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"You must suit yourself absolutely, of course."
"Supposing you came to us at the end of the week?" Violet suggested.
"Say Sat.u.r.day. Pamela is going away then to pay one or two visits--and I shall have you all to myself."
Alex looked at her wonderingly.
It seemed to her incredible that Violet should actually want her, so engrained was her sense of her own isolation of spirit. That terrible isolation of those who have definitely, and for long past, lost all self-confidence, and which can never be realized or penetrated by those outside.
"That will be delightful," said Violet, seeming to take her acceptance for granted.
Barbara got up, smoothing her skirt gently.
"We really ought to be going, Alex. I said we'd be in to tea, and it takes such ages to get back."
Alex rose submissively. She marvelled at the a.s.surance of Barbara, even at the ease of her conventionally affectionate farewells.
"Well, good-bye, my dear. When are you coming out to the wilds to look me up?"
Then, without giving her sister-in-law time to reply, she added gaily, "You must ring me up and let me know, when you've a spare moment. You know I'm always a fixture. What a blessing the telephone is!"
"Then we'll see you on Sat.u.r.day, Alex," said her brother. "Good! Take care of yourself, my dear." He looked after her with an expression of concern, as the servant held open the door for her and Barbara and they went into the street. Alex could not believe that this kindly, rather pompous man was her younger brother.
"Cedric has grown very good-looking, but I didn't expect to see him so--so _old_, somehow," she said.
Barbara laughed.
"Time hasn't stood still with any of us, you know. _I_ think Violet looks older than he does--she is, of course. She'll be a mountain in a few years' time, if she doesn't take care."
"Oh, Barbara! I think she's so pretty--and sweet."
Barbara shrugged her shoulders very slightly.
"She and I have never made particularly violent friends, though I like her, of course. Pamela adores her--and I must say she's been good to Pam. But her kindness doesn't cost her anything. She's always been rich, and had everything she wanted--she was the only girl, and her people adored her, and now Cedric lets her do everything she likes. She spends any amount of money--look at her clothes, and the way she has little Rosemary always dressed in white."
"Rosemary is lovely. It's so extraordinary to think of Cedric's child!"
Barbara tightened her lips.
"She ought to have been a boy, of course. Cedric pretended not to care, but it must have been a disappointment--and goodness only knows if Violet will ever--"
She stopped, throwing a quick glance out of the corners of her eyes at her sister.
Alex wondered why she did not finish her sentence, and what she had been about to say.
The constraint in her intercourse with Barbara was becoming more and more evident to her perceptions. It was clear that her sister did not intend to ask any questions as to the crisis through which Alex had pa.s.sed, and when she had once ascertained that Alex had not "seen anybody" whilst in Rome, she did not refer to that either.
Alex wondered if Barbara would tell her anything of Ralph and their married life, but the reserve which had always been characteristic of Barbara since her nursery days, had hardened sensibly, and it was obvious that she wished neither to give nor to receive confidences.
She was quite ready, however, to discuss her brother Cedric and his wife, or the prospects of Pamela and Archie, and Alex listened all the evening to Barbara's incisive little clear tones delivering shrewd comments and judgments. She again suggested that Alex should go to bed early, saying as she kissed her good-night:
"It's quite delightful to have some one to talk to, for me. I generally read or sew all the evening."
"It must be lonely for you, Barbara."
"Oh, I don't mind quiet," she laughed, as though edging away from any hint of emotional topic. "But, of course, it's nice to have some one for a change. Good-night." She turned towards the door of the bedroom. "Oh, Alex! there's just one thing--I know you'd rather I said it. If you wouldn't mind, sometime--any time you think of it--just letting me have the money for those clothes we bought for you today. The bills have come in--I asked for them, as I don't have an account. I knew you'd rather be reminded, knowing what pauper I am. I only wish I hadn't got to worry you. Good-night, my dear. Sleep well."
XXV
Violet
For days and nights to come, the question of the money that Barbara had paid for her clothes weighed upon Alex.
She had no idea how she was to repay her.
The money that had been given her in Rome for her journey to England had only lasted her to Charing Cross, and even her cab fare to Hampstead had been supplemented by Barbara. Alex remembered it with fresh dismay. Even when she had left Downs.h.i.+re Hill and was in Clevedon Square again, the thought lashed her with a secret terror, until one day she said to Cedric:
"What ought I to do, Cedric, to get my fifty pounds a year? Who do I get it from?"
"Don't Pumphrey and Scott send it half yearly? I thought that was the arrangement. You gave them your change of address, I suppose."
"Oh, no," said Alex gently. "I've never written to them, except once, just after father died, to ask them to make the cheques payable to to the Superior."
"What on earth made you do that?"
"They thought it was best. You see, I had no banking account, so the money was paid into the Community's account."
"I see," Cedric remarked drily. "Well, the sooner you write and revoke that arrangement, the better. When did they last send you a cheque? In June?"
"I don't know," Alex was forced to say, feeling all the time that Cedric must be thinking her a helpless, unpractical fool.
"Write and find out. And meanwhile--I say, Alex, have you enough to go on with?"
"I--I haven't any money, Cedric. In Rome they gave me enough for my travelling expenses, but nothing is left of that."
"But what have you done all this time? I suppose you've wanted clothes and things."
"I got some with Barbara, but they aren't paid for. And there are some other things I need--you see, I haven't got anything at all--not even stamps," said Alex forlornly. "Violet said something about taking me to some shops with her, but I suppose all her places are very expensive."
"They are--dashed expensive," Cedric admitted, with a short laugh. "But look here, Alex, will you let me advance you what you want? It couldn't be helped, of course--but the whole arrangement comes rather hard on you, as things are now. You see, poor Barbara is really as badly off as she can be. Ralph was a most awful a.s.s, between ourselves, and muddled away the little he had, and she gets pretty nearly nothing, except a widow's pension, which was very small, and the money father left. If you'll believe me, Ralph didn't even insure his life, before going to South Africa. Of course, he didn't go to fight, but on the staff of one of the big papers, and it was supposed to be a very good thing, and then what did he do but go and get dysentery before he'd been there a fortnight!"
Cedric's voice held all the pitying scorn of the successful.
"Poor Barbara," said Alex.
"That's just what she is. Of course, I think myself that Pamela will make your share over to you again when she marries. _She's_ not likely to make a rotten bad match like Barbara--far from it. But until then she can't do anything, you know--at least, not until she's of age, if then."