply in the radiator.

'Be quiet!' Chrissie said loudly.

They all looked at her.

'It won't take long,' Chrissie said. 'It's merely a formality. I know exactly what's in that will because Dad and I agreed it together. But it would be nice if we could all four go together to see Mr Leverton and hear him tell us, even if I know what he'll say.'

Amy squirmed.

'Why?'

'Because it's a kind of little ceremony,' Chrissie said. 'Because it's a formal ritual thing we do together for Dad.'

Dilly picked up her phone and peered closely at it.

'Sorry, Mum.'

'You're pathetic,' Tamsin said.

'I just can't,' Dilly said, her hair falling in curtains round her face and phone. 'I just can't do any more.'

'Usually you can't bear to be left out,' Chrissie said.

'Craig isn't usually,' Amy said.

Chrissie looked at her.

'What about you?'

'Sorry,' Amy said.

'It'll take half an hour-'

Amy put her hands flat on the table and pushed herself to her feet.

'Sorry,' she said again, 'but I don't want to think about wills. I don't want to think about money and stuff. It just seems kind of grotesque.'

'Grotesque?' Tamsin said.

Amy picked the banana skin off the radiator and dropped it on the table.

She said, 'Doesn't matter-'

'It does matter,' Chrissie said. 'What do you mean, that hearing what's in the will is grotesque?'

'Well,' Amy said, shuffling, 'sort of wrong, then.'

'Wrong?' Tamsin said, with the same emphasis.

'Yes,' Amy said, 'because it isn't just us. Is it?'

Chrissie put her head in her hands.

'What isn't just us?'

'Well,' Amy said, 'this will. It's for us. It's what Dad wanted for us. But well, he had a whole sort of life before us and what what about them?'

Tamsin threw her head back and stared at the ceiling.

'I do not believe this.'

'Amy,' Chrissie said, 'are you saying that that the people in Newcastle should be included too?'

Amy nodded.

'Sort of,' she said. 'Maybe not included but kind of, well, kind of remembered?' There was a short pause, then Amy said firmly, 'Anyway, she doesn't live in Newcastle, she lives in Tynemouth.'

'Amy,' Chrissie said again. She looked directly at her. 'Amy.

It doesn't matter where she lives, what matters is that she's out of the picture. All that was sorted long ago. A house, a sum of money, everything. It was a clean break, no coming back for more, no questioning of decisions made. It was conclusively agreed and it was absolutely fair. Do you hear me? Absolutely fair.'

Amy pulled out a long strand of hair and examined the ends.

'OK.'

'Do you understand me?'

'Yup.'

'And believe me?'

'Yup,' Amy said.

'Good.'

Chrissie got up briskly and crossed the kitchen to a.s.semble the components for making coffee. With her back to her daughters, she said, 'However, Amy, I'm not sure I want you to come now. You may say you believe me, but what you said just now, the implied accusation in what you said just now, has made me feel that I'd rather you didn't come with me to see Mr Leverton. You may all be thinking how much you've suffered in the last couple of weeks, but perhaps it wouldn't do you any harm to think about me, not just what I've been through, but what I've got to go through in the future, without Dad.' Her voice shook. She stopped, and spooned coffee, slightly unsteadily, into the cafetiere. 'If you can't support me wholeheartedly,' Chrissie said, 'I'd really rather go on my own.'

There was silence. It was broken after a few seconds by Dilly dropping her phone. Tamsin bent to pick it up, and tossed it at her sister.

She said to Chrissie's back, 'I'd like to come with you, Mum, please.'

Chrissie turned round. Dilly was looking at her phone and Amy was staring out of the window.

'Thank you, Tamsin,' Chrissie said with dignity. 'Thank you. Then it will just be you and me.'

Mark Leverton had arranged his office so that, when occasion demanded, he could sit beside his desk, rather than behind it, in order not to create too formal a distance between himself and those he was talking to. He seated Chrissie and Tamsin in padded upright chairs with wooden arms upholstered easy chairs did not seem suitable for discussion about, or after, death put the papers on one side of his desk, and then positioned himself on a chair next to them. He usually worked in his s.h.i.+rt sleeves, but he had put his jacket back on for the meeting, shooting his cuffs just enough to show off the silver Tiffany cufflinks that his wife had given him for their seventh wedding anniversary.

'Just to remind you,' she'd said, 'that an itch is not on your agenda.'

Chrissie hardly took him in, except to notice that he was neat and dark and vaguely familiar, and was wearing a wedding ring. She too was wearing a wedding ring, but with an unwelcome self-consciousness, which she was sure never needed to cross Mr Leverton's mind. There was nothing illegal in sitting in his office being called Mrs Rossiter and wearing a wedding ring, because she and Richie had agreed, and signed, everything together, and she wasn't doing anything furtive, or anything that Richie had not been party to; or anything that deprived someone of something they ought to have had, had she not been there. But sitting in that office, apparently composed and confident, in her well-cut trouser suit, with her well-cut hair tied back, and her expensive bag on the floor beside her well-shod feet, she felt, to her surprise and dismay, knocked almost sideways by an unexpected spurt of pure fury at Richie, for refusing to marry her and thus landing her in a situation where the unlovely choice was between pretence and potential humiliation.

Mark Leverton smiled at Tamsin. She was very pretty, with her mother's features and a smooth curtain of brown hair held off her face with a tortoisesh.e.l.l clip. He smiled at her, not so much because she was young and pretty but more because she looked so much less tense than her mother and not as if she'd rather be anywhere else in the world than sitting in his office.

'I am so sorry,' Mark said. 'So very sorry, about Mr Rossiter.'

His uncles, he knew, in the same situation, were still apt to say, 'May I offer my sincere condolences on your loss,' but that sounded ridiculous to Mark. It also sounded insincere, and Mark was sincere for the very simple reason that, now he had a family of his own as well as the one he had been born into, he could empathize often painfully well with what the bereaved people sitting in front of him were going through.