Most Wanted - Case Of The Mesmerizing Boss Part 13

He nodded. "That's it, exactly. I've been in gun battles more than once. Every time, I could taste the fear. But I never ran."

She smiled. "The adrenaline surge you get from danger is pow- erful," she remarked. "Once I was away from the drug people and running, I could have flown."

He scowled. "It's addictive," he said quietly. "That's why I'd never let you work as an operative. You'd have taken to the danger without hesitation. It would have put you at risk constantly."

"You're at risk constantly," she pointed out. Her eyes slid over his hard, lean face. "But you won't quit, either."

"I don't have anyone to leave behind," he said. His expression dared her to argue. "This isn't a married man's-or woman's- occupation, not the way we operate. The demands of the job can kill the best of relations.h.i.+ps. Jane hated my work when I was a ranger. I was never home."

Her eyes softened. "Dane, if you'd loved her, really loved her...

wouldn't you have been?"

His face went expressionless. He turned his wrist and glanced at his watch. "It's time." He put out his cigarette. She asked questions he didn't want to answer. "You know what to do."

"Yes."

He picked up his attache case, hesitating as he pa.s.sed her. His dark eyes caressed her face. "Don't take chances. If it goes down unexpectedly, scream, break a window, do anything to get my at- tention. I won't be out of earshot, no matter what."

"All right." She swallowed. Her mouth was dry, her palms sweaty. Her heartbeat was racing, but she couldn't let him see how frightened she was. It would only make things worse.

"You've got plenty of backup," he added. "It's going to be all right. After tonight, it will be over."

"They can make bail again...."

"Not in this case. If it's permitted, we'll make sure it's set high enough that they'll never raise it."

"It's still my word against theirs."

"After tonight it won't be," he promised. He touched her lips 101 with his forefinger. "Chin up, lover," he breathed. He bent his head and nipped her lower lip hard, making her mouth open so that he could take it hungrily. But before she could reach up to hold him, he was out the door.

She was alone. The office was suddenly cold and frightening. She paced nervously. Dane had had time to get to the parking lot, get to his car and put the attache case in the trunk. From there, he was going to light a cigarette and then start back toward the office. It would look as if he'd just stepped out for a minute, not as if he was deliberately leaving Tess alone-that would have been a dead give- away to anyone watching that it was a setup.

In those few minutes, a dark brown sedan had purred to a stop down the street and two men had emerged. From the shadows, they'd eased along the side of the building, keeping Dane in sight until he rounded the corner at the parking lot.

They'd seen their opportunity and they took it. Darting into the building and then into the elevator, they went up to the floor where the office was located. When the elevator stopped, they were already drawing their weapons. This time they were taking no chances. None at all.

What they didn't know was that Dane had seen them. Wasting no time, he'd darted around to the back of the building and the service elevator. There was a back way into his office. He had his .45 automatic out, c.o.c.ked, and in his hand when the main door to the office began to open. Tess had turned automatically to look when she heard the sound. The flash of the first man's gun burned into her consciousness, leaving her rigid, unable to move. She wasn't going to make it. She knew that no operative was going to have time to get to her before the shots. .h.i.t her. Remembering the pain she'd known before, she stared at the pistol with blank, terror-filled eyes. Dane, she thought in anguish. Her last conscious thought was of him.

"Duck!"

The voice commanded and she obeyed, falling to the floor even as the sound of automatic gunfire shattered the silence.

Dane hit the floor near her, rolling to escape the bullets with all his ex-policeman's skill. He had only one instant to aim and fire, 102.

but he was an expert shot. He had one clear shot at the first man with the small Uzi in his hands, and he took it. The drug dealer's gun discharged again and suddenly flew out of his hands seconds before he caught his shoulder and went down, crying out as the bullet hit him. The second man whirled and ran. Dane leaped to his feet with fluid grace, his face set in lines Tess had never seen, his eyes black fires in a stony countenance as he spun the wounded man onto his belly and searched him with quick, deft motions. He always carried handcuffs. He snapped them onto the man's wrists and left him, coming back to Tess, who was by now on her knees and shak- ing from the experience.

"The other man," she gasped.

He took her arm and pulled her to her feet. "Nick will have him by now."

"Get me a doctor, d.a.m.n you!" the downed man cried. "This is inhuman! I'm bleeding!"

"So was Tess when you shot her," he replied, adding a few adjectives that turned Tess's face ruddy.

"Are you all right?" she asked Dane, her hands unconsciously searching his arms for wounds. "He didn't hit you?"

A corner of his mouth tugged up. "I've spent most of my life dodging bullets," he reminded her. "I used to get paid for it. Are you all right?"

"I am now," she said, and leaned against him weakly, her cheek on his chest. She stared at the downed man, who was curled up, groaning. Blood stained his elegant jacket. The Uzi he'd brought with him was dangling from one of Dane's lean hands.

"Tess!"

Helen's voice echoed loudly as she leaped from the elevator with Nick right behind. "We heard shots..." She stopped, staring at the downed man briefly before she studied Dane and Tess. "Everybody okay?"

"We're fine. How about his cohort?" Dane asked, nodding to- ward the wounded man.

"I handed him over to Sergeant Graves's men," Nick said, re- holstering his automatic. He gave Helen a dark glare from eyes 103 almost as black as Dane's. "No thanks to my sister, Miss James Bond, here," he added. "She actually walked into the line of fire."

"I did not!" Helen raged. "You came out of nowhere! Why is it always my fault anytime something goes wrong?" she demanded.

"Don't you ever make mistakes, Mr. Perfect?"

"No," he said with a pleasant smile.

Dane had to stifle a grin at the expression on Helen's face. "Cut it out," he said. "Call an ambulance for our victim there," he in- structed, handing Helen the Uzi.

"Careful, don't get fingerprints on it," Nick said with deliberate sarcasm.

"I know how to hold a gun," she said smugly. "You taught me yourself! Are you okay?" she asked Tess.

"I'm fine, thanks," Tess said breathlessly.

"d.a.m.ned detectives," the downed man spat. "d.a.m.ned detec- tives!"

Dane lifted an eyebrow and drew Tess closer. "Come on," he said gently. "Let's get you out of here."

It was a long night. She had to give a statement, wait until it was typed and read back to her, then sign it. The wounded man was taken to the hospital under police guard. Later he'd be removed to the county jail pending trial. The other man was booked and jailed and his lawyer was telephoned.

No bail, Dane had promised. Tess breathed easily for the first time.

She slept without being coaxed, right past the alarm clock. When she woke, there was a note from Dane, telling her not to come to work that day, that she needed the rest.

Probably she did. And she needed the time to pack, she thought miserably. He hadn't said so, but then he'd barely spoken to her the night before. He'd been kind but impersonal, and he hadn't offered more than cursory comfort. He'd sent her to bed, insisting that she needed sleep more than conversation.

But what he really wanted was to see the last of her. She didn't need a crystal ball to understand that he wasn't going to let her into his life on any permanent basis. Probably, now that she was out of danger, he wasn't even going to want her in the office anymore. Her 104.

very presence would be a painful reminder of his vulnerability, of the night he'd given in to his need of her and let himself love her.

He did love her. That was the only certainty she had. But he was going to fight it, and he might win. That was the chance she was taking by complying with his wishes; by going away without ar- gument. She had to draw back and let him think it out for himself.

Only by giving him freedom of choice did she have any chance of convincing him that they could have a future together.

She packed her things and had them ready when he came home that evening. She was sitting on the sofa, dressed in neat gray slacks with a white bulky-knit sweater, her hair in a braid down her back, her coat next to her.

She looked up as he entered the apartment. He paused at the sight of her suitcases, scowling.

"I thought you'd prefer it like this," she said quietly. "No fuss.

No trouble." She stood up. "Can you drive me home, please?"

He drew in a slow breath. She was right. It was better this way.

But he'd expected to find her curled up on the sofa, as she'd been so many evenings, watching television. The stark reality of her de- parture hit him like a body blow.

"Come on," he said, his voice as stiff as his posture. "I'll do that before I get comfortable."

"Thank you."

She put on her coat and followed him out of the apartment. She didn't look back. It would have broken her heart.

"You don't have to worry about your a.s.sailants," he told her. "I have a.s.surances that they won't get out again. You'll have to testify.

Graves will notify you."

"So he said." She concentrated on the streetlights and didn't speak again. She was too choked up for that.

When they arrived at her apartment, it was cold. She turned up the thermostat while Dane unloaded her suitcases and brought them in. He stood there, elegant in a vested navy blue suit, his posture arrow-straight.

"Will you be okay?" he asked.

"Of course. I'm safe, now-right?" she added nervously. "They don't have friends who owe them favors, or anything?"

105 He shook his head. "Fortunately, these two are jump-ups-ren- egades who poached on another pusher's territory. n.o.body loves them enough to make you pay for their arrest."

"Thank G.o.d."

He studied her quietly, with faint sadness in his expression, in his eyes. "You don't have to come in tomorrow if you don't feel like it."

"I won't mind getting back to work." She wrapped her arms around herself and looked up. "If you won't mind letting me stay..."

"My G.o.d, that would be grat.i.tude, wouldn't it?" he asked harshly. "Turning you out on the streets when you took a bullet on my account!"

"It wasn't on your account. I saw something I shouldn't have. I never blamed you."

He drew in a rough breath. "Well, I do. I blame myself for a h.e.l.l of a lot of things."

"I'm a big girl now," she told him bravely. "I made my own choices, Dane."

"Did you?" he asked, his dark eyes narrowing as they searched hers. He watched her blush. "Maybe you think you had a choice.

I'm not sure you really did. I seduced you."

She smiled sadly and shook her head. "I'm afraid it was the other way around."

He lit a cigarette, his shoulders slumping a little as he smoked it, watching her quietly. "You'll get over this," he said, searching her sad eyes. "You don't think so, but you will. G.o.d knows, people can get over any kind of pain eventually."

"Jane hurt you badly, didn't she?" she asked. "I wouldn't, but you can't be sure of that, because you don't trust emotions. Do you really want to be alone for the rest of your life, Dane?"

"Yes," he said curtly. He averted his eyes so that she wouldn't see the lie in them. He wanted Tess, but getting out of her life was the kindest thing he could do for her. When she was happily married, with children, she'd forget him.

Tess didn't know how to answer the stark statement he'd just . She couldn't convince him. Words wouldn't be enough.

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body wasn't enough to tempt him to stay with her. She had nothing left, except the fact that she loved him, and he didn't believe that With one word, he'd robbed her of every convincing argument she had.

"Then there's nothing left to say."

"Nothing," he agreed. His eyes searched around the small apart- ment and then went back to her, lingering only for an instant. He turned then, and opened the door. "I'll see you in the morning."

"In the morning," she whispered, fighting tears.

His back stiffened as he heard her choked tone. He didn't look at her. It would have been fatal. "Take care of yourself."

"I'll do that. You, too." She hesitated. "Dane?"

"What?"

"Thank you for saving my life. If you hadn't been in the office, I wouldn't be here now."

His eyes closed. A wave of nausea washed over him. He couldn't think about that. He couldn't bear the pain of remembering how close she'd come to death, twice now. "Good night, Tess," he said tightly. He went out and closed the door, only then lifting his hot face to the cold night air, swallowing down the sick lump in his throat.

There was rain, and more rain. He walked back to the car, but he didn't get into it. He turned and leaned against it, his eyes on the lighted windows of Tess's apartment complex. He was always on the outside looking in, he thought bitterly, always standing in the cold rain and looking at warm windows. If he could have given Tess a child, he might have been inside even now, holding her, loving her. But he couldn't give her that, and he'd be cheating her if he gave in to his own feelings.

He finished his cigarette and threw it to the pavement, watching it fizzle out in the puddle of rain. He felt like that, as if a fire inside him had been coldly quenched. He turned and got into the car and drove away into the night.

When they were back at work again, Tess expected coldness from Dane. What she hadn't expected was total indifference. Dane treated her like he did the computer. He extracted information from her, 107 replaced it with other information, and left her sitting in the office without a backward glance when he went home. It was boss- employee now, all the way.

She went through the motions of working, but her heart wasn't in it. Dane didn't want her around. She knew he hated even the sight of her at her desk, but she couldn't make herself do what he really wanted her to. She couldn't resign.

"Want to go out and have a pizza with me?" Helen offered, grinning. "Now that I'm a heroine, with my name in the papers,"

she added, because the arrest had made headlines, "the pizza-parlor owner thinks I'm the berries. He gives me anything I want." She snapped her fingers. "Even double cheese and mushrooms and an- chovies."

"You'll start melting one day," Tess cautioned. "All that pizza will turn your poor insides into mozzarella and you'll ooze all over the floor."

"Not as long as I eat enough anchovies to keep me solvent." The older woman grinned. "Come on. Come home with me. You look dismal these days, all pale and worn. You need cheering up."