Cowley's Essays Part 10

MART. LIB. 2, EP. 90.

Wonder not, sir (you who instruct the town In the true wisdom of the sacred gown), That I make haste to live, and cannot hold Patiently out, till I grow rich and old.

Life for delays and doubts no time does give, None ever yet made haste enough to live.

Let him defer it, whose preposterous care Omits himself, and reaches to his heir, Who does his father's bounded stores despise, And whom his own, too, never can suffice: My humble thoughts no glittering roofs require, Or rooms that s.h.i.+ne with ought be constant fire.

We ill content the avarice of my sight With the fair gildings of reflected light: Pleasures abroad, the sport of Nature yields Her living fountains, and her smiling fields: And then at home, what pleasure is 't to see A little cleanly, cheerful family?

Which if a chaste wife crown, no less in her Than fortune, I the golden mean prefer.

Too n.o.ble, nor too wise, she should not be, No, nor too rich, too fair, too fond of me.

Thus let my life slide silently away, With sleep all night, and quiet all the day.

OF MYSELF.

It is a hard and nice subject for a man to write of himself; it grates his own heart to say anything of disparagement and the reader's ears to hear anything of praise for him. There is no danger from me of offending him in this kind; neither my mind, nor my body, nor my fortune allow me any materials for that vanity. It is sufficient for my own contentment that they have preserved me from being scandalous, or remarkable on the defective side. But besides that, I shall here speak of myself only in relation to the subject of these precedent discourses, and shall be likelier thereby to fall into the contempt than rise up to the estimation of most people. As far as my memory can return back into my past life, before I knew or was capable of guessing what the world, or glories, or business of it were, the natural affections of my soul gave me a secret bent of aversion from them, as some plants are said to turn away from others, by an antipathy imperceptible to themselves and inscrutable to man's understanding. Even when I was a very young boy at school, instead of running about on holidays and playing with my fellows, I was wont to steal from them and walk into the fields, either alone with a book, or with some one companion, if I could find any of the same temper. I was then, too, so much an enemy to all constraint, that my masters could never prevail on me, by any persuasions or encouragements, to learn without book the common rules of grammar, in which they dispensed with me alone, because they found I made a s.h.i.+ft to do the usual exercises out of my own reading and observation. That I was then of the same mind as I am now (which I confess I wonder at myself) may appear by the latter end of an ode which I made when I was but thirteen years old, and which was then printed with many other verses. The beginning of it is boyish, but of this part which I here set down, if a very little were corrected, I should hardly now be much ashamed.

IX.

This only grant me, that my means may lie Too low for envy, for contempt too high.

Some honour I would have, Not from great deeds, but good alone.

The unknown are better than ill known.

Rumour can ope the grave; Acquaintance I would have, but when it depends Not on the number, but the choice of friends.

X.

Books should, not business, entertain the light, And sleep, as undisturbed as death, the night.

My house a cottage, more Than palace, and should fitting be For all my use, no luxury.

My garden painted o'er With Nature's hand, not Art's; and pleasures yield, Horace might envy in his Sabine field.

XI.

Thus would I double my life's fading s.p.a.ce, For he that runs it well twice runs his race.

And in this true delight, These unbought sports, this happy state, I would not fear, nor wish my fate, But boldly say each night, To-morrow let my sun his beams display Or in clouds hide them--I have lived to-day.

You may see by it I was even then acquainted with the poets (for the conclusion is taken out of Horace), and perhaps it was the immature and immoderate love of them which stamped first, or rather engraved, these characters in me. They were like letters cut into the bark of a young tree, which with the tree still grow proportionably. But how this love came to be produced in me so early is a hard question.

I believe I can tell the particular little chance that filled my head first with such chimes of verse as have never since left ringing there. For I remember when I begun to read and to take some pleasure in it, there was wont to lie in my mother's parlour. (I know not by what accident, for she herself never in her life read any book but of devotion), but there was wont to lie Spenser's works; this I happened to fall upon, and was infinitely delighted with the stories of the knights, and giants, and monsters, and brave houses, which I found everywhere there (though my understanding had little to do with all this); and by degrees with the tinkling of the rhyme and dance of the numbers, so that I think I had read him all over before I was twelve years old, and was thus made a poet as immediately as a child is made an eunuch. With these affections of mind, and my heart wholly set upon letters, I went to the university, but was soon torn from thence by that violent public storm which would suffer nothing to stand where it did, but rooted up every plant, even from the princely cedars to me, the hyssop.

Yet I had as good fortune as could have befallen me in such a tempest; for I was cast by it into the family of one of the best persons, and into the court of one of the best princesses of the world. Now though I was here engaged in ways most contrary to the original design of my life, that is, into much company, and no small business, and into a daily sight of greatness, both militant and triumphant, for that was the state then of the English and French Courts; yet all this was so far from altering my opinion, that it only added the confirmation of reason to that which was before but natural inclination. I saw plainly all the paint of that kind of life, the nearer I came to it; and that beauty which I did not fall in love with when, for aught I knew, it was real, was not like to bewitch or entice me when I saw that it was adulterate. I met with several great persons, whom I liked very well, but could not perceive that any part of their greatness was to be liked or desired, no more than I would be glad or content to be in a storm, though I saw many s.h.i.+ps which rid safely and bravely in it. A storm would not agree with my stomach, if it did with my courage. Though I was in a crowd of as good company as could be found anywhere, though I was in business of great and honourable trust, though I ate at the best table, and enjoyed the best conveniences for present subsistence that ought to be desired by a man of my condition in banishment and public distresses, yet I could not abstain from renewing my old schoolboy's wish in a copy of verses to the same effect.

Well then; I now do plainly see, This busy world and I shall ne'er agree, etc.

And I never then proposed to myself another advantage from His Majesty's happy restoration, but the getting into some moderately convenient retreat in the country, which I thought in that case I might easily have compa.s.sed, as well as some others, with no greater probabilities or pretences have arrived to extraordinary fortunes.

But I had before written a shrewd prophecy against myself, and I think Apollo inspired me in the truth, though not in the elegance of it

"Thou, neither great at court nor in the war, Nor at th' exchange shalt be, nor at the wrangling bar; Content thyself with the small barren praise, Which neglected verse does raise, etc.

However, by the failing of the forces which I had expected, I did not quit the design which I had resolved on; I cast myself into it A corps perdu, without making capitulations or taking counsel of fortune. But G.o.d laughs at a man who says to his soul, "Take thy ease": I met presently not only with many little enc.u.mbrances and impediments, but with so much sickness (a new misfortune to me) as would have spoiled the happiness of an emperor as well as mine. Yet I do neither repent nor alter my course. Non ego perfidum dixi sacramentum. Nothing shall separate me from a mistress which I have loved so long, and have now at last married, though she neither has brought me a rich portion, nor lived yet so quietly with me as I hoped from her.

- Nec vos, dulcissima mundi Nomina, vos Musae, libertas, otia, libri, Hortique sylvesque anima remanente relinquam.

Nor by me e'er shall you, You of all names the sweetest, and the best, You Muses, books, and liberty, and rest; You gardens, fields, and woods forsaken be, As long as life itself forsakes not me.

But this is a very petty e.j.a.c.u.l.a.t.i.o.n. Because I have concluded all the other chapters with a copy of verses, I will maintain the humour to the last.

MARTIAL, LIB. 10, EP. 47.

Vitam quae faciunt beatiorem, etc.

Since, dearest friend, 'tis your desire to see A true receipt of happiness from me; These are the chief ingredients, if not all: Take an estate neither too great nor small, Which quantum sufficit the doctors call; Let this estate from parents' care descend: The getting it too much of life does spend.

Take such a ground, whose grat.i.tude may be A fair encouragement for industry.

Let constant fires the winter's fury tame, And let thy kitchens be a vestal flame.

Thee to the town let never suit at law, And rarely, very rarely, business draw.

Thy active mind in equal temper keep, In undisturbed peace, yet not in sleep.

Let exercise a vigorous health maintain, Without which all the composition's vain.

In the same weight prudence and innocence take Ana of each does the just mixture make.

But a few friends.h.i.+ps wear, and let them be By Nature and by Fortune fit for thee.

Instead of art and luxury in food, Let mirth and freedom make thy table good.

If any cares into thy daytime creep, At night, without wines, opium, let them sleep.

Let rest, which Nature does to darkness wed, And not l.u.s.t, recommend to thee thy bed, Be satisfied, and pleased with what thou art; Act cheerfully and well the allotted part.

Enjoy the present hour, be thankful for the past, And neither fear, nor wish the approaches of the last.

MARTIAL, LIB. 10. EP. 96.

Me, who have lived so long among the great, You wonder to hear talk of a retreat: And a retreat so distant, as may show No thoughts of a return when once I go.

Give me a country, how remote so e'er, Where happiness a moderate rate does bear, Where poverty itself in plenty flows And all the solid use of riches knows.

The ground about the house maintains it there, The house maintains the ground about it here.

Here even hunger's dear, and a full board Devours the vital substance of the lord.

The land itself does there the feast bestow, The land itself must here to market go.

Three or four suits one winter here does waste, One suit does there three or four winters last.

Here every frugal man must oft be cold, And little lukewarm fires are to you sold.

There fire's an element as cheap and free Almost as any of the other three.

Stay you then here, and live among the great, Attend their sports, and at their tables eat.

When all the bounties here of men you score: The Place's bounty there, shall give me more.

EPITAPHIUM VIVI AUCTOIRIS.