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The study-bell rang for the second time while she was speaking.
"I must go to my mistress now, sir," she said. "You heard her ringing for me."
"Go, then, and let me see you as you come back. I tell you I must and will speak to you. Everybody in this house tries to avoid me. It seems as if I was not to get a straight answer from any one of you. But I _will_ know all that is to be known about my lost wife. Do you hear, woman? I will know!"
"I will come back to you directly, sir," Barbara Simmons answered quietly.
The leaden calmness of this woman's manner irritated Edward Arundel beyond all power of expression. Before his cousin Olivia's gloomy coldness he had been flung back upon himself as before an iceberg; but every now and then some sudden glow of fiery emotion had shot up amid that frigid ma.s.s, lurid and blazing, and the iceberg had been transformed into an angry and pa.s.sionate woman, who might, in that moment of fierce emotion, betray the dark secrets of her soul. But _this_ woman's manner presented a pa.s.sive barrier, athwart which the young soldier was as powerless to penetrate as he would have been to walk through a block of solid stone.
Olivia was like some black and stony castle, whose barred windows bade defiance to the besieger, but behind whose narrow cas.e.m.e.nts transient flashes of light gleamed fitfully upon the watchers without, hinting at the mysteries that were hidden within the citadel.
Barbara Simmons resembled a blank stone wall, grimly confronting the eager traveller, and giving no indication whatever of the unknown country on the other side.
She came back almost immediately, after being only a few moments in Olivia's room,--certainly not long enough to consult with her mistress as to what she was to say or to leave unsaid,--and presented herself before Captain Arundel.
"If you have any questions to ask, sir, about Miss Marchmont--about your wife--I shall be happy to answer them," she said.
"I have a hundred questions to ask," exclaimed the young man; "but first answer me this one plainly and truthfully--Where do you think my wife has gone? What do you think has become of her?"
The woman was silent for a few moments, and then answered very gravely,--
"I would rather not say what I think, sir."
"Why not?"
"Because I might say that which would make you unhappy."
"Can anything be more miserable to me than the prevarication which I meet with on every side?" cried Edward Arundel. "If you or any one else will be straightforward with me--remembering that I come to this place like a man who has risen from the grave, depending wholly on the word of others for the knowledge of that which is more vital to me than anything upon this earth--that person will be the best friend I have found since I rose from my sick-bed to come hither. You can have had no motive--if you are not in Paul Marchmont's pay--for being cruel to my poor girl. Tell me the truth, then; speak, and speak fearlessly."
"I have no reason to fear, sir," answered Barbara Simmons, lifting her faded eyes to the young man's eager face, with a gaze that seemed to say, "I have done no wrong, and I do not shrink from justifying myself." "I have no reason to fear, sir; I was piously brought up, and have done my best always to do my duty in the state of life in which Providence has been pleased to place me. I have not had a particularly happy life, sir; for thirty years ago I lost all that made me happy, in them that loved me, and had a claim to love me. I have attached myself to my mistress; but it isn't for me to expect a lady like her would stoop to make me more to her or nearer to her than I have a right to be as a servant."
There was no accent of hypocrisy or cant in any one of these deliberately-spoken words. It seemed as if in this speech the woman had told the history of her life; a brief, unvarnished history of a barren life, out of which all love and sunlight had been early swept away, leaving behind a desolate blank, that was not destined to be filled up by any affection from the young mistress so long and patiently served.
"I am faithful to my mistress, sir," Barbara Simmons added, presently; "and I try my best to do my duty to her. I owe no duty to any one else."
"You owe a duty to humanity," answered Edward Arundel. "Woman, do you think duty is a thing to be measured by line and rule? Christ came to save the lost sheep of the children of Israel; but was He less pitiful to the Canaanitish woman when she carried her sorrows to His feet? You and your mistress have made hard precepts for yourselves, and have tried to live by them. You try to circ.u.mscribe the area of your Christian charity, and to do good within given limits. The traveller who fell among thieves would have died of his wounds, for any help he might have had from you, if he had lain beyond your radius. Have you yet to learn that Christianity is cosmopolitan, illimitable, inexhaustible, subject to no laws of time or s.p.a.ce? The duty you owe to your mistress is a duty that she buys and pays for--a matter of sordid barter, to be settled when you take your wages; the duty you owe to every miserable creature in your pathway is a sacred debt, to be accounted for to G.o.d."
As the young soldier spoke thus, carried away by his pa.s.sionate agitation, suddenly eloquent by reason of the intensity of his feeling, a change came over Barbara's face. There was no very palpable evidence of emotion in that stolid countenance; but across the wooden blankness of the woman's face flitted a transient shadow, which was like the shadow of fear.
"I tried to do my duty to Miss Marchmont as well as to my mistress,"
she said. "I waited on her faithfully while she was ill. I sat up with her six nights running; I didn't take my clothes off for a week. There are folks in the house who can tell you as much."
"G.o.d knows I am grateful to you, and will reward you for any pity you may have shown my poor darling," the young man answered, in a more subdued tone; "only, if you pity me, and wish to help me, speak out, and speak plainly. What do you think has become of my lost girl?"
"I cannot tell you, sir. As G.o.d looks down upon me and judges me, I declare to you that I know no more than you know. But I think----"
"You think what?"
"That you will never see Miss Marchmont again."
Edward Arundel started as violently as if, of all sentences, this was the last he had expected to hear p.r.o.nounced. His sanguine temperament, fresh in its vigorous and untainted youth, could not grasp the thought of despair. He could be mad with pa.s.sionate anger against the obstacles that separated him from his wife; but he could not believe those obstacles to be insurmountable. He could not doubt the power of his own devotion and courage to bring him back his lost love.
"Never--see her--again!"
He repeated these words as if they had belonged to a strange language, and he were trying to make out their meaning.
"You think," he gasped hoa.r.s.ely, after a long pause,--"you think--that--she is--dead?"
"I think that she went out of this house in a desperate state of mind.
She was seen--not by me, for I should have thought it my duty to stop her if I had seen her so--she was seen by one of the servants crying and sobbing awfully as she went away upon that last afternoon."
"And she was never seen again?"
"Never by me."
"And--you--you think she went out of this house with the intention of--of--destroying herself?"
The words died away in a hoa.r.s.e whisper, and it was by the motion of his white lips that Barbara Simmons perceived what the young man meant.
"I do, sir."
"Have you any--particular reason for thinking so?"
"No reason beyond what I have told you, sir."
Edward Arundel bent his head, and walked away to hide his blanched face. He tried instinctively to conceal this mental suffering, as he had sometimes hidden physical torture in an Indian hospital, prompted by the involuntary impulse of a brave man. But though the woman's words had come upon him like a thunderbolt, he had no belief in the opinion they expressed. No; his young spirit wrestled against and rejected the awful conclusion. Other people might think what they chose; but he knew better than they. His wife was _not_ dead. His life had been so smooth, so happy, so prosperous, so unclouded and successful, that it was scarcely strange he should be sceptical of calamity,--that his mind should be incapable of grasping the idea of a catastrophe so terrible as Mary's suicide.
"She was intrusted to me by her father," he thought. "She gave her faith to me before G.o.d's altar. She _cannot_ have perished body and soul; she _cannot_ have gone down to destruction for want of my arm outstretched to save her. G.o.d is too good to permit such misery."
The young soldier's piety was of the simplest and most unquestioning order, and involved an implicit belief that a right cause must always be ultimately victorious. With the same blind faith in which he had often muttered a hurried prayer before plunging in amidst the mad havoc of an Indian battle-field, confident that the justice of Heaven would never permit heathenish Affghans to triumph over Christian British gentlemen, he now believed that, in the darkest hour of Mary Marchmont's life, G.o.d's arm had held her back from the dread horror--the unatonable offence--of self-destruction.
"I thank you for having spoken frankly to me," he said to Barbara Simmons; "I believe that you have spoken in good faith. But I do not think my darling is for ever lost to me. I antic.i.p.ate trouble and anxiety, disappointment, defeat for a time,--for a long time, perhaps; but I _know_ that I shall find her in the end. The business of my life henceforth is to look for her."
Barbara's dull eyes held earnest watch upon the young man's countenance as he spoke. Anxiety and even fear were in that gaze, palpable to those who knew how to read the faint indications of the woman's stolid face.
CHAPTER X.
THE PARAGRAPH IN THE NEWSPAPER.
Mr. Morrison brought the gig and pony to the western porch while Captain Arundel was talking to his cousin's servant, and presently the invalid was being driven across the flat between the Towers and the high-road to Kemberling.
Mary's old favourite, Farmer Pollard's daughter, came out of a low rustic shop as the gig drew up before her husband's door. This good-natured, tender-hearted Hester, advanced to matronly dignity under the name of Mrs. Jobson, carried a baby in her arms, and wore a white dimity hood, that made a penthouse over her simple rosy face. But at the sight of Captain Arundel nearly all the rosy colour disappeared from the country-woman's plump cheeks, and she stared aghast at the unlooked-for visitor, almost ready to believe that, if anything so substantial as a pony and gig could belong to the spiritual world, it was the phantom only of the soldier that she looked upon.
"O sir!" she said; "O Captain Arundel, is it really you?"