Hegel's Confession Volume 1 Chapter 24

Chapter 24 Hate Comes out of Love Out of the corner of my eye, I saw Xiao Teng become very angry, while Chu Haoran just kept silent and allowed Ji Fengjun to say that it was not good for him to interrupt. I stood up and looked at Lin Hao, who stood by my side, and found that he was still staring at the screen. It seemed that he had entered another state completely. Just as I walked to the door of the interrogation room, it suddenly opened. Xiao Teng curled his lips and said to me, "You can't stand it. You'd better be mentally prepared." I smiled and let him go back to rest for a while. He was so busy the past few days that he literally didn't sleep for a long time. At this time, the case had basically come to an end, and only Ji Fengjun's confession was needed. Therefore, she would either talk or not—this was only a matter of time—and we had no need to rush. After I closed the door and turned around, I found that Ji Fengjun was now looking at me. Our eyes met and I found her eyes were crystal clear. To be honest, I liked her eyes very much, because they made people feel very comfortable.   "Your eyes are incredibly beautiful." I praised them from the bottom of my heart, and they truly were. Maybe because she had no idea that I would say something like that, but Ji Fengjun seemed a little lost. The smile on her face gradually disappeared after she came to her mind, and she said, "Thank you." "Lin Hao also wants to come in here, but it against the rules. So now, he is waiting for you outside. He hopes to wait until the end of your transcript," I casually said, and soon sat next to Chu Haoran. Xiao Teng, who was in next door to the interrogation room, couldn't help but mutter, "Why does Zhuxuan always easily find the entry point in an interrogation, but I can't?"   Lin Hao, who had been standing, suddenly sat down in the chair. It seemed that the strength of his whole body had run out, as he said, "Because she can see through Xiaojun's thoughts." The Xiaojun he referred to was Ji Fengjun. At this time, Ji Fengjun had subconsciously lowered her head, and it made her seem like a different person from her typical calm and self-confident nature. As I saw the change in her demeanor, I said slowly, "Actually, I know that you don't want to see him, so you there is no need for you to be in a rush. You can take your time telling us." Ji Fengjun looked up and there was some melancholy in her clear eyes. "Yes, I hate him." "Right. If I were you, I would hate him, too. You have wasted your wonderful youth on him, which has hurt your body and your heart as well. It would be better if he doesn't love you anymore. Nevertheless, he has betrayed your love for fame and fortune. He has crossed the line too far this time, and I especially hate men who rely on women to succeed." The whole matter made me so angry. I didn't mean to say this, but it was what I thought so deep in my heart.   "Then you should be able to understand me; I have not done anything wrong. The men have sweet love with their wives at home, and at the same time, they are happy to have lovers on the side. Don't you think these people deserve death?" When Ji Fengjun said this, her originally clear eyes suddenly filled with coldness. In fact, it was very contradictory, but they were so integrated into one like this. "If that is so, the first one to do so is Lin Hao. He is between you and the new lover. Why haven't you made him into a wax figure?" I changed the subject suddenly and let her face her heart directly. As I had expected, after hearing this, Ji Fengjun fell silent at once. She looked at me, and seemed to be lost for a long time. She did not say anything anymore. If you loved someone deeply, then you would hate them deeply, too. Hate came out of love. So, she couldn't bear to kill him after all, but she couldn't eliminate the hatred in the depths of her heart. In the end, she took revenge on other heartbreakers for that sin. She had regarded her behavior as a way to enforce justice on behalf of G.o.d.   In fact, Ji Fengjun was mental normally, and she did not suffer from any mental illness at all. She was only stimulated by Lin Hao's previous betrayal, and later he secretly helped her, which served two purposes for her. This made her feel painful, and she struggled a lot in her heart. This also led her to hate this kind of behavior, and she hoped that other men that had acted like this would pay the price. According to Ji Fengjun's confession, at first, she only had strong anger and nowhere to vent it. She once thought about killing Lin Hao, but she eventually couldn't bear it, which brought her more pain, and she had even lost hope in life. Until later. . . "What are you saying? The Dark Night Angel Forum?" It felt like my heart lost a beat when I heard Ji Fengjun say these words. Chu Haoran looked at me and he gestured me to calm down. Actually, I didn't know what was going on, either. But my subconscious had told me that things were very bad.   "Yes, you know about this forum, too? It's very interesting. I have learned a lot in it, including the procedure to make people into wax figures." Ji Fengjun was completely open-minded at this time, and she answered my questions in a cooperative manner. Chu Haoran, who always kept silent, finally spoke, but in a very low tone. "Clarify the process of you committing the crime," he said, "including everything about the Dark Night Angel Forum." Ji Fengjun looked at the camera without entirely meaning to. She knew clearly that Lin Hao was looking at her on the other side. Then she lowered her head and sighed, and then the confession and the crime process spilled from her lips. Breaking up with Lin Hao made her suffer a major blow and she once wanted to commit suicide to release her from the pain. Later, Lin Hao's life gradually improved and she was re-situated in the city center. He gave her enough money to make her life better. Although she was very resistant in her heart, she still didn't want to sever the relations.h.i.+p with Lin Hao, because she knew that he was still in love with her.   Being in this kind of relations.h.i.+p made her lose her wits, and she had already lost her job by this time and didn't know what else she could do during that time. She often missed sleep at night, and she could only sleep for hours around noon during the day when the sun was s.h.i.+ning. It was during that time that she accidentally discovered the Dark Night Angel Forum and liked it immediately. People on the forum always published their own personal experiences, and perhaps knowing the pain of others would let them keep the illusion that they were not the worst one. However, this should have been considered a pathological mentality, and it was unhealthy. After seeing the misfortunes of others, Ji Fengjun felt very sympathetic to them. It was not long before she posted an account about the story between Lin Hao and her. However, she had not expected that so many people would make suggestions for solutions in the comments, or that they would offer consolation for her.   This brought comfort and satisfaction to her painful and lonely heart, just as the people who had been abandoned by the world and then found a sense of belonging and existence. After that, she often landed at the forum at midnight and searched who had asked questions on it, and then she would help them find solutions. There was actually no contradiction between reality and the Internet. Nonetheless, Ji Fengjun was contradictory in her heart during that time. She wanted to escape her real life and did not want to face it. She needed to vent her hatred and anger, and she could only live well after that. After she had found that she had such a mentality, she was at a loss. After all, the reality was not virtual, so she left a message to the owner of the forum and asked for help. She had not expected the owner would really reply to her. He had responded to her with a photo and a sentence: "Things will only not betray us by becoming eternal." And the accompanying photo was a wax figure.   Ji Fengjun quickly knew the meaning of it and she felt extremely excited. She agreed with the words, that when things became eternal they would definitely not betray anyone anymore. After that, she underwent a drastic change, and this included dressing up as a model. It was a quite correct saying that a beauty was always very popular. The first victim, Wu Jun, did not have any precautions. On the same day, Ji Fengjun went to the hospital Wu Jun was in. She found that he had always stared at her in a s.e.xually suggestive manner, which was very abnormal. When she left, she asked for Wu Jun's business card and said that she would contact him again when she felt uncomfortable. After leaving, she had only tentatively investigated Wu Jun. She found that he had a family with a wife and children, but he still had lovers. So, she bought a few one-time use phone cards and invited Wu Jun out for dinner at The Other Sh.o.r.e restaurant.