A Soldier Erect Part 21

That evening, after a gruelling slog up and down the jungle-covered hillsides, after crossing the Manipur Road, the Mendips moved over the IGH Spur and took up defensive positions alongside the Punjabis.

We were in Kohima!

What should have been an hour of triumph was a time of utter disgust.

One of the constant disappointments of the campaign was the way in which magical names turned out to be illusion. Later, there were Palel, Tamu, Sittaung, Tiddim, Kalewa, and Schwebo - syllables which proved themselves capable of rolling thrillingly right down a lifetime - and one by one these places, like Kohima, turned out to be little more than ruined bungalows, a few burnt-out bashas, a tin shack, and a temple. Our positions at Kohima were scarcely as much as that: just a few pimples of hills overlooked by enemy positions and the District Commissioner's bungalow in its pockmarked grounds!

A fortnight of siege, of attack and counter-attack, had turned Kohima into a minor Somrne. As 'A'

Company worked its way through the shattered trees, the slanting sunlight appeared to s.h.i.+ft and tremble.

The flies were there. This was their campaign! They feasted where human beings starved. And so many varieties of fly, little dun flies that no amount of gluttony could make fat, big flies that crawled everywhere like legged grapes, scintillating flies, flies that flicked their wings as they sipped, flies that would not go away, that returned twenty times to the very same spot on your face if you struck at it twenty times, perverted flies, drunk flies, dying flies, sportive flies. They made a patina over every single thing, and could dim the daylight when they rose in their swarms.

What they fed and bred on were the pieces of human being that rotted in the churned mud. The whole site was mud, gouged by sh.e.l.ls and trenches and running boots; bits of men, whole limbs, had been blasted all about the area. The dead bodies, fat and blackened in the heat, had at last been dragged away; but the bits that had fallen off, or had been blown off or shot off or chopped off, still lay about, and poisoned the air with their stomach-curdling sweet stench of carrion. Some of the chaps were spewing their rings up as we dug ourselves in. Fortunately, the j.a.p sniping intensified, which kept our minds off the butcher's compost all round.

There were all sorts of other s.h.i.+t lying around, as well as s.h.i.+t itself - boxes, boots, shattered rifles, fragments of parachute, keys, a typewriter, bottles, bandage, kit-bags - you name it. Tertis found a little bra.s.s Buddha which he rubbed up on some flannelette and kept. A couple of days later, standing watching in a trench during a torrential downpour, I spotted a curious object in the mud just ahead of me.

It looked like part of an ivory bracelet. I reached forward and tried to pick it up. It was a crescent of teeth, sticking out of a bit of lower jaw.

I nearly went spare. Somehow, it was just too much. My mind flipped, and I was falling through the cracks of existence into a world where tiny yellow dentists swarmed underground like worms, extracting people's jawbones through their gaping mouths. I was with them, another gaping mouth. Years later, that ghastly moment returned to me in nightmares over and over again.

At the time, I did not recognize Chota Morris and the other blokes who piled on to me to stop me screaming and running wildly about. I didn't recognize anything but panic. Mercifully, Chota Morris clipped me on the jaw and almost laid me out When I came round properly, I was sitting propped against a tree, with several anxious faces staring down at me, Chota's included. 'Thik-hai, Stubby?'

'Achibar, mucker. Roll on the boat that takes me home!'

'You had us f.u.c.king worried there for a moment, mate! We thought you'd gone proper puggle.

Geordie's off to get you a mug of char.'

It was h.e.l.l on that b.a.s.t.a.r.ding hill. The garrison had been relieved, the position, so vital to the road from Dimapur to Imphal - where 4 Corps were still fighting on - was held. But all round it lay dozens of natural fortresses where Sato and his fiendish soldiery could hold out for years. Thank G.o.d we did not know then that we Were to be stuck in that frightful place for all of five weeks. The siege of Kohima was off; the battle for Kohima was still on.

The j.a.ps never gave an inch. Although they were no longer the superhuman devils of the jungle they had been to the bods in the Arakhan, their courage and tenacity had something supernatural about it. They did not know when they were beaten. They launched bayonet charge after bayonet charge, running to certain death. They shouted and shrieked at us after dark. They never took prisoners, they never surrendered. We longed to blow their faces off their skulls, and at the same time we were proud that they were ten times more terrible than anything the Wehrmacht had to offer.

Their snipers.and mortar-men kept our heads down all the time. When you moved anywhere, you moved at the double, in fear for your life. Nights were h.e.l.l - night or day, for all those five weeks, none of us ever notched up more than four consecutive hours of sleep. Of course you aid learn to sleep whenever there was a spare minute. Not that it felt much like sleep; it was full of things moving, and you woke feeling as if whiskers were growing on the inside of your skull.

And what were we battling for? Most of the time, we were battling for possession of the DC's tennis court. Or were we battling for Burma - a country that no one in their right minds had heard of before or since!?

Perhaps you could now construct a symbol out of that tennis court and make it stand as a monument to the futility of the Forties/Where the tea-planters of a.s.sam, in the mellow Thirties afternoons, had lobbed tennis b.a.l.l.s over the net, we now lobbed grenades. But, at the time it was deadly imperative for us to take that innocuous patch of ground, to blast out of existence the bunkers that lay on the other side of it, and thus to open up the road below the beak of Swin-ton's imagined duck and clear the way south to Imphal and victory.

Somehow we lived through it all, somehow we survived on a pint of water a day and an occasional tot of rum and meagre rations, somehow we kept back fear, somehow we survived the slow loss of our muckers. Carter the Farter came back from Field Ambulance with his arm bandaged, looking all fresh and smart, kidding us about our beards and how we smelt, and that very day fell beside me with his head askew and the life-blood pouring out of his throat.

April pa.s.sed, May came. More of our lads got killed -steady old Di Jones, who had already had a wound on Merema, never to see his Welsh valley again, and his mucker, Taffy Evans, and too many other good men who stood at their posts to the last. Still we were stuck there.

One bit of the perimeter would give. We would get it back. Then another would go. The tanks came up, but could not decide the issue. Desperate fighting went on in Naga Village. Our gunners back at Zubza and Jotsoma kept plastering the heights from which the j.a.ps plastered us. The fighter-bombers came blasting up the valley day after day. Still nothing changed. The grape-vine said that the j.a.ps were all starving at their posts and dying of every imaginable disease, especially the yaws, scurvy, starvation and syphilis. We had killed thousands of the b.a.s.t.a.r.ds. But their bunkers still spewed out flying steel as unremittingly as ever.

Our days up on Merema Ridge now seemed a bygone dream, a boy scout's lark. You didn't dare think how many engagements like this there would be before the Nips were pushed back into Burma, let alone out of Burma and into the oceans beyond. n.o.body thought of the future, or remembered the past.

The bags of mail from home arrived regularly. All the family wrote to me in turn, sending me as lavish a ration of news and love as possible. But the world had turned inside out. Their words came from a place we could not reach to a setting they could not visualize. Amid our dirty-a.r.s.ed stand-tos, home and its people faded to myths; the j.a.ps were a h.e.l.l of a f.u.c.king sight more real.

In May, with the rains settling in heavily, things began to give a bit. By the I3th, though the tennis court still held, some of the obstacles to the south fell into our hands. For the first time, we were treated to the sight of j.a.ps running away. We cheered then, jumped out of our trenches against orders, and fired at the b.a.s.t.a.r.ds as they went. Their figures flopped like puppets among the dismasted palms.

The rumours were proving true. The j.a.ps were becoming demoralized, were starving, although they were never to run out of their own savage version of courage. Sato could not hold out for ever. On 1st June, his men began to pull away from their beautifully-placed positions. Before that, we had had to undergo another spasm of fighting.

The tennis court was left to the Dorsets, and welcome they were to it. On 24th May, our battalion moved south of the Kohima defences, and was set to climb Aradura Spur as a final test of stamina. This we did through thickest jungle, in p.i.s.sing rain. a.s.sam gets about twenty times as much rain as Britain, collecting most of it in three months. Most of it hit us. I was s.h.i.+tting six different kinds of dysentery at the time, and everyone else was practically puggle with weariness, illness, or jungle sores.

'A' Company was Tac. We were labouring upwards through the dripping undergrowth, while the path we followed was turning into a considerable stream. All the flies and ants of Aradura were clinging to us for safety, when some wag up the front Called put a variant of our old catch-phrase: 'While you're climbing up Aradura Spur you're doing nothing worse.'

Forty officers and men started p.i.s.sing themselves with laughter. Progress stopped as we lay there in the gudge, helpless with mirth.

We knew there was fighting to be done when we got to the top - but, Christ, the getting there! We were going up that spur for ever! As Dusty Miller said, the jungle was so thick you couldn't tell your a.r.s.e from your elbow. You couldn't see ahead or behind or sideways. Ma.s.sive trees reared overhead. The radio was not operating, so we were cut off from the Royal Berks, who were supposed to be somewhere on our flank. Our whole battalion was advancing in single file, against all the rules of warfare.

The sodding soggy hillside was pitted with ravines. We went down into one, then had to climb again. We never appeared to advance. Birds ran through the undergrowth like rats. Of course we were lugging our ammo, machine-guns, mortars, and the whole subcheeze with us. That day cured me of mountaineering for good.

Towards evening, the rain laid off, the sun appeared, the clouds scudded away to the Bramaputra to draw up fresh loads for the next day. This was not the true monsoon, merely what the Wogs called the chota barsat, or 'little rains'. Everyone realized that the j.a.ps had to be cleared out before the monsoons finally broke.

Steaming slightly, we dug ourselves into a defensive box for the night. Anything was a relief from climbing. We brewed up char on our Tommy cookers and ate bully beef and biscuits from our personal rations. Then we got our heads down, and again came that peculiarly stunned sleep, where the body lay in something approaching rigor mortis and the mind stumbled along just below consciousness, always alert for danger, imagining horrors and terrible things coming up out of the mud. I never dreamed of home r s.e.x. There was not even that escape from the present.

s.e.x was in abeyance. During the night, I was hauled out for my spell on guard. My guts were twisting and writhing with the dysentery and I wondered if perhaps a w.a.n.k might cheer things up. I felt my p.r.i.c.k in the dark. It and my b.a.l.l.s had shrunk to almost nothing. My b.a.l.l.b.a.g was a little hard wrinkled thing, pathetically trying to turn itself into amour-plating against mortar-fire. I cudgelled my brain for fantasies, for pictures of brothels stuffed with gleaming fannies, but everything had been scoured dry. There was no thing left of me but the soldier.

Next day, the trail went winding ever upwards, the b.l.o.o.d.y jungle kept growing. I got a Strength Two chirp out of the Royal Welsh, who were also climbing the s.h.i.+theap to the top; they were uncertain of their whereabouts.

Major In-skipp came and spoke to us, cheering us and saying that it was not far to the top of the Spur, and that the Pathans were bringing Lifebuoy flame-throwers up to help us burn the j.a.ps out of their bunkers. Inskipp was as filthy as the rest of us. We looked every inch a forgotten army.

This was another back-breaking day. The sodding rain came down again and never stopped. You just wanted to lie down and die. Afterwards - even long afterwards - you couldn't tell anyone what it was like.

'Where were you in die war?'

'I was in Burma.' Adding to yourself. Tuck my b.l.o.o.d.y luck!'

About noon, the khud-side was at its steepest. n.o.body could move forward; it was just impossible. We were s.h.a.gged out. We had to stop. Stopping was a matter of getting your crutch round the base of a tree, so that you didn't fall back on to the next bloke. All the time, there was the dread that j.a.ps would materialize out of the foliage to one side or other, and shoot us all up. Heads down to protect our f.a.gs from the rain, we sucked at de Reskes and stayed within the defensive perimeters of our own skulls, saying nothing. There was f.u.c.k all left to say.

Firing broke out somewhere above us - how far, it was impossible to tell, and if you looked you could see nothing, just the water falling at you in great shards from the leaves above. The firing was nothing to do with us.

We'd have been there still if a scout had not come slithering back down the trail to tell us that they had at last found the top of the ridge. The firing was coming from somewhere up there. Presumably we were so late that the other units had gone in without us.

'Come on the Mendips! Let's get up this b.l.o.o.d.y hill!' Inskipp shouted. He pressed ahead himself and we followed.

The rain redoubled its efforts too. The crest remained miles ahead. The firing was lost in the drumming of water and the squelch of boots.

The jungle thinned. A miniature cliff loomed, water pouring off it in yellow streams. Orchids grew among the trees like weeds. Our forward patrol had fixed a rope to a tree, and we pulled ourselves up by it, fanning out as we got to the top, running, falling into position with weapons at the ready.

More wilderness confronted us. You could not tell where we were. Still nothing could be seen more than seventy yards ahead, although the jungle had thinned. The j.a.ps might be lying in wait, about to open up on us with all they'd got. A plane roared overhead. How we envied the b.a.s.t.a.r.d snug up there in his cabin, heading for a cosy mess, way back at Jorhat or Dimapur. Remember Dimapur? Dimapur had charpoys and showers and beautiful canteens.

No one opened fire on us. We advanced again, in line now, Inskipp leading. The jungle closed in. We were forced back into single file. The track No. 2 platoon was following started winding away to the left, separating us from the others, and we had to retrace our steps, f.u.c.king and blinding as we went. The other platoons had their own troubles. We had to reform, rest, go ahead, again in single line. After two hours and four rests, we found the ground beginning to rise again. We still weren't at the top of Aradura!

The wireless was yielding nothing, however much I fiddled with the b.l.o.o.d.y thing during rest periods. I could cheerfully have thrown it over the khud-side. I knew the blokes were willing me to get in touch with someone, one of our other companies, Brigade, anyone. Gore-Blakeley sat by me in the slit-trench staring grimly into the jungle. Occasionally, he would say, without turning his head, 'Keep trying!' But we could not raise anyone. We were just plain f.u.c.king lost on Aradura.

We kept moving during the afternoon. The rain kept coming down, firing was maintained sporadically in the distance. Night fell, and the next day we moved on again, at once stiff and limp. Rations were getting low. We were running out of f.a.gs and water. We had the feeling that everyone had forgotten about us.

Ominously, the firing had ceased, except for an odd round now and again.

The weather improved towards mid-morning. The jungle still dripped even when the rain stopped. We halted in a sort of clearing for a bite of tiffin. A new awfulness crawled inside my blouse. I pulled the blouse off, and a stubby centipede in twelve grey segments fell to the mud. I plonked my boot down and ground it into mush. My chest was covered with dull red blisters.

'That's all you needed, mate - the f.u.c.king pox!' Ernie said;.

I let my blouse dry off on a bush while we had another shot at raising someone. This time, we managed to pick up a section of the Welch Fusiliers, Strength Three. Gore-Blakeley got a report through, gave them our position as far as it could be established, and asked for the message to be relayed back to Battalion. The Welch had nothing good to report: they had reached the top of the Spur, only to encounter the j.a.ps in strength. They had gone in more than once, but against well sited bunkers it was hopeless, and they had suffered heavy casualties. Yes, there was artillery support, but nothing had any b.l.o.o.d.y effect against those fornicating j.a.p bunkers.

The mere fact of being in touch with the outside world was something. We heaved ourselves to our feet and moved on once more.

It was on the next day that we finally reached the highest ground. We were no more than half-a-mile off course. Our forward patrol made contact with the j.a.ps, who cut loose with withering MG fire. Even that had the effect of raising our spirits - better to fight the b.a.s.t.a.r.ding j.a.ps than the jungle. Against the jungle you could never win.

But could you win against the j.a.ps? We had our doubts. You could not see the sods, so well were they dug in, and so torrential the rain.

We had climbed three-thousand feet of muddy mountain. Now we were f.u.c.king well expected to fight.

Being above the great hillside, we found R/T reception was better. The link opened up properly and we learned that the rest of the battalion was close at hand. Within minutes, we had contacted them. What a b.l.o.o.d.y relief! All parties had suffered the same total aggs we had, and 'C' Company had taken a h.e.l.l of a mauling from a platoon of j.a.ps, encountered on a ridge. Good news was that rations were coming up to us.

But the rain came down worse than ever. You couldn't do a thing. You could hardly breathe. The air was water. Every man had p.r.i.c.kly heat, which the rain stung and soothed by turns. I could feel my toes rotting off in my boots. It was so impossible that the attack was postponed for the day.

Inskipp came along to break the news to us. 'I'm sorry to tell you all that the ENSA show due to be held up here tonight has also had to be postponed.' That got a laugh.

Dusty Miller called out 'While you're watching ENSA you're doing nothing worse.'

We made the best of things, digging in, making drainage trenches, spreading our monsoon capes over the foxholes.

Early next morning, we went in.

Our objective was Peter, a pimple on Cuckoo Spur, which was an outcrop of Aradura and commanded the road. While the artillery from the valley was pounding Peter, we had soup and rum. Somehow we found the strength to fight.

It was b.l.o.o.d.y murder. I had shed the set, and went in firing the sten from the hip, shouting like f.u.c.k, with Feather on one side, bayonet fixed, yelling too, and Ernie the other side, heaving grenades to make the b.a.s.t.a.r.ds keep their heads down. But they just plastered us with fire, safe in their bunkers. We were charging uphill, perfect targets.

Dave Feather went down almost immediately. Dutt and I just charged on, but it was madness, screams coming everywhere. We were within a few yards of the bunkers when Ernie staggered over. I could see the bunker-slits, see the tongues of fire, coming right at me. I fell by Ernie.

He had been wounded in the leg, through the thigh, and was sobbing incoherently. I grabbed up his grenades and started to throw them hard as I could at the firing-slits in the bunker ahead. There was cross-fire from another bunker. Our charge withered away. It felt as if all the j.a.ps in creation were firing at us. At me.

They hit poor old Ernie again as he lay. I felt the bullets rip into him. He never made another sound. He had always been a quiet man.

I was just possessed. Nothing meant anything. Ernie's tody gave me some shelter. I went on flinging grenades. By luck, 1 got one through a firing-slit. I was near enough to hear their shouts. There was an explosion, screams. Then their f.u.c.king Tais.h.i.+o opened up again. Perhaps one of the little sods had deliberately fallen on the grenade and saved his buddies' lives.

So much for our attack! f.u.c.k Aradura, f.u.c.k its very name, and f.u.c.k every scab-devouring sod who suggested we should climb the c.u.n.ting thing! I stayed where I was, scooping a shallow trench for myself behind Ernie's body. What had happened to the rest, I hardly knew. After a bit, I heard Gor-Blimey's whistle, then his voice calling, 'Stay put and you'll be okay! Keep your heads down!'

He must have been f.u.c.king puggle to believe I was capable of lifting my head one b.a.s.t.a.r.ding inch! I was not the only one stuck in no-man's land, and a second attack would be coming soon. I stayed where I was, as ordered, clinging to the gudge. The firing had died, except for regular bursts from either side intended to keep heads down. This is what reports call 'a lull in the fighting'.

'B' Company, operating along a mula to one side of us, had been having mixed fortune. They found themselves facing new trenches, in which the j.a.ps had set up one of our captured twenty-five pounders.

'B' Company charged and managed to overcome this position, gaining possession of the gun. A j.a.p counter-attack had been fended off, and one section dragged the gun away while the rest fought off another counter-attack. Heavy mortar-fire was brought to bear by the j.a.ps, and many of our men were wiped out, including Captain Morgan, but the rest had been able to manoeuvre the gun and some sh.e.l.ls round to our section of the line. Under Inskipp's command, they manhandled the gun into place. It now began blasting away at those sodding j.a.p bunkers at almost point blank range.

Before it registered, sh.e.l.ls appeared to be falling all round me. I retreated under Ernie Dutt's body in terror. At that moment, I almost did my nut, like the time I found the teeth in the s.h.i.+t at Kohima, but a tremendous explosion jerked me back to what then pa.s.sed for my senses. The same bunker into which I had thrown the grenade was going up in flames. The j.a.ps must have had a store of petrol in it. My bowels were emptying into my trousers. A little c.r.a.p more or less would make no difference.

Our brave old lads were getting set for another charge. The MGs were concentrating on one set of bunkers, the twenty-five-pounder on another. The range was maybe forty yards. Surely to Christ, the f.u.c.king j.a.ps couldn't stand too much of that!

But directly we were up and running, that impossible deadly stream of fire came at us again. We ran on.

You had to run on. There was f.u.c.k all for it but to run on. Fire and f.u.c.king run on!

I wasn't aware of myself getting up and plunging forward. It just happened, I saw - it all registered afterwards - Jackie Tertis's baby face contorted in a yell of fury and, beyond him, Geordie Wilkinson, mouth shut, charging on. Even as I caught sight of Geordie, he was gone, spinning round, falling. It meant nothing. I charged on with the others.

A second bunker had been blasted open and was half-collapsed. Some genius got a Mills bomb into it, and suddenly it was erupting j.a.ps. They came pouring out of the earth itself, black and smoking. I heard myself yelling - f.u.c.k knows what, 'Kill!' probably!

They were big b.u.g.g.e.rs, not the little bow-legged guys of legend.

They were - s.h.a.g me, the cheeky c.u.n.ts were putting their f.u.c.king hands up, sticking their hands up, f.u.c.king surrendering, the b.a.s.t.a.r.ds! Surrendering! We shot them down as they appeared. As I made it to the bunker with Enoch close beside me, a j.a.p officer popped his head up, sword in hand. Maybe he was going to surrender it. He was quite spick and span, with a trim little moustache.

'Get the b.a.s.t.a.r.d!' Enoch yelled. We dived together.

The three of us went sprawling across the earth. The j.a.p half-rose, we grabbed him, and with our combined weights fell back into the ruined bunker. Partly smothered in mud, I saw he was fighting to draw his revolver. But Enoch had him by the throat and was choking the life out of him. I grabbed his wrist, wrenching his arm backwards until something cracked.

Gor-Blimey came up, panting like a dog.

'I'm knackered,' he said. Blood was streaming down his face from a cut on his temple. He swayed on his feet. After a moment, he recovered. With eyes half-shut he said, 'Secure this officer and see he does not escape. He must not be ill-treated. The other bunkers.. .'

He slipped down against the bank. We saw there was blood all over his tunic.

'Hang on to this b.a.s.t.a.r.d,' Enoch said.

As I sat on the j.a.p officer, Enoch ran down to Gor-Blimey and dragged him in to our position of relative safety. We could see then a ragged wound in Gor-Blime's chest. He opened his eyes, looked at us, and belched up blood. His hands fluttered and he lay still.

'Oh Christ!' I heard myself say. 'They've killed dear old Gor-Blimey!'

'Well, we'll settle this f.u.c.ker's f.u.c.king hash for him!' Enoch said. He jumped up and thrust his bayonet into the j.a.p officer, right up to the hilt, until it squelched.

The firing was still going on, the twenty-five pounder blasting away whenever it had a line-of-fire, although j.a.p mortars further back were now responding. All told, we took care of twenty more bunkers, main ones and auxiliaries. Some time during the melee, the long awaited Lifebuoys came up, and we burned the bunkers out. It was a ma.s.sacre. After a while, we began to take prisoners.

By the end of the long b.l.o.o.d.y afternoon, Peter was ours. We had a string of thirty prisoners, tied in a line, hands behind backs, with their own signal wire. The rumours had been true. The j.a.ps were in a far worse state than we were, filthy, starved, diseased. Many of them had a fever and looked at death's door; but as long as they had been able to stand, they had been able to lean to and fire out of their bunkers. Brave b.a.s.t.a.r.ds, brave to the last! - And f.u.c.king stupid too.

Jackie Tertis and I were rounding them up into some sort of s.h.i.+t-order. Tertis was staggering about almost as much as the j.a.ps, and looked almost as black and ragged.

'How're you doing, Jackie, mate?'

He grinned at me, and was no longer baby-faced. With a would-be playful gesture, he swung the rifle to point at my guts. 'I'm doing all f.u.c.king right. What did you expect? I can look after my f.u.c.king self. And I'll tell you something for nothing - if one of these f.u.c.king slant-eyed p.r.i.c.ks here makes a wrong move, I'll shoot the c.u.n.t in two!'

Our pathetic prisoners stood before us with drooping shoulders, plainly expecting to be blown to h.e.l.l at any moment. None of them made a move.