Crashing Into You 295 I'm Not A Wife Material

"I haven't done with my shower yet, do you want to join me?" He murmured into her ears. 

When she heard that, Tan Ja Nin looked at him and was surprised to see that he was half-naked and the water was still dripping on his body. Her face blushed. 

"I-I'm not done... putting all my clothes...into the cabinet" her voice stammered because Lee Jin Ho has started planting kisses on her face. 

"You can do it tomorrow..." he said in a hoa.r.s.e voice and lifted Tan Ja Nin and carried her as he put her legs in between his waist and started to walk back into the shower room while he was carrying Tan Ja Nin and has started to pull up her top. He put her down into the bathroom sink table and help her pulled down her bottom clothes. 

Tan Ja Nin face felt hot after Lee Jin Ho has fully undress her. He also managed to pull off the tower covering her lower body. Thou Tan Ja Nin has seen his full body naked so many times, she was still as bashful like a virginal beauty whenever she looked at it. Her bashful state made Lee Jin Ho's lower body tightened and carried her again to bring under the shower head. He immediately turned the shower faucet on and the water from the shower head poured down onto their naked bodies.  He claimed her lips again and his hands has started roaming around her body. 

Tan Ja Nin could not understand that while the water was pouring down on her, her whole body seems to be on fire. How could it be possible? She looked at Lee Jin Ho and saw that his eyes were burning on desires too. 

"You said we're going to take a shower..."she softly said because she felt that she has lose her spine and she was drowning in a deep sea. She was trying to get all her senses back but Lee Jin Ho did not give her a moment to do so. He continued kissing her lips and her mind went to a total blank. She was completely taken by her own desire. 

"We will..." Lee Jin Ho took the body soap and started applying it into her body. He rubbed the soap into her neck down to her collar bones then to her bosoms. She closed her eyes when the soap when down to her stomach and down to...

"Oh hold on..." she said in a surprised voice. Was he really trying to cleanse that area?

"Let me just do it on my own" She said in a bashful state. 

"What's there to be shy of?!" Lee Jin Ho said in a teasing voice but he gave the soap to Tan Ja Nin. He understood that she was being still shy and he wouldn't want to scare her. 

"Turned your head around..." Tan Ja Nin ordered him.

"...."

"Please..."

Lee Jin Ho gently nodded. "Okay. Okay." He said. 

He waited for few minutes. "Are you done?" 

"Uhm... Tan Ja Nin said. 

He turned back around to her and pulled her hands. "Lather the soap into my body too." Lee Jin Ho. 

Tan Ja Nin hands became stiff. 

"Go on...I won't be shy..." Lee Jin Ho tease her again.  Tan Ja Nin has started lathering the soap into his arms then moved into his chest down to his torso and then when she was about to rub it in between his thigh. She froze. 

Lee Jin Ho looked at her and guide her hands. Tan Ja Nin moved her gaze away and closed her eyes. 

Lee Jin Ho lips curled up. 

What can he do into his bashful girlfriend? 

Tan Ja Nin immediately put the soap into his hands and walked towards to the bath tub and soak on it. She then realized that it was not a good idea to soak in the tub and then your boyfriend has joined in...

.....

Ho Min Lin has started to feel some wedding jitters. As days goes by, she started to feel nervous on her upcoming wedding. 

"Is it normal?" Ho Min Lin asked Song Dei Si a day before their trip to Ha Long Bay for her despedida de soltera party. 

"That you feel nervous on your upcoming wedding day?" Song Dei Si asked. 

"Uhmm. When you got married to Yan Mor Tee, did you feel it?" 

"Our marriage was too sudden and I don't have too much time to think about it. It was just an ordinary day when Yan Mor Tee popped up the question and gave me a ring and then brought me to the Civil Affairs Office. Before I knew it, I was already married to him..." She answered "Tell me, how exactly do you feel right now..." 

"I really don't know. I know that this is all I wanted to do and this is my dream but when I'm already there, why do I feel that I'm not ready yet..."Ho Min Lin said.

"What are you thinking?" 

"I have so many questions in my mind. What if I can't be the best wife to him? I don't even know how to cook a simple dish..."

Song Dei Si laughed. "So you are worried that because you can't cook a food for him, Tan Ji Nan will soon leave you?" 

Ho Min Lin softly nodded

"For sure, when Tan Ji Nan popped that magic question, he already knew the fact that you don't know how to cook..."

"I'm not a wife material..." 

"How could you say so? What's your definition of a wife material? Is it someone who can cook for her husband? Is it someone who will eagerly wait for her husband at the doorstep and gave him his home slippers after he came home from work?" Song Dei Si said. "Yes maybe that's the typical scenario taht we see in a drama as the perfect loving wife to her husband. But you weren't Tan Ji Nan to say that you are not a wife material..."

Ho Min Lin looked at Song Dei Si and was trying to reflect on her words. 

"Maybe he sees you posses a wife material because he can see his future with you. He is vying for that long term relations.h.i.+p with you without any expiration. There's a certain something that makes him feel like you would be the best wife for him and the mother of his future children. It's not always something about what you can do for him. It is more on what feels. It may be that connection between you too that made him believe that you are that certain wife-material to him..."

Ho Min Lin started to sob. "Why do you always have the best words to comfort me?" 

Song Dei Si chuckled "It it because we also have that connection that made you feel like I would be the best friend you could ever ask for in your lifetime." 

Ho Min Lin hugged her. "I'm so glad that you are my bestfriend... you always have those comforting words."

Song Dei Si hugged her back. 

Ho Min Lin stayed into her bestfriends embrace for awhile like a baby trying to feel comfort on her mother's arms. 

"I feel much better now..." Ho Min Lin said after she let go Song Dei Si into her embrace. 

"Good... so are you ready to say goodbye to your singlehood." 

"Uhm" Ho Min Lin said.

"Are you mentally prepared now to give yourself fully to Tan Ji Nan?" 

"Uhm.."

"Are you now ready to be her lawfully wedded wife?" 

"Uhm..."

"Are you ready to be called Mrs. Tan?"

"Yes!" 

"Great! So before you say goodbye to your single life. Let's enjoy it tomorrow and let's have some fun in Vietnam!" 

Ho Min Lin smiled "Okay!" She said with excitement on her voice. 

It maybe normal to be nervous because she will be moving to another phase on her life. From being a carefee single lady to becoming a wife to Tan Ji Nan. She might have wedding jitters but she was pretty sure that being Tan Ji Nan's wife will still be her one and only dream. 

She may encounter difficulties in terms of adjustment later on but she is willing to adapt all these changes. 

She may not quite familiar with household duties like preparing foods for him but she is willing to learn how to do it. 

It is quite normal to feel anxious because what she will be taking is a lifetime commitment. It is okay not to be okay because wedding is one of the top three major adjustment that she will ever have to make.

She may feel worried that she may not be the ideal wife on the eyes of many but what matter is that for Tan Ji Nan, she will and forever be the most suitable wife and life partner for him. 

She just need to breathe and take it all easy.