Mother of the Believers Part 15

"Don't just stand there, help me!" she barked.

"If Zubayr was here I'm sure he'd help," I said with a wink.

Asma gave me a withering look but I could see the flush of color on her face at the thought. She pulled her pants over her exposed b.u.t.tocks and clambered up the mountain with what little dignity she could preserve.

We finally made it to the ledge near the peak. A conical rock face soared twenty feet above us, and I watched as Asma scoured its base for the cave opening. She stopped, looking confused.

"I thought you knew where it was," I asked. Suddenly I wondered whether this was even the right mountain, and not one of the sister peaks that surrounded Thawr. The thought of climbing another five thousand feet in the dark was beyond daunting.

"I do," Asma replied unconvincingly. "It should be right down there."

Asma climbed down into a rocky crevice and stood before the entrance of what appeared to be a small cave, just large enough for a man to enter if he bent down and ducked.

But it was clearly not the right opening. The entrance was covered with a heavy spider web, and a small nest stood at its base. Two rock doves awakened by the sound of our approach flew off in terror.

There was no way that any man could be inside there. The web would have been torn by anyone climbing in and the nest overturned.

"That can't be right," I said.

Asma leaned forward, confused. She peered at the web...when a hand suddenly emerged from inside the cave and pushed it aside!

I don't know who screamed louder, my sister or I. The cries of shock echoed from the mountaintop and shook the very stones around us. Had the searchers from Quraysh been in the vicinity, we would have easily been discovered.

And then I watched in utter surprise as my father emerged from inside the cave, beaming.

"What took you girls so long?" he asked.

We stared at him as if he were a ghost in the night. And then we raced each other to his arms, still strong despite his age.

The Messenger of G.o.d emerged from the cave, his eyes on me, and I felt my face grow warm. I had rarely seen him since we had been betrothed, and I felt a new bashfulness in his presence.

Abu Bakr kissed me on the forehead and hugged Asma. And then he glanced down, his eyebrows rising at the sight of her sagging pantaloons.

"What's wrong with your clothes?" he asked, a little scandalized.

"Don't ask," she said through gritted teeth.

Asma handed my father the bundle of supplies, and his eyes went wide when he saw that part of it was tied together with a piece of her girdle.

There was a moment of silence. And then I was shocked to hear the Messenger laugh. He threw his head back, his mouth wide in amus.e.m.e.nt. The Prophet often smiled, but I had rarely seen him give in to humor so enthusiastically. His laugh was throaty and infectious and soon we were all giggling with him.

The Messenger finally regained his composure and then looked at both of us with twinkling eyes.

"Welcome, daughters of Abu Bakr," he said, as if inviting us inside a grand palace rather than a rocky hole in the earth. "On this momentous night, when Islam itself has been given a new life, you have been reborn. And as such, I shall give you all new names."

The Prophet turned to my father.

"G.o.d himself has chosen this name for you, Abu BakrAs-Siddiq- and it has been revealed in the Qur'an," he said warmly. "Henceforth, you will also be known as The Second in the Cave." and it has been revealed in the Qur'an," he said warmly. "Henceforth, you will also be known as The Second in the Cave."

I saw tears well into my father's eyes. In later years, he would tell me that his greatest honor was to have spent those days at the Messenger's side in the cave, such that even the Lord of the Worlds had recognized him as Muhammad's only companion when their lives were truly at stake.

The Messenger then turned to Asma and took the bundle that was tied by her girdle. I saw an amused smile playing on his lips.

"And you, Asma, shall be forever called She of Two Girdles," he said, and I saw my sister blush with shyness at the Prophet's attention.

I have always been cursed with impatience, and in those days I had the impetuousness of youth as well. I stamped my foot at being left out of the naming ceremony.

"And me?" I asked fearlessly, ignoring the pained look on my father's face.

The Messenger leaned down next to me and stroked my cheeks, which were red from exertion and cold.

"And you will be my Humayra Humayra-the Little Red-Faced One."

I heard Asma laugh and I gave her a stare that would have melted steel. The Messenger laughed again, and everyone joined in, including eventually myself.

When the laughter died, I finally asked a serious question that had been haunting me since that night at Aqaba.

"Are we really leaving our homes behind?"

The smile faded from the Messenger's face and I saw ineffable sadness take its place. He turned to look out past the summit into the valley of Mecca, the city's lights twinkling like stars thousands of feet below. In the moonlight, I thought I saw the sheen of tears on his cheeks.

My father put a gentle hand on my shoulder and turned me away, giving the Messenger a private moment of grief at the loss of the city he loved. A city that had rejected him and forced him into exile.

"We will have new homes soon, little one," Abu Bakr said to me rea.s.suringly. And then he raised his head and looked northeast, past the fires of Mecca, into a horizon that was covered in clouds, glittering turquoise with the first hint of dawn.

27.

I grimaced as the camel lurched forward. My legs were hurting from days of sitting on the beast's hard back, and my thighs were rubbed raw by the saddle. The journey that had begun ten days before, when my mother had left to follow Abu Bakr to Yathrib, had proven to be less of an adventure and more of a grueling ordeal, as we followed the ancient caravan path north. grimaced as the camel lurched forward. My legs were hurting from days of sitting on the beast's hard back, and my thighs were rubbed raw by the saddle. The journey that had begun ten days before, when my mother had left to follow Abu Bakr to Yathrib, had proven to be less of an adventure and more of a grueling ordeal, as we followed the ancient caravan path north.

My initial fascination with the sprawling sand dunes had turned to boredom as the monotony of the desert took its toll. The fresh, clean smell of the sand had been long overpowered by the musky odor of the beasts that carried us, and I thought with disgust that I would never be able to wash the pervasive smell of camel dung off my clothes.

Even the excitement and intrigue that had surrounded the Messenger's departure was denied us, as the Quraysh had made no effort to intimidate us or block our pa.s.sage to Yathrib. Now that the Muslims had settled into the oasis, it made no sense for them to antagonize Yathrib by threatening the women and children who went to join their loved ones. And so my mother, my sister, and I had left to join my father in exile, my cousin Talha serving as our guide and protector.

I grimaced as we crossed over yet another mountainous sand dune, only to see more of the same stretching out to the horizon. I had never realized how vast the ocean of the desert was, and I wondered if perhaps it never ended. If Yathrib was just a legend told to little children, like the lost cities of djinn that were said to rule the wastes of the Najd in the east.

"I hate this place," I said with an exaggerated sniffle. "How much further?"

"Patience, little one. Yathrib is just beyond those hills," Talha said with a smile.

I should have let it go, but my stomach was rumbling from a nasty case of the runs, putting me in a particularly crabby mood.

"You said that three hills back," I said resentfully. "And then seven hills before that."

Talha laughed. "I forgot that you have a memory like a hunting falcon," he said, and bowed his head to show that he accepted my reproach as well earned.

I managed a smile. Talha always knew how to put me in a better mood. He had always been like an elder sibling to me, and when my sister Asma used to tease me that we would marry one day, I was always appropriately mortified. He was like a brother to me. In the days before my betrothal to the Messenger, Asma would laugh and say that I might see Talha as a brother, but he definitely did not see me as a sister. I had never taken her seriously. Looking back at the terrible direction our lives were to take and the loyalty that Talha showed me even as I led him into a valley of darkness, I sometimes wonder whether my sister saw more than I wanted her to.

I gazed out across the horizon and tried to imagine a world beyond this vast nothingness. A world of majestic cities with towers and paved streets, gardens and fountains. A world where women dressed in flowing gowns and men rode magnificent stallions, carrying flowers to woo the beautiful maidens. It was a peaceful world, one where Muslims could walk down the street without fear of being molested, robbed, and beaten. The cold brutality of Mecca could not live up to the world of my imagination, and I did not know if our new home would be anything like that as well.

"Will we be safe there? Yathrib, I mean," I asked my cousin who rode beside me.

Talha shrugged.

"As safe as any can be in this changing world."

His words opened a strange thought in my heart. The question that I was too young to understand was the oldest question of the human race, perhaps first asked by our parents Adam and Eve when they were expelled from the Garden.

"Why do things have to change?"

A thoughtful look crossed Talha's thinly bearded face.

"I don't know, Aisha. But sometimes change is for the best."

I did not know if I believed that, and I could not tell if Talha believed it himself.

"I miss our home," I said simply.

Talha looked away sadly.

"I do, too. But we will build a new home in Yathrib."

"Will we have to stay there long?"

"Yes, in all likelihood," Talha said firmly. "But it is a beautiful city with abundant water and tall trees. You will get to play in the shade. And one day, your children will do the same."

I made a face.

"I'm never going to have children," I said provocatively, knowing full well that my parents were hoping that I would quickly give the Messenger a son once we were married.

Talha gave me a strange look, more intrigued than reproachful.

"Why would you say that?"

I shuddered, remembering the babies that I had a.s.sisted my mother in delivering. The screams of the women were terrifying, and the blood and gore of childbirth disgusted me.

"It's too painful. And children are a bother. How can you run free if you have little ones clinging to your skirts? I'm never going to have any children if I can help it," I said, speaking with childish impudence. I have often wondered whether G.o.d heard my words that day and decided to grant me my impulsive wish, which I would grow to regret as my years increased and my womb remained barren.

Talha smiled at me gently.

"Your husband might have something to say about that."

I knew that my engagement to the Messenger was widely suspected, but it was supposed to be secret for the time being, and I chose not to acknowledge what Talha obviously knew.

"Then I'm never going to get married," I said with a toss of my head, letting my crimson hair fly in the wind.

"I see," Talha said, playing along with my game. "And what will you do with yourself as a spinster?"

I spread my hands wide as I laid out a dream that even then I knew was impossible.

"I will travel the world. I want to fly like a bird and see every nation under the stars. The gardens of Syria. The rivers of Iraq. The streets of Persia, lined with gold and rubies. And maybe even go to China, where they say the sun is born."

When I looked at Talha, I saw his eyes glistening with a sadness that I did not understand. I could see Asma riding to my left, unsmiling, her eyes watching us carefully. I suddenly felt the nagging tug of guilt, as if I had done something wrong, but I could not understand why.

Talha saw Asma's stern glance and he blushed.

"I hope your wish comes true, little one," he said simply, and then rode ahead over a hill and vanished.

I wanted to ride after him, to ask what I had done wrong, when I heard Asma's voice cut like a dagger through the dead air.

"Stop it," she said with a hiss.

"Stop what?" I turned to look defiantly into her eyes.

"Stop torturing him. You are promised to the Messenger. Never forget that."

I was about to retort in anger, when I heard a shout. It was Talha, racing back toward us, pointing to the horizon excitedly.

We spurred our camels up the flowing expanse until we reached the summit of the dunes and could see what lay beyond.

My heart soared as I saw it for the first time. An emerald valley lovingly planted between a circle of volcanic hills, blackened by sun and lava, the majestic palm trees swaying in the wind as if waving to greet us.

There was the sheen of water that I had seen many times in the past few days, but for once it was not a mirage. The flowing wastes gave way to a paved road that wound past the yellow stone walls of a stern fortress, an imposing edifice I would later learn belonged to the Jews of Bani Qurayza.

A crowd of men and women, dressed in flowing white abaya abaya s, was moving down the road toward us, bearing baskets of dates and pitchers of cold water. Tears welled in my eyes when I saw the Messenger of G.o.d leading the welcoming party, my father at his right hand. s, was moving down the road toward us, bearing baskets of dates and pitchers of cold water. Tears welled in my eyes when I saw the Messenger of G.o.d leading the welcoming party, my father at his right hand.

After days of wandering through a h.e.l.lish wasteland that was home only to snakes and scorpions, we had emerged from the fire and found paradise. My heart filled with glee, I spurred my camel down the hill and raced toward Yathrib, my new home.

28 Yathrib-AD 622 The day my courses began was also the day that Yathrib received a new name-Madinat-un-Nabi, City of the Prophet, or Medina for short. Over the past several months, the Messenger had proven to be a just arbitrator and had settled the daily disputes between the tribesmen in a manner that left both parties feeling respected. His growing reputation as a man of honor had opened more and more people to his message of the Unity of G.o.d and the brotherhood of man, and the majority of the town had embraced Islam before that first winter. The Prophet had further earned the people's respect by living with modesty, in contrast with their chieftains like Abdallah ibn Ubayy, who always made a deliberate show of his wealth and power to keep the crowds awed and docile. City of the Prophet, or Medina for short. Over the past several months, the Messenger had proven to be a just arbitrator and had settled the daily disputes between the tribesmen in a manner that left both parties feeling respected. His growing reputation as a man of honor had opened more and more people to his message of the Unity of G.o.d and the brotherhood of man, and the majority of the town had embraced Islam before that first winter. The Prophet had further earned the people's respect by living with modesty, in contrast with their chieftains like Abdallah ibn Ubayy, who always made a deliberate show of his wealth and power to keep the crowds awed and docile.

When the Muslims decided to build a Masjid Masjid-a house of wors.h.i.+p-the Messenger joined in with the poorest of workers, regardless of their tribes or ancestry, and laid the foundation blocks with the sweat of his own hands. This rejection of cla.s.s differences and tribal affiliation moved the hearts of the citizens of Yathrib, who saw in Muhammad a chance to end the centuries of division that had led only to bloodshed and grief. And when the Masjid was finished, the Messenger declined the offers of his ardent followers to build a palace for himself, carving out only a one-room stone cottage in the courtyard of the Masjid, where he lived with the elderly Sawda, the only furnis.h.i.+ng a straw mat on the ground for sleep.

His personal example of austerity and humility had done more to spread Islam than a hundred preachers, and that day, when the city was renamed in his honor by a council of its citizens, it was clear to all that the Messenger was not just the arbitrator but for all intents and purposes the unquestioned leader of the oasis. I was too young to understand that Ibn Ubayy, lord of the Khazraj, and other rivals were not pleased with this course of events, but it would soon become evident even to those who had no understanding of politics.

In those early days, I lived with my father in a small hut that was nothing like the grand home we had abandoned in Mecca. But that palatial estate had long felt like a prison to me, and I was delighted to be able to run and play openly in our tiny yard without fear of being hara.s.sed by an angry Meccan who bore a grudge against my faith.

And so it was that the afternoon my life changed, I was chasing my new friend Leila through the tiny garden my mother had planted in our yard. Leila was the daughter of a widow whose inheritance the Messenger had restored after her father's relatives sought to deny her a claim to a well on the outskirts of the city. Without access to the well, which they rented out to trading caravans that pa.s.sed through the city, her mother would have had no source of income and would likely have been forced to turn to prost.i.tution, an exploitative (and prevalent) profession that the Messenger was working diligently to eliminate.

In the distance, I could hear the sweet, melodious voice of Bilal, the African slave my father had freed after he had been tortured by his master, Umayya, for renouncing the pagan G.o.ds. He was standing on the roof of the Masjid calling out the beautiful, haunting words of the Azan, Azan, the Muslim call to prayer: the Muslim call to prayer: