The One I've Loved 23 The Change

I didn't know what to do , I wanted to talk to her yet I couldn't , I wanted to tell her how important she is in my life , I wanted to ask her if Veronica was the reason for her behavior towards me . She was the only person to whom I always shared my thoughts but now things weren't like before . I don't know if I should talk to her about this matter or should I ignore it and let the time decide . But don't want to loose her.

Two and a half months ago , I decided to write my feelings in a diary after coming from school , whenever I was depressed , I wanted to divert myself by writing few unforgettable moments in my life . I started to write from the day I met Austin because since the time I met him my life has changed .

Today , as I was going to my cla.s.s I was called by Justin , I turned back and saw him holding a basket ball . He came towards me and asked if something happened between me and Rachel .

I was to tears when he asked me about Rachel .He told me to follow him and I did, without asking him any question . He took me to basket ball court and made me sit on a bench and gave me his water bottle to drink .

I drank water and wiped my tears with my handkerchief . He didn't ask me anything he just stood in front of me and waited for me to calm down .

Go talk to her , he said .

I raised my head and looked at him and said , I am not understanding how to talk to her , I don't know how and when did things turned in this way , I'm not able to handle this situation , I said wiping my tears .

He sat beside me and said ," you have to tell her how you are feeling Jess , every person have their own point of view she might be right in her point of view and you in yours , if you don't want to loose her in your life because of few misunderstandings , you need to explain her so that she might understand your feelings . "

Do you think it'll work ?, I asked him .

Slap me if it won't work , he replied .

I'll go and talk to her today ,I said in a low tone .

As you wish ,I guess she is sitting at the bench , where you both always sit , he said playing with his ball .

I tilted my head and saw that she was sitting on the same bench and reading her novel .

I had a slight smile on my face , I looked at him . Before I could tell something he cut my words and told me to go and talk to her as soon as possible , he tried to divert me as if he knew what I was about to say .

He stood and started playing with his ball ignoring me , while I sat looking at him with a smile .

I stood and walked to a certain distance and turned back to look at him to ask him as I was always curious to know .

" What about you then ?" I asked him while he was still playing with the ball .

He didn't respond to my question. immediately , he shot the ball into the basket with one hand from a certain distance .

" When the time comes " he replied slightly moving corner of his lips upwards .

I can no more wait , I'll see you later , I said and left with a bright smile on my face .

As I was walking towards her , I thought of asking her directly but when I went to her I was not able to talk . I felt a lump in my throat .

She raised her head and looked at me and said , hey .

It is awkward , really awkward , I thought .

What are you reading ? , I asked her .

She showed me the book which she was reading .

I gave a nod .

We didn't talk for few minutes , I sat beside her holding a leaf in my hand while she continued reading her novel .

I miss you , I said holding back my tears .

She paused for few second and replied ,so do I .

We both looked at each other , both of us were trying to hold our tears back . Looking at her face I laughed due to which my tears rolled down to my cheeks .

Stop laughing , she said while slightly pinching me .

I wiped my tears and apologised her for the things I've done , I didn't explain anything to her .

No , you don't have to , even I was wrong. I shouldn't have ignored you , I should've talked instead , I'm sorry for that , I know I'm so stupid , she said wiping her tears .

Yes , you are stupid for not telling me anything and so am I , I should've asked you before dong anything instead of forcing you , I said holding her hands .

You never forced me , it's just that .....I don't know , all of a sudden I felt that things changed and I didn't like it and I started to behave like that ..... Aarrghhh !!!....I'm sorry, she said .

That's alright , it happens , now come give me a hug ,I said .

We both hugged and giggled and had a good time after many months .

We went to the cla.s.s together I was really happy that things were fine between us .

During lunch hour I told Veronica that I would sit with Rachel .

Just like before we went to take a stroll .On our way we met Justin .

Wow , so soon ? , he said .

I nodded with a wide smile .

What?, Rachel asked .

You should thank me Rach , I was the one who helped you both to solve your misunderstandings , Justin said proudly .

Think whatever you want , Rachel snorted .

Thankyou Justin , I said and kissed him on his cheeks .

My pleasure sister , he said brus.h.i.+ng my hair .

He took a step towards Rachel and faced his other side of his cheek towards her and placing his index finger on his cheek he said , it's your turn now .

You are so despicable , Rachel muttered.

What ? , am I so desirable ? , Justin said in a teasing tone .

Even though he heard what Rachel said in a low voice ,he pretended as if he heard it wrong.

I said you are so despicable , you idiot , get out if my way now , Rachel yelled at him and walked away.

Justin started to laugh looking at her reaction , even though she yelled at him , her face which turned red said something else . She was clearly blus.h.i.+ng and left that place as she didn't want him to see her in that embarra.s.sed state .

When will you stop teasing her , I said and kicked him .

Never , he replied with a wicked smile while placing his hand in his pockets and looking at Rachel who was walking hurriedly .

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When I was a kid I always thought that only Rachel liked Justin . But as I grew up I slowly realised that I was wrong when I started to notice Justin's glances at Rachel. She would've understood how much he liked her by the way he used to look at her ,but she never did .