A Lover's Diary Part 5

THE FATES LAUGH

I did not will this thing. I set my face Towards duty and my art; I was alone.

How knew I thou shouldst roll away the stone From hopes long buried, by thy tender grace?

What does it matter that we make resolve?

The Fates laugh at us as they sit and spin; We cannot tell what Good is, or what Sin, Or why old faiths in mist of pain dissolve.

We only can stand watchful in the way, Waiting with patient hands on s.h.i.+eld and sword, Ready to meet disaster in the fray,

Till Time has struck the letters of one word-- Word of such high-born worth: triumphant Love, Give me thy canopy where'er I rove.

AS ONE WHO WAITETH

As one who waiteth for the signet ring Of his dear sovereign, that his emba.s.sy May have clear pa.s.sport over land and sea, And make the subject sacred as his king;

As waits the warrior for a pontiff's palm, Upraised in blessing o'er his high emprise; And bows his mailed forehead prayerful-wise, Sinking his turbulency in deep calm:

So waited I for one seal to be set Upon my full commission, for a sign That should make impotent man's "I forget,"

And make G.o.d's "I remember" more divine: Which should command at need the homage of The armed squadrons of all loyal love.

THE SEALING

But yestermorn my marshalled hopes were held Upon the verge of august pilgrimage; To-day I am as birds that leave the cage To seek green fastnesses they knew of eld;

To-day I am as one who hides his face Within his golden beaver, and whose hand Clenches with pride his tried and conquering brand, Ay, as a hunter mounted for the chase.

For, see: upon my lips I carry now A touch that speaks reveille to my soul; I have a dispensation large enow

To enfold the world and circ.u.mscribe each pole.

Slow let me speak it: From her lips and brow I took the gifts she only could endow.

THE PLEDGE

O gifts divine as any ever knew The n.o.ble spirits of an antique time; As any poets fas.h.i.+on in their rhyme, Or angels whisper down the shadeless blue!

The priceless gifts of holy confidence, That speak through quivering lips from heart to heart; That unto life new energies impart, And open up the gates of prescience.

O dear my love, I unto thee have given Pledge that I am thy va.s.sal evermore; I stand within the zenith of my Heaven,

On either hand a starred eternal sh.o.r.e I have come nearer to thy greater worth, For thou hast raised me from the common earth.

LOVE'S TRIBUTARIES

I can say now, "There was the confluence Of all Love's tributaries; there the sea Of Love spread out towards eternity; And there my coa.r.s.er touched her finer sense.

Poor though I am in my own sight, I know That thou hast winnowed, sweet, what best I am; Upon my restlessness thy ample calm Hath fallen as on frost-bound earth the snow.

It hideth the harsh furrows that the wheels Of heavy trials made in Life's champaign; Upon its pure unfolding suns.h.i.+ne steals,

And there is promise of the spring again.

Here make I proclamation of my faith, And poise my fealty o'er the head of Death."

THE CHOICE

If Death should come to me to-night, and say: "I weigh thy destiny; behold, I give One little day with this thy love to live, Then, my embrace; or, leave her for alway,

And thou shalt walk a full array of years; Upon thee shall the world's large honours fall, And praises clamorous shall make for all Thy strivings rich amends." If in my ears

Thou saidst, "I love thee!" I would straightway cry, "A thousand years upon this barren earth Is death without her: for that day I die,

And count my life for it of poorest worth."

Love's reckoning is too n.o.ble to be told By Time's slow fingers on its sands of gold.