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The orchestra strikes up a waltz. "One dance?" says Anderson in her ear. "Or had I better be taking you home?"
It only takes her a second to decide. "'Hung for a sheep,' as they say," she replies. "I feel as if I haven't danced in years." Not since that farewell ball in Valetta, when Harry stayed till the end, for once, and she and Anderson had to avoid each other's miserable eyes all evening.
She shakes off the memory and lets her lover lead her onto the polished floor. There's no one here who knows them, she tells herself. The colonel's an un.o.btrusively graceful dancer; it's like riding a horse who needs no signals. As she lets him spin her round, the gas lamps whirl and blur behind his halo of blond curls. This is a strange outdoor ballroom; many women are dancing in their summer capes, men with their hats on and canes in their hot fists. Anderson pulls her close; her skirt sways like a huge b.u.t.terfly. She feels that at any moment their momentum may spin them up to orbit over the ma.s.sive elms and sighing poplars; to whirl and float higher than balloons, birds, clouds, into the s.h.i.+ny night air. He presses his silky whiskers against her cheek, and she's laughing, and he is too. "Perhaps I'll never go home," she cries.
Anderson jerks as if he's been shot in the back.
Helen pulls away too, to look at his face, and now they've lost their rhythm, they've broken the line, and she stumbles, her heel caught in some hard-faced shopgirl's lacy hem. "I do beg your pardon," Anderson is saying in all directions, but Helen makes blindly for the booth. By the time she finds the right table he's at her side, begging her to finish the dance. Instead she gathers her cape and bag with shaking hands.
Only when they're well away from the platform, past the lavender bower and geranium beds, does Helen say a word. "It was a joke."
"I know that," he insists.
"Then why did you flinch?"
"I did no such thing."
"Don't take me for some green girl." Helen shakes off his arm as they take a path through the trees. "I've not the least intention of running away from my husband." She watches Anderson's face for the least flicker of grief, finds none. "I don't intend to make any claim on your protection," she growls, "for all the pa.s.sion you've professed."
"Oh my darling," he groans.
"You needn't fear for the loss of your bachelor freedoms."
"Now that's too much." Anderson seizes her by the elbows, pinning her to the spot. It's dim here in the dark wood; the sounds of the pleasure gardens are hushed. "My only fear is for you, Helen, as you should know. It's because I treasure you that I've never once asked you to come away with me."
Helen looks away, licking her lips: tastes dye in the balm.
"Be sensible," says Anderson. "What could I offer you that could make up for such a ... catastrophe?"
He means the question rhetorically, but there's one obvious answer. She considers, for the first time, the image of Anderson as a husband. Would he still wear that lazy, boyish smile? Would there be anything left of the man who once wooed her with his eyes across a crowd?
"All you'd lose-and the disgrace of it, besides-"
"Now you're being cruel," she says, very low.
"This s.n.a.t.c.hed love is all we have," he says into her ear, "but by G.o.d, it's sweet. And to think that many die without a taste of it!"
All very stirring; Helen's mouth twists. She s.h.i.+vers. "It must be late. I ought to go home. What time is it?"
"Not very late," says Anderson. He tugs her by the hand, leads her step by step away from the path, into the darkest part of the wood where the aromatic trees grow close together.
She knows what he's up to. Men are so predictable: they can only think of one way to end a quarrel. "Take me home."
"I will, I promise. Just a little further, won't you, to show you've forgiven me?"
The cool part of her brain thinks, Never mind your offended feelings, Helen; this is the best chance you'll have in weeks. Never mind your offended feelings, Helen; this is the best chance you'll have in weeks. She's still frowning, but her feet follow him into the lush black vegetation, one step at a time. She's still frowning, but her feet follow him into the lush black vegetation, one step at a time.
Helen lets herself in with her key at ten past eleven. She steps quietly through the darkened hall. She won't rouse her maid, even; she can undress herself when she must.
There's a light burning on the landing. As she tiptoes past the girls' door it suddenly opens. She prepares to shush them back to bed, but it's her husband.
Helen produces a marionette's smile. "You're still dressed."
His face is haggard. "Didn't you get my telegram?"
"Of course," she says automatically. Whatever does he mean? It was she who sent one, from the Cremorne. Did Harry shoot off a reply to the house on Taviton Street? A civil Give my respects to the Faithfulls? Give my respects to the Faithfulls? Or a sullen Or a sullen Very well? Very well? But neither would have needed an answer, so why is he asking whether she received it? Helen's always been a good bluffer; when she can be bothered to play cards, she usually wins. "I know I'm late, but I thought it might offend the reverend and his wife if I dashed off before dessert." But neither would have needed an answer, so why is he asking whether she received it? Helen's always been a good bluffer; when she can be bothered to play cards, she usually wins. "I know I'm late, but I thought it might offend the reverend and his wife if I dashed off before dessert."
His lower lip has a raw patch, she notices now; it's dark with blood. "You're extraordinary. Not so much as a word in response, all these hours. Not a single word!"
Helen's stomach is a snake tightening round itself. "I'm awfully sorry-"
"She got worse after I sent for you," he tells her. "She was saying your name."
She looks away, so he won't read the shock in her eyes. She, She, which she? An accident? A sudden illness? And the worst of it is Helen must pretend she already knows all the facts. "Yes, the poor girl," she says hoa.r.s.ely. "Has Doctor Mendelkirk-" which she? An accident? A sudden illness? And the worst of it is Helen must pretend she already knows all the facts. "Yes, the poor girl," she says hoa.r.s.ely. "Has Doctor Mendelkirk-"
"He confirmed what I'd gathered from Household Management, Household Management, when Mrs. Nichols and I finally found where you'd stuck it, in the middle of the atlases." when Mrs. Nichols and I finally found where you'd stuck it, in the middle of the atlases."
Oh get on with it, you petty despot!
"It's a dangerous cold on her chest," he tells her. "She's been burning up. She's had a dose of salicine but it hasn't broken the fever yet. Nan was in a state too, she kept refusing to go to bed."
It's Nell, then. My baby. My baby. "I'll go in to her right away," says Helen. "I'll go in to her right away," says Helen.
But Harry puts out his long arm. "The doctor gave her something to make her sleep."
"Then I won't be disturbing her, will I?" asks Helen, pus.h.i.+ng past him.
In the girls' room, one of the little beds has been drawn close to the fire, and a screen arranged round it to enclose the steam puffing from a kettle. The air stinks of turpentine. A stranger's dozing in an easy chair; she must be a hired nurse. Helen sits on the very edge of the bed and watches her younger daughter's flushed face. The narrow chest under the lawn ruffles rises and falls regularly, but too fast, with a hoa.r.s.e creak. Helen wants to scoop Nell up in her arms, but fears to wake her. Is Harry still out there on the landing?
Surely he can't mean to catch her as she emerges, and continue the interrogation? Why doesn't he come in and stand beside her, put his hand on her shoulder, even, like an ordinary husband and father, with an ordinary heart?
She waits, counts Nell's breaths for a quarter of an hour. There, surely Harry will have gone back to his own room by now. He'll be lying down in his nights.h.i.+rt like some long marble effigy. Helen creeps to the door, puts her head out to scan the empty landing.
"Mama?"
She spins round, but Nell is still motionless. It's Nan who's sitting up, huge-eyed in her bed. Helen puts a finger to her lips and goes over to her elder daughter.
"You didn't come home."
All my accusers. "Mama had a social engagement," she says absurdly. "Mama had a social engagement," she says absurdly.
"Nell coughed and it was green," the girl confides.
Helen finds her eyes wet. "She'll be better in the morning."
"Will she?"
Helen has no idea. "Go to sleep now."
"May I kiss you goodnight?"
The request sounds oddly formal. "Of course, of course, my sweet girl." Helen leans down, offering one hot cheek. Let her not smell my guilt. Let her not smell my guilt.
Reasonable Suspicion (a suspicion that would convince an uninvolved, rational person when described to him) No man should look for a wife from among the tropics.
Anthony Trollope, He Knew He Was Right (1868) (1868) Harry takes off his tailcoat, his waistcoat, his cravat. It's some relief to detach his collar, with its two stiff, upward points, and turn his jaw from side to side. He removes his white s.h.i.+rt and vest. Empties his pockets in a neat pile on the dresser. There's his wife's telegram: Miss F has begged me to stay and dine with Rev & Mrs F. Miss F has begged me to stay and dine with Rev & Mrs F. Harry steps out of his long linen drawers. Like a beetle shedding its layers: that was one of Helen's quips, back in the days when they still shared a room. When they were still capable of quips. Harry steps out of his long linen drawers. Like a beetle shedding its layers: that was one of Helen's quips, back in the days when they still shared a room. When they were still capable of quips.
The reply he sent to Helen at Taviton Street was perfectly clear, wasn't it? No room for misinterpretation, even by an incompetent telegraphist: Nell gravely ill, come home at once. Nell gravely ill, come home at once. Most mothers, receiving such a message at a dinner party, would fall into hysterics, or at least ask for a cab to be called immediately. Only Helen could stay on for dessert, so as not to offend a rector and his wife! What can the Faithfulls have thought of such reptilian cold-bloodedness? Or perhaps, it occurs to Harry now, she didn't tell them what was in his telegram at all. He tries to picture her at the table, dithering between a candied walnut and a meringue. At the very least, she could have done him the courtesy of a reply to tell him she wasn't coming. But no, even that would have been too much trouble, too much of an interruption to the cataract of sparkling, self-dramatizing nonsense that pours from those lovely lips. Most mothers, receiving such a message at a dinner party, would fall into hysterics, or at least ask for a cab to be called immediately. Only Helen could stay on for dessert, so as not to offend a rector and his wife! What can the Faithfulls have thought of such reptilian cold-bloodedness? Or perhaps, it occurs to Harry now, she didn't tell them what was in his telegram at all. He tries to picture her at the table, dithering between a candied walnut and a meringue. At the very least, she could have done him the courtesy of a reply to tell him she wasn't coming. But no, even that would have been too much trouble, too much of an interruption to the cataract of sparkling, self-dramatizing nonsense that pours from those lovely lips.
He's been rather mystified that she's taken up with Fido Faithfull again at all. When Helen first brought the girl home, all those years ago, in '54, it seemed handy for the whole family that moody Mama had a steady friend to keep her company while Papa was at sea. Fido Faithfull had more capacity for conversation than ninety-nine girls out of a hundred; at Eccleston Square, she'd listen to Harry discourse on such subjects as national education or the balance of trade for half an hour at a time, and ask some very intelligent questions. (He suddenly remembers a joke cracked by a fellow officer who lived with his wife and her sister: the happiest marriages are made up of three parties. the happiest marriages are made up of three parties. ) But then Harry came back from the Crimea, and a tide seemed to have turned: Fido the peacemaker looked more like a partisan, and there were rumblings of outright war. That h.e.l.lishly hot summer of '57, when they'd all fallen ill one after another, and Helen had suddenly demanded a private separation-well, in all the chaos he'd no choice but to ask Fido to leave. Harry doesn't bear a grudge, though. He hasn't been surprised to learn that she's taken up reform, though he can only regret the extreme slant of her ) But then Harry came back from the Crimea, and a tide seemed to have turned: Fido the peacemaker looked more like a partisan, and there were rumblings of outright war. That h.e.l.lishly hot summer of '57, when they'd all fallen ill one after another, and Helen had suddenly demanded a private separation-well, in all the chaos he'd no choice but to ask Fido to leave. Harry doesn't bear a grudge, though. He hasn't been surprised to learn that she's taken up reform, though he can only regret the extreme slant of her woman-ism, woman-ism, as the papers call it. No, all that puzzles him, now, is what interest his b.u.t.terfly wife can hold for a woman of business such as Fido Faithfull has become. as the papers call it. No, all that puzzles him, now, is what interest his b.u.t.terfly wife can hold for a woman of business such as Fido Faithfull has become.
But ever since the Codringtons landed at Portsmouth, Harry's been wasting too much time fretting over his wife's unaccountable whims. It comes of having too little to do, he recognizes that. It'll be better when he's got into a regular way of studying, dropping into Somerset House for his pay and gossip, perhaps a bit of yachting with old friends...
Harry chews on a frayed wooden skewer; rubs on some homemade tooth powder: it's bitter with quinine. Nell, Nell. Nell, Nell. She was teasing him only this afternoon, before the fever hit; she told him he ought to go to the barber to have his beard trimmed. She was teasing him only this afternoon, before the fever hit; she told him he ought to go to the barber to have his beard trimmed.
Helen's in the girls' bedroom now. Doting Mama rushes to her baby's side, only three hours late. For all her peculiarities, Nan and Nell prefer her to him, Harry knows that, has always known it. It's only natural; children lack discernment. He'd like to open the door quietly, so as not to disturb Nell, take his wife by the shoulder, and pull her onto the landing. Shake her so hard her neat little jaw bounces like a doll's, and the pins spring from her gaudy hair.
Instead he pulls his long, starched nights.h.i.+rt over his head. He won't wear his nightcap, he's hot enough already.
This is a spare, masculine chamber, with nothing in it but a bed and dresser-both in the family for generations. A jug and basin where he stoops now to wash the last traces of medicated syrup from his fingers. (It didn't seem to bring Nell's chest the slightest relief.) He won't let Helen cram his room with whatnots and objets d'art; objets d'art; really, her taste is verging on vulgar these days. Harry keeps his bedchamber as s.h.i.+pshape as any of the cabins he occupied during his years at sea. When he was a young lieutenant on the really, her taste is verging on vulgar these days. Harry keeps his bedchamber as s.h.i.+pshape as any of the cabins he occupied during his years at sea. When he was a young lieutenant on the Briton, Briton, six inches too tall for his bunk-Harry Longshanks, his s.h.i.+pmates called him, or the Giant Cod-he had the brilliant idea of hammering together a foot box that intruded into the next cabin, under that officer's pillow. He thinks of it now, as he lets himself down on the edge of his custom-made, long mahogany bed. Those nights with his sore feet jammed into the cabin wall, the young Harry knew he was happy-wrote to his family every week to a.s.sure them of the fact-but didn't know that it was the happiest he'd ever be. six inches too tall for his bunk-Harry Longshanks, his s.h.i.+pmates called him, or the Giant Cod-he had the brilliant idea of hammering together a foot box that intruded into the next cabin, under that officer's pillow. He thinks of it now, as he lets himself down on the edge of his custom-made, long mahogany bed. Those nights with his sore feet jammed into the cabin wall, the young Harry knew he was happy-wrote to his family every week to a.s.sure them of the fact-but didn't know that it was the happiest he'd ever be.
He thinks of Nell's red cheeks, the terrible thumping sound when she coughs. But she's asleep now, and if she wakes the nurse will see to her, and if she gets worse...She won't get worse, he roars in the privacy of his head. he roars in the privacy of his head. She'll be on the mend by morning. She'll be on the mend by morning. Her const.i.tution is strong. Both his girls have the Codrington st.u.r.diness, and a certain resilience from the Smith side as well. Her const.i.tution is strong. Both his girls have the Codrington st.u.r.diness, and a certain resilience from the Smith side as well.
He doesn't mind having his own room; if anything, he rather prefers it. No capsized dresses litter the polished floorboards, not a cast-off stocking. Separate rooms is a point many marriages seem to reach, as far as Harry can gather from the hints other men drop. On the husband's side, familiarity breeds staleness; on the wife's, pa.s.sion often proves to have been a fleeting phenomenon of the early years. Harry reads broadly in the sciences, and some years ago he came across a persuasive theory that once a woman has completed her childbearing, her redundant carnal urges fade away.
He sleeps rather better on his own, besides. (On the rare occasions when needs present themselves, he deals with them privately, which he doesn't believe-for all the superst.i.tion on the matter-poses any real risk to his health.) All Harry would ask of his wife is a daily, pleasant companions.h.i.+p. A domestic haven; a warm hearth. But he may as well demand a bite of the moon.
Nell gravely ill, come home at once. He's staggered that Helen could simply have ignored his telegram. If it were he who was ill, that would be one thing, but Nell, her youngest, her lastborn ... Have the girls become p.a.w.ns for Helen to hurl against him? Then this is a grim new era. He's staggered that Helen could simply have ignored his telegram. If it were he who was ill, that would be one thing, but Nell, her youngest, her lastborn ... Have the girls become p.a.w.ns for Helen to hurl against him? Then this is a grim new era.
Harry puts his hand on the oil lamp, but doesn't extinguish it. His mind is too agitated; he won't be able to sleep. (This is how parents sometimes lose children, he thinks: between shutting their eyes in the night, and opening them again in the morning when the servant comes in with the news.) He lies down on his back and tries an old trick of listing his vessels. His very first, the Naiad, Naiad, a light frigate for hunting Corsairs during the Algerine war. Then the a light frigate for hunting Corsairs during the Algerine war. Then the Asia, Asia, under his father, Sir Edward, in the Mediterranean. The under his father, Sir Edward, in the Mediterranean. The Briton. Briton. The The Orestes, Orestes, nothing special as sloops went, but the first Harry commanded and dear to him for that. The nothing special as sloops went, but the first Harry commanded and dear to him for that. The Talbot, Talbot, one of an abominable cla.s.s of s.h.i.+ps known in the service as jacka.s.s-frigates: very low between decks, with an armament of obsolete popguns. "I should very much like to set fire to that beast of yours, Codrington," Sir Robert Stopford once told him. The one of an abominable cla.s.s of s.h.i.+ps known in the service as jacka.s.s-frigates: very low between decks, with an armament of obsolete popguns. "I should very much like to set fire to that beast of yours, Codrington," Sir Robert Stopford once told him. The St. Vincent, St. Vincent, as flag-captain to his father. Off to the Mediterranean again on the frigate as flag-captain to his father. Off to the Mediterranean again on the frigate Thetis, Thetis, a useful man-of-war. Leghorn. Florence. Helen. No, he won't think about her. a useful man-of-war. Leghorn. Florence. Helen. No, he won't think about her.
Has she gone back to her own room by now? She's not the kind of mother to sit up by a sickbed when there's a nurse paid to do it. Is she stretched out on her bed in careless sleep? No, he must shut her out of his mind or he'll never sleep. Next, the Royal George, Royal George, an old three-decker with an auxiliary screw to adapt her to steam. In '56, Harry was moved to the an old three-decker with an auxiliary screw to adapt her to steam. In '56, Harry was moved to the Algiers, Algiers, as commodore of a flotilla of gunboats-but then peace forced him home. Malta in '57: an important position, though on sh.o.r.e. Then back to England. as commodore of a flotilla of gunboats-but then peace forced him home. Malta in '57: an important position, though on sh.o.r.e. Then back to England.
What will his next s.h.i.+p be? If, that is, there'll be another.
This isn't helping.
Stretched out in bed as if on a rack, watching the flickering patterns the lamp makes on the ceiling, he listens out for any sound in the house. When he presses the repeater on his watch, it chimes a quarter to twelve.
Something's nibbling at the edge of his mind. He rears up again, and carries the lamp over to the dresser so he can reread Helen's telegram. Miss F has begged me to stay and dine with Rev & Mrs F. Miss F has begged me to stay and dine with Rev & Mrs F. The boy brought it just after seven, when dinner was already on the table at Eccleston Square. Nell, scarlet-cheeked, was pus.h.i.+ng her mutton round the plate; Harry, not realizing she had anything worse than a runny nose, snapped at her and made her cry. When he touched her forehead, it seemed to sizzle. Half an hour later he sent a corner boy off to the telegraph office with his own message: The boy brought it just after seven, when dinner was already on the table at Eccleston Square. Nell, scarlet-cheeked, was pus.h.i.+ng her mutton round the plate; Harry, not realizing she had anything worse than a runny nose, snapped at her and made her cry. When he touched her forehead, it seemed to sizzle. Half an hour later he sent a corner boy off to the telegraph office with his own message: Nell gravely ill, come home at once. Nell gravely ill, come home at once. The bad news must surely have reached Helen by eight, he calculates. If Fido only belatedly asked her to stay to dinner at about seven-very odd behaviour in a hostess, by the by-could the guests really have got through all their savoury courses and reached the dessert by eight? And, granting that for a moment, even if Helen felt some inexplicable appet.i.te for something sweet, while her child lay in the kind of fever that can snuff out a child's life in a night-what could have possessed her to sit there chit-chatting over coffee and cordials with the rector of Headley and his wife for a further three hours? The bad news must surely have reached Helen by eight, he calculates. If Fido only belatedly asked her to stay to dinner at about seven-very odd behaviour in a hostess, by the by-could the guests really have got through all their savoury courses and reached the dessert by eight? And, granting that for a moment, even if Helen felt some inexplicable appet.i.te for something sweet, while her child lay in the kind of fever that can snuff out a child's life in a night-what could have possessed her to sit there chit-chatting over coffee and cordials with the rector of Headley and his wife for a further three hours?
Harry turns out the lamp with a single twist of his thumb. He walks back to bed, but he can't lie down; his outrage will suffocate him. He sits bolt upright on the overstuffed edge of the mattress, staring out into the smoky darkness.
"Didn't you get my telegram?" That's what he'd asked her, a rhetorical question. "Of course," she said, in her musical voice. But all of a sudden he doesn't believe it. There's only one explanation that fits the facts. He has to admit this much: Helen loves her girls. She might sit cracking nuts while Harry was dying, but she wouldn't ignore a telegram about one of her daughters. So she never received it tonight-but she felt obliged to pretend she did. Because this evening she wasn't at Miss Emily Faithfull's, Number 10 Taviton Street. (Harry looked the address up in the directory earlier this evening, while the boy stood scratching one knee.) Harry's mind is buzzing. Facts slide together like bolts. Helen was somewhere else tonight, then. With someone else.
A vast revulsion, growing. His eyes, wide open to the darkness, burn as if scales are peeling away.
Over breakfast, the Codringtons eat almost nothing, and talk only of Nell. How she seemed yesterday, at the onset; the signs they should have noticed; the infections that have been going around; the effect of dirty London air. The doctor's been again, and administered various doses, and a.s.sured them that the fever should break today.
Harry finds it surprisingly easy to maintain a normal tone while cutting his toast into smaller and smaller triangles. It strikes him that he and Helen must sound, and look, and seem, like an ordinary couple. Marriage is a habit much like any other, he supposes. He thinks of that house in Bayswater he was telling the girls about the other day: the facade perfectly correct, the trains roaring by beneath.
It's not that he's never considered the possibility of Helen and other men. In Malta, she quickly adopted the Continental style for wives, and was never without some idle army officer or other tagging along. But the very openness of her actions meant that they didn't alarm Harry. She was bored, she preferred the company of other (younger, jollier) men to his; what was noteworthy in any of this? There were petty improprieties that pressed themselves on his notice only now and then, in the intervals of business; generally he chose to overlook them, sometimes he mentioned them mildly to Helen if they seemed liable to cause talk, and though she rolled her eyes she corrected her behaviour accordingly. Flirtatiousness, that's all he ever suspected. Games and poses: he knew that to react to them with any heat would be to fall into her trap.
Their discussion of Nell's health over the breakfast table has lapsed into silence. Helen stretches out her hand for the Telegraph. Telegraph.
Harry shakes his head. "You never read anything but the advertis.e.m.e.nts."
"They're by far the most interesting part," murmurs Helen, s.n.a.t.c.hing it up and opening it.
An automatic giggle from Nan, her mouth sticky with preserves.
Rage, like a swelling vein behind his eyes. Where was Helen last night? Who in the world was she with? She's only been back in London a matter of weeks; can that be long enough to form what they used in his youth to call a criminal connection? criminal connection?
"I can't be alone in my preference," says Helen, "as the first four pages are given over to advertis.e.m.e.nts. Listen to this, for instance," she goes on. "'The lady who travelled from Bedford to London by Midland train on the night of the fourth inst. is now in a position to meet the gentleman who shared the contents of his railway lunch basket.'"
"I don't know that this is the most suitable stuff for-for Nan," remarks Harry. He'd been going to say the girls, the girls, but Nell is still in bed, of course. Coming down the stairs, he heard her coughing like a wounded seal. but Nell is still in bed, of course. Coming down the stairs, he heard her coughing like a wounded seal.
"Why, Papa? What was in his basket?" Nan is big-eyed.
"It's no worse than 'Orrible Murders, in my humble opinion," says Helen, and goes on to the next. '"mary ann do come home. You labour under an illusion.' Or here, Nan, listen to this: even more pathetic, but it must be a code. 'The one-winged dove must die unless the crane will be a s.h.i.+eld against her enemies.'"
"What kind of code, Mama?"
"Murderers hatching their plots, perhaps?"
"Enough," barks Harry. "Do you want to give the girl nightmares again?" He holds out his hand for the paper, and watches it shake. Feminine evasions, equivocations, he's caught her out in those before, over the years. Never a barefaced lie. Never till last night: "Miss F has begged me to stay and dine with Rev & Mrs. F."
"Perhaps I do. Nightmares are said to clean out the brain, like purgatives," says Helen, meeting his eyes for half a second. Like the glancing of fencers' foils.
"What's a purgative?" Nan asks.
"Now now, you know not to pay Mama any attention when she's in one of her nonsensical moods," says Harry, folding up the Telegraph Telegraph so tightly the paper wrinkles. so tightly the paper wrinkles.
Upstairs, to check on Nell. She asked for water half an hour ago, he learns, but fell back asleep before the nurse came back with it. Her cheeks are cotton stained with strawberry.
Into his study, to begin a letter to his brother.
Dear William, Dear Will, I would to G.o.d you were in London. I find myself in a position of peculiar discomfort and could do with your sound I could do with your sympathetic yet objective counsel. Something seems to have Something has occurred which has given rise in me Something has occurred which has led me to >m a suspicion of my wife behaving in a way I suspect my wife.