Perfectly Pure And Good Part 10

Ryan looked smug.

'Nothing to do with me. I just happened to meet the sly b.a.s.t.a.r.d in a coffee shop. Made the suggestion he'd like to go and see where his lady wife was buried. It might not have been the tide covered her up, see? It could have been, course, probably was, but I made him think she'd been buried. Last rites delivered on her lily-white body by another man's big, chunky hands. I knew it would drive him mad. He might have beaten his own wife to a pulp, cut her face to ribbons, but he couldn't stand the thought of anyone else touching her. Listen, I couldn't have prayed he'd walk into the sea like he did: I just wanted him suffering.'

Ryan took a sip and it was gone. Time to go on to pints. Whisky was fine in spots; he'd go back to it later. Something nagged him, something he didn't like and knew Malcolm wouldn't either.

'So Sarah's gone off to the seaside, has she? Not her kind of place, I wouldn't have thought. Not very cla.s.sy. Fish and chips, big amus.e.m.e.nt place, caravans down the beach. I can't see your Sarah in a place full of yobs.'

Malcolm smiled again. Ryan decided the smile was sadder than the scowl.

'You don't know Sarah. She has . . . simple tastes.' He seemed to hesitate, draw back from saying more, plunged on. 'What I want to know is anything which may affect and upset her. The sort of things people might still gossip about, take her unawares when she ought to forget. You got to know the local cop in Merton when you were investigating. You know what people said, I never did; lawyers never do. How long did it take them to find Charles Tysall and what did he look like?'

Ryan was wearing that s.h.i.+fty look, the one Malcolm knew all too well as sending s.h.i.+vers of alarm up his spine. The expression worn by a police officer choosing economy with fact, sitting where he was, a.s.sessing the odds on the consequences of truth, a hesitation complete in the second it took to weigh up the fact there was nothing to lose.

'They phoned me up when they found a body,' Ryan said carefully. 'I gave them a description, and it tallied. Tysall was seen walking out of town with the tide coming in anyway, so it's pretty clear already. Then this doctor turns up on site, used to know Tysall a bit, and, oh, yes, by the way, according to local rumour, knew the wife quite a lot better.' He let that sink in. Any deceased, in Ryan's eyes, had few virtues and high nuisance value, especially women.

Anyway, the doc is told in advance the body is probably Tysall, and he agrees, so Tysall it is.

Mind,' he added, s.h.i.+fting with ever greater discomfort, 'they also say they get three or four bodies per summer off that coast. Unidentified. Tramp steamers, suicidal fishermen. Christ, I'd hate to live in a place like that. Three pubs, one church, nothing else to do.

The wife loved it.

He knew he should not have spoken. His own reservations about that flimsy identification should have remained exactly what they were, his own. If he talked long enough round the subject, maybe Malc would forget where he was. No chance, Ryan thought, looking at the calm face only slightly flushed with alcohol while his own was glowing; should have known better. Malcolm was staring at him. Once you've let some cat out of a bag, Ryan thought, you can't shove it back in.

I wouldn't regard identification by a slight acquaintance of a drowned man sufficient beyond reasonable doubt,' said Malcolm, refusing to register anything but polite curiosity. A policeman under attack, even a friend, could become as wooden as the table. 'Do you know that close relatives misidentify their dead with monotonous regularity? If you believe a person is dead and you see a dead person, it seems to close the circle. I think we need another drink.' He walked to the bar with the bouncy step of a runner, one hand feeling for his wallet. I should never fool with lawyers, Ryan thought, especially when they can drink. He patted the silky red head of Malcolm's dog which grinned in response. Now there was a good female, constantly obedient, loving, asking no questions, telling no lies.

'Just one thing more,' Malcolm was saying as he sat. 'You gave the locals a description of Charles which tallied with the corpse. What description?'

Ryan wrinkled his face, genuinely struggling for memory. He knew Charles Tysall, oh yes, knew him from the files and the cheats and the women. Knew he was a murderer perforce, a man with a pa.s.sion to destroy, looking all the time for perfection in ideas and the opposite s.e.x, knocking it into pieces when he did find it, but for all Ryan knew, he'd only been face to face with the b.a.s.t.a.r.d twice. The dead wife, whom he'd taken to hospital in his car, he'd seen more than twice, each time less recognizable than the last, sometimes talking, sometimes not. His brow cleared.

I gave them the description Elisabeth Tysall gave me. I sat with her, waiting in casualty. She told me what he was like.'

'How?'

'She said he was hung like a donkey.'

The man in the beach hut made tea. He had a small gas stove stolen from an empty caravan, water which he collected from the lake near the small caravan site, a camping gaz cylinder stolen from another beach hut. These wooden edifices he liked above all; they reminded him of doll's houses. They stood along Merton's public beach, stringing away down the coast with all the grace of wet was.h.i.+ng on a line in a downpour, irregular, highly-coloured, lumpish and graceless, decorated to individual taste as if they could ever be permanent.

They were a series of garden sheds with stable doors on stilts, hired for the season, subject to wind and flood, raised far above the sand to cope with the high tides they were so unlikely to withstand. Some did, more by luck than judgement, remaining upright with peeling paint and all their romance gone long after some family moved on to where the children had alternatives other than an amus.e.m.e.nt arcade in the rain, and the parents were not sick of a caravan, the cold, the moaning and the spartan splendour of the beach. Merton's claim to holiday-making fame was for those with old-fas.h.i.+oned stamina, a taste for chips, sticky sweets, pints of ale and mugs of tea.

The leftovers were abundant. The man with the white hair was grateful for that.

My name is Charles and I have no name, he chanted, rocking back and forth in the small s.p.a.ce of the hut, watching the dawn rise on a Sunday morning. I rose from the sea like Christ from the dead. Sunday is a day of grace for sinners and I am not one of those. My name is Charles. There were occasions when he almost forgot. Just as he forgot what it was he had been when he had the name, until he remembered again.

The beach hut, last of the line, was slightly askew; the stool on which he sat also slightly crooked, so that he leaned, constantly to one side. The stick with the carved duck's head a.s.sisted him to redress the balance. It was against the local by-laws to stay in a beach hut at night, in case the wind got up and encouraged the endless hunger of the tide. People obeyed the rules. Charles held such people in contempt. Also those who treasured the small possessions he stole, but left them out for him to steal all the same.

People without names cavorted on the beach in front of the hut by day, looking to their own pursuits, their games, their dogs, their delicious children, never to left or right and never towards anyone old. He could walk amongst them as if he were invisible. When there was a crowd, faintly excited, they sounded like the geese which had travelled over his head the autumn before, when he decided his new existence became his so much it was better than the one before.

Who needed prestige, when they could reach out and reclaim it whenever they wanted? Who needed a fine apartment when an empty holiday cottage would do? Places like the one where Edward found him. Looking for Elisabeth and who had buried her, giving himself a reason to live. When he had done that, meted out his own version of justice, then he could go home.

It was necessary for a man without a name to have a reason. From his casual and contemptuous observation of humankind, no-one else needed such a thing. They just existed, like lumbering animals.

A child was attempting to clamber up the rickety steps of his beach hut. A plump little thing with a nappy rump and curly hair, grunting with the effort. Charles peered over the top half of the stable door, hissed, bared his teeth, watched as the child met his eyes, waddled away, crying.

Good. Oh, it was a clean little thing. He could have cooked it. The thought made him dizzy.

The tide was out again this morning, fickle b.i.t.c.h, leaving a huge expanse of mud and sand for the fools to play on. If only they knew how difficult it was to keep clean. It was the desire for fresh water which drove him the half mile into town, made him careless.

Between the daily business of eating and cleaning, cleaning was the worst. He slithered down the steps of the but with his stick, dived behind and up the bank into the dunes, to find the place where he met Edward, if the young man deigned to arrive. Sandwiches would be nice: he could live on sandwiches and save himself foraging time. It was only when he was hungry that the urge to destroy became so paramount. A hypoglycaemic rage, he would have said, when he had a name. Which he didn't, now. Nor half the command of words. Snippets of poetry was all. The haunting and cynical voice of Browning, all he remembered from a thousand books.

' The moment she was mine, mine, fair, perfectly pure and good: I found A thing to do, and all her hair In one long yellow string I wound Three times her little throat around And strangled her . .

He sang the words to the tune of a hymn.

From inside the worn pockets of the track suit rescued from behind the church hall, he pulled out the crumpled letters, the medical record card and the envelopes he had taken with such fastidious care from Dr Pardoe's desk in the surgery ' Darling Julian,' he mimicked, reading in a high and breathy voice. 'How wonderful to know that I shall see you soon . . . Your loving Elisabeth.'

Oh yes, he loved you, darling Elisabeth; the good doctor loved you to death; look at what he did for you, in case you should cause him a scandal. Look at the record of what he did. The last billet-doux, a prescription on the record card for enough diazepam to stun a crowd of women, let alone one.

Charles without a name looked out to the sea. 'Escape me?' he murmured. 'Never.'

Flames danced in front of his eyes, the morning sun blazing over shallow stretches of water left by the tide, moving and dazzling. He could burn down the Pardoe house, that was what he could do, a house he had entered and left a dozen times, all of them so mad or so preoccupied they never noticed. Charles could hear the crackling sound of fire, imagine the sight in the dark, as they rushed out screaming, for him to pick them off with a knife or a stick, one by careless one, until finally, he would stamp on the hands which had touched his wife, buried her without permission.

The images were soothing; Sunday was a day of grace. Charles without a name, listened for the church bells, hearing nothing but the wind in the pine trees at his back and the desolate mewing of the gulls on the beach before. One day soon he would go home. He wondered how he would ever get clean enough to go home - and where home was.

Edward despised the mere notion of going to church, quoted religion as the opiate of the ma.s.ses.

Joanna went to accompany her mother, also to put flowers on her father's grave. There had been no ordinary plot for Mr Pardoe, of course: he could not have been buried in the serried ranks of the others who now stretched out into the field behind, not he, but in a plot in the old graveyard, bought from the vicar long before as the price of charity.

Joanna thought of it now as she sat in the congregation with her mother, saw for the first time how people might resent Pa's privileged resting place. She was thinking too, of how much better her own life would be if the family did not own so much, how pleasant if she could ever present herself as an ordinary contender for friends.h.i.+p instead of a race apart, unable to enter a shop without putting someone in mind of owing rent. Perhaps if she had nothing, Rick would love her, but on this footing, she could never be equal, never belong, even here with her elders, singing the same hymn in a great, slow groan of tuneless sound.

Mother sang l.u.s.tily , Da, da, da da da daah, her voice loud and cracked, humming without words, the feathers from her hat curling over her face, another evening gown of purple trailing round her pink-shod feet beneath the mackintosh, her face flushed from yesterday's sun. n.o.body minds, Joanna thought defensively, so why should I? Mother was popular, always had been; men flocked to say hallo after church. Men had always flocked in that direction, Joanna realized, surprised at her own observation. Poor little Mouse, to be so pitied.

On the other side of the feathers, Julian gently took his mother's hymn book and turned it the right way up so that she could at least pretend she was reading the words. She ignored the gesture. On the last hymn of the service, he sensed rather than saw Sarah Fortune slipping out of the pew behind, late arriver, first to go, with her hair concealed under a straw hat. He shut his eyes for the final blessing, seeing nothing inside his own skull but the vision of her body in those circus cartwheels, hand over graceful hand across the lawn.

The sun struck with cruel brilliance as they emerged blinking from church, the sound of the organ receding behind them, the bells taking over. Groups formed on the paths between the graves, women with women, men with men, a division as old as time. Julian counted a small congregation of largely advanced years, hinged together by habit and the continuity of their lives rather than belief or commitment to virtue. That was certainly true of Rick's dad, from the amus.e.m.e.nt arcade, sedulous as ever towards the doctor even though he must have known the evidence Julian had seen on his own son, signs of drunken violence which were always explained away as the boy falling downstairs. Rick's dad, his cousin, PC Curl the village copper, others who may have needed G.o.d's forgiveness as much as Julian felt he did himself, but never prayed for it, believing, perhaps, as he did not, that a visit to Church wiped the whole slate clean.

There was a murmur at his elbow.

'Can we have a word, Doc, before you have to rush away?'

He liked the presumption that he was always busy, always in demand, disliked the deference. If it had been towards him for his qualifications and his value, he would have been pleased, but they bowed to a Pardoe for the supposition of money and influence. It was that which put him beyond companions.h.i.+p, nothing more, not even his own brusqueness, which they tolerated.

'What do you think, Doc? Time we began to take this ghost business seriously, don't you think? I mean, after Miss Gloomer, not fair, is it? Could have been this white-haired b.a.s.t.a.r.d did the fis.h.i.+ng shop, other places too. I mean, he's real all right. He ain't a ghost at all.'

'He hasn't hurt anyone, has he?' Julian said sharply. He couldn't make himself care, except about Miss Gloomer. If there was a poor, summer vagrant wandering about at night stealing the surplus, it wouldn't be the first or last to go of his own accord. The idea of hunting him was vaguely repellent, although not to Rick's dad, nor to PC Curl who always dramatized problems of law and order.

'My nephew seen him plenty,' Curl murmured. Julian laughed. Stonewall Jones was his favourite child, stubborn, discreet, incredibly brave in the face of a cut arm, chickenpox and anything which had ever ailed him, but not, surely, a reliable source of information.

S'not funny, Doc. Something's got to be done.'

'Such as?' he suggested lightly, refusing to take the lead. They were silent. No-one else wanted to do anything other than talk.

'Such as locking doors, keeping your eyes open and letting him be?'

They nodded, each following the other. Pa.s.s the word, that was it, the full extent of civic duty on another day so warm it should be treasured, Sunday lunch beckoning as a prelude to an afternoon's doze. The heat made them lazy, turned their minds to other things. Rick's dad fingered his tie, tight at the throat, uncomfortable. The mood of vague purpose fragmented into nothing; Joanna called for her brother. The vicar stood next to her, the verger on the other side, planting a kiss on Mother's powdered cheek while she embraced him, the powder falling on to his dark jacket without him seeming to mind.

We could set off through the streets, Julian thought with sudden, savage amus.e.m.e.nt, in my car, with Mama waving to the locals like the Queen. She's the only one of us they can love, because she requires so little. They pa.s.sed through the churchyard gate. There was no sign of Sarah Fortune's car with the dented wing.

'Just a minute,' Julian said. He walked back to the gate, sprinted through the old graveyard, into the newer environs of the field where Elisabeth Tysall was buried.

The same temporary headstone, disgracing him; the rest tidy. His old dead roses spirited away and at her feet and her heart, fresh flowers in new vases.

The chimes of the ice-cream van rang out to the faithful long after the church bells ceased. Down by the beach, they rang to a greater effect and the formation of a sporadic queue by mid-afternoon. They were parked on the edge of the caravan site, by the main track over the dunes on to the beach, ready to catch the corners and goers, who came forward as if the van, next to the refreshment hut, but somehow more enticing, was a mirage in the desert.

'What's the matter with you, Stoney? You suffering heat sickness, or what?' Rick was doling out a double 99 cone with Cadbury's flake on top, watching it melt even as he presented it out of the window to a lad who'd have to be quick to get it all down in time. All down his vest, more likely.

Talking over his back to where Stonewall lounged, ready to dive into the freezer for a Mivvi or a raspberry split or those iced lollies built like s.p.a.ce s.h.i.+ps which were so popular this year, but so phallic in appearance, he and Rick sn.i.g.g.e.red over every sale especially to girls. Nothing was funny this afternoon.

Nothing's the matter,' Stonewall said sulkily.

'Whenever you say that, I know you're lying.'

Oh, Rick was on the ball today, jokes to customers, the bruises round his eyes making him look like a pirate, hands over the ices quick and deft, s.h.i.+rt s.h.i.+ning clean and his hair falling over his forehead so he could flick it back and wink. There was a pause in the line. Give it half an hour, when they all started trailing home, business would be brisk. Rick checked stocks and whistled.

'Come on, Stoney, talk to me.' There was a shuffling. Stonewall looked out the window.

Are you going out with that redhead, Rick? Are you?'

So that's what it was, a little frisson of jealousy, a little bit of the old insecurity creeping back, as if it had ever gone since the boy lost his own father and screamed in his sleep.

'Course not. I like her, that's all. You be nice to her if you see her, Stonewall. She did me a good turn on Friday night.' Rick laughed uproariously. He'd been laughing like a hyena all weekend, imploding with silent jokes Stonewall didn't understand.

'What about Jo, then?' Rick stopped what he was doing, and the laughter.

'That's something else,' he said sharply. Stonewall kicked his frayed training shoe against the door. He was miserable without knowing why.

'Cheer up. We got things to do after. My dad says we got to go looking for that ghost. Your white-haired ghost. Typical, doesn't want to bother himself, lets us do it.' He whistled again.

'Did you really believe me, then?' Stonewall asked, his voice quivering. 'No you didn't. You just pretended you did in the caf, to please her. You never believed me until other people did. You never believed that ghost got my dog.'

He had carried the stiff, twisted collar in his pocket for the two days since he had found it. Rick could see it now, protruding from the side of his shorts above the thin, pale brown legs with their covering of freckles. Stonewall was such a thin, sandy boy: even his legs weren't significant.

And,' he was saying, his voice high with anxiety, 'when you go looking for the ghost, you'll send me away. When you get a girl, you'll send me away. That's what you'll do. Everyone does.'

There were tears now, coursing down his slightly dirty face, leaving rivulets made worse by the s.m.u.tty hand which attempted to push them back. The face of a customer appeared at the window. Rick produced three of the phallic lollies, took the money, slammed the window shut and sat on the floor among the refrigeration humm, pulled Stonewall down beside him. He grabbed a sheet of kitchen towel and applied it roughly to the boy's face, absorbing phlegm and tears, put his arm round the skinny, shaking shoulders.

'Now listen here, you snotty b.a.s.t.a.r.d, and listen properly. You're my mate, my very best mate, you hear? And if I can't have you round me all the time, that doesn't make any difference. You're still my best one. I used to go about with Jo Pardoe when I was your age, bit like you and me now, loved her the same way, only it changed, and it all had to wait. My fault, I suppose.'

Stonewall grabbed the kitchen towel, blew his nose, failed to stem the tears.

'You love her more'n you love me,' he whispered. It choked him with shame to mention the word. Saying 'f.u.c.k' or 'c.u.n.t' was easier.

'Well, well, well,' said Rick, wonderingly, running his spare hand through Stonewall's stick-up hair, a gesture the boy would always pretend to dislike, but loved as much as Sal had loved a stroking. 'That's a d.a.m.n fine haircut you got there, boy. And as for love, well, I'll love you for ever and nothing in between, you hear? And if I love someone else, they'll have to love you too.

Jo would, she does already, even if her brother never pays you for digging up bait, like you did again this morning.

He never catches anything, you know, don't do it again, you hear?' He paused. Another face pressed itself against the window of the van. Rick stuck up two fingers. He had to get to the end of what he was saying, since whatever it was, was important.

'There'll be times I'm busy and you're busy, but there you'll be, first and last, bad moods, good moods. Any f.u.c.ker comes near you, meaning harm, I'll tear his f.u.c.king head off. Course I love you, Stoney, better than anyone. It'll always be the same until you tell ME to f.u.c.k off. See? I'll love you to death, boy, just you try and stop me.'

There was a knocking at the window. Rick got up, turned on his chimes and began to whistle again. The sky overhead had darkened; for once they came off the beach early. A week of heat, a season of drought; even for business and his dad's pleasure, he could not be sorry about the rain.

One day, he and Stonewall might have an empire. Then they would only be nice to people they liked.

'Three Mivvis,' he yelled over his shoulder. 'On the double!'

Stonewall kicked him in the s.h.i.+ns to show he was alive, sauntered to the freezer like a millionaire bar lizard in a small, select s.p.a.ce, obliged the order with flourish. Four Mivvis, then they ran out, two double Ds, five phallic symbols, four caramel torpedos, nearly as bad in shape, six straight vanilla tubs and a bombe, Stonewall grinning throughout. Felt a hand on his shoulder, Rick's of course, there was no room for anyone else and no need either.

'Stay down there, boy, just sit down. I think I seen your ghost.' Preternaturally tall, striding down under the darkening sky which made his white hair look as if it shone, was the man with no name. Had he shuffled with an armful of family burdens, whinging kids, bags of winds.h.i.+eld, Thermos flasks, towels, damp clothes and plastic bottles, he would not have stood out. The others were purposeful. He looked confused.

'Tall,' Rick said tersely to the figure at his feet, clutching his ankles. 'I mean, really tall.' He didn't say handsome instead of long, tall, lean, regular featured, a face and frame tending towards the cadaverous: neither of them reckoned anyone over fifty could ever be called attractive; they just didn't count at that age. 'Big thatch, white hair, can't see his ears, bit of a beard, not much, trousers don't fit. Track-suit bottoms, too short?'

Stonewall nodded in the sheer ecstasy of being believed, not caring. The white-haired man paused in front of the window, sunken cheekbones presenting themselves first, the patrician voice echoing next.

I'd love what you have for sale,' he intoned, 'but I haven't any change.' Rick leant forward confidentially, so that he was half out of the van and still looking as if he was telling a secret, putting his hand over one side of his mouth as he spoke in a hiss.

'Tell you the truth, mate,' he leered, 'we've had a good day and it's melting. Have one free. On the house. Only don't tell,' he added, tapping the sides of his nose in a c.o.c.kney parody, unconvincing to his own ears, not to Stonewall, still clutching his ankles in a paroxysm of terrible giggles.

The ice-cream fridge was on the right. Rick dived in, scooped out from on top a double cone, filled both, delivered it. The man did not pause to offer thanks or smile. Rick knew it was a giveaway to stare, so he pretended to prepare for the next on parade, noticing at the same time how the creamy floss had gone down the man's throat like a mouse down a Hoover, all in one, in a great big gulp, terrible, Adam's apple going in then out and a whole cone gone in a swallow.

The man could have eaten a dog, the thought made Rick swallow too. Something wrong with his teeth. Another queue had formed behind him, discretion overcame the ghost's obvious desire to ask for more and he left without a wave.

'Think he's hungry,' Rick muttered.

'So he isn't a ghost,' said Stonewall, finally, lazily, leaving hold of the ankle, standing up.

'Four double cornets left,' said Rick. 'He could have ate the lot.'

'Perhaps he ate Sal.'

'Give us the mirror, Stoney. He made my hair stand on end.'

Her hair stood on end like a series of wire fences, and nothing a soul could do. Mrs Pardoe wore it squashed under a hat or turban, depending upon occasion or season. She maintained her feathery boa and frightful hat as she tripped across the gra.s.s to the small terrace of three cottages on the right of her overgrown lawn, her feet landing neatly without the high-heeled shoes which might have dug in so far as to root her to the spot.

The roses round the door looked glad of the rain which fell out of the sky in droplets as big as petals, weighing down her hat and waterlogging the feathers. Mrs Jennifer Pardoe knocked on her own property with a terrible urgency. The door was open. In she went, all of a flutter, which stopped like a toy with a run-out battery as soon as the door closed behind her.

Sarah Fortune stood up from behind a pile of papers in the lounge area. She looked tired as if the heat had struck and she was glad of the rain. So was Mrs Mouse Pardoe. She shed her toque and her mac and sat down comfortably.

Oh, lord, what a relief,' she said. 'Do you think you could make some tea? I can't stand this any longer.'