Seasons Of War Part 50

Something's wrong. We have to stop her; he said to Eiah, but though he could feel the words vibrate in his throat, he couldn't hear them. Vanjit's circling voice had made a kind of silence that Maati was powerless to break. Another layer of echoes came, the words seeming to come before Vanjit spoke them, echoing from the other direction in time. Beside him, Eiah's face had gone white.

Vanjit's voice spoke a single word - the last of the binding - at the same time as all the layered echoes, a dozen voices speaking as one. The world itself chimed, pandemonium resolving into a single harmonious chord. The room was only a room again. When Maati stood, he could hear the hem of his robe whispering against the stone. Vanjit sat where she had been, her head bowed. No new form stood before her. It should have been there.

She's failed, Maati thought. It hasn't worked, and she's paid the price of it.

The others were on their feet, but he took a pose that commanded them to remain where they were. This was his. However bad it was, it was his. His belly twisted as he walked toward her corpse. He had seen the price a failed binding exacted: always different, always fatal. And yet Vanjit's ribs rose and fell, still breathing.

'Vanjit-kya?' he said, his voice no more than a murmur.

The girl s.h.i.+fted, turned her head, and looked up at him. Her eyes were bright with joy. In her lap, something squirmed. Maati saw the round, soft flesh, the tubby, half-formed hands and feet, a toothless mouth, and black eyes full of empty rage. Except for the eyes, it could have been a human baby.

'He's come,' Vanjit said. 'Look, Maati-kvo. We've done it. He's here.'

As if freed from silence by the poet's words, Clarity-of-Sight opened its tiny throat and wailed.

11.

Kiyan-kya- I look at how long I carried the world, or thought I did, and I wonder how many times we have to learn the same lessons. Until we remember them, I suppose. It isn't that I've stopped worrying. The G.o.ds all know I crawl into my bed at night half-tempted to call for reports from Sinja and Danat and Ashua. Even if I had them dragged into my chambers to recount everything they'd seen and done, how would it change things? Would I need less sleep? Would I be able to remake the world through raw will like a poet? I'm only a man, however fancy the robes they put me in. I'm not more suited to lead a war fleet or root out a conspiracy or win a young girl's love than any of them.

Why is it so hard for me to believe that someone besides myself might be competent? Or did I fear that letting go of any one part would mean everything would fall away?

No, love. Idaan was right. I have been punis.h.i.+ng myself all this time for not saving the people I cared for most. I think some nights that I will never stop mourning you.

Otah's pen hung in the cool night air, the bra.s.s nib just above the paper. The night breeze smelled of the sea and the city, rich and heavy as an overripe grape whose skin has only just split. In Machi, they would already be moving down to the tunnels beneath the city. In Utani, where his central palace stood wrapped in cloth, awaiting his return, the leaves would have turned to red and yellow and gold. In Pathai, where Eiah worked with her latest pet physician and pointedly ignored all matters of politics and power, there might be frost in the mornings.

Here in Saraykeht, the change of seasons was only a difference of scent and the surprise that the sun, which had so plagued them at summer's height, could grow tired so early. He wrote a few more sentences, the pen sounding like bird's feet against the paper, and then blew on the ink to cure it, folded the letter, and put it in with all the others he had written to her.

His eyes ached. His back ached. The joints of his hands were stiff, and his spine felt carved from wood. For days, he had been poring over records and agendas, letters and accountancy reports, searching for some connection that would uncover Maati's suspected patron. There were patterns to be looked for - people who had traveled extensively in the past few years who might be moving with the poet, supplies that had vanished with no clear destination, opposition to the planned alliance with Galt. And, with that, Maati's boast of an ear in the palaces. And the G.o.ds all knew there were patterns to be found. The courts of the Khaiem were thick with petty intrigue. Flus.h.i.+ng out any one particular scheme was like plucking a particular thread from a tapestry.

To make matters worse, the servants and high families that Idaan had chided him for not making better use of had no place here. Even if Maati didn't have the well-placed spy he'd claimed, Otah still couldn't afford the usual gossip. Maati had to be found and the situation resolved before he managed to bind some new andat, and no one - Galt, Westlander, no one - could hear of it for fear of the reaction it would bring.

That meant that the records and reports were brought to Otah's private chambers. Crate after crate until they piled near the ceiling. And the only eyes that he could trust to the task were his own and, through the twisted humor that G.o.ds seemed to enjoy, Idaan's.

She was stretched out on a long silk divan now, half a month's lading records from the harbor master's office arrayed about her. Her closed eyes s.h.i.+fted beneath their lids, but her breath was as steady as the tide. Otah found a thin wool blanket and draped it over her.

It had not particularly been his intention to embrace his exiled sister and make her a part of the hunt for Maati, but the work was more than he could manage on his own. The only other person who knew of the problem was Sinja, and he was busy with Balasar and the creation of the unlikely fleet whose mission was to save Chaburi-Tan. Idaan knew the workings of the poets as well as any woman alive; she had been the enemy of one, the lover of another. She knew a great deal about court intrigue and also the mechanics of living an un.o.btrusive life. There was no one better equipped for the investigation.

He did not trust her, but had resolved to behave as if he did. At least for the present. The future was as unpredictable as it had always been, and he'd given up hope of antic.i.p.ating its changes.

He knew from long experience that he wouldn't sleep if he went to bed now. His mind might be in a deep fog, but his body was punis.h.i.+ng him for sitting too long. As it would have punished him for working too hard. The range allowed to him was so much narrower than when he'd been young. A walk to loosen his joints, and he might be able to rest.

The armsmen at the door of his apartments took poses of obeisance as he stepped out. He only nodded and made his way south. He wore a simple robe of cotton. The cloth was of the first quality, but the cut was simple and the red and gray less than gaudy. Someone who didn't know him by sight might have mistaken him for a member of the utkhaiem, or even a particularly powerful servant. He made a game of walking with his head down, trying to pa.s.s as a functionary in his own house.

The halls of the palaces were immense and ornate. Many small items - statues, paintings, jeweled decoration - had vanished during the brief occupation by Galt, but the huge copper-sheathed columns and the high, clear gla.s.s of the unshuttered windows spoke of greater days. The wood floors shone with lacquer even where they were sc.r.a.ped and pitted.

Incense burned in un.o.btrusive bra.s.s bowls, filling the air with the scent of sandalwood and desert sage. Even this late at night, singing slaves carried their harmonies in empty chambers. Crickets, Otah thought, would have been as beautiful.

His back had begun to relax and his feet to complain when the illusion of traveling the palaces unnoticed was broken. A servant in a gold robe appeared at the far end of the hall, walking purposefully toward him. Otah stopped. The man took a pose of obeisance and apology as he drew near.

'Most High, I am sorry to interrupt. Ana Dasin has come to request an audience. I would have turned her away, but under the circ.u.mstances . . .' 'You did well,' he said. 'Take her to the autumn garden.'

The servant took a pose that accepted the command, but then hesitated.

'Should I send for an outer robe, Most High?'

Otah looked down at the wrinkled fabric and wondered what Ana would see if he met her like this: a man of great power and consequence at the end of a long day's work, or an old slob in a cotton robe.

'Yes,' he said with a sigh. 'An outer robe would be welcome. And tea. Bring us fresh tea. She might not care for it, but I want some.'

The man scurried away. They had known where he was, and that he didn't wish to be disturbed. And they had known when to disturb him. To be the Emperor of the Khaiem was above all else to be known by people he did not know. He had discovered that truth a thousand times before, and likely would do so a thousand times again, and each one discomforted him.

The autumn garden was nestled within the palaces. Trees and vines hid the stone walls, and paper lanterns gave the flagstone path a soft light. Near the center, a small bra.s.s fountain, long given to verdigris, chuckled to itself and a small wooden pavilion rested in the darkness. Otah walked down the path, still tugging the black and silver outer robe into place. Ana Dasin sat in the pavilion, her gaze on the water sluicing over bronze. The tea, set on a lacquered tray, had preceded him as if the servants had antic.i.p.ated that he would ask for it as well and had had it ready.

Otah gathered himself. He was almost certain that Danat had already had his second meeting with the girl. Hanchat Dor, Danat's rival, was set to be freed in the morning. Otah found himself curious to see who Ana Dasin was in these circ.u.mstances.

'Ana,' he said in her language. 'I had not expected your company.'

The girl stood. The soft light made her face rounder than it was, her eyes darker. She was wearing a dress of Galtic cut with pearls embroidered down the sleeves. Her hair, which had been pulled back into a severe formality, was escaping. Locks hung at the side of her face like silken banners draped from towers' windows.

'Emperor Machi. I have to thank you for seeing me so late,' she said. Her voice was hard, but not accusatory. Otah caught the faint scent of distilled wine. The girl was fortified with drink, but not yet dulled by it.

'I am an old man,' Otah said as he poured pale tea into two porcelain bowls. 'I need less sleep than I once did. Here, take one.'

His little act of kindness seemed to make her stiffer and less pleased, but she accepted the bowl. Otah sat, blowing across the tea's steaming surface.

'I've come . . .'

He waited.

'I've come to apologize,' she said. She spoke the words as if she were vomiting.

Otah sipped his tea. It was perfectly brewed, the leaves infusing the water with a taste like summer sun and cut gra.s.s. It made the moment even more pleasant, and he wondered if he was being unkind by taking pleasure in Ana's predicament.

'May I ask what precisely you wish to apologize for,' Otah said. 'I would hate to have any further misunderstandings between us.'

Ana sat, putting the bowl on the bench at her side. The porcelain clicked against the stone.

'I presented myself poorly,' she said. 'I . . . set out to humiliate you and Danat. That was uncalled for. I could have made my feelings known in private.'

'I see,' Otah said. 'And is that all?'

'I would like to thank you for the mercy you've shown to Hanchat.'

'It's Danat you should thank for that,' Otah said. 'I only respected his wishes.'

'Not every parent respects her child,' Ana said, then looked away, lips pressed thin. Her child, meaning Issandra. Ana was right. The mother was indeed scheming against her own daughter, and Otah had made himself a party to the plot. He would not have done it to his own child. He took another sip of his tea. It wasn't quite as pleasant as the first.

The fountain muttered to itself, the wind sighed. Here was the moment that chance had given him, and he wasn't sure how to use it. Ana, on whom all his plans rested, had come to him. There was something here, some word or phrase, some thought, that would narrow the distance between them. And in the s.p.a.ce of a few more breaths, she would have collected herself again and gone.

'I should apologize to you as well,' Otah said. 'I forget sometimes that my view on the world isn't the only one. Or even the only correct one. I doubt you would have been driven to humiliate me if I hadn't done the same to you.'

Her gaze s.h.i.+fted back to him. Whatever she had expected of him, it hadn't been this.

'I went to the wives of the councillors. There was very little time, and I thought they would have greater sway than the children. Perhaps they did. But I traded you as a trinket and didn't even think to ask you your thoughts and feelings. That should have been beneath me.'

'I'm a woman,' Ana said, her tone managing to be both dismissive and a challenge. I'm a woman, and we've always been traded, married off, s.h.i.+fted as the tokens of power and alliance. Otah smiled, surprised to find himself possessed by genuine sorrow.

'Yes,' he said. 'You are. And with my sister, my wife, my daughter . . . of all the men in the world, I should have known what that meant, and I forgot. I was in such a hurry to fix all the things I've done poorly that I did this poorly too.'

She was frowning at him again as she had once before, on the journey to Saraykeht. He might have begun speaking in the language of birds or belching stones, to judge by her expression. He chuckled.

'It was not my intention to treat you with disrespect, Ana-cha. That I did so shames me. I accept your apology, and I hope that you will accept mine.'

'I won't marry him,' she said.

Otah drank the rest of his tea and set the empty bowl mouth-down on the lacquer tray.

'My son, you mean,' Otah said. 'You'll stay with this other man. Hanchat? No matter what the price or who's called on to pay it, no man deserves even your consideration? If it destroys your country and mine both, it would still be just.'

'I . . . I don't . . .' the girl said. 'That isn't . . .'

'I know. I understand. I'll say this. Danat is a good man. Better than I was at his age. But what you choose is entirely yours,' Otah said. 'If we've established anything, you and I, it's that.'

'Not his?'

'Danat's decision is whether he'll marry you,' Otah said with a smile. 'Not the same thing at all.'

He meant to leave her there. It seemed the right moment, and there was nothing more he could think to say. As he bent forward, preparing to rise, Ana spoke again.

'Your wife was a wayhouse keeper. You didn't put her aside. You never took a second wife. It was an insult to the whole body of the utkhaiem.'

'It was,' Otah said and stood with a grunt. There had been a time he could sit or stand in silence. 'But I didn't marry her for the effect it had on other people. I did it because she was Kiyan, and there wasn't anyone else like her in the world.'

'How can you ask Danat to obey tradition when you've broken it?' she demanded.

Otah considered her. She seemed angry again, but it seemed as much on Danat's behalf as her own.

'By asking,' Otah said. 'It's the best I can manage. I've damaged the world badly. The reasons I had for doing it seemed good at the time. I would like to be part of putting it back together again. With his help. With yours.'

'I didn't break all this,' Ana said, her chin stubborn. 'Danat didn't either, for that matter. It's not fair that we should have to sacrifice whatever we want to unmake your mistakes.'

'It isn't. But I can't repair this.'

'Why do you think I can?'

'I have some faith in you both,' he said.

By the time he made his way back to his rooms, Idaan had departed, leaving only a brief note saying that she intended to return in the morning and had some questions for him. Otah sat on a low couch by the fire grate, his eyes focused on nothing. He wondered what Eiah would have made of his conversation with the Galtic girl, and of whom he was truly asking forgiveness. His mind wandered, and he did not realize he had lain back until he woke to the cool light of dawn.

He was sitting in his private bath, the hot water easing the knots that sleeping away from his bed had tied in his back, when the servant announced Sinja's arrival. Otah considered the effort that rising, drying himself, and being dressed would require and had the man brought to him. Sinja, dressed in the simple canvas and leather of a soldier, looked more like a mercenary captain than the nearest advisor to an emperor. He squatted at the edge of the bath, looking down at Otah. The servant poured tea for the newcomer, took a ritual pose appropriate to a withdrawal from which he would have to be specifically summoned to return, and left. The door slid closed behind him, the waxed wooden runners as silent as breath.

'What's happened?' Otah asked, dreading the answer.

'I was going to ask the same thing. You spoke to Ana Dasin last night?'

'I did,' Otah said.

Sinja sipped his tea before he spoke again.

'Well, I don't know what you said to her, but this morning, I had a runner from Farrer Dasin offering his s.h.i.+ps and his men for Balasar's fleet. The general's meeting with him now to arrange the details.'

Otah sat forward, the water swirling around him.

'Farrer-cha . . .'

Sinja put down the bowl of tea.

'The man himself. Not Issandra, not one of his servants. The handwriting was his own. There weren't details, only the offer. And since he's been reticent and dismissive every time Balasar asked, it seemed that something had changed. If it's what it looks like, it will mean putting off departure for a few days, but when we get there, it will be a real fighting force.'

'That's . . .' Otah began. 'I don't know how that happened.'

'I've been swimming through palace gossip ever since, trying to find what made the change, and the only thing half-plausible I've heard is that Ana Dasin met with Danat-cha, after which she went to a second-rate teahouse, drank more than was considered healthy, and came here. After talking with you, she went back to the old poet's house; the lanterns were all lit and they didn't stop burning until the sun rose.'

'We didn't talk about the fleet,' Otah said. 'The subject never came up.'

Sinja unstrung his sandals and slid his feet into the warm water of the bath.

'Why don't you tell me what was said,' Sinja asked. 'Because somehow, in the middle of it, you seem to have done something right.'

Otah recounted the meeting, rising from his bath and drying himself as he did. Sinja listened for the most part, interrupting only to laugh when Otah told of apologizing to the girl.

'That likely had as much to do with it as anything,' Sinja said. 'A high councillor's daughter with the Emperor of the Khaiem calling himself down for disrespecting her. G.o.ds, Otah-kya, with that low an opinion of your own dignity, I don't know how you managed to hold power all these years.'

Otah paused, his hands s.h.i.+fting to a pose of query.

'You apologized to a Galtic girl.'

'I'd treated her poorly,' Otah said.

Sinja raised his hands. It wasn't a formal pose, but it carried the sense of surrender. Whatever it was Sinja didn't understand about the act, he clearly despaired of ever learning.

'Tell me the rest,' Sinja said.