FOG [e-sports] Chapter 58

Chapter 58:

Having had a mutual exchange of feelings, even if they weren’t like others who’d pledge their undying love amidst the flowers under the moonlight, the least they could do was say a word or two to show their love. However, it seemed as though some sort of switch had been turned on for s.h.i.+ Luo’s tear glands and he simply couldn’t control it.

The more s.h.i.+ Luo forced himself not to remember, the less he could control it. He was only silently choking back sobs at first and then he buried his face against his wrists as he sobbed and sniffled. Afterwards, it was like his insides were hurting, hurting so much that he couldn’t stop from bending at the waist. s.h.i.+ Luo didn’t want to lose control like this, but at that moment when Yu Sui confessed, it was like he’d established a link to Yu Sui’s senses. At this moment, s.h.i.+ Luo felt all the feelings and pain Yu Sui had been suppressing in his heart for the past two years.

s.h.i.+ Luo felt that he was about to explode from how much his heart ached.

If possible, s.h.i.+ Luo would have rather that Yu Sui only started liking him just now.

Tears freely streaked down his face. s.h.i.+ Luo clenched his fists, his shoulders twitched and jerked as though he were having spasms.

“My G.o.d…” At first, Yu Sui simply thought that s.h.i.+ Luo felt moved. He’d cry a couple of tears and that’d be it. But this posture of s.h.i.+ Luo’s was strange. Yu Sui approached and stood to his side, putting his arm around s.h.i.+ Luo’s shoulder. He asked quietly, “What’s wrong? Don’t cry…why are you crying this much?”

s.h.i.+ Luo was so choked with emotions that he couldn’t say a word. He shook his head, still unable to stop his tears.

Yu Sui stroked s.h.i.+ Luo’s forehead, “What’s wrong? Are you not feeling well?”

s.h.i.+ Luo still shook his head. His body didn’t feel unwell but his heart was in so much pain. It was in so much pain that he wished he could go back to two years ago and confess to Yu Sui; tell him that he liked him and that he’d wait for him no matter how many years it’d take.

s.h.i.+ Luo slid down from the deck chair and crouched on the ground, not uttering a sound, trembling all over.

“I told you not dig into this.” Yu Sui bowed his head, feeling distressed, and placed a kiss on top of s.h.i.+ Luo’s head. He coaxed, voice hoa.r.s.e, “I know everything…”

Yu Sui whispered into s.h.i.+ Luo’s ear, “You feel distressed for me, I understand…”

When s.h.i.+ Luo heard this, tears fell even more fiercely.

He felt distressed, uncontrollably distressed, so distressed that he felt like dying.

Only the living room separated the small courtyard from the dining room where their teammates were.

At first, the two of them only spoke in low voices so as not to attract the others’ attention. But s.h.i.+ Luo cried too intensely and they’ve also been out for a while so it was impossible not have been noticed.

In the dining room, their teammates, who were happily eating crayfish, looked around and noticed that there were two missing. So, naturally, they went to look for them.

When Zhou Huo, Old Qiao, Chen Huo, and Puppy opened the door to look for the two in the yard, they were met with this scene.

The four of them were dumbfounded. Zhou Huo cautiously asked, “What…happened…here…?”

Everything happened so fast; s.h.i.+ Luo completely forgot that his teammates were still inside on the first floor of the base. s.h.i.+ Luo hardly ever shed tears in front of others, but at this moment, he was crying to the point of collapse. He buried his face in his arms; inwardly, he said, ‘just f*cking kill me already’.

Fortunately, the ever gentle Yu Sui, always tries to help s.h.i.+ Luo out of embarra.s.sing situations.

With one arm around s.h.i.+ Luo, Yu Sui looked at this startled group of four and said, “He’d finally reached the top 100 in the national server after so much hards.h.i.+ps. It hit him just now.”

s.h.i.+ Luo: “…”

s.h.i.+ Luo wiped away these tears he’d shed for finally reaching the top 100 and wanted to die even more.

Hearing this, Zhou Huo was suddenly struck by a bout of self-blame and stuttered out, “N-no, was it&#k2026; so difficult? I&#k2026; didn’t think of that.”

Old Qiao was overly shocked and blamed himself as well. “Although time was a bit tight to level up this month, I didn’t expect the pressure to be this heavy. Next&#k2026;next time, you guys tell us earlier, alright?”

Chen Huo looked confused. He tilted his head and took a closer look at s.h.i.+ Luo. He was left speechless, “…you were that moved?”

Chen Huo gulped and whispered to Puppy, “When I won the World Champions.h.i.+p, I never cried like that.”

Puppy glanced at Yu Sui and knew what was going on in an instant. Despite that, he couldn’t help hitting s.h.i.+ Luo when he’s down. “Oh, you know. He’s young, that’s normal.”

“Are young people…so emotional?” Chen Huo still found it hard to understand. “Who the f*ck would believe that? Last season’s no. 1 striker on the national server, crying his eyes out because he got into the top 100?”

Old Qiao, who was completely out of the loop, said sympathetically, “Can you say this season’s the same as last? Everyone’s under a lot of pressure.”

“Still! Not like this!” Chen Huo, who was equally out of the loop, couldn’t help but say, “If he’s crying like this now, what about when we fight against NSN in two days? Really, Evil, let’s agree right now. Regardless whether NSN wins or loses, we’re not allowed to cry, alright? Let alone me, your old club, NSN wouldn’t be able to stand it either.”

s.h.i.+ Luo clung tightly to Yu Sui’s T-s.h.i.+rt, eager to get a knife and chop up Chen Huo.

“It’s fine, it’s fine. Are you just gonna go on and on?” Yu Sui stopped himself from smiling. He sent Puppy a look. “Get going.”

Puppy was grinning from ear to ear as he pulled Chen Huo back in through the door. “Almost done. Although our team is the heartless sort, everyone has times when their emotions get the better of them, right? Going…”

Zhou Huo had mostly figured it out by now. Eyes lit up with joy, he hurriedly pushed the others back to the base. He was the last one in and when he turned to close the door, he couldn’t help but take a second probing look. He left a kindly reminder, “You’ve got a lot going on but no matter what, you should go to bed soon, alright? Don’t stay up too late.”

After being interrupted like this, he couldn’t find it in himself to cry anymore even if he suffered another emotional collapse. s.h.i.+ Luo wiped his face, sniffled and said, “…I’m fine.”

“You scared me to death.” Yu Sui smiled helplessly, “You suddenly…”

s.h.i.+ Luo calmed down and felt embarra.s.sed. He pulled up the hem of his T-s.h.i.+rt and wiped his face, and said vaguely, “I said I’m fine.”

s.h.i.+ Luo had cried so hard just now that even his forehead had turned red. Yu Sui’s hand was on the cool side and he reached out to put the back of his hand against s.h.i.+ Luo’s hot forehead. s.h.i.+ Luo hadn’t fully adapted to their current relations.h.i.+p yet and he involuntarily avoided the touch.

Yu Sui’s hand paused. “I’m not allowed to touch?”

s.h.i.+ Luo raised his eyes to look at Yu Sui. He pursed his lower lip, and moved forward closer to Yu Sui, putting his head against Yu Sui’s hand without a word.

s.h.i.+ Luo’s hard white, slightly rough hair rubbed against Yu Sui’s fingers. Yu Sui touched it lightly and asked to make certain, “So, are we together now?”

s.h.i.+ Luo was silent for a while, then let out an “en”.

Yu Sui breathed a sigh of relief. Finally.

Yu Sui turned his head and looked into living room. Their teammates were still there. It really wasn’t appropriate to take things a step further. Although the timing wasn’t right, there were a lot of things, Yu Sui wanted to do. Yu Sui thought for a bit and asked, “Do you want to make it public?”

They wouldn’t need to hide it from these people anymore if they make it public.

Yu Sui had come out to his family a long time ago and they were indifferent to it. s.h.i.+ Luo’s relations.h.i.+p with his family…was almost negligible. Even if someone from there would object, s.h.i.+ Luo would probably wouldn’t take it seriously.

s.h.i.+ Luo rubbed his head on Yu Sui’s hand, and after a while, shook his head. “Let’s not for now.”

Yu Sui’s eyebrows rose up.

“It hasn’t been long since the team was formed and we haven’t produced any real results yet. If we really make it public… Others would only pay attention to our team’s gossip.” s.h.i.+ Luo said dully, “If we lose someday, they’ll definitely say it’s because you were too busy doing gaoji too keep you head in the game.”

s.h.i.+ Luo raised his head and glanced at Yu Sui and grumbled quietly, “You’ve got enough haters already.”

Yu Sui laughed, “You think I’m afraid of this?”

“I’ll be annoyed.” s.h.i.+ Luo frowned, “It’s annoying when I see them shooting their idiot mouths off.”

Yu Sui gently riffled through s.h.i.+ Luo’s hair with his fingers, and said in a low voice, “You feel bad for me?”

s.h.i.+ Luo lowered his head and rubbed against Yu Sui’s hand before nodding.

Yu Sui couldn’t help casting another look at the people in the living room, grinding his teeth.

s.h.i.+ Luo feeling bad for him made him want to dote on him. Yu Sui really wanted to something.

But, he must respect the little boy’s opinion. s.h.i.+ Luo’s thinking wasn’t wrong.

Yu Sui has long stopped caring about what other people thought, but that wasn’t possible for s.h.i.+ Luo.

Yu Sui could accept people twisting his image but s.h.i.+ Luo couldn’t.

“Okay.” Except for not being able to do anything blatantly, making it public or not was all the same for Yu Sui. The only thing Yu Sui cared about was his relations.h.i.+p with s.h.i.+ Luo. “When you want to make it public, let me know.”

s.h.i.+ Luo gave an “en”.

The door to the base was pushed open a crack, Zhou Huo held his breath and craned his neck out. He whispered a reminder, “It’ll be two o’clock soon.”

s.h.i.+ Luo instantly leaned back half a foot and turned his head to avoid Zhou Huo.

“I got it.” Yu Sui stood up helplessly and reached out a hand to s.h.i.+ Luo. “Let’s go.”

s.h.i.+ Luo grabbed Yu Sui’s hand and got up. The two of them entered the base together.

s.h.i.+ Luo’s eyes were still red, and he didn’t want to be seen. So upon entering the base, he kept his head down adn hurried upstairs back to his own room.

Yu Sui fell a few steps behind. Watching s.h.i.+ Luo’s back, he corners of his lips ticked up slightly.

“It’s done?” Puppy was sitting on the living room sofa. He raised his eyebrows. “Hm?”

Yu Sui hushed him but still couldn’t help smiling.

Puppy curled his lips. He was a lot more perceptive than Chen Huo and Old Qiao. He had more or less guessed that the two of them had gotten together and furthermore, that they didn’t intend to make things public. Naturally, he wouldn’t say much, he merely said enviously, “A good old age, near the water platform, together from morning til night, what a d*mned thing.”

Old Qiao was packing up the takeaway boxes they’d left piled up on the table. Hearing this, he raised his head and asked in confusion, “What kind of one-man word game are you playing? If you’re not going to sleep yet, then help me clean up. Everyone just left after eating! When the cleaning up comes tomorrow she’ll make you clean these all up.”

When Puppy heard work, he slipped away at lightning speed, rus.h.i.+ng away at top speed.

On the second floor of the base, s.h.i.+ Luo spent a long time was.h.i.+ng his face with cold water. He looked up in the mirror and after a while, he couldn’t help but smile.

Were they really…really together?

s.h.i.+ Luo suddenly felt a little uncertain.

Just now, Yu Sui really did confess to him, right?

He even said he’d liked him since way back when he was still a wild anchor.

The person he liked, liked him back and what’s more he’d liked him way earlier. What kind of luck was this?

s.h.i.+ Luo wiped his face and lay on the bed. He calmed down. The more he thought about it, the more he felt uncertain but he could still clearly picture that scene just now. Looking back, there were so many clues to be found.

s.h.i.+ Luo murmured, “He likes me.”

When he thought of Yu Sui, he couldn’t help but think that this person liked him. When he thought about how Yu Sui had liked him for a long time, he couldn’t help but feel unhappy and when he felt unhappy, he got the urge to kill Ji Yanhan. s.h.i.+ Luo couldn’t help sighing over his own frightening sixth sense. When he first lay eyes on him, he already felt that this person was no good and he was right! That beast had truly had stood in his way lots of times.

s.h.i.+ Luo used his arm as a pillow and couldn’t help but blame Yu Sui.

When Yu Sui was gentle, he was really gentle, and when he was cruel, he was also really cruel.

Back then, he truly had left without divulging even a bit of what he felt.

s.h.i.+ Luo closed his eyes and started feeling unavoidably distressed.

s.h.i.+ Luo lay on the bed, tossing and turning. He’d received too much stimulation and he still couldn’t fall asleep after a short while. Like turning over a cake, he turned over and it was after hour before he started feeling sleepy. Half awake and half asleep, he felt a bit regretful.

On the first day of his confession, he hadn’t f*cking managed to seize any benefit!

He unexpectedly left the original packaging unopened and actually let the man whose first kiss he s.n.a.t.c.hed away just walk away like that…

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Translator’s note:

I will do a re-read of this to catch any errors when my brain isn’t turning to mush because of allergy meds. If you spot any errors let me know in the comments.