Do They Know I'm Running? Part 4

"Who says I needed to be told?" Happy tapped his ash through the window vent. "Tell me, Roque, your vieja vieja, when she takes you into her bed ..." He affected a throaty purr.

"f.u.c.k you."

"Watch your mouth."

"You been spying on me?"

"I know things," Happy said. "Get used to it."

"Yeah? What else do you know?"

"That's my business. What's with G.o.do?"

"Tia Lucha didn't tell you?"

"Never mind what she told me, I wanna hear it from you."

"Hear what?"

"He's f.u.c.ked up."

"Ya think?"

Happy reached across and swatted the back of Roque's head. "Don't be such a punk."

"Don't touch me."

Happy, in whiny nasal mimicry: "Don't touch me." "Don't touch me." Then: "His d.i.c.k still work?" Then: "His d.i.c.k still work?"

Roque had to process that. "There's some things we don't share."

"I mean has he gotten it wet since he got back? Given how he looks, I was thinking maybe ..." Happy rubbed his thumb and index finger together, suggesting cash.

"Who am I, his pimp?"

Happy chuckled at that, then took another long drag, blowing the smoke out, watching it billow against the winds.h.i.+eld. "Face the way it is? He looks like a f.u.c.king dartboard."

"Tell him that. I dare you."

Happy let that go, except to say, "You got a point. Nothing wrong with his temper. Spent maybe two minutes with him, he wants to mix it up."

"You want G.o.do mellow, you'll have to kill him."

"There's a thought."

"What's that supposed to mean?"

"f.u.c.k's sake, Roque, chill out. By the way, not everybody who was over there came back f.u.c.ked up. You get that, right?"

"How would you know?"

Happy picked a fleck of tobacco off his tongue. "That's another long story." He turned to gaze out at his window at the mold-freckled storefronts. A crow perched on the rain gutter, framed by fog. "How come you're not pitching in with money?"

"Who says I'm not?"

"You're really starting to p.i.s.s me off with this."

"I've got a line on a band gig. Maybe."

"Maybe?"

Roque shrugged. "Hard to say."

"Really? Hard to say what, your family needs the bread? Hard to say they're f.u.c.ked, my old man deported?"

An eighteen-wheeler thundered past, rattling the pickup's windows. The crow on the gutter fluttered its wings. "Maybe we can get a lawyer."

"f.u.c.king h.e.l.l-you stupid? What's a lawyer gonna do except take our money? You think-" Happy stopped short, glancing in his rearview mirror. A patrol car pulled into the strip-mall lot. Murmuring, "What's this a.s.shole want," he stubbed out his cigarette, dropped the b.u.t.t between his feet. "Keep talking," he told Roque.

"About what?"

"About anything. So we don't look like we're casing this dump."

Roque let his glance dart once out the cab's back window, then started babbling, launching into the first thing that came to mind. Happy, eyes glued to the mirror, spoke to the reflection: "Come on, f.u.c.kwad. You run the plates, we're gonna do this." With painful slowness, the patrol car eased along the storefronts, s.h.i.+ning a flashlight through the window gla.s.s.

"Open the glove box," Happy said.

Roque obeyed. The b.u.t.t of a pistol lay exposed within a folded newspaper. "Jesus-"

Happy turned toward him, their eyes met. The menacing sorrow was gone, replaced by emptiness. "Tell me another story."

"You're not gonna shoot a cop."

"I'll shoot you, you don't calm down. Tell me another story."

The black-and-white, having finished its check of the stores, eased toward the end of the parking lot, only to circle back and come abreast of the pickup, so the driver sides matched up. The cruiser's tires were muddy, the winds.h.i.+eld caked with rainy grime. The cop lowered his window and gestured for Happy to do the same. The glove box remained open.

The officer said, "Mind telling me your business here?"

Happy turned so his body blocked whatever view the cop might have through the window. "I'm just sitting here talking with my cousin, officer. He's getting married next month and he's worried about money."

The cop studied Happy at length, an occasional attempt to glance past him toward Roque. The man had a thick putty-colored face with baggy eyes, more bored clerk than cop. "Kinda early, don't you think?"

"Only time we had. We both gotta head off for work soon."

"What say you do that now."

"Yes, sir. You wanna see my license and registration?"

Happy reached for the glove box. Roque's throat closed up, he couldn't get his breath.

The cop glanced away, dipping his head toward his radio, deciphering a sudden shock of words ensnarled in static. "Just get to where you need to be."

"Okay, sure." Happy toggled his keys, cranking the engine. "Thank you, officer."

He pulled out and the cop stayed put, the two of them watching each other in their rearviews. Happy turned south, heading back toward the trailer park. He dug another smoke from the pack in his s.h.i.+rt pocket, set it between his lips, then rummaged in his pants pocket for his matches. "I'm gonna drive a ways," he said, "not pull in, understand?"

Roque nodded. He could finally breathe. "You're the one driving."

Happy lit a match one-handed, held it to the tip of his cigarette, tilted his head back as he waved out the flame, then tossed the matchbook onto the dash. "Let's get back to what we were talking about."

Unable to stop himself, Roque glanced over his shoulder out the back window. Like a nagging itch, the cop was there, trailing several car lengths behind.

Happy said, "I see him. Relax, will you?" He glanced toward the glove box, which Roque had yet to close. "With G.o.do f.u.c.ked up the way he is, it's gonna be up to you. No excuses."

Roque went cold. He glanced at the weapon, then back at the cop, then Happy. "What do you mean? Up for what?"

"I said relax. I'm talking about my old man."

Roque wiped his palms on his jeans, trying to picture Tio Faustino in a crowded cell, unable to sleep, scared. "What about him?"

For the first time that morning, Happy smiled-an acid grin, vanis.h.i.+ng almost instantly-as he glanced in his mirror. Behind them, the patrol car slowed, then turned off into another strip mall. A clerk not a cop, Roque thought.

Happy said, "Shut up and I'll tell you."

G.o.dO WASN'T SURE AT FIRST IF WHAT HE HEARD WAS REALLY A knock at the door-the sound seemed timid, maybe just a tree branch brus.h.i.+ng the roof. He muted the TV. It came again.

He swung his legs to the floor and leaned down, reaching under the bed, not for the shotgun this time but the Smithy .357. Be cool, he told himself, no reruns of yesterday. Could just be one of the neighbors, wanting to beg some favor off Tia Lucha. That happened a lot-patron saint of mooches, that woman. But then he glanced at the clock and thought, My G.o.d, has it really been an hour since she left for work? Can't be. He blinked, shook off the watery drift of things, checked again. Sure enough, not just an hour, a little more.

His leg felt leaden and balance was iffy but he made his way down the hallway and into the kitchen just as a third knock sounded. Pausing beside the door, he stared at the square of cardboard taped up where the window used to be.

He called out, "Yeah?"

No answer at first. Then: "h.e.l.lo?" It was a man's voice, unfamiliar.

G.o.do tensed. "Who's there?"

A preliminary bout of throat-clearing. "I'm a friend of Faustino's. Drove his rig up from the port. Parked it out front. Got his keys here."

G.o.do stepped past the door toward the window, edged back the curtain. He was a k.n.o.bby squint of a man with large hands, a reddish mustache too big for his face, ears poking out from under a graying mop of windblown hair. He wore a mechanic's one-piece coverall, stained at the knees from oil, other smeary markings here and there.

G.o.do reached around to the small of his back, tucked the .357 into his pants, covered it with his s.h.i.+rt and opened the door. The man seemed taken aback by the sight of his face.

Extending one of his outsize hands. "Name's McBee. You Faustino's son?"

The question reminded G.o.do that Happy of all people had appeared out of the blue that morning. Or was he making that up? A drugged-up dream, a figment of his bleak mind-no, he thought, it happened, we fought. But Christ, we always fought. Suddenly he remembered his hand and glancing down he saw it, same pitted red scars as on his face, locked in the fierce pumping grip of this stranger. McBee. Chafing calluses coa.r.s.ened the man's palm.

G.o.do said, "Not son. Nephew, sort of."

McBee seemed content with this information, delayed though it was. He took his hand back, dug around in what appeared to be a bottomless pocket, then produced Tio Faustino's key chain. "I can leave these with you?"

"Sure." G.o.do shook his head to clear away the Percocet muck. McBee dropped the keys into his hand. From somewhere in the trailer park, a woman's voice could be heard: "Oye, nalgon, no me jodas!" "Oye, nalgon, no me jodas!" Listen, fat a.s.s, don't f.u.c.k with me. Listen, fat a.s.s, don't f.u.c.k with me.

McBee broke the spell. "Any way I could b.u.m a ride to the bus station? Gotta get back to Oakland. Can't waste the whole day, losing money as it is."

G.o.do caught a hint of dutiful poor-me in his tone, the only snag in the man's act so far. "I don't have a car, sorry. My aunt took it to work."

The news seemed to baffle McBee. He dog-scratched his ear. "Point me the right direction at least?"

G.o.do snapped out of his stupor. "Sorry. I'll walk you, how's that?" He thumbed the door lock plunger, searched for Tio Faustino's keys, found them in his hand, reminded himself not to forget about the pistol nudging his a.s.s crack, then stepped out onto the doorstep. "Follow me."

McBee blanched, stepping back to make way. "You sure?"

"I'm positive. Get the blood moving. You coming?"

He shortly regretted not donning a jacket but then shook off the cold, faulting himself for wanting snivel gear. During the invasion he'd slept s.h.i.+vering in shallow ranger graves, wet from rain or choking from windblown dust, hoping not to get run over by a tank in the night, clutching his weapon, happy as a drunk come payday. Jesus, he thought, how soft you get and so fast. He fought against the hobbling pain breaking through the Percocet, willing himself forward. McBee kept pace behind, patient despite the crippled speed and mercifully short on conversation.

Near the trailer-park gate G.o.do spotted Tio Faustino's Freightliner cab and felt a misty want, picturing his uncle, wondering when he might see him again. Strange, how girlish the moods sometimes. The truck's engine was ticking from its cool-down and he caught a whiff of diesel, the scent sending him back instantly to the cramped confines of his Humvee, packed into the backseat with the rations and water cans, the ammo and thermite grenades, C-4, claymore mines, the bale of concertina wire and cammie nets, bolt cutters, map books, chemlites, a pickax and sledgehammer-Chavous in the opposite seat; Mobley in the turret manning the Mark 19, his a.s.s a fart's breadth away from G.o.do's face; Gunny Benedict in front with his maps; Pimentel at the wheel, b.i.t.c.h-slapping the radio, screaming at the static. They were pealing toward Al Gharraf, preparing to take fire.

"You all right?"

G.o.do snapped his head toward the sound.

"You stopped walking," the man said. McBee. He sounded concerned. Maybe frightened.

G.o.do said, "Sorry."

"Listen, if this is too much, I'm serious, just point me in the right-"

"I'm fine. Come on."

At the gate G.o.do swung south and they marched along the gravel roadbed toward the center of town where the transit center was located. The wind was sharper here, keening off the mudflats and the gra.s.s-lined river, but now G.o.do embraced it, letting the cold meld with the throbbing ache in his leg. His gooseflesh cheered him and his pitted skin blushed from the stinging air. Beyond the wetlands the Mayacamas range lurked in the drizzle. Stunning, he thought, miraculous, resisting an urge to cry out: Get some!

With the engaging monotony of one step begging the next, time fell into its crazy hole again. He lost all track. Ten minutes? Twenty? Maybe this means I'm finally in the moment, he thought merrily, buoyed on pheromones, but then he noticed, just up the roadbed, near the edge of the commercial district, an arch-backed dog rummaging in some Dumpster overfill. He stopped, feeling his lungs constrict. Shortly, the frame confused him, a line of towering dusty palms, a sagging concrete wall, a roadside bag of trash, then impulse threw him to the ground, locked up in a fetal curl, burying his head in his arms. Seconds warped around his brain as he waited out the blast. Rather than the dust-scattering concussion he was expecting, though, he felt instead a gentle prodding kick to the sole of his shoe.

"Listen, I don't mean to keep bringing this up-"

G.o.do's eyes shot open. The light was gray, not ocher, the air wet and cold, not parched.

"-but if you need help, or I should get you to a doctor-"

G.o.do scrambled to his knees in a panic, combed the gra.s.s with his hands, searching out the spider device-two batteries, the curving wires, the unspent sh.e.l.l.

"-you gotta let me know, okay? Otherwise I'd just as soon-"