I Don’t Want to Die in an Otome Game Chapter 9.3

I placed my hand on Alvin-sama’s arm and we walked towards the garden.

Now then, how do I refuse him?
As the two of us walked a path lined with blooming roses, I was thinking such things.
Right now, I don’t even see a hint of his perverted side but perhaps he changes when he gets into bed?
He definitely seems gentlemanly and kind at first, ne?
Though it would have been good if he could be a gentleman at all times……。
No, no! No matter how dreamy he is, I cannot allow myself to be carelessly swayed as this is what the opponent expects!

「What are you thinking about?」

Walking in silence, Alvin-sama peered into my face.
Uwa, as expected of an otome game capture target even if you looked up at him, he was still cool!
What should I do? My heart is going doki-doki¹.
Speaking of beauty, I only get to see Karl’s cold smile so I think that it can’t be helped that I go po~² at him because of his tender smile. Next time, I’ll try and go get a gentle smile out of Karl, though maybe training is necessary first.

So then, I absolutely couldn’t tell him what I had been thinking and because of the excessive doki-doki¹, I ended up blus.h.i.+ng from embarra.s.sment.

「S-sorry, I’m nervous.」

「Because you are a sheltered woman, so you are unaccustomed to this kind of thing, ne?」

「Eh?」

「There are no rumors about you at all. It is unusual for a young woman, in this day and age.」

Of course, I have no reputation. I mean, I haven’t even had any chance to earn any.
Every day I practice a lady’s education, plus there’s that relentless watchdog, Karl.
Even though other people’s love have become splendid like b.u.t.terflies… Come to think of it, haven’t my days been pa.s.sing colourlessly?!

「That had captivated my interest.」

「Ano (TN: Uhm) …… but that doesn’t mean that I am quiet and reserved, does it?」

That’s right. My hobby is improving my fighting power, after all, so I am the opposite of quiet.

「I do know that you are well-versed in the literary and military arts though. You are famous in regards to that aspect. Beautiful and smart, and also a strong princess — many men long for you, you know. Were you not aware of it?」

……Yes, not at all.

「That is why, as soon as you turned 18, I proposed an engagement. Other men were also thinking about catching you.」

That means…… I was that popular, huh? Me?

「That puzzled look is also adorable, ne. To the extent that I want to devour those rosy lips.」

Alvin-sama’s hand cupped my cheek and began to sweetly caress it.

「Kindly stop it.」

I turned away, and softly pulled Alvin-sama’s hand away.

「I…… I can not marry Alvin-sama.」

「Why?」

Because I don’t want to be raped! But I can’t say that! Ee-to, ee-to (TN: Err, err), I have to think of an excuse.

「……I, actually, have someone I already set my heart on.」

Alvin-sama scowled for an instant before his smiling face returned.

「Who is it? Don’t you think that I have a right to know that person’s name?」

Uwa, he doesn’t believe it!
I am bad at lying and whenever my emotions are exposed, Karl would always point it out.

「So, who is it? Please tell me. I will make that man disappear from your heart as I will love you.」

「Ano (TN: Uhm), I can not say because of certain circ.u.mstances. But I really long for that person and because of these feelings, I can not be with Alvin-sama. I do not think these feelings will disappear.」

「Is it an impossible love? Then all the more will I uplift and heal your broken heart. It doesn’t matter who you are thinking about now but please become mine.」

It was completely ineffective!
What should I do? I wonder how I can avoid an engagement with Alvin-sama.
I want to cry already.
I am already getting teary eyed.

「Please forgive me, Alvin-sama. That kind of sensible behavior is impossible for me.」

「Please do not cry, dear one. I detest the man who hurt your heart.」

「Ah, what should I do?」

Alvin-sama drew in my waist with his left hand and brought me closer to him while he held my head firmly with his right.

「Tears of sadness do not suit you.」

Alvin-sama kissed away the tears that began to fall down.
Oh no, things are going the wrong direction.

「Don’t. Please let me go.」

A duke has a higher rank than a baron and so I can not afford to display any violence towards him. I pushed both hands against his chest and tried to move away from Alvin-sama’s body, but my palms were met with st.u.r.dy pectoral muscles.
His face once again drew near and this time, he was obviously aiming for my lips.

「Flora……」

Alvin-sama’s gently parted his lips and called out my name.
I can not! I will get punished if I allow myself to be kissed again!

「Karl!」

I called out the name of the ruthless demon king that came to mind.