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"We haven't seen you in so long," she said. "We missed you."

"I haven't been feeling well," said Edie.

Was that true? Robin didn't even know if Edie felt worse one day to the next.

"Oh no," said the girl, young, slim, punkish, with a purple streak in the front of her hair, and thick black, high-laced boots over the bottoms of her tight black jeans. "We can't have you getting sick. I'll get you some tea. You sit down, and I'll get you some right away."

Robin stood there lamely, watching the two women engaging so brightly with each other, her mother with this stranger.



Edie finally introduced Robin to the woman-Anna was her name-who broke into a broad smile and then shook Robin's hand with gusto, her slender palm disappearing into Robin's hand. "The schoolteacher! What an honor to have you here. Your mother talks about you all the time. We love your mother. Just love her. She's our hero."

Robin was stunned, and a little stung, too, that she had no idea what was going on at that moment. Why is my mother the hero of a Chinese restaurant?

Anna pointed to a table near the window. "Go on, sit, and I'll get you some tea and let Dad know you're here."

They sat together at the table, her mother s.h.i.+fting herself in uncomfortably. Fresh pink tea roses floating in a small gla.s.s jar on the table. Robin picked up the menu, but Edie told her to put it down. "Just let them take care of it," she said. "They'll bring whatever's good tonight."

Robin looked around, at the framed black-and-white photographs of faraway cities that hung on the walls, the raw wood tabletops; it felt like a place she would go to in the city, and definitely not like a restaurant next door to a place called the Billy Goat Tavern.

"It's kind of cool in here," said Robin.

"It's all Anna," said her mother. "If her father had his way, it would look like every other Chinese restaurant in town. But Anna thinks she can get the yuppies in here."

"Is it working?" said Robin.

"It's not not working," said her mother. "We'll see."

Not so long before, her mother had worked for the companies that opened these strip malls all over the suburbs. She knew the businesses well, had seen them come and go. Robin's father, too, with his one pharmacy left after having three through the eighties and nineties, had his opinions on what made a business work. Robin would put her money on her mother's opinion over her father's any day of the week.

"He needs to advertise more. Spend a little more time on the Internet," Edie said. "I've been helping them out. I did some paperwork for them. It was no big deal. I have too much time on my hands anyway."

Suddenly Robin felt relief: Her mother had a life outside her home, outside of sitting there at that kitchen table, stewing in her own flesh, in the layers of hate and frustration and anger and heartbreak that she had been building up for so long. If she came here regularly, and she was helping people, then maybe she could be saved after all. Edie had always lived to help people, volunteering with the elderly, the synagogue, feeding the homeless every Christmas without fail. All those female political candidates she canva.s.sed for. All those family members who needed pro bono work, and she did it without thinking, staying up late after Robin and her brother had gone to bed. G.o.d, where was that pa.s.sionate, connected, committed woman? Robin missed her so. Was she right here? Sitting right in front of her? Was she still there under all that weight? Robin allowed herself to plant that tiny seed of hope within herself; she watered it with green tea, the bright lights of the Chinese restaurant sunning it.

A Chinese man in a chef's jacket sidled out of the kitchen, long lines on his face, in his forehead, on his cheeks, arched eyebrows, a tender little mustache on his upper lip; wiping his hands on a towel he then tucked neatly under his arm.

"Edith," he said.

Sure, thought Robin. It's Edith on her driver's license and her birth certificate and her voter's registration card and then absolutely nowhere else in the world, so why not in this Chinese restaurant?

He stood before the table and then waited calmly until Edie invited him to join them, and then he slid in next to her, patted her hand just once, and crossed his on the table in front of him.

Robin wondered if her mother knew that this man was in love with her.

"You are the famous Robin," he said.

"Yes," she said. "I am extremely famous."

"I'm Kenneth Song," he said. He studied her briefly, his eyes focusing into recognition, and then he broke into a small smile. "You look just like your mother," he said.

It took a lot from Robin to keep her mouth shut right then, because she wanted to wrinkle her forehead and purse her lips and jerk her head back in disdain, the "Are you high?" look she'd been working on since she was in her teens, popular with no one but effective nonetheless. She wanted to say to him, How on earth do I look like a 350-pound woman?

But maybe he knew something she didn't. Their eyes were still the same, after all, dark, intense bullets-you can't hide the eyes-and their hair the same color and texture, black kinks down to their shoulders, and maybe they had the same smile. When they smiled.

Maybe he could see right through Edie, to what was underneath.

"Same eyes," said Robin faintly.

"I have to go," he said. "Big party coming in at seven."

"That's great!" said Edie.

He slid himself out of the booth, and, before he walked away, turned gracefully to Robin and said, "Your mother is a saint."

Edie Middlestein, patron saint of Chinese joints everywhere. Well, thought Robin, if my mother lives in this alternate universe in this strip mall, at least it's nice that they think she's so amazing.

"He's got quite a story," said Edie, and she nodded approvingly at the value of such a thing. A story!

Anna came out of the kitchen and squinted up at the ceiling. "Too bright," she said, and wandered off. A moment later the lights dimmed, the final piece of the atmosphere in place, and Robin felt herself ease slightly into her seat. The restaurant was adorable. She couldn't believe that her mother had never brought her here before. She imagined briefly her whole family-minus her father, of course-dining here together, Benny and his wife and the kids. This would make her weekly trip to the suburbs more than tolerable. If there were a place they could all call their own together, in this unfortunate new phase of their lives.

But then came the food. Platter after platter of sizzling, decadent, rich, sodium-sugar-drenched food. Steaming, plush pork buns, and bright green broccoli in thick lobster sauce, sticky brown noodles paired with sweet shrimp and glazed chicken, briny, chewy clams swimming in a subtle black-bean gravy. Cilantro-infused scallion pancakes. A dozen dumplings stuffed with a curiously, addictively spicy seafood, the origin of which Robin could not determine, but it seemed irrelevant anyway.

Robin tried one bite of everything, and that was it. The patron saint of former fat girls. It was delicious, Robin would not deny Mr. Song his gift. But there was just so much food, too much food, and all of it was terrible for her mother. Couldn't they see who her mother was? Didn't they know that every bite her mother took was bringing her one step closer to death?

Edie seemed to be ignoring the fact that her daughter was across the table from her, or at least she did an excellent job of pretending she was alone. She ate everything on every plate, each bite accompanied with a thick forkful of white rice. Edie came and she conquered, laying waste to every morsel. Robin wondered what her mother felt like when she was done. Was it triumph? Eleven seafood dumplings, six scallion pancakes, five pork buns, the pounds of noodles and shrimp and clams and broccoli and chicken. Not that anyone was counting. Was there any guilt? Or did she hope to simply pa.s.s out and forget what had just happened?

You're killing her, Robin wanted to say. But of course it was not their fault. Because her mother was killing herself.

Later, in the car, in the parking lot, outside the sports bar, where two women in their twenties leaned against a wall sharing one cigarette, outside the 7-Eleven, where a UPS man purchased a two-liter of Coca-Cola and two overcooked hot dogs drenched in cheese sauce, outside a cell-phone store, where a bored salesgirl working her way through community college slumped behind a counter texting a girl who had p.i.s.sed her off at a party the night before, outside a Chinese restaurant where the food was made with love by a man who was once an unstoppable chef, in love with his work, in love with his life, until he lost his wife to cancer and he became sad for a long time, until his daughter said, "Stop it," and now here he was, cooking again, outside of all this Edie and Robin sat, Edie staring out the window, Robin with her head against the steering wheel.

"Just drive," said Edie. "You're embarra.s.sing me in front of them."

"You can't do this anymore," said Robin. "You can't eat like this."

"You're the one who wanted to eat," she said, and she started to cry quietly and to herself.

"I don't want you to die," said Robin.

"I didn't know you cared," said Edie.

"Stop it," said Robin. "Don't pull that on me. Don't try to make me feel bad for being me."

They didn't say anything for a while, watching everything s.h.i.+ft in the strip mall, the two girls crus.h.i.+ng their smokes under their heels then sharing a stick of gum, the UPS driver exiting the lot, one hot dog already half eaten before he pulled out onto the road, the girl in the cell-phone store showing a text to a co-worker, cursing loudly, sending a customer scuttling out the front door. They watched a party of seven, a birthday party, walk into the restaurant. They were good tippers, even if you couldn't tell it by looking at them.

"I'm here now, aren't I?" said Robin, but neither one of them knew if it was already too late.

Male Pattern.

Benny Middlestein woke up one day and realized he was going bald, and he thought: "This is the end, beautiful friend." He'd always had a perfectly thick head of hair-he had even come out of the womb with his rosy pink head covered in dark fuzz-and there had been no indication that he would ever have had anything to worry about for the rest of his life, at least when it came to his hair. Other things, they were maybe more of a problem.

His daughter's newfound adolescent moodiness, those dark, twisted, frustrated glances she shot him whenever he opened his mouth, as if an Oh, my G.o.d, Dad were just hovering in the air between them, waiting to be splattered up against him, a condescending pie in the face. He remembered when his little sister had gone sour in her teens. Once the milk turned, there was no turning it back. Yes, his daughter was something to worry about.

There was also his wife's full-blown obsession with his mother's weight and her diabetes, it was all she talked about, first thing in the morning, staring straight up at the ceiling in bed. Not that it didn't need talking about, so he couldn't argue with her necessarily, only sometimes maybe, just for a day, he wished they could take a break.

But there she was, squirreled up next to him under the comforter, frowning, making all kinds of new lines in her forehead.

"I'm worried," she said.

"I know you're worried," he said. If you keep making that face, it'll stay that way, is what he wanted to say.

"Aren't you worried? Why aren't you worried more?"

"I'm worried plenty."

He put a pillow over his face and inhaled the fabric softener, chemical approximation of a mountain breeze.

At night, too, she was fixated on this life and death situation, after the kids went to bed, during what was supposed to be their quiet time together, out back, sharing a joint.

"Can't you just relax?" he said. He rubbed her shoulders, narrow, fragile, wrenched up with worry. "Take another hit."

"This stuff will kill you," she said.

"We've been smoking this for twenty years," he said.

"I've been meaning to talk to you about that," she said.

She was not wearing her mortality well, a real shame for such a pretty girl.

And there were e-mails during the day. Sometimes there were texts, and she hated texting, the squinting and the poking. But Rach.e.l.le had been following his mother around like some undercover cop, tracking her eating, and it was not enough that she contain this knowledge within herself.

She's at the Superdawg on Milwaukee. 3 hot dogs!!!

He had tried to tell his wife to stop following her, but even saying the words made him feel like he was falling from the sky, a loose and lurching sensation in his gut. He searched for the right thing to say, because it all just seemed so preposterous, that they were even having this conversation. You're freaking me out, was he allowed to say that? Please don't stalk my mother anymore.

"I know you're just trying to help," he said. "But I'm not sure how she would feel about it." This was over lunch, a small, sunny diner near the synagogue, where they had just dropped off the kids for their haftorah lesson with the cantor. They were both eating salads covered in raw vegetables; that was all they ever ate lately. Rach.e.l.le had ordered for them both without asking him what he wanted. Oil and vinegar on the side.

He salted and peppered his salad when she went to the bathroom.

"I think she has a right to privacy," he said, head bowed, one fleck of red, raw onion trapped on a back molar, stubbornly resisting his tongue's ministrations.

"That's like saying someone who is about to jump off the roof of a building should be allowed to enjoy the view first," she said. She pushed the salad away from her, half eaten, and gave it a disgusted glance. "I specifically told her no croutons," she said. "You heard me, right?"

"I heard you," he said, cowed, covering his mouth with his hand and reaching one finger quickly inside to free the onion from his tooth.

"Just give her a break," he said.

"You won't be telling me to give her a break when she's dead," said Rach.e.l.le, and he suddenly missed that fleck of onion, a simple problem he could solve with a small gesture.

He was worried about his mother, even if Rach.e.l.le didn't believe it. He was worried about his mother, two surgeries down, maybe another on the way, and he was worried about his daughter and his wife, who had both forgotten how to smile, and he was, on a smaller scale, worried about his father, who seemed adrift and sad now that he had left Benny's mother and was playing the field, the sixty-year-old suburbanite field, which he couldn't imagine was a particularly fun field, and, for the first time in his life, he was least worried about his sister, who, he was pretty sure, even as closed off as she was, as unrelentingly cranky, might actually have met someone and fallen in love.

But his hair! He'd always had his hair, his crown of glory: thick, jet-black, with jaunty waves that set it slightly on its end. He wore it a half inch longer than his conservative co-workers did, and he liked to believe that it gave him a youthful edge over them. In college, he'd worn it even longer and had busy sideburns as well, which gave him a grubby bad-boy look, as bad as a ZBT at the University of Illinois could be. His hair was one of the things that had drawn Rach.e.l.le to him; he wasn't as boisterous as his brothers, he didn't push for the easy joke, not because he was shy-he was plenty funny, he thought-but because he was usually extremely stoned. Still, in the corner by the stereo, at an off-campus party thrown by one of the brothers, a purple-green-swirled gla.s.s bong someone had brought back from his summer travels in Amsterdam seated before him, strong, silent, fit, slightly pie-eyed, with a tight T-s.h.i.+rt, tight Levi's, and I-don't-give-a-s.h.i.+t flip-flops, and with a head of hair so thick there was no way he didn't have a kick-a.s.s gene pool, Benny got the hottest girl in the room without lifting much more than that bong to his lips.

Forever he'd had that hair. That was the one thing he should not have had to worry about, and yet there it was, sliding off his head every morning in the shower like sunburned skin after a weekend at the beach. There was now a significant bald spot on the back of his head, and the hair at his temples had started to recede. He could only wonder what would happen next: Would his body shrink, too, into the shape of a frail old man, and would his wife eventually reject him? Was he dying? Or was he merely getting old?

Even as the answers sat right before him, that perhaps all this worry about his wife, his mother, his daughter, and on and on, had manifested itself so obviously in a physical way, he refused to believe that it was as simple (although, of course, it was not simple at all) as that, and so he went to see Dr. Harris, a good guy, a straight shooter, and also the owner of a nice head of hair himself, his graying and cut short but still thick and attractive.

"It could be a number of things," said Dr. Harris. "Genetics, that's first on the list."

"It's not genetic," said Benny, his legs swinging slightly from the exam table, 8:00 A.M. on a Monday, an urgent appointment after a weekend of hair loss. "Not on my mother's side, not on my father's side. No one's bald."

"Stress is another possibility," the doctor said gently to Benny. They belonged to the same synagogue, and their wives were in a book club together, and he had heard all about Rach.e.l.le lately, how she had insisted the last time they had all met (they were discussing The Help) that pastries no longer be served at their meetings. No pastries, no cheese, no crackers. Just crudites, and don't even try to sneak ranch dip in there, she wouldn't hear of it; ranch dip was all sugar. There was nothing wrong with making a dietary request, but it was the way that she said it. She was violent in her articulation-"I swear to G.o.d, she almost sounded British," said his wife-and she was righteous. No wine either. Empty calories. As a doctor, Roger Harris technically had to agree with Rach.e.l.le, but as a human being he wondered if she had gone off the deep end. ("What's the point of having a book club if you don't get to eat brownies and drink wine?" said his wife. "Otherwise I'll just stay home.") Benny stared at his doctor, the wise man, the trusted source of knowledge. He wanted to be able to talk to him about his problem; he wanted to be able to talk to anyone. He used to be able to talk to his wife about everything. They had been on the same team since they were seniors in college. There was an accidental pregnancy, and there was no question they'd be getting married, keeping those babies, the twins, twice as much to love. They were in this life together. And now she was the problem, one of them anyway. He couldn't bring himself to admit out loud to this relative stranger sitting before him that the best part of his life had suddenly become the worst. Still, he was no liar.

"Who doesn't have stress?" said Benny. "I think there's something wrong with you if you don't have it. But this much?" He pointed to his head with both index fingers.

"I can do some tests," said the doctor. He rattled off a list, but Benny wasn't listening, he was thinking of his mother's health. Her diabetes was taking her down fast, and he felt so helpless; he didn't think a raw-vegetable diet was going to make a difference. Benny jerked back just as the doctor handed him a prescription for Propecia.

"In the short term, if you can, take a couple of vacation days. Get a ma.s.sage. You might consider finding someone to talk to about whatever it is you're going through. There are some great therapists here in the building, and I'm pretty sure they're on your insurance plan." He leaned forward and tapped Benny on the knee with his clipboard. "Hey, there's no shame in getting a little help."

Benny looked down at the clipboard, not at the doctor. Clearly he didn't know where he came from, how his family operated. Therapy was for people who had an interest in communication. This was not the Middlestein family, at least not anymore.

"So set up an appointment with Marnie at the front desk for those tests, and we'll look at next steps from there," Dr. Harris said. They shook hands, like men, firmly, seriously, with intent.

Benny did not set up an appointment with Marnie at the front desk. He did head to his father's pharmacy, though, prescription in hand. He would be late for work, but he did not care. All this craziness had started because his father had left his mother after she got sick, and if he were still there to take care of her and nurse her back to health, none of this would be happening.

He drove quickly, occasionally catching a glimpse of his head in the rearview mirror. He was unable to resist adjusting the mirror at a stoplight, angling it at his head; was it so thin he could see the sunlight through it now?

There was nothing wrong with him, except for his family.

In the corner of the mini-mall, across from the Polish-owned hair and nail salon, sat his father's last pharmacy, the final, fading jewel in his empire. Once there were three. Now there was just one, with cracked linoleum and an outdated greeting-card section. Walgreens was cheaper and had a far superior skin-care section.

But his father's clientele persisted. He had been the first Jewish pharmacist to set up shop in the area, and he had collected his customers from all the other lonely Jews who had moved northwest of the city and the lake in the 1970s, looking for an affordable new home and an easy commute, not thinking far ahead enough as to how they would build a community for themselves. Well, you start small, as it turns out. Richard and nine other men-how had he managed to pull a minyan together?-regularly meeting in the back room of the pharmacy. Praying, and then plotting for a future: regular services, first at the local high-school auditorium, so many Jews crawling out of the woodwork to attend, happy to find a place where they didn't have to explain why they put all their bread away once a year, or why there wasn't a Christmas tree in their front window, or why they drove so far just to get some decent whitefish salad. Why the phrase "Jew down" wasn't acceptable, under any circ.u.mstances. There was a cantor fresh from school, a rabbi who had left another synagogue in Ohio under veiled but ultimately innocuous circ.u.mstances and wanted to start over, investors, believers, narcissists-they all threw in, did whatever it took to build something out of nothing, a place to wors.h.i.+p from an empty plot of unincorporated land surrounded by oak trees stretching far back to a tiny stream where deer gathered sometimes in the summer. A beautiful place to be yourself.

The synagogue members all supported Middlestein Drugs for years, enabling Richard to open one more and then another across the northwest suburbs. The eighties were a good time for everyone. But then the family business began to slowly crumble, like a sick tree limb infested with a mysterious fungus. There were a few causes: More conservative members of the synagogue branched off to create their own competing temple a few towns over. People moved out of the area, or died. And a younger members.h.i.+p emerged at the synagogue he helped found, and they knew nothing of Richard's past, and had no loyalties to him. All they knew was that he owned and operated these dusty pharmacies he never bothered to modernize or renovate. He had made a mistake, it seemed. He thought that being a contributing member of his community, being a Good Jew, would be enough to make his business thrive. But this was no small town; this was a suburb. An American suburb, no less. Keep up with the Walgreens and the Targets and the Kmarts and the Walmarts, or get out, Mr. Middlestein. Get out.

Benny pushed through the front door, an ancient bell jingling above his head, and barreled past the aisles, the snack aisle, the makeup and skin-care aisle, feminine hygiene, dental care, shampoo, vitamins, over-the-counter medications, breast pumps and crutches, enemas, an aisle and a half of them, why were there so many enemas? The place needed a good dusting. One of his father's delivery boys, a mentally challenged man named Scotty who had worked there since Benny was in college, was intensely mopping the same few squares of linoleum. He wasn't allowed to drive a car, but he had a bright blue bike with a basket, which he would ride with deliveries to the homes of all the elderly shut-ins nearly year-round, even in the cold. The only thing that would stop him was the snow, and then he would simply trudge miles each way. "It gives me something to do," Scotty had told Benny once. "Otherwise I'd just be getting into trouble." Was this his father being a positive part of the community by hiring someone who might have otherwise had trouble finding a job, or a cheap b.a.s.t.a.r.d? Benny could never decide.

His father, his thick gray hair almost entirely intact, was seated at a stool behind the counter, hunched over, a st.u.r.dy tree bent with the wind, poking at his cell phone with a pen. He looked up as Benny approached, and a smile rolled across his face. Benny! And then, squinting, he noticed his son's hair, and then his forehead folded in on itself, and his smile withered slightly.

"This is a surprise," he said. He reached his hand out across the counter to his son, and Benny grasped it faintly, which was not how he had been taught to shake hands at all. Richard was still staring at Benny's head. They hadn't seen each other in a month. One month was all it took for a man to lose half his hair. Richard reflexively reached for his own hair, as if to confirm it was still all there, and Benny winced.

"Are you sick?" said Richard. "What's going on here?"

Benny, suddenly trembling, handed Richard the prescription.

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